Kibcy's 7th challenge: Keeping it going

[Siferiax]

Sooo... I kind of dropped off the face of the earth... But then I saw the latest NF article, so I decided to climb on board with this challenge after all.

A fair warning / some notes:

I haven't been active, I won't be active.

I've been having some emotional difficulties (I guess that's the story of my life, to be fair) and I'm just barely on top of them and I like to not sink back.

This means I'll only be active on my own thread. I'm only active here, because I've enjoyed doing challenges.

If you want to talk to me, discuss something, ask me something, etc, not related to my thread, please just send me a private message.

I will try to respond to comments on my thread, but I may not reply to all of them / all the time.

I am not on any special diet, I eat whatever I damn well want. Healthy for me is not eating things everyone (and any "diet") deem unhealthy. Think fried foods, candy, soda, etc.

As such, I don't need/take well to diet suggestions/criticism. Yes I want to improve my eating, no I don't want to improve it your way.

My exercise/fitness level is extremely low compared to other people around here. For me it's essential I move as many days of the week as possible, rather than moving a lot or doing a "workout".

Now that that's out of the way! Let's move on.

Main Quest

I have a few quests I would like to complete, but I guess I'm suppose to just pick one.

I'm going to go with my DIET. It needs work, forever.

My ultimate main quest would be to consistently stay below 80kg, to do so I will need to work on my diet. (I'll be honest, I weight more now than I did over a year ago starting NF)

I've moved away from all my crazy tracking activities, but still can't seem to stop my habit of weighing myself every morning.

So we get a good start point I suppose: 79.7kg this morning.

I only record my weight once a month these days though. (the first of each month)

Soooo for these 6 weeks:

On September 1st I weigh less than 80kg.

Mission One

Completely ditch vending machine snacks. (I was back up to eating 2-3 a day, what?!)

I have been able to do so before, I can do again. They are unnecessary, I don't need any snacks.

Success is: No snacks consumed in at least the last two weeks of the challenge

Mission Two

Get my lunch figured out.

My lunch is still a guessing game beyond my milk, and two pieces of fruit. I've taken up eating a croissant with butter actually... which is better than a chocolate bun I would assume (the bun had chocolate in it and was completely covered in chocolate as well, bring on the calories!)

I had two buns with chocolate paste yesterday.

I need to figure out what will keep me going through the afternoon, and would be not super unhealthy. This will require me to experiment. I will need more than 1 option too.

Success is: having a couple of alternatives at the end of the challenge that I can feel good about eating (that don't trigger guilt mode)

Mission Three

Use my crock pot.

I got one for my birthday (July 14th) and I haven't been able to use it yet, as I've been putting off buying an adapter. So I need to go buy that, and then use the damn thing!

Success is: using it at least once.

Fitness Side Quest

Successfully complete the GMB Movement Multivitamin.

Week 2 just started and it's basically a new move to practice 6 days a week.

I successfully completed week 1 already and been having great fun!

And that'll be all. I need to write down and post my reasons why, I'll see about doing that at home, as I have a few restrictions about that at work.

Here's my reasons though anyway.

- I want to get fit so that I can do the things I feel like doing and not being held back by lack of physical ability.

- I want to lose weight/stay below 80kg to feel great and healthy.

- I want to learn to eat good food, to enjoy all matters of dishes and food and not feel anxious whenever I'm eating out.

Yeah I don't have any spectacular reasons... Maybe I'll find better ways to put this down at home.

[Wild Wolf]

I've missed ya, Kibcy. No need to respond, but I wanted to let you know! I love your goals as usual, and will be rooting for you to kick ass with class

 

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!!!!

 

WOLF

[Siferiax]

I've missed ya, Kibcy. No need to respond, but I wanted to let you know! I love your goals as usual, and will be rooting for you to kick ass with class

 

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!!!!

 

WOLF

Likewise Wolf! Thank you!!

Haha super late But it's appreciated

[milythael]

I love your goals.  You do the best job of making them personal to your challenges, and all about what you need to work on, not what someone else thinks you need to work on.  I really look up to that.

[Elastigirl]

Glad you are here. Looks like a great challenge. The GMB multi vitamin looks fun!

[lyranedara]

Hi, Kibcy. Just wanted to wish you good luck! If you feel up to sharing info about the movement multivitamin, I'd love to follow along with your journey.

[Bekah]

Hiya Kibcy!!! I had no idea you were an Assassin I love your goals also. I'm sorry you have been struggling so much with everything lately

I love the idea of the GMB Movement Multivitamin, Its great how something small can be so big at the same time. I will be here cheering you on too!

[Siferiax]

I love your goals.  You do the best job of making them personal to your challenges, and all about what you need to work on, not what someone else thinks you need to work on.  I really look up to that.

 

Thank you!! And yeah I discovered that the only way that actually works for me, is my way. So I stopped looking at everyone else's ways.

 

Glad you are here. Looks like a great challenge. The GMB multi vitamin looks fun!

 

Thank you! It is so much fun!! And because it's something to look forward to every day, like what's today's move gonna be? I keep doing it

 

Hi, Kibcy. Just wanted to wish you good luck! If you feel up to sharing info about the movement multivitamin, I'd love to follow along with your journey.

 

Thanks!!

It's basically a new movement every day and really focuses on playing and having fun moving. Not focused on reps, sets, or doing exactly the thing they tell you to do. Just have fun

 

Hiya Kibcy!!! I had no idea you were an Assassin I love your goals also. I'm sorry you have been struggling so much with everything lately

I love the idea of the GMB Movement Multivitamin, Its great how something small can be so big at the same time. I will be here cheering you on too!

Hi! HAH! Been an assassin for 6 challenges, only my first I was a ranger.

Thank you!

Yeah well, not so much struggling, as finding ways to keep everything together. So I need to keep those ways in mind with whatever I do. Not exposing myself to too many erhm, what's the word... social drama? I don't know. I should probably first deal with my social anxiety problems, before handling social

Thank you!! It's a lot of fun

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So okay. I'm TIRED. Which is to say my body is exhausted by the strain on my immune system.

Things kind of all fall together with me. So my period is coming up, throwing off my emotional balance, which is not actually a balance already. And then I also have an ear infection/inflammation.

Despite this, and it was worse yesterday, I still did my movement multivitamin and even my house chores, and I'm kind of really proud of that, because all I wanted to do was sit down and never get up again.

The movement was sorta frog jumps. I do make videos, but I'm not posting those... because they're awful. Because you know they include me, and most of my rear end, I don't wanna give you all nightmares

Okay I'm kidding. Maybe I'll post videos after editing them and you know, making them presentable.

Anyway, the idea was to add a twist to them, but my ankle disagreed. Not sure what's wrong with it, but it's been a bother for several days now.

OH WELL! 2,5 weeks to my big vacation! You have no idea how much I look forward to having three weeks off work!

Hmmm now that I think about it... that makes Mission 1 ridiculously easy XD I won't have that blasted vending machine in my way at the end of the challenge. hmmmm... I need to consider that.

I will just keep it... but no snacks wherever they come from.

Like last Saturday. I was walking with my mom and she said "well keep going then we're gonna eat an ice cream on the way home". And I refused. Luckily my mom understands and supports my journey, she's done/doing it herself. So she was immediately like "okay, no ice cream".

I just had 2 big glasses of water when we were back home. Suited me just fine. I didn't miss having ice cream (okay to be fair, there was ice cream with dinner but that wasn't a snack, but part of my dinner)

You know what I feel is really hard to get right? A chicken leg. Like that it's all done on the inside as well.

You know what my favorite meat is? A chicken leg.

So I'm hell bend on finding the secret to perfect chicken legs

I was suppose to order the crock pot adapter on Monday. It's now Wednesday, I still haven't.

Maybe NEXT MONTH *facepalm* That's what happened with having to take my cat to the vet for yearly shots. My cat mostly stays inside, so it's not that urgent... but hey.

I went to the vet last Monday... so that was a stressing adventure for both of us. His little heart was racing the vet said... well so was mine! I don't even know why.

Okay okay... I'll finish up babbling... gosh... *spills guts*

LIKE FRESH SPAGHETTI! Oh... uchem. That was a game reference... never mind.

Another little thing, I have the goal to walk a 10km route by August 14th. So coming weekend my mom and I are gonna walk a 10km route! (last Saturday was the 7.5km route, though we walked more)

In her town they've set out some running routes from 2.5km all the way up to 21km. But of course you can also walk them!

I'm not very convincing in my "I'm a mess" message, am I?

Well just typing this costs me nothing, it's stress free... It's the interacting and reading and what not that's costing me.

Actually writing stuff out is kind of therapeutic. Unless I type bad stuff I shouldn't relive. SO I TRY TO KEEP ON THE HAPPY SIDE OF STUFF TO WRITE ABOUT!

Either way I should probably start with work now.

[Siferiax]

https://www.dropbox.com/s/o1ki7quw7p5xdtu/KibcyAdventureLog.docx

I made an adventure log Like an overview off all challenges I've done so far.

I left my life goals out of it, because those are not things I should turn to goals, for various reasons.

So yes, I had some fun making this

[Wild Wolf]

I love a good chicken leg OR Turkey leg... Mmmmmmm, yummy! *drool* The farmers around the area have to keep their chickens cooped up like Fort Knox...This Wolf isn't your typical canine

 

WOLF

[Bekah]

You have the most positive outlook on things You can do this!! I totally understand hormonal issues fueled by autoimmune struggles and add any other tiny negative to that, and its like a bomb exploding! Hugs!!

Lol you would think the constant GMB references in your challenges would have clued me into your guild, but nope...I am by definition, an idiot, so there you go! lol

Fried chicken legs...oil temperature consistency is crucial, and I let them sit out for a half hour or so before cooking them. This is one of my favorite recipes. If you just want chicken legs, and dont care how they are prepared, baking and crockpotting them is super simple and BBQ chicken in the crockpot is soooooooo good!

How 'bout ordering that adapter today??

I love that there are running/walking trails put in by the town, I WISH we had that here! and a 10k is no small feat! ^5!!!

[Siferiax]

Cat pee. That's what I was dealing with last night. Or rather, found on my carpet. I don't have carpet cleaning stuff, because I never actually needed it before. So a trip to the store will be needed today.

In better news, this morning was official weigh in day! 79.5kg and 28.5% BF! These are great numbers.

The best numbers of this year! First time for a 1st of the month that I'm below 80! Now I just need to not let it creep back up again, as it has been doing a lot...

Date Weight

1-Jan-13 81,1

1-Feb-13 80,2

1-Mar-13 80,7

1-Apr-13 81,5

1-May-13 81,5

1-Jun-13 80,1

1-Jul-13 80,2

1-Aug-13 79,5

There you go

I was tired enough yesterday to go to sleep right after getting home.

I'm doing slightly better today. My ear is slightly less swollen as well

@Bekah: I don't know much about English cooking terms and everything, so I'm quite unsure of what you're even saying. Thanks for trying to help though.

[Siferiax]

Let's do a little dance, because it's Friday! (actually I'm bored out of my skull, and for once not guilty, because I was productive and even finished something).

This morning was the first morning this year that I didn't weigh myself, while I did have the option. My mind was playing elsewhere... so my routine was all messed up... so the habit... didn't happen XD

This is okay, because I've gone to once a month weigh ins.

Still have been doing GMB, BUT... this week has been all about squatting... and apparently my ankle is a mess for I don't know what reason. So I've been doing the work, only way cut down and carefully. For the most part squatting is fine, just not TURNING on my bend ankle. OUCH.

But I'm having so much fun!!! I keep looking forward to it each day! My bear crawl have improved so much and I enjoy doing those a lot! And otherwise I sporadically come back to previous moments.

Yesterday I did a backward shoulder roll... sort of... in slow motions. But it was awesome that I managed!

And I tried to really get up straight on my shoulders, which was really hard, but I managed quite a lot better than before. (this move would be your whole body up straight in the air while resting on your shoulders/neck/head... the end progression is having your feet on the floor behind you.)

[Siferiax]

10km walking in my pocket

average speed was 5.18km/h so I'm pleased.

have a good day.

[Siferiax]

So far this week has been sucky.

Because come on, else I might actually start to think I might get better.

My social anxiety got to spin the wheels yesterday.

My team lead came to have a word with me about my vacation.

About who is replacing me during my vacation, and that this person is off work on Monday.

This person is ALWAYS off work on Monday. My team lead signed off on my vacation.

But suddenly, this was my problem?!

1. it's not a problem I created

2. it's not my responsibility to have this place staffed

3. I've been on vacation before, including not being there on Monday's

AKA go talk with my replacement about it, and not me!! I can't do anything about the fact that he's not there!

Besides the fact that if my team lead's replacement would be on vacation, he'd still take the Wednesday off, because hell his rules don't apply to him.

(for example, and this really happened, a coworker of mine wasn't allowed a 4 week vacation. My team lead was all about how it's too long and for certain monthly processes, etc. Then my team lead goes on a 4 week vacation. I'm sorry, but if you're someone's boss, that's not how you treat people!)

Anyway... hooray.

I also had an incident with litter box filling the other day. Very charming. Got me angry, until I decided it was a pointless emotion and just focused on cleaning up expensive, not before used, litter box filling.

I'm still GMB'ing it up though. Even though it's like about 5 minutes a day.

That's about what I can manage... unless it's walking around, apparently.

I want to go to the gym today. I would go to class today, but it's canceled due to summer.

Normally I'd go to class on Saturday, but I quit. Which has to do that I don't like spinning all that much, actually at all. So I quit. I want to do the body pump only class, but they're evening classes. The only option is Tuesday's at 6pm, but that one is canceled during the summer. Bummer.

So I'm just going to go and do my own thing. Probably rowing. I still feel very uncomfortable about the weights section. Mostly because it's super busy and I have no idea what to do. Or rather I have an idea of what to do, but I feel foolish. I'll just blame it on my social anxiety, which finds its basis for a large part in a fear of being judged.

So there you go.

Which is probably the reason I have so much trouble going to the gym. There are other people I don't know there. I don't know anyone there. Therefore it is super scary to go.

I need someone to come with me, I have no one to come with me, and that person would probably get upset with me, for being super clingy.

And when I say I have no one to come with me, I don't mean that nobody wants to come with me, I mean that I have no one to ask to come with me. My real life social life doesn't exist! I don't have real life friends/family. I have my parents, but my dad doesn't work out, and my mom only has time on the weekends, but not always.

Anyway. Yes. Struggles. But nothing major. No events at work fortunately.

*shrug* I can't focus on my work, so that doesn't help either. I don't have much work, so that sucks also.

I wish to be done with work before my vacation. And... idk complain afterward of being bored.

[Bekah]

^5 on the walking AND in dealing with an iritating work situation AND not getting overwhelmed with the litter box snafu! You say you aren't doing well but I disagree entirely, those are very positive steps You may just be getting better Ma'am

[Siferiax]

No that's where you're wrong.

Yesterday I wanted to murder my cat... which had nothing to do with my cat, but that's how stressed out I was.

So to avoid murdering my cat I left the house and went to the gym.

That did help some, but I have some stress/anxiety to process.

Going to the gym raised my anxiety, but when I arrived it was really really quiet in the gym. Only a couple of people. So that was nice.

There was a girl doing squats, so I was all impressed.

[Siferiax]

So glad vacation is getting closer and closer. I so totally need a break!

[cobaltsword]

Kib i'm so sorry that i missed your challenge up till now, i coudn't find it

real sad that you're not feeling great :/ i really hope you'll get better soon

but you're challenge up to now looks great, just keep going ^^

[Bekah]

No that's where you're wrong.Yesterday I wanted to murder my cat... which had nothing to do with my cat, but that's how stressed out I was.So to avoid murdering my cat I left the house and went to the gym.That did help some, but I have some stress/anxiety to process.Going to the gym raised my anxiety, but when I arrived it was really really quiet in the gym. Only a couple of people. So that was nice.There was a girl doing squats, so I was all impressed.

The key phrase "So, to avoid murdering my cat, I left the house and went to the gym" THAT is positive If the number of times we wanted to kill someone was indicative of our mental state as a whole, we could just change my name to Hannibal. Seriously, there are days I want to murder my children bc Im stressed, but that just means today was a difficult one, not that you arent doing anything positive.

Giant hugs! I hope are having a fantastic relaxing vacation!

[Siferiax]

Last week of work to get through.

Today I can literally not do anything... so I have bugged and helped my coworker a little with his job (which is totally different from mine... haha)

I also have a problem, not yet solved, I have to go to the doctor to talk about my bowel problems. And I only have laxatives left for tomorrow.

BUT Starting today the office is closed till August 30th.

So even though it said "emergency only", I called another office I've been delegated to for the time being.

I got voice mail that it was busy and to call back later. Upon which connection was closed. (unless it was life-threatening and then you had to press a number... though I don't get that anyway, you call 911 in that case, at least that's what I think )

I didn't go to the gym Saturday... which means I have 1 lesson to spare AGAIN... and I already have enough days skipped that the rest of the weeks left I can go twice a week, even though I have a subscription for once a week.

And it's not like I didn't go for any valid reason....... or even any excuse........

At least I'm not trying to murder my cat anymore...

Still quite stressed, probably, but my stress usually tends to hide.

[Siferiax]

I've dropped off the face of the Nerd Fitness... as well as other planets.

I've made great gains with walking. Now up to the 12.5 km route in my parents' town. Though mom and me start from my parents' house, so total it's about 14 km.

I've made great losses on my diet. I don't remember the last time I ate any vegetables.

I've eaten meat thanks to eating out with my parents... but for the most part I've been surviving on a weird combination of cookies, corn chips, bread, chocolate, and something I think is similar to oatmeal.

Yesterday I had my regular cereal & yoghurt breakfast for the first time in 3 weeks, since I was on vacation and my meal times were messed up along with what I had for them. Then I didn't eat lunch, because I was busy with work and had nobody to go with me. Then around 2:30 pm (I ate breakfast around 6:10 am) I went to the vending machine and got 2 "stroopwafels". When I left work around 4:45 pm (yikes it was late haha), I got a "gevulde koek".

Then I went to the grocery store to get 3 items. I bought 3 items, but none were on my shopping list...

Anyway, I got a cheese croissant and a bag of corn chips.

That's literally what I ate yesterday.

September 1st I was 80.1 kg. Which was a huge surprise after 2 weeks of crap eating.

It makes me angry.

Basically I have to conclude I'm not eating enough calories to gain weight. And that I'm eating a lot of sugar apparently doesn't matter. My BF% hadn't changed much either....

I've been working on myself though.

I've been reading the book, The Happiness Trap and it's about ACT. Acceptance and Commitment Therapy.

Which often screams in the face of conventional psychology. However I feel like it's much more effective.

I feel that thanks to the methods presented in the book and trying them, my emotions don't escalate quite as easily.

Of course I'm only just starting and often completely forget about the technique when an emotion comes on really strong and seemingly out of nowhere.

But it's been making me feel a bit better and more confident.

I highly recommend the book. It's very accessible.

On another note, I think I'm quitting Nerd Fitness. I don't get what I need here. So it's best for me to leave.

[cobaltsword]

I've dropped off the face of the Nerd Fitness... as well as other planets.

I've made great gains with walking. Now up to the 12.5 km route in my parents' town. Though mom and me start from my parents' house, so total it's about 14 km.

I've made great losses on my diet. I don't remember the last time I ate any vegetables.

I've eaten meat thanks to eating out with my parents... but for the most part I've been surviving on a weird combination of cookies, corn chips, bread, chocolate, and something I think is similar to oatmeal.

Yesterday I had my regular cereal & yoghurt breakfast for the first time in 3 weeks, since I was on vacation and my meal times were messed up along with what I had for them. Then I didn't eat lunch, because I was busy with work and had nobody to go with me. Then around 2:30 pm (I ate breakfast around 6:10 am) I went to the vending machine and got 2 "stroopwafels". When I left work around 4:45 pm (yikes it was late haha), I got a "gevulde koek".

Then I went to the grocery store to get 3 items. I bought 3 items, but none were on my shopping list...

Anyway, I got a cheese croissant and a bag of corn chips.

That's literally what I ate yesterday.

September 1st I was 80.1 kg. Which was a huge surprise after 2 weeks of crap eating.

It makes me angry.

Basically I have to conclude I'm not eating enough calories to gain weight. And that I'm eating a lot of sugar apparently doesn't matter. My BF% hadn't changed much either....

I've been working on myself though.

I've been reading the book, The Happiness Trap and it's about ACT. Acceptance and Commitment Therapy.

Which often screams in the face of conventional psychology. However I feel like it's much more effective.

I feel that thanks to the methods presented in the book and trying them, my emotions don't escalate quite as easily.

Of course I'm only just starting and often completely forget about the technique when an emotion comes on really strong and seemingly out of nowhere.

But it's been making me feel a bit better and more confident.

I highly recommend the book. It's very accessible.

On another note, I think I'm quitting Nerd Fitness. I don't get what I need here. So it's best for me to leave.

 

aaaw Kib you're leaving? so sad about that...who's gonna cheer my storyline on?

but I can understand that, for myself I tend 'not to need' the forums so much anymore to keep myself going nevertheless it's fun to be a part of the rebellion. I suppose that's just me wanting to always belong to a group. When I graduate i'm gonna join the Grand Commandery of Knights Templar eventually so

 

you'll be sorely missed Kib, hope you still keep on rocking. Best of luck