girljen Posted July 4, 2013 Report Share Posted July 4, 2013 So, I went to the rec center and worked out. I didn't have much time, so I decided to do a small number of heavy lifts and GTFO. I deadlifted for the first time ever. I only lifted 50lbs, but I concentrated on my form and kept my back straight the whole time. I squatted my bodyweight +20lbs. I benched 30lbs. w00t, w00t, and w00t. Then I did some dumbbell rows, and unbeknownst to me, my form was incorrect. I was sticking my elbow out too far and curling my wrist. Some Guy came up to me... I have anxiety. It manifests itself in social situations, and when people are in my personal space. My usual reaction to being approached by a stranger is somewhere along the lines of onoz onoz onoz onoz! This time was no exception. When he started kindly giving me pointers and demonstrating what a proper dumbbell row should look like, it hit me. Wait a minute. I am feeling nervous because I have anxiety. It's like feeling congested when I have a cold--nothing I can do but acknowledge it and do the best I can to work with it. This guy is not going to kill me. He is telling me good information and I should concentrate on it. So, I did. I pulled my elbow in, just like he said. I kept my wrist straight. I felt muscles that I hadn't been feeling before. It was amazing. So, I did a few sets of proper dumbbell rows, cleaned up, stretched, and left. On the way out, the guy wished me a good evening and I said goodbye, like it was no big deal. It was only when I got out to the car that I realized that he'd been touching me, guiding my elbow to where it should have been, and I didn't freak the hell out. That's HUGE in my world. I was able to get through a normal social interaction, including completely inocuous touching, without an adrenaline response. I am so proud of myself!! Here's to stepping outside my comfort zone! Quote Filled with DETERMINATIONhttps://www.nerdfitness.com/character/64217 Link to comment
puddletheduck Posted July 4, 2013 Report Share Posted July 4, 2013 Big achievement - congratulations Quote Questionable Hobbit • Level 0 • Aspiring WarriorSTR 0 • DEX 0 • STA 0 • CON 0 • WIS 0 • CHA 00Challenge Log: Puddletheduck stops waddling and starts bouncing (flying will come later)0"Life's too short to be fat and miserable." Link to comment
CrisciMalosh Posted July 19, 2013 Report Share Posted July 19, 2013 YAY!!! The touching thing is why I ended up having to stop using a trainer.... too much anxiety. Quote "I was taught that the way of progress was neither swift nor easy." ~~Marie Curie "All great things are simple, and many can be expressed in single words: Freedom, Justice, Honour, Duty, Mercy, Hope. " ~~ Winston Churchill Level 1 Human Druid STR 1 DEX 1 STA 1 CON 2 WIS 3 CHA 2 (yes, human. Boring I know.) Link to comment
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