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Alright so I have come to the Druids' Hidden Forest in search of my self, or at least the art that I should be practicing.

 

Basically during my last challenge I came to the realization that while I like the philosophy behind Aikido, the actual physical Art itself simply doesn't do it for me. Some of the principles remain true for me, using a person's energy against them and neutralizing people without harming them in particular. But in terms of the actual moves they aren't really doing it for me.

 

on top of that I also realized that why I want to learn a martial art isn't for self defense like most people or to prove my physical superiority. Rather it's to protect others. There is a philosophy out there about Sheepdogs by David Grossman and more and more I find myself in that role. Some is in trouble, I'm nearby in case they need help but not the one to be nurturing. A guy looks like he's going to start a fight, I'm nearby in case something happens. 

 

So this challenge is about finding an art that let's me protect others, learn the calmness and mental clarity that is required for that, continuing to adhere to my virtues.

 

Challenge 1: Find my Path (+2 Wisdom)

So like I mentioned, Aikido wasn't for me. But the art that is still eludes me and that is what this goal is about. 

 

What it Entails: Basically it means that I need to get out there and actually try out different styles or at least observe them.

The Nitty Gritty: This is hard, but basically I want to have checked out a minimum of six different styles with at least one each week. If there is a reason that I can't actually physically check out a style then in return I have to check out at least two styles online, that way I have a little wiggle room but still motivated to actually check things out the proper way.

Grading: At the end there shall be a 12 point grading system implemented with the following values.

 

Looking up a style online: +1

Actually going to watch it being practiced: +2

Taking a class or other hands on training: +3

Not checking out a new style in person or looking at two online: -2

 

At the end we tally things up and there is your score!

 

Challenge 2: Control My Mind (+1 Wisdom +2 Constitution)

Basically I'm a pretty stoic guy guy, but I have two bad habits. First off when I let my anger rule me it goes rampant, like snarling animal rampant. on top of that I have a habit of dwelling on things and bringing myself back to the emotional state I was in. And if I happened to be in a bad mood suddenly I'm in a horrible mood.

 

What it Entails: Basically I need to meditate regularly to make sure that I have a few calm moments to collect myself. But also on top of that I need to learn to focus on the present and not dwell on the past.

The Nitty Gritty: Every morning I need to spend ten minutes meditating before I face the day. Hopefully that will carry over into real life as well and help me focus on the present.

Grading: Like the above I'll have a set amount of points for the end, in this case 84, and use the following to tally them at the end.

 

Meditated in the Morning: +2

Meditated at Night: +1

Meditated Both During the Morning and Night: +3

Missed Meditation for the Day: -1

 

Challenge 3: Twenty Minutes of Learning (+2 Wisdom, +1 Charisma)

So this is a sequel to my last learning goal, jut toned down for my schedule. Rather then three marathon learning times a week I have a much easier daily goal.

 

What it Entails: Each day I sit down and learn fv twenty minutes, easy as that. It can be anything (math, science, history, psychology, piano, etc) but it has to be a "school" type subject.

The Nitty Gritty: Even night when I get home I have to spend twenty minutes learning. While it will be hard to do it on Saturday (my packed day) I should be able to swing it in the morning on that day.

Grading: Same system with a total of 84.

 

Spent 20 Minute Learning: +2

Spent 20 < 10 Minutes Learning: +1

Spent 20+ Minutes Learning: +3

Spent Less Then 10 Minutes Learning: 0

Spent No Time Learning: -1 

 

Challenge 4: Practice My Virtues (+3 Charisma)

Basically I'm trying to develop my virtues by following in the steps of Benjamin Franklin. This is a continuation of last times fourth challenge, minus Chastity I worked on that during the break.

 

What It Entails: Basically each week I have a different virtue that I try to emulate going down the list.

The Nitty Gritty: This one is pretty easy, just follow the virtue for a week.

Grading: This unlike the others will be on a yes or no grade for each week, with a final assessment at the end to see how I did.

 

Side Quest: Stick to my Workout Schedule (+2 Strength, +2 Stamina)

3 mile run six days a week.

2-3 Strength Sessions with Convict Conditioning

2-3 Cardio Sessions 

 

Cardio and Strength Alternate which one is 2 times and 3 times.

Level 5 Orc Citizen Soldier

STR 7.5|DEX 9.5|STA 11|CON 12|WIS 20.5|CHA 8.5

Old Challenges 15/4 3/6 7/25

"Do it now."

 

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Welcome to the Druids, terrormortus!

 

Congratulations on a well formulated, and demanding challenge. How refreshing to see someone writing about chastity!

 

What kind of meditation do you do? Will you please tell us about the virtue you are working on at the moment?!

You only have one rest day? - is that enough?

 

Great to have you here!

I have chosen to believe in myself.


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Looks like a nice set of goals, TM.

 

As for looking for a style, are you looking at only unarmed martial arts, or are weapons a viable option?  I'm thinking things like kenjutsu and iaido might interest you (more so the kenjutsu, iaido is highly ceremonial and therefore not exactly a practical defense, but great apparently for developing a center and focus...).

 

Best of luck!

RisenPhoenix, the Entish Aikidoka

Challenge: RisenPhoenix Tries to be Normal

 

"The essence of koryu [...is] you offer your loyalty to something that you choose to regard as greater than yourself so that you will, someday, be able to offer service to something that truly is transcendent." ~ Ellis Amdur, Old School

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Do you have any particular criteria for checking out a style?  Anything that you're more or less interested in in general?

So far I know a few things that I want in a style (skills to protect others, takes advantage of my general strength and toughness) but for the most part I am trying to stay open. That said I have looked at Krav Maga and Muay Thai in the past and liked them so they are on the list of things to check out.

 

 

Welcome to the Druids, terrormortus!

 

Congratulations on a well formulated, and demanding challenge. How refreshing to see someone writing about chastity!

 

What kind of meditation do you do? Will you please tell us about the virtue you are working on at the moment?!

You only have one rest day? - is that enough?

 

Great to have you here!

So far I've been using the Vipassana method from "Mindfulness in Plain English". I tend to have a very chaotic mind so for the time being I'm focusing on simple mindfulness. I've also had a bit of success with moving meditation in my morning run at least as a way to empty my mind.

 

The current virtue is Sincerity and here is a handy link to see where I am getting my inspiration from. Basically it boils down (for me) to being as honest as possible, not being unkind, and knowing when to not say anything. I am usually pretty good about upholding these ideas but I have noticed a definite change in how I talk about things, namely less complaints about irritating customers at work.

 

As for the rest day so far it has been working out okay. I have the actual rest day on n Saturday and a half day (only the morning run) on Wednesday. I try to listen to my body, if it says take it easy today then I take it easy for a day. 

 

If you aren't considering your 3 mile run as cardio, what would cardio be? :)

Cardio is basically another 3 miles but done at a higher speed (right now 7.5 mph vs 6 mph) which brings my mileage for the day up to 6 miles. Figure that is plenty of running for one day. :D

 

 

Looks like a nice set of goals, TM.

 

As for looking for a style, are you looking at only unarmed martial arts, or are weapons a viable option?  I'm thinking things like kenjutsu and iaido might interest you (more so the kenjutsu, iaido is highly ceremonial and therefore not exactly a practical defense, but great apparently for developing a center and focus...).

 

Best of luck!

For the time being I am focusing on unarmed as the only assured thing you will have in a fight is yourself (hopefully). Plus the fact that I live in an area where their aren't a whole lot of options in my area in terms of weapons training kind of complicates matters. That said I am really interested in learning both the knife and the sword some day partially because of their utility but also because they are just cool.

Level 5 Orc Citizen Soldier

STR 7.5|DEX 9.5|STA 11|CON 12|WIS 20.5|CHA 8.5

Old Challenges 15/4 3/6 7/25

"Do it now."

 

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Alright so quick update on the last two days. 

 

I made an appointment to check out a local gym that offers both Muay Thai and MMA classes and am checking them out on Thursday. This place came as a recommendation from an army friend so I have high hopes here. They also suggested if I'm really interested that I try a class for free just to be sure. Meditation has been going well, though today was a little more "sleepy" then I would like due to late nights.

 

Learning was reading "Quiet" by Susan Cain and a bit of a history video from Crash Course on the 1812 war. I watched a whole lot of these last challenge but I wasn't as able to focus on them so trying to rewatch and get a little more from it. Sincerity has been going good as well. Instead of complaining about customers I've been trying to have real conversations, and it's been great.

 

As for work out yesterday did see a little bit of a snag. I'm pretty introverted (hence why I'm reading Quiet) and being up front with customers all day wore me out. So ended up deciding to call my cardio work out 2/3 of the way through. In the future I think I am really going to have to give myself a break before I head from work to the gym, a little breather basically.

 

Find My Path: Looking Good so far

Control my Mind: Monday +2!, Tuesday +2!

Learning: Monday +3!, Tuesday +1!

Practice My Virtues: Good so far

Level 5 Orc Citizen Soldier

STR 7.5|DEX 9.5|STA 11|CON 12|WIS 20.5|CHA 8.5

Old Challenges 15/4 3/6 7/25

"Do it now."

 

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Yeah, that recharge time can be critical after dealing with lots of people all day. 

 

I agree make sure you have that recharge time! It's vital when you have been with so many different people in your energy space!

Yeah it's something I always have a bit of trouble fitting into my schedule as I actually like people and want to chill out with them. Another goal for another challenge.

 

 

I really like the way you've got your scoring set up, with a penalty for not making an activity. Very smart!

Thank you! I kinda need that little bit of punishment to keep me in line and it seems to work out perfectly this way.

Level 5 Orc Citizen Soldier

STR 7.5|DEX 9.5|STA 11|CON 12|WIS 20.5|CHA 8.5

Old Challenges 15/4 3/6 7/25

"Do it now."

 

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Alright so update on the last two days


 


I've managed to hit my meditation goal for both days. Sincerity is getting a little bit harder as there have been a few times I've really wanted to complain or gossip a bit but held myself in check. Yesterday I fulfilled my learning goal by finishing up the last little bit of "Quiet" so I need to get something done online tonight, probably some math. Plus side this means I get to start reading "The Werewolf's Guide to Life" by Ritch Duncan and Bob Powers which looks really good.


 


Tonight I went to a local Muay Thai class and it looks pretty good. The instructor ended up chatting with me and suggested that if I wanted to get something effective I might try Jui-Jutsu so that will probably be next week's one.


 


Find My Path: First Week, +2 for checking out Muay Thai!


Control my Mind: Monday +2!, Tuesday +2!, Wednesday +2!,Thursday +2!


Learning: Monday +3!, Tuesday +2!, Wednesday +2!


Practice My Virtues: Good so far


Level 5 Orc Citizen Soldier

STR 7.5|DEX 9.5|STA 11|CON 12|WIS 20.5|CHA 8.5

Old Challenges 15/4 3/6 7/25

"Do it now."

 

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Alright so an update on the last few days, a weekly review, and then a bit about Justice.

 

So for those of you who don't know me I'm a member of the Maine Army National Guard shipping out for Basic in January, till then I have the RSP drills to keep me busy. So this Friday I headed out for drill and as a result my challenge did suffer a bit of a set back. Awesomely I did keep up with meditation though I had to do it at night when I had free time rather then in the morning, and I learned all sorts of things all through drill so great there too. As for Sincerity I was utterly honest with myself the entire time, didn't gossip, and didn't lie what so ever. So the week went well.

 

For a review I have to say that for goal 1 I did make some progress, namely in the fact that I possibly found a place to study. Still making sure to check out different places just in case. Meditation has gone well, one hitch I'm running into is that I can really only maintain meditating for five minutes before I check the clock but I am able to sit for the full ten minutes. Learning has also been pretty good, much more manageble in this format rather then a few marathon sessions. 

 

Alright with that over here is today's update! Meditating was a little hard as I was still a little wired from Drill but it did get done. Learning was another re-watch of crashcourse videos and reading Herman Melville's "Bartleby , the Scrivener" (taking a short break from it currently to write this). It's a pretty good book so far and I even managed to grab a free copy from Project Gutenberg. As for trying out a new style I'm heading for a Brazilian Ju-Juitsu lesson this Thursday.

 

The virtue this week is Justice, which is hard to pursue as I don't see a lot of injustice on a regular basis. I think however that I should try and learn a bit more about the world for this week, find injustices and example of justice. Not sure entirely what to do exactly.

 

Find My Path: Plans have been made

First Week, +2 for checking out Muay Thai!

Control my Mind: Monday, +2!

First Week, 12/14 Points!

Learning: Monday +3! 

First Week, 17/14 Points! 

Practice My Virtues: Justice, working on it.

Sincerity, Yes!

Level 5 Orc Citizen Soldier

STR 7.5|DEX 9.5|STA 11|CON 12|WIS 20.5|CHA 8.5

Old Challenges 15/4 3/6 7/25

"Do it now."

 

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Awesomesauce for keeping up with the meditation while dealing with the RSP drills! That's brutal if they last all day.

 

Ahh, Muay Thai. I loved that stuff the few times I tried it XD Also, are there any martial arts gyms in your area that offer Hap Ki Do classes? It has things like joint locks, some grappling, striking, and not too many forms to remember. There's also a bit of weapons defense, too. Or at least the place I used to go to offered all of the above. I can't wait until I graduate (and deal with nagging shoulder issues) so I can go there again o_o

 

Keep up that progress!

 

Also, that learning side quest is probably something I'll copy and add into my next challenge :P

Battle Mage, lvl whatever. "There are no men like me."

 

Is your castle overwhelmed by clutter? Join us, and fight back! How many Clutter Critters can you slay?

 

Everyday I'm tumblin!

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Awesomesauce for keeping up with the meditation while dealing with the RSP drills! That's brutal if they last all day.

 

Ahh, Muay Thai. I loved that stuff the few times I tried it XD Also, are there any martial arts gyms in your area that offer Hap Ki Do classes? It has things like joint locks, some grappling, striking, and not too many forms to remember. There's also a bit of weapons defense, too. Or at least the place I used to go to offered all of the above. I can't wait until I graduate (and deal with nagging shoulder issues) so I can go there again o_o

 

Keep up that progress!

 

Also, that learning side quest is probably something I'll copy and add into my next challenge :tongue:

Drills aren't too horrible. There was a pretty large amount of exercise (and we got smoked a lot) but most of it was spent in a class room learning about what to expect from BCT. Hap Ki Do looks pretty interesting but unfortunately the only dojos nearby are forty minutes away minimum, so probably not a viable option.

 

And please feel free to copy my side quest, you would not believe the amount of interesting things I've learned about as a result.

 

 

Wow, very nice work in getting in everything around your drills!  Especially meditation, as Naxius noted. 

 

International news sites might be an interesting way to contrast justice between countries, if that would fit?

That might actually. So far I have been reading the paper when I can at work to sort of see in injustices going on around me. I'll have to try that tomorrow as it is about 2am here now.

 

 

Alright so update on the last two days.

 

Meditation has been going well, I'm still getting a little antsy after five minutes but it's getting a little better. Virtues as I mentioned above has been mainly reading the paper to see what is happening in the world around me. Good example is the fact that a landlord had killed two of his tenants and wounded a third, minutes after police had left after being called. It is very sad and I'm not sure of the entire story as it is unclear, but suffice to say I shall be watching the trial as much as I can.

 

Learning hit its first speed bump, I forgot to study yesterday. I did a VERY intense workout yesterday and when I got home collapsed in bed, remembering that I needed to study only after I had bundled myself under the covers. I tried to think of a way I learned through the day, but in the end I couldn't and was too tired to get out of bed (slept for 11 hours). While it needs to be worked on, this is why I put in the option to earn extra points. 

 

Learning today however was this TED talk (and yes I am starting to play Superbetter) and reading a bit of "Scatter, Adapt, and Remember" by Annalee Newitz to hit those last few seconds.

 

Find My Path: Tomorrow is the day!

First Week, +2 for checking out Muay Thai!

Control my Mind: Monday, +2! Tuesday, +2!, Wednesday +2!

First Week, 12/14 Points!

Learning: Monday +3! Tuesday -1! Wednesday +2!

First Week, 17/14 Points! 

Practice My Virtues: Justice, working on it.

Sincerity, Yes!

Level 5 Orc Citizen Soldier

STR 7.5|DEX 9.5|STA 11|CON 12|WIS 20.5|CHA 8.5

Old Challenges 15/4 3/6 7/25

"Do it now."

 

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