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Ensi's Challenge #2 - Finding Inner Peace

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GL with the Finnish exam.  I tend to just write journal-ish stuff, and then I take the material and write a short story or two based on it.  However there were 3 ideas that I've kicked around in my head for well over 5+ years for whole books but I've never bothered.  I'm way too critical of myself.  I'll write a chapter, then reread it later and hate it; then usually delete most of it.  But I know exactly what I want to have happen so I have a skeleton for the books themselves.

 

I was making fun of my g/f for reading those cheesy romance novels and she said, "well you try and do better".  And I said out loud most of a story right then and there.  she said, "you really need to write that because I would so read it."  I guess I just doubt myself too much.

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GL with the Finnish exam.  I tend to just write journal-ish stuff, and then I take the material and write a short story or two based on it.  However there were 3 ideas that I've kicked around in my head for well over 5+ years for whole books but I've never bothered.  I'm way too critical of myself.  I'll write a chapter, then reread it later and hate it; then usually delete most of it.  But I know exactly what I want to have happen so I have a skeleton for the books themselves.

 

I was making fun of my g/f for reading those cheesy romance novels and she said, "well you try and do better".  And I said out loud most of a story right then and there.  she said, "you really need to write that because I would so read it."  I guess I just doubt myself too much.

 

It seems like there are many people who struggle with self critisism! Just keep writing, and try to stop being too critical. Take 20 minutes or so, and during that time you only write what you want and you're not allowed to erase anything. Try and see, where that takes you :)

I'm sorry I've been inactive for a couple of days, but my dad was in town and I've been socialising a lot. The heat in my apartment also makes it a bit tiresome to spend time on the computer... Nevertheless, the Finnish exam was a great success and I'm now allowed to study it this winter! That alleviates my stress a lot, I tell you...

 

argh, I can't concentrate at the moment: it's too hot in here! I'll come back later to finish the post ;)

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Hi guys! It's been a very exciting week for me, but here I am. :D

 

First of all, the weather has been very hot, and spending time on computer hasn't been a very appealing an idea. Also, my dad was in town (he bought me a lot of movie tickets ;___; I'm so happy!), so I spent my days with him. And thirdly, there was this very important Finnish entrance exam on Monday, and I was very stressed before I got the results on Thursday. All in all, I can sense that I'm a little exhausted, but it's all good now: I passed the exam and I'm now allowed to study Finnish :) Hurah for that!

 

When it comes to my diet, there's nothing much to report. I'm feeling alright, only the exhaustion makes my stomach hurt a little and I'm feeling tired. I'm also a little bloated, but that's just hormonal stuff. I made some cabbage stew yesterday with gorund meat, and I'm probably gonna have some of that later today :)

 

I've done two kettlebell workouts this week. Yesterday I used my 16 kg (32 lbs) kettlebell for some exercises, and let me tell you: if 16 kg of black steel don't show you who's the boss, then no one will! I was disgustingly sweaty, but happy :D Today's been a rest day, and I did 30 minutes of yoga. Here's a brilliant exercise for beginners: the instructor is very clear with what's going on, and kind of humorous, too! I'll definitely try this one out again :)

 

 

Today I've also spent my time on planning my studies which start next week. I know that I won't probably have much time to report next week, but I'll do my best to come here when I can. Only one week to go, and I'm not dropping out.

 

See you! :)

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16kg kettlebells is the sh*t. I'm thinking about slowly upgrading to 18kg but 16kg definitely shows you who's the boss. Although my 16kg is of bright yellow colour so it looks like I'm playing with children's toys haha.

 

Congrats on passing exam!!

 

Glad to see everything is going fine and I completely understand you for not wanting to spend your time on your computer :) I'll have a look at that yoga video during the time between challenges - always good to try something new.

 

Good luck with the last week! :)

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Congrats on passing your exam!! So proud of you.

 

And thanks for the yoga video I am totally going to do it when I have recovered from my cold.

 

Glad you are determined to keep up with the challenge and looking forward to your update!

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Thanks, everyone! :) I've started a couple of Finnish courses now, and so far it has been brilliant. It seems that I'll have an interesting winter coming up :) 

 

18 kg sounds brutal, laura! It's gonna take a while to get there, but I'm sure it'll happen in time. :D I went to my university's kettlebell class on Monday, and we had 8 kg kettlebells that were PINK! It was kind of sweet, seeing a hall full of people with pink kettlebells... I used a blue one of 12 kg as well, though. My 16 kg kettlebell here at home is made of black metal, of course. u__u

 

terosx, I only use my 16 kg kettlebell for only a couple of exercises at the moment, like the basic kettlebell swing. I also use it when I squat, or hold onto it while doing reverse crunches :D I usually do some of these exercises with my 10 and 12 kg bells. I'm sure that a 20-pound-warhammer doesn't take any BS from anyone, either o__o I'd love to try warhammer sometime!

 

 

Thanks, gypsy! And the video is a very simple beginner yoga routine, it doesn't require much physical strenght. It's good for relaxation and stretching :)

 

So, this far it's been a good week. It's been a little stressful, but it's been more positive than negative stress, and nothing I can't handle. I'm a little bloated and anxious (thank you, hormones), so I'm taking it easy for a couple of days. As said, I did a kettlebell workout on Monday, and I'm very pleased to see that my university has hired a professional instructor for the kettlebell classes :) I'm going to attend the classes on Mondays and Wednesdays, and I need to see what else I'd like to have in my time table from university sports... Aaaa I'm so happy to have everything in order now!! I still don't know if I made it to creative writing or not, but it's not a big deal right now if I didn't. I'll know by this Friday.

 

OK, now it's time to get to know some history of French literature and listen to Pacific Rim soundtrack (Ramin Djawadi has truly become one of my favourite composers these days). I wish you all good luck with your final week! :)

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I was wrong earlier: they didn't pick 25 people out of over 100 to study creative writing, but only 16. And I made it. I am now a student of creative writing. SO HAPPY! :D

Apart from that, it's been a little stressful (relationships...) and my virus is acting up a bit, but I've done two kettlebell workouts this week and I'll probably do a third one today or tomorrow. I've been doing the yoga workout I linked earlier almost every day, and it's all cool. I'll come report the final results next Monday :)

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Thank you, terosx! :) Unfortunately I'll be writing mostly in Finnish, but if I ever find myself wanting to write a poem or other stuff in English, I'll let you know!

 

OK, so. The challenge is over, and I'm here to report. I'm just gonna wrap this up nice and simple:

 

#1 Eat clean foods with less carbs

The word I'd like to use to describe this goal is "process". I've learnt a few new recipes with which I've replaced my dairy snacks, and I very rarely eat sweets anymore. I think I have a better picture of what all different foods do to my health than at the beginning of this challenge. I have no record of last week, though, but I'm going to evaluate this on a whole now.

I still find it scary to try new foods, but I've made a huge progress during the challenge. I even bought two avocados and I've eaten them without much anxiety. I also drank some tea that I was afraid to try a few days ago, so that's a big step. This has been a very educational challenge, and I'm going to give it a B.

That means 2,25 points to CON. I'm pleased with this and I will keep working on my diet! :)

 

#2 Exercise!

OK, this is the part of my challenge that rocked. At the beginning I felt like I couldn't run because my knees, but in the past few weeks I've ran four times, and at least 20 minutes straight each time. I'm also seeing awesome progress with kettlebell: yesterday I actually swinged my 32 lbs bell for two minutes in total, I only had a small break between each minute. I could barely swing 40 seconds at the beginning of the challenge.

I'm rating this A+ 2 points to STR, +2 points to STA.

 

#3 Mindfulness

I've calmed down a lot during this challenge. I found a very good instructed yoga video a couple of weeks ago and I'm following it about every two days. I remember a point during this challenge when I actually tasted the food I was eating! So eating is no longer a scary necessity, it's just... well, eating.

I'm rating this A+ 3 points to WIS, + 2 points to DEX.

 

#4 Start a website (life goal)

This one didn't quite go according to plan! :D I found out that I can't really make my own HTML pages on Webs, so I just created a dA account. I'll find another way to learn HTML later... I uploaded three drawings on my dA account. Can't be helped, I'll do better next time.

I'm rating this D for effort :D

 

I want to thank everyone for your support, I probably wouldn't have followed this challenge through without you! I still have much to learn, but I'm not sure if I'll have the time to take part in the next challenge. My studies are taking a huge part of my time for now, and after my last winter of being sick I want to concentrate on rocking mah grades. Nevertheless, I will lurk here and keep tracking my progress in my daily battle log :)

 

Rebel on!

 

ED;

What I said six weeks ago: "Also, I want to run in the forests again as I used to."

Well, I'm pleased to inform you that I have went for a run in the forests a couple of times now. Hard work pays off, let's never forget that.

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Glad to see you did so well.  I'm actually dreading the new 6 week challenge because I've started the whole 30 and it's a HUGE HUGE HUUUUUGE pain.  I'll still be making a accountability group though and chugging along.  Hope to see you for the next 1 :)

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