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Never an iron on earth could hold the WildColonialGrrl: Chapter 3

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 I've seen so much positivity on these forums, and knowing that everyone is struggling makes it seem more manageable.  It helped break up that self-loathing black corner in my mind.

 

So good for you that it clicked and I'm proud of you and everyone else on here :)

 

Cheers!

 

Missed you this past week. Glad you are feeling better. I think it's great that you are feeling so much better about yourself. I'm experiencing the same thing and it's a great feeling. I have only lost a few pounds but I'm finding all new clothes in my closet that I can wear again or some even for the first time. We got this!

 

The weather is getting warmer here and I struggled to find shorts that would stay on me... If it doesn't have a string to tie up I'm in a bit of trouble at the moment!

 

That's a good positive attitude.

I might see if I can get it to rub off on me too :D

Mate it does rub off! It's being here that does it. As Terosx says "everyone is struggling" but the support here is amazing and seeing everyone else make significant changes in manageable, healthy ways over sensible time frames makes it so much better than any 12 week shape up for Summer bullshit coming at you in the media.

I have had a couple of bad weeks health wise but my head has still been in the game. I have just had two of the most crappiest days at work that I have had this year. I was too nauseous for lunch, did ok for dinner then ate more chocolate than I ought... But after I post this I am going to jump on the indoor bike and ride so I am calm enough emotionally to get a good nights sleep. Being here helped me make that decision because we are all struggling and the next choice is more important that the one that has already been taken.

To the bat mobile! ...no wait, that's not actually me... Except the kind of padded cod piece bit... Never mind... To the stationary bicycle!!

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"Now is not the end, it is not even the beginning of the end, but it is perhaps the end of the beginning." Winston Churchill

I saw this quote this today and it resonated.

I love feeling strong, always have, and now I not only feel strong but I can see my muscles developing. I finally look at skinny women exercising and think 'that is NOT what I want'. I don't want to be skinny, I want to be strong. This realisation has only come about in the last couple of weeks. In the last month I have gained weight but I don't care because I can lift heavy things and have lost 2cm on my middle. I measured this morning because when I got up my pyjama pants fell down.

I haven't felt this good about my body in quite some time. This might sound crazy, but I don't feel fat right now. Sure I have fat and it covers more of me than I want it to, but the slow progress I'm making feels good. My body is not like anyone else's. It is shaped differently and always will be. Comparing it to other shapes is silly.

 

This is something I've been thinking about as well. I feel like there's a big disconnect between what my body feels like and what it looks like. On a good workout and food day I feel amazing, strong and non-fat, but now when I've eaten badly and not worked out for a few days I feel like crap. Realistically though I look exactly the same. Meaning vanity is not a good motivator for me. Also you're completely right about not comparing yourself to other people. I've just realized that even when thin I will never look all slender and waif-like, it's just not the way my body is shaped and it's certainly not the way it will look like once I build all the muscle I want/need. :) I think these changes in mindset are just as important as the challenge goals, if not more, though maybe I'm rationalizing because of a bad week :P

 

And you should pimp your stationary bike to become a Batbike. Or Batcycle?

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A least it was someone to quieten my mind with! Stop thinking about (aka stewing over) work stuff, think about the bat bike! The bat bike!!

So to try to quiet my mind tonight, instead of taekwondo in this emotional state, I am going for a swim. There. I've said it, now I have to do it!

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Just read the entire thread while awaiting the beginning of a conference call.  Yes I have been MIA thanks to the crazy schedule of 26 hours a day that seems to be my schedule.  But here I is!

Thanks for the hugs guys. Thursday saw me in a crying fit the likes of which I haven't seen in a very long time. My PT was having trouble trying to get me to let go of weights before I hurt myself. I am not good at letting go. She had to teach me physically and then in the way home I let go emotionally too. It felt very strange. Went to a friends place for hugs and to talk it through. Odd the ways body and mind connect that one doesn't expect.

I am often surprised at the number of people that do not associate the mind and the body as one thing.  While we are capable of abstract thought to a fault that can cause us to do harm to ourselves, the mind is an organ of the body.  I forget if it was Emerson but I recall a poet that once said roughly that the soul is embodied by our physical presence and thus they are for our time on earth one.  The brain itself is but an organ that connects our soul to this world. (the second sentence is mine)

Been thinking about my diet... I don't "diet" as such, I usually say this is because I am a bit of a hedonist but I like myself too much to go for that punishment type of diet set up. Logging my not so healthy foods and the effect on my body has been eye opening. I am looking for a sustainable lifestyle change and that will take time. I am very impatient and battle the constant media push for do this for 30days, 12 week transformation, blah blah... I feel like I should do some thing more drastic to speed up the fat loss process. But it didn't happen overnight and it won't go away in a hurry either. Eating better, for me, I think, needs to be about how it makes me feel. I have to be able to change my eating habits for me, not for weight/fat loss, not because is "clean" or healthy, but because I feel better when I eat better. I feel like my mindset is slowly changing and my attitude to what I eat may have turned a corner this weekend with how bad I felt after the party food... Today at work there were nice looking leftovers, I avoided the sweet stuff but had some nice rocket, hazelnut, Parmesan, and pear salad for breakfast's second course... And I have done really well all day after that. Change will take time and I need to be patient. Get stronger and more aware of how food makes me feel and the fat should take care of itself... I am pre shark week and feeling bloated and fat. It is on my mind at the moment but conventional wisdom is so prominent and makes so much money from selling this bullshit by trying to make people unhappy about who they are right now. I am happy with who I am right now and loving the changes to my health and strength that are occurring. Can't hurry the rest of the change. Sustainable takes time, repeat til fade...

Losing weight.  Professor Mark Haub, from Kansas State University, conducted a weight loss study on himself in 2010.  He was @ 211 pounds and ~ 33% body fat.  He ate about 1800 calories a day (his calculation for weight loss).  He lost 27 lbs in 8 weeks.  His diet?  1 Protein shake a day, 1-2 servings veggies, and 66% of all calories coming from a "convenience store diet" with things like Doritos, Oreos, Twinkies, and the like.  He does not in anyway endorse that diet.  It was done to make a point.  Also his LDL (bad cholesterol) dropped 20% and HDL (good cholesterol) increased about 20%.  University of Lausanne has done extensive research that shows calories in vs. calories expended are what matter for WEIGHT.

 

Now, how you feel after eating the calories you eat is a different thing entirely. 

 

Looks like a good challenge for you!  Woot!

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Thanks for popping in BruteSquad! The mind body connection has been discussed by philosophers for millennia and probed by scientists with pointy electrified metal for centuries and I'm not sure we are any closer to good answers about how it all fits together. Fascinating though! I love scientists that experiment on themselves. So much good has come out of it... X-rays, small pox vaccines, and something to do with scientist more recently giving themselves stomach ulcers and worms to test solutions - Love it!

Today I am all for antibiotics! As I am back on the type I had mid year after my sinus infection coming back with a dizzying addition and bastard of a headache a day after the last ABs finished. No PT last night and day off work today so am trying to take it easy.

This challenge may need some tweaking of the numbers to take illness into account when the wash up happens in a couple of days. It has gone quite well in general and once again has made for some great learning about myself. So, really the numbers are of less importnace than the outcome. I am beginning to think about the next challenge and how to use what I have learned about myself to create good goals.

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Thinking of buying this bike...

http://www.myjamis.com/SSP%20Applications/JamisBikes/MyJamis/consumer/bike.html?year=2013&model=Bosanova&cat_grp=road_9

It only comes in grey, but the more I look at it the more I see old school batman grey/black and a hint of golden yellow.

 

I don't know much about bikes but that one looks sweet. Amy has a Jamis and I really like it. I just have to jack the seat way up when I steal it from her.   :D

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Followed your link then got caught up in the bike porn. I want to get a new bike around Christmas, but I'm really indecisive. I want to make a good choice but don't know what I want.

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I rode it today... It is sweet! Oh the hills are so much easier even without clips... Sigh, so lovely. I am picking it up on Saturday and getting it tweaked and fitted. Very excited!!!

Skywalker, get into some local bike shops and talking to the mad blokes who work there... Then you will have something to think about. They know the area, the types of tracks you want to ride and what you usually ride and will give a good starting point. I thought I wanted a road bike til I started asking questions. Yes, I want to ride local. No, I don't just want a new bike for Sunday best. Ok, so not a road bike then...

I need to write a sum up of this challenge. I won't be reweighing and measuring as it is Shark Week so nothing will be accurate... And I need to catch up all your threads full of end of challenge win!

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I am glad you are getting the bike!  I am glad you are excited and looking forward.  I am thinking of the down moments not all that long ago....and THRILLED that you have found your passion and are pursuing it!

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That looks pretty sweet. You must be very excited.

 

 

I am glad you are getting the bike!  I am glad you are excited and looking forward.  I am thinking of the down moments not all that long ago....and THRILLED that you have found your passion and are pursuing it!

 

:glee: I AM Excited!  :smiley_simmons:

...it it still hard sometimes Brute, when I see the running feats of other people, but I will get away from Zombies way quicker on my bike than they will running (maybe, assuming my bike is close to hand... and it's not too steep a hill!).

 

Big post wrap up to follow!

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Chapter 3:

 

 

Main Quest: Comfortably complete 100km bike ride. October 20th. 

 

My training.

My nutrition.

My recovery.

 

Goal 1: My training.

I have a training plan. The last time I had a plan like this I did sweet FA of it and managed ok. I want to manage better than ok. This ride isn't as hilly as the last long one I did, but I want to enjoy it. That means serious preparation. Well, semi-serious at least. 

 

Complete 3/4 of first 6 weeks of training plan. 

>18 = STR 2 & STA 2         17 = 3         16 = 2.5       15 = 2       14 = 1.5       13 = 1       12 = 0.5 

 

What happened? I got sick. How do I score it now... Hmmm. The rides that were important to me were the build up 25, 50, 75 and getting them in early. To have done a 74km ride fairly easily 9 weeks out has made me happy. Being sick has been a crap balance between keeping going, rest and getting the right antibiotics. So, I did ok when I was feeling well but less when I was crook. I only missed one PT session and they are definitely helping my cycling, strengthening my legs... But I didn't add them into the goal which, on reflection was probably daft. Good theme, poor execution - I'm going with half points 1 STR & 1 STA as the main aim was to get started with semi serious preparation and that I have done. I guess I am looking to the future now. I have 4 weeks to get bike speed in my legs before tapering and am picking up my new bike on Saturday... Exciting things ahead!

 

Goal 2: My nutrition. CON 4 & WIS 1

Each time I eat something that requires attention, it must get it by answering the following questions.

 

Day, Date, Time

What did I eat:

What was I thinking:

Describe current feelings - Physical:

Describe current feelings - Emotional:

What was happening around me: 

Note any effects of the food: 

 

I suspect this is going to be a pain in the arse, which will make mindless eating of crap no longer mindless. Food Ireaaaaally felt I needed will provide data for unlocking cue and reward systems with my eating habits thus allowing for improved challenges and success in the future. 

 

100% = CON 4 & WIS 1      90% = CON 4     80% = CON 3      70% = CON 2      60% = CON 1

 

WIN! 

Ah, message may be getting though! I made notes for most of the challenge and the patterns seemed to appear like looking through a kaleidoscope. Eat gluten, feel physically bad. Feel sooky, eat sweet things. Tired or low energy, make bad choices the prop up crash with caffeine. Sugar has an effect but things are far worse when it is sugar AND gluten is combined no matter how awesome it tastes. The future? Give a gluten free diet a fair crack. Keep watching the sugar. Try small amounts of good looking glutinous stuff and if it is REALLY good, have a small amount or suffer the consequences. I managed this yesterday at a provided lunch and today at morning tea, it worked well. Got to keep it going and embed it fully in my life.

 

My recovery.

Adding way more cycling to my usual routine of 2 x PT, 1 x TKD & 1 x Yoga will need some attention to recovery. I need to take more care of my muscles than I remember to currently to prevent the painful, groaning zombie walk on waking. 
 
Yoga / Stretch / Foam roll / bath or spa after (immediately or next morning after) most exercise sessions.
 
>30 = DEX 4       30 = 3      20 = 2     10 = 1 
 
Erm... Well according to my own scoring system, I did better than I thought. It would give me 2 DEX points for 22 recovery events. Most of my recovery was sleep and more sleep, and not exercising... Future? Gotta find something that works. My first challenge, rolling was so painful but I got it done. I'd really like to have a morning routine of stretching or rolling but am not sure I have the oomph for it. 
 
SIDE QUESTs:
Me time Vs Screen time! 
Could be considered as part of recovery as both these lead to rest/sleep.
 
"School" nights 5/7:
9PM - electronic devices to sleep
11PM - absolute latest for TV 
 
30 = 1 CHA for being well rested.
Well rested I have been. Still felt like crap for a lot of it but I was getting to bed early enough to be waking at dawn each morning. Not sick enough to sleep in but had a few arvo cat naps. Electronic devices was tricky and I developed a habit of waking up by dozily catching up on the webs while the non LOL cat demands breakfast. 
 
READ! 5/7 days
15 minutes minimum outside work for pleasure (newspaper/fiction/NF/comics all acceptable if paper based).
 
30 = 1 WIS for like smartness ya know? WIN - it probably wasn't that hard but it was good to make a commitment to getting away from the screen.
 
Mini challenges - not so much, got the first one in... Really wanted to tidy for mini challenge 4. Last week I got it half cleaned, enough to sit and get stuff done but nowhere near complete :(
Mini-challenge 1: Got my goals up and motivation written onto calendars for August +1 WIS
Mini-challenge 1b: Got amongst it and joined the Level Up Down Under acountibilibuddies and made some new friends on both the Adventurers and Newbies guilds. +1 CHA
 
Totals? I gotta change my sig and... 2 DEX, 1 STR, 1 STA, 4 CON, 3 WIS, 2 CHA
 
Levelling up? Tell ya what, I had to shop for new clothes. Thankfully shoulders keep all my tops on but I'm struggling with the dacks! People ask if I have lost weight and I love telling them 'nup, I've put on weight!'. Then I tell them about my awesome muscles and the fat that is disappearing. More than one person has commented on the changes during this challenge. Just like our transformer buddy Optimus Prime, change IS happening slow and steady step by step, and it feels good. There have been lots of awesome changes to my thinking during this challenge and things are sticking. Slow and steady makes me impatient, but I have to remind myself that I am looking for sustainable change. I asked my PT if she reckoned I should keep or get rid of the clothes that are now too big for me. She asked if I intended to go back to that shape. No, no I'm not, this is a life(style) I am changing by experimenting, finding what works and sticking with it because it feels good. 
 
...and whilst I do have decent support to make change, so I am better off than many doing it alone, I really appreciate your support through the ups and downs. Your inspiration, ideas, support and humour make this process so much easier and for that I thank you all!

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Hey, nice new bike!

Well done for sticking to your cycle training plan as much as you could while being sick. It's easy to let stuff go when your feeling blurg.

That was a productive food goal in two ways. First you are really changing your body as you can tell with the new clothes, and you have a better understanding about what is working and what is sabotaging.

Well done on the resting goal as well. I'd find that really hard, but it would be very helpful.

Good job and keep up the training!

I might see you out on the track :D

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woah, look at you cracking it all up in here!!  You've done fantastically WCG. 

 

Can i recommend that seeing as your endurance race is towards the end of the next challenge, you join the scouts for that challenge.  You never know what cool info and ideas they can give you for the cycle.  You're obvs welcome to stay with us or move onto somewhere else, but i thought that you might like it there for a challenge :)

 

Good luck and we're looking forward to seeing your time at the end of the next challenge.

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