Crooked Posted June 15, 2011 Report Share Posted June 15, 2011 Totally understandable, especially since you just paid off all that debt! Comeback Challenge Link to comment
theanne Posted June 16, 2011 Author Report Share Posted June 16, 2011 Phew. Yesterday ended up being... well... First of all some background... I have 5 adopted sisters. My same-age sister Liz is one of them, and she's always been an at-risk type personality. Bi-polar, attempted suicides, but things have been better the last couple of years. She's become more happy and stable. She even has been getting up with me in the mornings to stretch several times a week. I got a text around 2pm from Liz's boyfriend saying that he was worried about her and could someone at the house please check on her. So, I texted my family at the house to check on her. A few minutes later he calls and tells me she's taken 15+ pills of her Xanax. I tell someone at the house and they come back with "And she left with the car." So I left work early to go home to see if I could help at all and on my way home I find out that Liz did answer the phone when my mom called so we had her location and medics were to be on their way. It also turned out she'd taken not only the crazy amount of Xanax but washed it down with 6-8 shots of tequila. Go ahead, look up the effects of overdosing Xanax and combining it with alcohol. By the time I got home I was happy to hear they'd finally picked her up and taken her to the hospital but still no idea on her state or whether she'd gotten treatment in time. So I headed over to the hospital and stayed with her there most of the rest of the evening... very surreal and a little creepy, she kept saying the same 4 things over and over and couldn't focus her eyes (for instance everyone looked like they had four eyes to her). They finally ran blood tests and urine tests and after 6+ hours of waiting the doctor finally told us she was medically cleared. Thank. God. So now I believe she's in a regular hospital for a while to be monitored and then they'll be moving her to a psychiatric ward until she's back stable on the right meds for her. We believe the problem is that she was trying to get off lithium because she wanted to lose weight, but just recently figured out she really need lithium but hadn't gotten back on it yet.On that note, if any of you know ANYTHING about weight loss and being on lithium, please let me know. She already knows I'll be here for her with her goals and if I can present a solid plan when she gets back out and to regular life I'd love to be able to have some good info. Maybe I'll start a new thread on this if anyone thinks they could help me out. .......needless to say, my diet yesterday become relatively unimportant and I didn't really meet my goals. I did estimate what I ate to put in DailyBurn and came up with the following macros: 1790 calories123.5g protein (low by 18g)152.3g carbs (high by 42g) Since I don't care as much about fats I'm going to stop paying attention to that. That thought is inspired by Crooked, credit where it's due Even with all of that, I hit a new weight low again today at 163.8lbs... so that's good. Given that today could have been an uber-depressing and horrifying day had my sister not survived, today's been alright. I'm just going to try and get things done and tackle my responsibilities and not think about too many things at once. I did get a good protein shake in this morning, and I had that Subway sandwich I talked about having yesterday today for lunch. And I did a quick 25-30 minute workout with my trainer. We went relatively easy today. This week I think is just a "getting through it" week. So now I shall be buckling down and trying to keep up with my work and then trying to get to bed at a decent hour... before 11 preferably. I'm guessing I could realistically get in bed by 10! I have too much going on! Too much to think about! Anxious, but ambitious! Current challenge: Undermining the Conspiracy Find me on Twitter or maybe Instagram Link to comment
Crooked Posted June 16, 2011 Report Share Posted June 16, 2011 I'm so so sorry about your sister, and I hope she starts to recover soon. Good luck to you on getting through the week and just being as strong and supportive as possible. Obviously now is not a time to worry about macros or hyper-focus on your workouts, but sometimes just getting a little movement in can be the best thing you can do for yourself to get through a difficult time. Comeback Challenge Link to comment
theanne Posted June 21, 2011 Author Report Share Posted June 21, 2011 Okay, so I think I'm officially back from hiatus! My sister was in the ICU for a bit and then was moved to a more open program over the weekend and was let home last night. Yay! Also it was 2 of my sisters (they're twins) 21st birthday so there was things going on for that as well. Today is the first real normal day I've had since my last post. I got in a good breakfast and I'm currently snacking on tuna, and I brought everything I need for my salad (just need to run to the grocery store on my lunch for avocados <3 ) and I should be able to get in a home workout and delectably healthy dinner. It feels good to be back to normal after such a crazy series of events. Anxious, but ambitious! Current challenge: Undermining the Conspiracy Find me on Twitter or maybe Instagram Link to comment
Crooked Posted June 21, 2011 Report Share Posted June 21, 2011 Welcome back! I'm so happy your sister is doing well enough to go home, and I hope your family is healthy and things are calming down for you. Comeback Challenge Link to comment
CapN_Tommy_Sunshine Posted June 22, 2011 Report Share Posted June 22, 2011 Hooray for normalcy! I hope that the rest of the challenge is way less "interesting". Link to comment
prefect42 Posted June 22, 2011 Report Share Posted June 22, 2011 Oh wow, that's quite a week. Glad to hear that your sister is okay and things seem to be settling down. Also glad to have you back around the forums! "In bed by 10." I seriously shoot for that almost every weekday and I'm not sure that I've ever achieved it. Not enough hours in the day, as they say... "Did you go to the gym when you were alive?" "I died in 1938. For exercise, we drank sloe gin and smoked Lucky Strikes." - Dead Like Me Link to comment
theanne Posted June 22, 2011 Author Report Share Posted June 22, 2011 First of all, thanks for the supportive posts, they are very helpful for sanity's sake Last night I was weak. I couldn't bring myself to eat what I should have (lots of protein), so instead I had a massive bowl of organic corn and then... a brownie... with 2 glasses of red wine. So macros = not met yesterday. I also ended up not exercising and then watching too much TV (Castle) with my mom and stayed up much later than I wanted. In bed by... 11ish and wasn't sleeping till towards midnight. Sigh. Today! I got up later than I wanted but still stretched and ate breakfast (with my sister Liz!), and I cooked HER a good breakfast and then cleaned up. A+ for getting it done but only a B overall since I should have been up an hour earlier than I was. I'm mostly on track for macros today, I had my protein shake and remembered to bring salad stuff from home, I just need to get avocados/cucumbers from Fresh & Easy. I'm meeting my trainer this afternoon so there will be no snaking out of exercising! Hopefully I'll stick to my guns better for dinner tonight. Anxious, but ambitious! Current challenge: Undermining the Conspiracy Find me on Twitter or maybe Instagram Link to comment
Crooked Posted June 22, 2011 Report Share Posted June 22, 2011 So glad you're back to posting. Great job getting yourself focused again - I often find that seeing a trainer right when motivation is flagging is what I most need to get my head back in the game. For dinner, just think about the progress you've made and how good you feel when your food is good for you! Comeback Challenge Link to comment
theanne Posted June 23, 2011 Author Report Share Posted June 23, 2011 YesterdayI didn't strictly count my macros however I did my normal breakfast/snack/lunch and then did hamburger meat w/ sharp cheese and an egg for dinner. I know that puts me under on calories but gets me close on protein. I got in my session with my trainer and PHEW. Eating like crap so many days in a row = crap performance. I had no energy. I was so fatigued. Hopefully my session today is better since I mostly ate right yesterday. TodayProud of myself - I got up @ 6:20 and was out of the house by 7am, got to Panera @ 7:20 and got really good work done on my personal business stuff. Even better, I launched an official blog series which I am super excited about! Only bad part was that I didn't get my stretching in but I'm okay with that since I am still learning how much earlier I need to get up. And I can still stretch tonight if I so wish. Got to my "real" job a half hour early as well, which is another win! Did my normal breakfast/snack so far and I'll be eating lunch after my training session. Maybe tonight I can actually push myself to eat a full on correct meal Anxious, but ambitious! Current challenge: Undermining the Conspiracy Find me on Twitter or maybe Instagram Link to comment
theanne Posted June 23, 2011 Author Report Share Posted June 23, 2011 Oh, and um, new avatar here Hm, I always look so androgynous. Anxious, but ambitious! Current challenge: Undermining the Conspiracy Find me on Twitter or maybe Instagram Link to comment
Crooked Posted June 23, 2011 Report Share Posted June 23, 2011 Avatar = awesome! Congratulations on a successful day so far - you'll be back in the swing of things in no time at all. Comeback Challenge Link to comment
prefect42 Posted June 24, 2011 Report Share Posted June 24, 2011 Love the new avatar. Also, woo on getting up early! I've been managing that pretty regularly for the last 6-8 months, but I've gotta say: it gets a little easier, but it's never easy. More hours in the day, though! "Did you go to the gym when you were alive?" "I died in 1938. For exercise, we drank sloe gin and smoked Lucky Strikes." - Dead Like Me Link to comment
citabean Posted June 24, 2011 Report Share Posted June 24, 2011 I love the new avatar! STR 5 * DEX 5.5 * STA 12.5 * CON 7.75 * WIS 7.75 * CHA 3 My Fitness Pal Link to comment
theanne Posted June 24, 2011 Author Report Share Posted June 24, 2011 Yay for a successful avatar! Haha YesterdayNutritionAgain, didn't actually track macros, but I believe I got pretty close to all of my goals based on previous tracking. Normal breakfast/snack/lunch followed by a 9oz filet mignon with steamed broccoli and a loaded potato (cheese, bacon, butter, sour cream). I may have gone over a tad on my carbs and come in slightly under on my protein, but it shouldn't have been by much. FitnessWell I didn't feel like my performance improved much, but in my trainer's words our workout yesterday was "a bear" of a workout. Flights and flights of stairs. So, maybe if it hadn't been for my renewal of good foods I'd be dead by now instead of just sore. LifeI got my first official request for my newly launched consultation services yesterday!! WOOOOO!!TodayNutritionI'm on my same track for breakfast/snack/lunch today, we'll find out about dinner later on. I found a bunch of new chicken recipes so maybe I'll try one of those. Unfortunately I am going to probably end up drinking this evening so I'm holding way back on the carbs until then. FitnessNo workouts today. I am exhausted and recovering still while nursing myself back to health with my good meals. LifeI once again got up early and went to Panera, and I quoted the project for my new consulting business FAR beyond the rates I've ever charged for the design/development work I've done. I got back a "we should be able to approve this funding" reply, but will get back confirmation for sure from the guy's superiors on Monday. This sounds like a huge WIN in the making for me. I get to do what I truly love, help other people make more money in the process, and get a paycheck doing it. WIN-WIN-WIN. Much more motivating for me to continue pursuing my new focus in consultations. Anxious, but ambitious! Current challenge: Undermining the Conspiracy Find me on Twitter or maybe Instagram Link to comment
theanne Posted June 24, 2011 Author Report Share Posted June 24, 2011 Love the new avatar. Also, woo on getting up early! I've been managing that pretty regularly for the last 6-8 months, but I've gotta say: it gets a little easier, but it's never easy. More hours in the day, though! I kind of expected it will never be truly easy, but MAN those extra hours make a world of difference to my happiness levels and productivity throughout the day. I feel like I'm tapping into a whole extra secret life I can have with those hours. Anxious, but ambitious! Current challenge: Undermining the Conspiracy Find me on Twitter or maybe Instagram Link to comment
Crooked Posted June 24, 2011 Report Share Posted June 24, 2011 I once again got up early and went to Panera, and I quoted the project for my new consulting business FAR beyond the rates I've ever charged for the design/development work I've done. I got back a "we should be able to approve this funding" reply, but will get back confirmation for sure from the guy's superiors on Monday. This sounds like a huge WIN in the making for me. I get to do what I truly love, help other people make more money in the process, and get a paycheck doing it. WIN-WIN-WIN. Much more motivating for me to continue pursuing my new focus in consultations.This is a huge step! Congratulations!As a side note, I love Panera. Comeback Challenge Link to comment
theanne Posted June 25, 2011 Author Report Share Posted June 25, 2011 I got my first random comment from an acquaintance yesterday about the fact I'm looking skinnier - apparently WAY skinnier. I've been getting some comments from family/relatives but I don't count those as true gauges since they're also just being supportive. I saw this chick I haven't seen in a few months at Chic-Fil-A when I went to dinner and she seemed pretty blown away! I didn't realize I'd lost that much fat! Wooooo! Anxious, but ambitious! Current challenge: Undermining the Conspiracy Find me on Twitter or maybe Instagram Link to comment
Crooked Posted June 27, 2011 Report Share Posted June 27, 2011 Congratulations! That's so so exciting. I also really like that you said "lost that much fat" and not "lost that much weight." Nice job staying focused on the numbers that matter. Comeback Challenge Link to comment
theanne Posted June 27, 2011 Author Report Share Posted June 27, 2011 @Crooked Thanks! I do admit there is a part of me that is still wishing for lower overall numbers but I always remind myself that's not really what matters!Weekend StatsBad things: - Cinnamon roll @ the fair- Irish car bomb + glass of sparkling wine- 2 burritos w/ flour tortillas (though this isn't primal at all I made sure to have lots of beans and cheese to up the protein in these meals)I also made myself 2 different versions of substitute pancakes that I converted into chocolate protein pancakes Sat/Sun and they were both pretty good! The first one was still part flour, and the second one was 100% primal and kind of like pancake banana bread. Both had a heaping scoop of my all natural chocolate protein whey. I also had a regular hamburger bun with my avocado & egg cheeseburger Sunday. All in all, not a bad weekend compared to most. Hauled rocks and washed my car on Saturday. Went on a grueling 7 mile hike in the hot sun on Sunday. Some good movement in there Cold showers both Sat/Sun. TodayNutritionWoke up an hour after I meant to, I somehow slept through both of my alarms. Didn't have time to prepare a good breakfast so I ended up having a ciabatta breakfast sandwich with double bacon, 2 eggs and double cheese at Panera with my coffee this morning. I did manage to throw together lettuce for my salad for lunch so that is a plus. I will actually track nutrients today. FitnessI will be resuming my sprints + bear crawling today. Will have a cold shower & stretch before bed. LifeWoke up early (even though it was way later than I wanted) and got to Panera and published the next part of my blog series, and responded to a developer inquiry I've gotten - another chance for freelance work. Not the kind I want to focus on (i.e. my consulting work) but it will help pay the bills if I go for it! Anxious, but ambitious! Current challenge: Undermining the Conspiracy Find me on Twitter or maybe Instagram Link to comment
theanne Posted June 28, 2011 Author Report Share Posted June 28, 2011 YesterdayNutritionI realized I forgot to calculate my morning coffee w/ half and half in the following macros so I'm probably a bit higher on some of these numbers but...1920 calories (65 cals over plus coffee) 155.4g protein101.7g carbsEverything but breakfast was pretty good by Primal standards. Just the ciabatta part of my sandwich was bad. For dinner I tried a new chicken recipe I came up with (although I'm sure it already exists somewhere this was entirely out of my head): Chicken strips (frozen)Place on cookie sheetPour lemon juice both sides, coat with salt, pepper and garlic saltPlace fat red onion strips on top of chickenBroil @ 500° for 7 minutes each side (replacing onions on top after flip)Sear in covered pan on high heat for 2 minutes each side...delicious. FitnessI'm back on track for working out at home. I did 6 80y sprints and then 4 bear crawls of about 20y each. I don't know for sure on the distance. Quick but quite effective!Forgot to stretch. TodayNutritionMorning almond protein shake, and coffee w/ half and half & 2 packs of sugar. Tracking again, not sure what I'll do for lunch but I'm tired of my usual salad so I'll be getting something somewhere. FitnessI'll be doing an intervals session when I get home. Anxious, but ambitious! Current challenge: Undermining the Conspiracy Find me on Twitter or maybe Instagram Link to comment
theanne Posted June 29, 2011 Author Report Share Posted June 29, 2011 YesterdayNutritionDidn't quite finish tracking the whole day. Ended up with a Subway sandwich, double meat with plenty of veggies. Dinner was my lemon chicken with potatoes/cheese. I probably went over a little on carbs, and slightly under on protein. Should have been pretty close though. I hit a new weight-low today so it couldn't have been that bad FitnessDidn't work out last night - however that was because I realized I would be working out twice this morning. TodayCouple of things for today's "Success" column: Confirmed my first official consultant client (at an hourly rate I never imagined being able to get paid)Put $1,000 extra towards car loanGot enough "Likes" on my Facebook consulting page to get a usernameWorked out... twice.Got up in time to work out twice AND spend an hour working on my consulting business New weight low!NutritionStarted breakfast as usual. Will continue to attempt tracking today.FitnessI got up 6am - worked out with my sister Liz. For me it was more of a warmup than a workout, but hey I got up and moved around.8:30am I worked out with my trainer for an hour....feeling alright today! Anxious, but ambitious! Current challenge: Undermining the Conspiracy Find me on Twitter or maybe Instagram Link to comment
Crooked Posted June 29, 2011 Report Share Posted June 29, 2011 So it kind of sounds like you have been ROCKING today. Congratulations and keep it up! Comeback Challenge Link to comment
prefect42 Posted June 30, 2011 Report Share Posted June 30, 2011 So it kind of sounds like you have been ROCKING today. Congratulations and keep it up! Seconded. That's great! The consulting is really exciting. Nothing like being your own boss, for part of the day anyway. "Did you go to the gym when you were alive?" "I died in 1938. For exercise, we drank sloe gin and smoked Lucky Strikes." - Dead Like Me Link to comment
theanne Posted July 5, 2011 Author Report Share Posted July 5, 2011 WeekendWeekend sucked as far as sticking to goals nutrition wise. I got in some decent exercise between hiking and long walks but nutrition... was not so great. A few too many beers and too much grains. However, it was a great weekend as far as quality of life goes so I'm not killing myself over it. Still on board with cold showers even on the weekends! I've graduated to being able to go from the warm beginning to ALL THE WAY OVER TO COLD in one foul swoop with no sissy footing around adjusting in between. Also, I started the unofficial OMFG app (I think I've clocked about 30 hours now on it) so I'm stoked about getting that to a usable point sometime this week. TodayNutritionSo far today: 2 coffees with half/half and 2 sugars each, spinach and bacon souffle from Panera. Not so great. Lunch will most likely be a Subway sandwich loaded with meat. Dinner will be trying to be a bunch of chicken with broccoli. I've been failing at tracking my food so I need to get back on that. ExerciseI twisted my ankle this weekend so I'll be playing exercise by ear. If I'm feeling up to it I will be doing some sprints followed by a few intervals. LifeStill got up early and went to Panera this morning - which was more of a chore than usual cause I got horrible sleep last night. I'm starting a meetup with a co-worker and my personal trainer who I'm doing a work trade with to start discussing business ideas and problems with each other. We'll be meeting once a week to just bounce ideas around with. I'm excited about this Anxious, but ambitious! Current challenge: Undermining the Conspiracy Find me on Twitter or maybe Instagram Link to comment
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