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I just woke up.... that was a .... twelve ish hour "nap"I don't feel any better.... still exhausted... will stay up a little while then lay back down... will get to chores tomorrow and hopefully feel well enough because I have loads of errands to do... and running and such.... so... food... then more sleep

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* This is the day the Lord has made, rejoice in it and be glad. God, The Bible. * Do or do not, there is no try. - Yoda
* There are three options in this life; be good, get good, or give up. -- House * Never take counsel of your fears. Stonewall Jackson. 

* level 50 isn't gonna just POOF happen - alienjenn, NF IRC chatroom

 

* I'm not about to give up - Because I heard you say - There's gonna be brighter days… I won't stop, I'll keep my head up - No, I'm not here to stay ...  - 

 I just might bend but I won't break - As long as I can see your face - When life won't play along - And right keeps going wrong - And I can't seem to find my way - I know where I am found - So I won't let it drag me down - Oh, I'll keep dancing anyway - Mercy Me - Move

 

 

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sigh....

 

I am awake... was hoping to sleep longer because I work tomorrow so I need to stay up tonight to sleep during the day.... le sigh.... 

 

anyways... today I have to tackle the table.... have to register Shakespeare for high school this afternoon and take Rhino home and get dishes done and work some on laundry....

 

I have this deal with the girl child that she does dishes/laundry when I am working and I do it on my days off.... which means that my kitchen is a mess and I have to finish it before tomorrow or she will be irate that she has to do them from all week... it's not so bad when I can get caught up but I just don't want to!!!

 

again.... le sigh

 

but the table and the dishes and the cooking for the week must be done today :)

Level 10.4 Wood-Elf, Ranger - specializing in demon fighting

"doing the impossible since 2012 :D" - Librarian of Doom

facebook battle log level 50 WOOT   Backstory CNF2014  current (not challenge - doing a battle log this time)

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* This is the day the Lord has made, rejoice in it and be glad. God, The Bible. * Do or do not, there is no try. - Yoda
* There are three options in this life; be good, get good, or give up. -- House * Never take counsel of your fears. Stonewall Jackson. 

* level 50 isn't gonna just POOF happen - alienjenn, NF IRC chatroom

 

* I'm not about to give up - Because I heard you say - There's gonna be brighter days… I won't stop, I'll keep my head up - No, I'm not here to stay ...  - 

 I just might bend but I won't break - As long as I can see your face - When life won't play along - And right keeps going wrong - And I can't seem to find my way - I know where I am found - So I won't let it drag me down - Oh, I'll keep dancing anyway - Mercy Me - Move

 

 

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Hahaha!  Dishes.    They are my nemesis.   My sis and I do the 'you cook, I clean' arrangement but we clean up every night after dinner so it doesn't get too overwhelming.     But!    I recently was shown a picture that could not be MORE accurate of my feelings regarding dishes and something she does...

 

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Hahaha!  Dishes.    They are my nemesis.   My sis and I do the 'you cook, I clean' arrangement but we clean up every night after dinner so it doesn't get too overwhelming.     But!    I recently was shown a picture that could not be MORE accurate of my feelings regarding dishes and something she does...

 

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YES!!!!!

 

or when I clean and clean and clean... and then someone else cooks... and gets GREASE all over the stove :(

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"doing the impossible since 2012 :D" - Librarian of Doom

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* This is the day the Lord has made, rejoice in it and be glad. God, The Bible. * Do or do not, there is no try. - Yoda
* There are three options in this life; be good, get good, or give up. -- House * Never take counsel of your fears. Stonewall Jackson. 

* level 50 isn't gonna just POOF happen - alienjenn, NF IRC chatroom

 

* I'm not about to give up - Because I heard you say - There's gonna be brighter days… I won't stop, I'll keep my head up - No, I'm not here to stay ...  - 

 I just might bend but I won't break - As long as I can see your face - When life won't play along - And right keeps going wrong - And I can't seem to find my way - I know where I am found - So I won't let it drag me down - Oh, I'll keep dancing anyway - Mercy Me - Move

 

 

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I got the best compliment from zombie while camping. ... I usually stack our hammocks with him on top so i can rock him if he gets antsy. ... anyways I had them a little too close and i was like it's ok mine will sink. .... zombie said "you've lost a considerable amount of weight you don't sink as much as you used to" .... coming from him that was a giant compliment

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Level 10.4 Wood-Elf, Ranger - specializing in demon fighting

"doing the impossible since 2012 :D" - Librarian of Doom

facebook battle log level 50 WOOT   Backstory CNF2014  current (not challenge - doing a battle log this time)

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* This is the day the Lord has made, rejoice in it and be glad. God, The Bible. * Do or do not, there is no try. - Yoda
* There are three options in this life; be good, get good, or give up. -- House * Never take counsel of your fears. Stonewall Jackson. 

* level 50 isn't gonna just POOF happen - alienjenn, NF IRC chatroom

 

* I'm not about to give up - Because I heard you say - There's gonna be brighter days… I won't stop, I'll keep my head up - No, I'm not here to stay ...  - 

 I just might bend but I won't break - As long as I can see your face - When life won't play along - And right keeps going wrong - And I can't seem to find my way - I know where I am found - So I won't let it drag me down - Oh, I'll keep dancing anyway - Mercy Me - Move

 

 

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I got the best compliment from zombie while camping. ... I usually stack our hammocks with him on top so i can rock him if he gets antsy. ... anyways I had them a little too close and i was like it's ok mine will sink. .... zombie said "you've lost a considerable amount of weight you don't sink as much as you used to" .... coming from him that was a giant compliment Sent from my SCH-I535 using Tapatalk 2

 

matter-of-fact compliments like that are the best! 

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OH god I hate dishes with all of the passion in my heart!  It is my absolute most hated chore.  Let me fold laundry all day long over one sink of dishes.

 

Love the compliment from the kids.  Nothing underhanded about them.  Just the straight facts :)

 

 

matter-of-fact compliments like that are the best! 

 

 

Zombie is awesome like that :)

 

I spent like 45 minutes today doing dishes.... I also spend a good deal of time in the laundry room.... and I found this big gigantic white and blue scary thing with a repeating pattern.... it was underneath of a monstrous pile of laundry.... it terrified me until I could figure out what it was....

 

le sigh...

 

it was the floor....   

Level 10.4 Wood-Elf, Ranger - specializing in demon fighting

"doing the impossible since 2012 :D" - Librarian of Doom

facebook battle log level 50 WOOT   Backstory CNF2014  current (not challenge - doing a battle log this time)

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* This is the day the Lord has made, rejoice in it and be glad. God, The Bible. * Do or do not, there is no try. - Yoda
* There are three options in this life; be good, get good, or give up. -- House * Never take counsel of your fears. Stonewall Jackson. 

* level 50 isn't gonna just POOF happen - alienjenn, NF IRC chatroom

 

* I'm not about to give up - Because I heard you say - There's gonna be brighter days… I won't stop, I'll keep my head up - No, I'm not here to stay ...  - 

 I just might bend but I won't break - As long as I can see your face - When life won't play along - And right keeps going wrong - And I can't seem to find my way - I know where I am found - So I won't let it drag me down - Oh, I'll keep dancing anyway - Mercy Me - Move

 

 

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Zombie is awesome like that :)

 

I spent like 45 minutes today doing dishes.... I also spend a good deal of time in the laundry room.... and I found this big gigantic white and blue scary thing with a repeating pattern.... it was underneath of a monstrous pile of laundry.... it terrified me until I could figure out what it was....

 

le sigh...

 

it was the floor....   

Ha, my floor does that same disappearing act! Then I do a major salvage operation and, ye gads, all that empty space...I feel like I don't know where I am!

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Ha, my floor does that same disappearing act! Then I do a major salvage operation and, ye gads, all that empty space...I feel like I don't know where I am!

exactly.... it's strangely unsettling.... 

Level 10.4 Wood-Elf, Ranger - specializing in demon fighting

"doing the impossible since 2012 :D" - Librarian of Doom

facebook battle log level 50 WOOT   Backstory CNF2014  current (not challenge - doing a battle log this time)

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* This is the day the Lord has made, rejoice in it and be glad. God, The Bible. * Do or do not, there is no try. - Yoda
* There are three options in this life; be good, get good, or give up. -- House * Never take counsel of your fears. Stonewall Jackson. 

* level 50 isn't gonna just POOF happen - alienjenn, NF IRC chatroom

 

* I'm not about to give up - Because I heard you say - There's gonna be brighter days… I won't stop, I'll keep my head up - No, I'm not here to stay ...  - 

 I just might bend but I won't break - As long as I can see your face - When life won't play along - And right keeps going wrong - And I can't seem to find my way - I know where I am found - So I won't let it drag me down - Oh, I'll keep dancing anyway - Mercy Me - Move

 

 

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Level 10.4 Wood-Elf, Ranger - specializing in demon fighting

"doing the impossible since 2012 :D" - Librarian of Doom

facebook battle log level 50 WOOT   Backstory CNF2014  current (not challenge - doing a battle log this time)

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* This is the day the Lord has made, rejoice in it and be glad. God, The Bible. * Do or do not, there is no try. - Yoda
* There are three options in this life; be good, get good, or give up. -- House * Never take counsel of your fears. Stonewall Jackson. 

* level 50 isn't gonna just POOF happen - alienjenn, NF IRC chatroom

 

* I'm not about to give up - Because I heard you say - There's gonna be brighter days… I won't stop, I'll keep my head up - No, I'm not here to stay ...  - 

 I just might bend but I won't break - As long as I can see your face - When life won't play along - And right keeps going wrong - And I can't seem to find my way - I know where I am found - So I won't let it drag me down - Oh, I'll keep dancing anyway - Mercy Me - Move

 

 

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For this in Facebook today. ... zombie has asperger's :) I love it

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Level 10.4 Wood-Elf, Ranger - specializing in demon fighting

"doing the impossible since 2012 :D" - Librarian of Doom

facebook battle log level 50 WOOT   Backstory CNF2014  current (not challenge - doing a battle log this time)

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* This is the day the Lord has made, rejoice in it and be glad. God, The Bible. * Do or do not, there is no try. - Yoda
* There are three options in this life; be good, get good, or give up. -- House * Never take counsel of your fears. Stonewall Jackson. 

* level 50 isn't gonna just POOF happen - alienjenn, NF IRC chatroom

 

* I'm not about to give up - Because I heard you say - There's gonna be brighter days… I won't stop, I'll keep my head up - No, I'm not here to stay ...  - 

 I just might bend but I won't break - As long as I can see your face - When life won't play along - And right keeps going wrong - And I can't seem to find my way - I know where I am found - So I won't let it drag me down - Oh, I'll keep dancing anyway - Mercy Me - Move

 

 

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My motivation.... I posted this on FB the other day

 

 
 
I am going to be the first person with my lung disease to live to 100 without a lung transplant... I am going to be a healthy influence for my children.... I am going to achieve greatness and inspire others to even more awesomeness... I am going to live a life free of medication and pain and oxygen... I am going to become epic
 
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I was going to say something about this ^^^^ 

 

but, then:

Holy crap, Alienjenn. I had no idea of your back story. You are incredible, and a real inspiration. Amazing progress so far with the weight and measurement, too. You have such inner strength I'm in awe :)

So... exactly what caveJen says.  

 

You are doing amazing on so. many. levels!

 

I got the best compliment from zombie while camping. ... I usually stack our hammocks with him on top so i can rock him if he gets antsy. ... anyways I had them a little too close and i was like it's ok mine will sink. .... zombie said "you've lost a considerable amount of weight you don't sink as much as you used to" .... coming from him that was a giant compliment Sent from my SCH-I535 using Tapatalk 2

 

I noticed you were hammocking.  How do you like it?  How are the bugs while sleeping?  Love camping - but have always used a tent.  Except that one time in boy scouts (waaaaaaaay back in the day) on a survival weekend.

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I was going to say something about this ^^^^ 

 

but, then:

So... exactly what caveJen says.  

 

You are doing amazing on so. many. levels!

 

 

I noticed you were hammocking.  How do you like it?  How are the bugs while sleeping?  Love camping - but have always used a tent.  Except that one time in boy scouts (waaaaaaaay back in the day) on a survival weekend.

 

 

:D I LOVE my hammock so much.... I am actually intending to replace my home bed with a hammock... I can sleep so so so so so so so so so much better in the hammock than in my bed :D

 

I don't have many issues with bugs anyways... I rarely get bothered :)

Level 10.4 Wood-Elf, Ranger - specializing in demon fighting

"doing the impossible since 2012 :D" - Librarian of Doom

facebook battle log level 50 WOOT   Backstory CNF2014  current (not challenge - doing a battle log this time)

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* This is the day the Lord has made, rejoice in it and be glad. God, The Bible. * Do or do not, there is no try. - Yoda
* There are three options in this life; be good, get good, or give up. -- House * Never take counsel of your fears. Stonewall Jackson. 

* level 50 isn't gonna just POOF happen - alienjenn, NF IRC chatroom

 

* I'm not about to give up - Because I heard you say - There's gonna be brighter days… I won't stop, I'll keep my head up - No, I'm not here to stay ...  - 

 I just might bend but I won't break - As long as I can see your face - When life won't play along - And right keeps going wrong - And I can't seem to find my way - I know where I am found - So I won't let it drag me down - Oh, I'll keep dancing anyway - Mercy Me - Move

 

 

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Zombie is awesome like that :)

 

I spent like 45 minutes today doing dishes.... I also spend a good deal of time in the laundry room.... and I found this big gigantic white and blue scary thing with a repeating pattern.... it was underneath of a monstrous pile of laundry.... it terrified me until I could figure out what it was....

 

le sigh...

 

it was the floor....   

 

This totally cracked me up :)  I really thought it was a creepy crawly LOL

 

:D I LOVE my hammock so much.... I am actually intending to replace my home bed with a hammock... I can sleep so so so so so so so so so much better in the hammock than in my bed :D

 

I don't have many issues with bugs anyways... I rarely get bothered :)

 

Hammocks are bloody awesome!  I slept in one a few times when I was hiking and LOVED it!

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I got put on standby tonight so I don't have to go in until 2300 (rather than 1900) and I have been hanging out with the kiddos and doing stuffs... 

and as I type this I got canceled... 

 

 

biggest loser work... 

 

posted several times in the fb group... and... just posted this

 

 

 

for my local friends... I will be at Gypsy Hill Park in Staunton on sunday at 5pm... I will be doing a body weight workout in the park... I will show basic exercises and how to modify them to your ability level.... Chris will entertain children (he LOVES kids and loves to play with them  ) and Caity will photograph/video me... I will have a blog post about it by monday... 

(IF no one responds/or is interested I will be at Ridgeview park in Waynesboro so I don't have to drive as far)

 

 

I will do one of the NF body weight workouts... and make a blog post about it... 

 

I still have no idea how to grade/score this goal... but I think I am doing well so far

 

 

I have written 1 NEW blog post... and copied all of my old blog posts to my new blog... I haven't done any free writing this week... but I plan on it if I have any time at work tonight... \

 

I did some dishes and put some laundry away... yesterday I worked some on the table (which is on my project list) but it isn't done... so I don't know if I should count it... I got canceled today so I should work on it after the kiddlets go to bed... 

 

I have only had alone time with the girl... but I may spend some time with the boy... the oldest boy is away at friends until monday :/ 

Level 10.4 Wood-Elf, Ranger - specializing in demon fighting

"doing the impossible since 2012 :D" - Librarian of Doom

facebook battle log level 50 WOOT   Backstory CNF2014  current (not challenge - doing a battle log this time)

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* This is the day the Lord has made, rejoice in it and be glad. God, The Bible. * Do or do not, there is no try. - Yoda
* There are three options in this life; be good, get good, or give up. -- House * Never take counsel of your fears. Stonewall Jackson. 

* level 50 isn't gonna just POOF happen - alienjenn, NF IRC chatroom

 

* I'm not about to give up - Because I heard you say - There's gonna be brighter days… I won't stop, I'll keep my head up - No, I'm not here to stay ...  - 

 I just might bend but I won't break - As long as I can see your face - When life won't play along - And right keeps going wrong - And I can't seem to find my way - I know where I am found - So I won't let it drag me down - Oh, I'll keep dancing anyway - Mercy Me - Move

 

 

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This totally cracked me up :)  I really thought it was a creepy crawly LOL

 

 

Hammocks are bloody awesome!  I slept in one a few times when I was hiking and LOVED it!

 

 

I am totally not scared of creepy crawlies :)

 

we have like 5 hammocks :) (well we did... but now we have three because Shakespeare left one at his school... and one broke) and I am in the process of upgrading them all and am working on making underquilts and such... :D

Level 10.4 Wood-Elf, Ranger - specializing in demon fighting

"doing the impossible since 2012 :D" - Librarian of Doom

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* This is the day the Lord has made, rejoice in it and be glad. God, The Bible. * Do or do not, there is no try. - Yoda
* There are three options in this life; be good, get good, or give up. -- House * Never take counsel of your fears. Stonewall Jackson. 

* level 50 isn't gonna just POOF happen - alienjenn, NF IRC chatroom

 

* I'm not about to give up - Because I heard you say - There's gonna be brighter days… I won't stop, I'll keep my head up - No, I'm not here to stay ...  - 

 I just might bend but I won't break - As long as I can see your face - When life won't play along - And right keeps going wrong - And I can't seem to find my way - I know where I am found - So I won't let it drag me down - Oh, I'll keep dancing anyway - Mercy Me - Move

 

 

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Hammocks are bloody awesome!  I slept in one a few times when I was hiking and LOVED it!

I'm just confused as to how your face doesn't get eaten off!

 

And... I actually consider myself fairly well versed when it comes to camping stuff... but... underquilts?  (Yes, I'm sure google has the answer.)

 

Oh... and, finally - Miss I'm-not-a-Leader.... uh... yeah, you are.  Even if no one decides to come out this time.... you ARE A LEADER.  Get used to being called that.

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I'm just confused as to how your face doesn't get eaten off!

 

And... I actually consider myself fairly well versed when it comes to camping stuff... but... underquilts?  (Yes, I'm sure google has the answer.)

 

Oh... and, finally - Miss I'm-not-a-Leader.... uh... yeah, you are.  Even if no one decides to come out this time.... you ARE A LEADER.  Get used to being called that.

 

 

I have this weird "bugs don't bug me" kind of thing going on.... they usually leave me alone even when they bother the heck out of everyone else i am with... I also carry/wear those bug bracelets that they sell at walmart... :) the few that would mess with me get repelled by that... 

 

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an underquilt is a layer of protection that hangs under the hammock to help keep you warm... most heat loss in the hammock is from air flow... so the underquilt keeps the air flow from blowing directly under your skin... it's sort of like an underpad when camping... it's a layer of insulation... when you sleep in a sleeping bag in a hammock you compress the bag and it looses it's ability to insulate as well... 

 

the extra insulation means you are warmer and you need to cover with less blanket :)

 

 

I am *FORCING* myself to be a leader... it isn't something that comes naturally to me... it is very difficult for me to intentionally inspire people... to motivate people on purpose... 

 

and just because I am leading people doesn't make me a "leader" by personality... or by ability... or by preference...

Level 10.4 Wood-Elf, Ranger - specializing in demon fighting

"doing the impossible since 2012 :D" - Librarian of Doom

facebook battle log level 50 WOOT   Backstory CNF2014  current (not challenge - doing a battle log this time)

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* This is the day the Lord has made, rejoice in it and be glad. God, The Bible. * Do or do not, there is no try. - Yoda
* There are three options in this life; be good, get good, or give up. -- House * Never take counsel of your fears. Stonewall Jackson. 

* level 50 isn't gonna just POOF happen - alienjenn, NF IRC chatroom

 

* I'm not about to give up - Because I heard you say - There's gonna be brighter days… I won't stop, I'll keep my head up - No, I'm not here to stay ...  - 

 I just might bend but I won't break - As long as I can see your face - When life won't play along - And right keeps going wrong - And I can't seem to find my way - I know where I am found - So I won't let it drag me down - Oh, I'll keep dancing anyway - Mercy Me - Move

 

 

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went to applebees and played games with the kids for family game night... I counted this for the challenge even though one of them was away because 1) he is going to be away until monday and 2) I had 2/3 of the kids with me 

 

so it counts

 

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Level 10.4 Wood-Elf, Ranger - specializing in demon fighting

"doing the impossible since 2012 :D" - Librarian of Doom

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* This is the day the Lord has made, rejoice in it and be glad. God, The Bible. * Do or do not, there is no try. - Yoda
* There are three options in this life; be good, get good, or give up. -- House * Never take counsel of your fears. Stonewall Jackson. 

* level 50 isn't gonna just POOF happen - alienjenn, NF IRC chatroom

 

* I'm not about to give up - Because I heard you say - There's gonna be brighter days… I won't stop, I'll keep my head up - No, I'm not here to stay ...  - 

 I just might bend but I won't break - As long as I can see your face - When life won't play along - And right keeps going wrong - And I can't seem to find my way - I know where I am found - So I won't let it drag me down - Oh, I'll keep dancing anyway - Mercy Me - Move

 

 

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I think it must be shark week or something... because I am *highly* emotional... 

 

 

 

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for the first time in my life ever I took progress pictures without a shirt on... and I can't believe it... I have never EVER seen my back without a shirt on... I did not realize that I have rolls in my back... I mean I should have realized that my back looked like my front... and that I was oogy and rolly and gross... because as gross as my back is now it must have been even more gross before I lost all this weight... 

 

I find it amazing... 

 

one picture and I suddenly feel HORRID about my body... I feel all slimy and gigantic and huge... I just want to cry whenever I look at this picture... 

 

I am trying to be positive here... there are massive changes in my waist and hip size... (these are the measurements closest to that picture that I can find)... 

 

Date
Chest
Bicep
Thigh
Waist
Calf
Hips
Forearm
Neck
4/15/2013 34.9 15.3 24.9 39.3 15.5 50.4 10.7 12.9 7/31/2013 35 15.3 24.2 37.2 16.2 48.6 11.1 13.6

 

I understand intellectually that the back rolls were there all along... and there are MASSIVE changes here...

 

so how is it that I can feel so disgusting about these pictures??

 

 

 I seriously have had to walk away from this message like 5 times... but I want to write this and post it because I promised to be real... and I really want to be in a place where I like myself ALL THE TIME... and not just when I feel good about myself...

 

intellectually I understand that I have made great strides... and I KNOW that I am a beautiful person and that I shouldn't concern myself with this because I  am doing great and I have lost a whole HELL of a lot of weight and that I am amazing and awesome.... 

 

 

 

and this is exactly why I recorded that video of me at the keyhole on old rag... so I am going to go to the youtubes and watch it... and remember my awesomeness

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I seriously have had to walk away from this message like 5 times... but I want to write this and post it because I promised to be real... and I really want to be in a place where I like myself ALL THE TIME... and not just when I feel good about myself...

 

intellectually I understand that I have made great strides... and I KNOW that I am a beautiful person and that I shouldn't concern myself with this because I  am doing great and I have lost a whole HELL of a lot of weight and that I am amazing and awesome.... 

First off - good on you for taking the photos.... And, even more for posting them.  

 

Secondly - couldn't agree with this any more.

 

 

intellectually I understand that I have made great strides... and I KNOW that I am a beautiful person and that I shouldn't concern myself with this because I  am doing great and I have lost a whole HELL of a lot of weight and that I am amazing and awesome.... 

 

 

You are making awesome and amazing progress.  Do not feel horrid about your body.  After all, you are doing awesome things with your body - like taking 2 MILLION STEPS, and backbends - what!?, and epic bike rides, and hikes.  Your body is doing that.  You are doing that with your body.  And each day, you are making your body stronger & healthier.

 

Breathe.

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First off - good on you for taking the photos.... And, even more for posting them.  

 

Secondly - couldn't agree with this any more.

 

 

You are making awesome and amazing progress.  Do not feel horrid about your body.  After all, you are doing awesome things with your body - like taking 2 MILLION STEPS, and backbends - what!?, and epic bike rides, and hikes.  Your body is doing that.  You are doing that with your body.  And each day, you are making your body stronger & healthier.

 

Breathe.

 

All of this. Women especially are conditioned all of our lives to believe that the only value our body has is if it is "attractive". It's not something we can just step aside from and say "Oh, that's bullshit" even though it is, because it is so deeply ingrained. Look at all the amazing things your body can do! Even before you started losing weight and getting fit, look at what your body did: it created 3 human beings!!! Your body is amazing and valuable!!!!!! Even if those rolls never went away (which is not going to happen) your body would be amazing and valuable!!!

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