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Oooooh so cute!  Love it Jenn!       You have the best smile too!  I mean seriously.   I LOOOOOOOVE when you are smiling. :D

Awesome story about the eggs-man.  :)

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What a fun trip!

thanks for sharing the photos :)

 

and like you said It's a new week... Who cares if last week sucked diet wise? Keep moving forward :)

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Oooooh so cute!  Love it Jenn!       You have the best smile too!  I mean seriously.   I LOOOOOOOVE when you are smiling. :D

Awesome story about the eggs-man.  :)

 

thanks!!

 

I will probably let it go for a while again... although the boy who cut it says he should come back in a couple months... I told him this is the first year in over a decade where I have gotten it cut TWICE in a year.... sigh... 

 

 

I like my smile too it's one of the few things that I always think of in those "what are your three favorite things" (the first being my calves... the second being my eyes... the third being my smile.... just in case you were wondering...)

 

 

and... egg-man... just makes me cry to think of it :)

 

 

The hair is super super cute!!! Love it!!!!!

 

thanks LOD :)

 

I love it too

 

What a fun trip!

thanks for sharing the photos :)

 

and like you said It's a new week... Who cares if last week sucked diet wise? Keep moving forward :)

 

 

it is a new week... a new day... and luckily our mercies are renewed every morning!!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

so total disclosure time

 

 

those of you who have followed me for a while know that I have been kinda struggling.... the last challenge I kinda gave up half way through... (the bees didn't help) 

 

 

 

but... 

 

I am super depressed... like really really 

 

I feel incredibly ALONE all the time... it was worse at my friends house... she spent a lot of time in the room with her husband... and I am usually up WAY earlier than everyone else... even when I don't work... so I was waking up at like 0630 and she wouldn't wake until like at least 10...

 

so it's like... I am alone here... and I am alone there... and it seems like the one friend I have contact with here... his schedule has been super hectic... and I really only get to talk to him/see him about every three weeks.... 

 

 

and now it's officially winter... I will probably not get to see sunshine for any length of time for three weeks... it's usually dark as I am driving into work... and I have to go over a mountain to come home so it's usually foggy coming hom ein the morning even if the sun has come up yet... and then on my days off... I usually get up about 4-5 pm... and it's dark by 6 at the LATEST... 

 

I am trying to reach out and meet new people... but I am finding it very difficult... 

 

 

I feel like I want to be with people but then I feel like being with people is like being around energy vampires... and I find it VERY difficult.... 

 

 

I don't want to be alone... I don't wanna be with people... I have spent most of the last few days crying... I am super frustrated all the time.... and I am tired... 

 

I want to crawl under a rock and sleep until may.... 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I am going to start taking vit d DAILY (I have been taking it only when I work and last winter my vit d levels were less than 5... and apparently that's super bad... it's what I get for being NEON white and basically allergic to the sun.... super duper sensitive to sun poisoning... ) I am going to do this for three weeks starting today... if this super depressedness doesn't start to trend upwards then I will contact my doc... I need to make an appointment in dec or jan for my yearlies anyways... and need my yearly bloodworks... I have a feeling that my d is LOW LOW... 

 

 

 

so I have a plan... and I just have to get through the next few weeks... DEC is always hard for me... christmas... and winter... in Jan my dad will have been dead 30 years... and it just seems like everyone is so FAKE this time of year... 

 

 

sigh

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* There are three options in this life; be good, get good, or give up. -- House * Never take counsel of your fears. Stonewall Jackson. 

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* I'm not about to give up - Because I heard you say - There's gonna be brighter days… I won't stop, I'll keep my head up - No, I'm not here to stay ...  - 

 I just might bend but I won't break - As long as I can see your face - When life won't play along - And right keeps going wrong - And I can't seem to find my way - I know where I am found - So I won't let it drag me down - Oh, I'll keep dancing anyway - Mercy Me - Move

 

 

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*hugs Jenn*

 

The last two days I've felt very much the same.   Just super depressed and weighed down.   I even sat there telling myself, 'Why are you being like this?  Count your blessings.  Change your perspective.  Get up, move, do.'    And I couldn't overcome the overwhelming panic of winter coming and the heaviness in my chest.    (Today's gym workout helped a ton, but... back to the point.)

 

I too think my D level is low, and just today took my 2000mg of Vitamin D at work.  (And had my Verilux lights going full blast.)    I also know how it is to come up on the holidays when they might be a source of sad memories as much as they should be happy.   Christmas Eve will be the 23rd anniversary of my mom's passing, and my dad has been retired in Florida for 15 years now, so he's not physically around for the holidays.   My family is super close, so I have that as a refuge, but it's hard to watch sometimes, everyone else go about the holiday, and running through the motions because it's just 'What you do'.   It's always easier for the people who're missing something, to notice the things that others take for granted.  

 

There's one good thing though... 17 days until the days start getting longer again. :)   You have a solid plan.   Feel free to lean my way if you need some reinforcement or propping up.   We'll make it through the winter Jenn.   Because we like to kick donkey.

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"It is difficult.  All things worth keeping are."  Thane Krios - Mass Effect 2

"Maybe it's not as simple as you imagined, Seeker."  Varric Tethras Dragon Age 2

"Staying within your limits is no fun, Ryder."  Vetra Nyx - ME: Andromeda

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17 days... 17 days... 17 days

 

 

 

I will just keep repeating that... 

 

 

I also keep repeating "this is because of neurochemicals and is not ME" I also keep trying to remind myself that I HAVE depression and I am NOT depressed... it's a subtle distinction... but it helps me to think that depression is like the flu... I know it's something that I can overcome... because I HAVE overcome it in the past... 

 

 

 

 

it's amazing how much vitamin d deficiency plays into depression.... 

 

 

it's also amazing how much I never realized I had SAD until I lived in arizona and there were 14 hours of sunlight in the summer... and it was amazing... and it made winter so much more noticeable... 

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* This is the day the Lord has made, rejoice in it and be glad. God, The Bible. * Do or do not, there is no try. - Yoda
* There are three options in this life; be good, get good, or give up. -- House * Never take counsel of your fears. Stonewall Jackson. 

* level 50 isn't gonna just POOF happen - alienjenn, NF IRC chatroom

 

* I'm not about to give up - Because I heard you say - There's gonna be brighter days… I won't stop, I'll keep my head up - No, I'm not here to stay ...  - 

 I just might bend but I won't break - As long as I can see your face - When life won't play along - And right keeps going wrong - And I can't seem to find my way - I know where I am found - So I won't let it drag me down - Oh, I'll keep dancing anyway - Mercy Me - Move

 

 

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not exactly what I believe... (I am a spirit with a soul in a body) but close :)

 

 

so what do I have to be afraid of? or what reason do I have to be depressed?? 

Level 10.4 Wood-Elf, Ranger - specializing in demon fighting

"doing the impossible since 2012 :D" - Librarian of Doom

facebook battle log level 50 WOOT   Backstory CNF2014  current (not challenge - doing a battle log this time)

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* This is the day the Lord has made, rejoice in it and be glad. God, The Bible. * Do or do not, there is no try. - Yoda
* There are three options in this life; be good, get good, or give up. -- House * Never take counsel of your fears. Stonewall Jackson. 

* level 50 isn't gonna just POOF happen - alienjenn, NF IRC chatroom

 

* I'm not about to give up - Because I heard you say - There's gonna be brighter days… I won't stop, I'll keep my head up - No, I'm not here to stay ...  - 

 I just might bend but I won't break - As long as I can see your face - When life won't play along - And right keeps going wrong - And I can't seem to find my way - I know where I am found - So I won't let it drag me down - Oh, I'll keep dancing anyway - Mercy Me - Move

 

 

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When you feel alone, know that you aren't. I think a lot of us are struggling with depression (I originally wrote suffering from, but this time I won't let it do that to me) here. I know up here the weather has been terrible, so we're barely getting sun and when I look out my window at 3 p.m. the sun is setting and I'm filled with this sense of panic that I let the whole day waste away even though it's still relatively early. The vitamin D will probably help. It helps me a bit. If you have the time, try to get out for a walk or something while the sun is still up and enjoy the sunshine. The other part of the problem is the holidays. Should be a great time with family and friends, but you're usually just working as much as possible so you can get gifts for everyone on your list. This time of the year just is physically, mentally and emotionally draining, but don't let it beat you. Commercials will tell you you can't be happy without a new watch or car, but you have your children and you have made this amazing transformation and no matter what you always have a lot to be grateful for and proud of. Start a journal and write about those things and it will help or just post it here (LoD posts a "bright side" with her posts and I think that's almost the same thing). More than anything else, know there is a huge community of people here who are always wishing the best for you and always ready to cheer you on no matter what. Feel better and just remember that you're awesome!

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Thanks ar... that's part of the reason I don't watch tv with commercials (everything is Netflix or redbox)... and I only worry about gifts for my mom and children... (and my nf secret Santa!)... and our trip was our main Christmas... we will do little gifts and/or a small trip Christmas week (haven't decided yet depends on the weather).... I was talking to red... another thing that gets me... in the summer I sleep outside more than half the time... I get WAY WAY more exercise (walking biking whatnot)... in November I logged ten miles (I had big plans for my vacation) I can't stand the treadmills at the gym (the smell the noise even above my headphones the MIND NUMBING BORINGNESS of them... they also make my feet feel wrong) so I'll only do them in extreme cold... but I need to move more! And it doesn't help that my guts are still in insane pain from being off plan last week... pain contributes to depression depression contributes to pain... a vicious downward spiral... I'm supposed to be sleeping right now for work but I rolled over in my sleep and screamed cuz ouch... I love my heading pad

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"doing the impossible since 2012 :D" - Librarian of Doom

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* This is the day the Lord has made, rejoice in it and be glad. God, The Bible. * Do or do not, there is no try. - Yoda
* There are three options in this life; be good, get good, or give up. -- House * Never take counsel of your fears. Stonewall Jackson. 

* level 50 isn't gonna just POOF happen - alienjenn, NF IRC chatroom

 

* I'm not about to give up - Because I heard you say - There's gonna be brighter days… I won't stop, I'll keep my head up - No, I'm not here to stay ...  - 

 I just might bend but I won't break - As long as I can see your face - When life won't play along - And right keeps going wrong - And I can't seem to find my way - I know where I am found - So I won't let it drag me down - Oh, I'll keep dancing anyway - Mercy Me - Move

 

 

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Silly neurochemicals anyway. Hope the vitamin D helps. Glad I was awake to chat for a bit last night! *hugs*

I hear good things about it... I don't notice much difference... maybe if I take it all regular like

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"doing the impossible since 2012 :D" - Librarian of Doom

facebook battle log level 50 WOOT   Backstory CNF2014  current (not challenge - doing a battle log this time)

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* This is the day the Lord has made, rejoice in it and be glad. God, The Bible. * Do or do not, there is no try. - Yoda
* There are three options in this life; be good, get good, or give up. -- House * Never take counsel of your fears. Stonewall Jackson. 

* level 50 isn't gonna just POOF happen - alienjenn, NF IRC chatroom

 

* I'm not about to give up - Because I heard you say - There's gonna be brighter days… I won't stop, I'll keep my head up - No, I'm not here to stay ...  - 

 I just might bend but I won't break - As long as I can see your face - When life won't play along - And right keeps going wrong - And I can't seem to find my way - I know where I am found - So I won't let it drag me down - Oh, I'll keep dancing anyway - Mercy Me - Move

 

 

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<hugs> It's a tough time of year.

 

The vitamin D should help. Low B12 can contribute to fatigue as well, so you might want to see if that is a factor.

 

Can you tolerate light boxes, or does that cause sun poisoning, too? If it gets really bad it might be worth considering meds (I find a low dose SSRI evens things out for me).

 

Hang in there!

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It's a tough time of year.

The vitamin D should help. Low B12 can contribute to fatigue as well, so you might want to see if that is a factor.

Can you tolerate light boxes, or does that cause sun poisoning, too? If it gets really bad it might be worth considering meds (I find a low dose SSRI evens things out for me).

Hang in there!

I haven't tried light boxes... I only get Sun poisoning after a burn... so I don't know if sun box would do that... I have tried ssri in the past and don't find it helpful

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Level 10.4 Wood-Elf, Ranger - specializing in demon fighting

"doing the impossible since 2012 :D" - Librarian of Doom

facebook battle log level 50 WOOT   Backstory CNF2014  current (not challenge - doing a battle log this time)

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* This is the day the Lord has made, rejoice in it and be glad. God, The Bible. * Do or do not, there is no try. - Yoda
* There are three options in this life; be good, get good, or give up. -- House * Never take counsel of your fears. Stonewall Jackson. 

* level 50 isn't gonna just POOF happen - alienjenn, NF IRC chatroom

 

* I'm not about to give up - Because I heard you say - There's gonna be brighter days… I won't stop, I'll keep my head up - No, I'm not here to stay ...  - 

 I just might bend but I won't break - As long as I can see your face - When life won't play along - And right keeps going wrong - And I can't seem to find my way - I know where I am found - So I won't let it drag me down - Oh, I'll keep dancing anyway - Mercy Me - Move

 

 

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WAIT, NF SECRET SANTA IS A THING? WHERE IS THIS? ::goes to scour the forums::

we already had our draw ;) but I'm sure we will do it again next year

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Level 10.4 Wood-Elf, Ranger - specializing in demon fighting

"doing the impossible since 2012 :D" - Librarian of Doom

facebook battle log level 50 WOOT   Backstory CNF2014  current (not challenge - doing a battle log this time)

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* This is the day the Lord has made, rejoice in it and be glad. God, The Bible. * Do or do not, there is no try. - Yoda
* There are three options in this life; be good, get good, or give up. -- House * Never take counsel of your fears. Stonewall Jackson. 

* level 50 isn't gonna just POOF happen - alienjenn, NF IRC chatroom

 

* I'm not about to give up - Because I heard you say - There's gonna be brighter days… I won't stop, I'll keep my head up - No, I'm not here to stay ...  - 

 I just might bend but I won't break - As long as I can see your face - When life won't play along - And right keeps going wrong - And I can't seem to find my way - I know where I am found - So I won't let it drag me down - Oh, I'll keep dancing anyway - Mercy Me - Move

 

 

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I just used Shazam to discover Break Every Chain by Tasha Cobbs. http://shz.am/t75147064 . ..

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"doing the impossible since 2012 :D" - Librarian of Doom

facebook battle log level 50 WOOT   Backstory CNF2014  current (not challenge - doing a battle log this time)

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* This is the day the Lord has made, rejoice in it and be glad. God, The Bible. * Do or do not, there is no try. - Yoda
* There are three options in this life; be good, get good, or give up. -- House * Never take counsel of your fears. Stonewall Jackson. 

* level 50 isn't gonna just POOF happen - alienjenn, NF IRC chatroom

 

* I'm not about to give up - Because I heard you say - There's gonna be brighter days… I won't stop, I'll keep my head up - No, I'm not here to stay ...  - 

 I just might bend but I won't break - As long as I can see your face - When life won't play along - And right keeps going wrong - And I can't seem to find my way - I know where I am found - So I won't let it drag me down - Oh, I'll keep dancing anyway - Mercy Me - Move

 

 

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I haven't tried light boxes... I only get Sun poisoning after a burn... so I don't know if sun box would do that... I have tried ssri in the past and don't find it helpful

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Light boxes shouldn't cause a burn. I have been using one as part of my challenge this time. I was saying I didn't know effective they are, but actually I think it does help. I'm still lower energy in winter. But I am not battling the feelings of not liking myself, or thinking others don't like me, or having major anxiety, which are things that I usually battle in the winter.  Might be a good idea to give it a go. I do it in the morning while I read my Bible and pray, so it is like a double dose of light :) 

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I just started using shazam- unfortunately most of my music is rather obscure- but it's still useful as hell!!!

 

 

most of the stuff I already know... I just use it to easily link things that I like ;)

 

 

 

 

Light boxes shouldn't cause a burn. I have been using one as part of my challenge this time. I was saying I didn't know effective they are, but actually I think it does help. I'm still lower energy in winter. But I am not battling the feelings of not liking myself, or thinking others don't like me, or having major anxiety, which are things that I usually battle in the winter.  Might be a good idea to give it a go. I do it in the morning while I read my Bible and pray, so it is like a double dose of light :) 

 

 

I might have to look into one... it would probably be something I would do on my days off when I am sitting at home at 0200 because it's too cold to go walking :( (in the warmer weather I go for long walks after the kids are asleep... )

Level 10.4 Wood-Elf, Ranger - specializing in demon fighting

"doing the impossible since 2012 :D" - Librarian of Doom

facebook battle log level 50 WOOT   Backstory CNF2014  current (not challenge - doing a battle log this time)

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* This is the day the Lord has made, rejoice in it and be glad. God, The Bible. * Do or do not, there is no try. - Yoda
* There are three options in this life; be good, get good, or give up. -- House * Never take counsel of your fears. Stonewall Jackson. 

* level 50 isn't gonna just POOF happen - alienjenn, NF IRC chatroom

 

* I'm not about to give up - Because I heard you say - There's gonna be brighter days… I won't stop, I'll keep my head up - No, I'm not here to stay ...  - 

 I just might bend but I won't break - As long as I can see your face - When life won't play along - And right keeps going wrong - And I can't seem to find my way - I know where I am found - So I won't let it drag me down - Oh, I'll keep dancing anyway - Mercy Me - Move

 

 

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Posted Image this is what passes for morning.... Sigh.... and I ache... not enough that I need to take drugs but enough that my sleep will be difficult.... Sigh.... so nauseous... there were croutons on my salad last night... (which I requested be left off)... I figured it's ok I'll pick them off.... Sigh.... crumbs... was so nauseous all night.... gut pain.... crying stopping in my tracks gut pain.... gas... pain.... nausea.... Sigh

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Level 10.4 Wood-Elf, Ranger - specializing in demon fighting

"doing the impossible since 2012 :D" - Librarian of Doom

facebook battle log level 50 WOOT   Backstory CNF2014  current (not challenge - doing a battle log this time)

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* This is the day the Lord has made, rejoice in it and be glad. God, The Bible. * Do or do not, there is no try. - Yoda
* There are three options in this life; be good, get good, or give up. -- House * Never take counsel of your fears. Stonewall Jackson. 

* level 50 isn't gonna just POOF happen - alienjenn, NF IRC chatroom

 

* I'm not about to give up - Because I heard you say - There's gonna be brighter days… I won't stop, I'll keep my head up - No, I'm not here to stay ...  - 

 I just might bend but I won't break - As long as I can see your face - When life won't play along - And right keeps going wrong - And I can't seem to find my way - I know where I am found - So I won't let it drag me down - Oh, I'll keep dancing anyway - Mercy Me - Move

 

 

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ugh, that sounds awful.  hope you start feeling better!

just another cracked southern belle,

and a specialist in self-kintsukuroi.

Current Challenge Accountability:  Health & Happiness Are Hard: Wherein the Cracked_Belle Un-Dies

Epic Quest:  Adventures in Badassery  [under construction]

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There is never a sudden revelation, a complete and tidy explanation for why it happened, or why it ends, or why or who you are. You want one and I want one, but there isn't one. It comes in bits and pieces, and you stitch them together wherever they fit, and when you are done you hold yourself up, and still there are holes and you are a rag doll, invented, imperfect. And yet you are all that you have, so you must be enough. There is no other way.
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

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Thanks James... me too.... so I woke up and panicked because it was easy darker than usual and I thought I had overslept.... nope... Posted Image and then I couldn't get back to sleep.... figured I might as well get up and clean... thought about trying to make it to the gym but.... pain

(sent by the phone. .. all mistakes are the phones fault)

Level 10.4 Wood-Elf, Ranger - specializing in demon fighting

"doing the impossible since 2012 :D" - Librarian of Doom

facebook battle log level 50 WOOT   Backstory CNF2014  current (not challenge - doing a battle log this time)

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* This is the day the Lord has made, rejoice in it and be glad. God, The Bible. * Do or do not, there is no try. - Yoda
* There are three options in this life; be good, get good, or give up. -- House * Never take counsel of your fears. Stonewall Jackson. 

* level 50 isn't gonna just POOF happen - alienjenn, NF IRC chatroom

 

* I'm not about to give up - Because I heard you say - There's gonna be brighter days… I won't stop, I'll keep my head up - No, I'm not here to stay ...  - 

 I just might bend but I won't break - As long as I can see your face - When life won't play along - And right keeps going wrong - And I can't seem to find my way - I know where I am found - So I won't let it drag me down - Oh, I'll keep dancing anyway - Mercy Me - Move

 

 

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Thanks James... me too.... so I woke up and panicked because it was easy darker than usual and I thought I had overslept.... nope... 4avu3u2y.jpg and then I couldn't get back to sleep.... figured I might as well get up and clean... thought about trying to make it to the gym but.... pain

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Sorry about the pain. I am very happy because I used to feel like achy so much of the time and since not eating gluten I don't have that pain. But then I tend to get really grumpy when the couple times I have eaten wheat and felt crummy-both times it was like your situation and I thought it was such a little bit it wouldn't matter. Drink water, stretch, hopefully tomorrow is better.

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Sorry about the pain. I am very happy because I used to feel like achy so much of the time and since not eating gluten I don't have that pain. But then I tend to get really grumpy when the couple times I have eaten wheat and felt crummy-both times it was like your situation and I thought it was such a little bit it wouldn't matter. Drink water, stretch, hopefully tomorrow is better.

 

 

I ended up deciding that today was going to be a juice/water/tea only kinda day... because my guts hurt so bad... I actually almost called in sick to work tonight because I am having difficulty even just sitting upright... feels like the last time I had mesenteric adonitis... I have NOT been to the doc and I have not been diagnosed... but last time I had it the solution was to be NPO - so decided that I am just going to drink drink drink... and not really eat anything... had a bottle of acai berry/yerba mate/guarana juice... three cups of tea (they are 16 oz cups)... and a bottle of kombucha... so far

 

 

the pain I am feeling is somewhat from the rain (I have arthritis in my back/shoulder/hip/hands) and it is worse cuz gluten...

 

I think that it wouldn't have bothered me as much had I not already been so crummy because of the dairy/salt/sugars from vacation....

 

 

 

if I don't feel better by the time I leave I will tell them I am not coming in tomorrow

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So should I hope you feel better so you can work, or just barely sick enough at the start of your day so you can stay home with a miraculous recovery shortly after calling in? ;)  JK, I really hope you feel better!  Depression is evil - my Saboteur's been using it on full-blast this month.  I may copy your Vit. D alternative, assuming I can get over my mindset of "all pills are poison" (weird, I know, but then, I never claimed to be normal).  Also, I like hyperbole and a half's description of depression - for some reason, reading those blog posts when I'm feeling down makes me feel just the teensiest better.

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