C/O Terinatum's Happiness in Health

[Ba'sini'on]

You looked, saw, and kicked ass!! BAM! POW!! KABLOOOOOOM!!!

[Terinatum]

You looked, saw, and kicked ass!! BAM! POW!! KABLOOOOOOM!!!

ROFLMAO

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[otter905]

I've just decided again, that I am the boss of me

 

Why do we have to do this so often before it registers and becomes the norm (or at least what we believe the majority of the time)?

[Terinatum]

Friday

Hiking 2 times before WO :: 35 - 40 mins each, with lots of stops for dog, a few for me

2 min ellip warm up right b4 WO

20 sec hold superman

35 sec hold plank

10 squats

18 sec hold sups

26 sec hold plank

10 squats

16 sec hold sups

24 sec hold plank

13 squats

Yoga stretches yawning cat, angry cat??? Idk what they're called!! lol

Food is weird still but I haven't given up looking for a way to make real food and me pals.

Hope all of you are well.

Cheers

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[Heidi]

Nice workout and warm ups.

And yay for not giving up on the food - it will get easier, I promise

[Terinatum]

Nice workout and warm ups.

And yay for not giving up on the food - it will get easier, I promise

Thanks, Heidi.

The plank time is a new PR. I feel really good about that since last year around this time I was cringing and 10 secs was my PR!

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[Heidi]

Sweet!

[Ba'sini'on]

Nice workout Teri! What impressed me was you hiking 2x! Sexy legs and core here you come

 

Sounds like downward dog and cat pose. Though I like in King of the Hill where Hank re-named some of the poses to what he does everyday. Watering the lawn, picking up the newspaper, etc.

[Bekah]

You are kicking ass :) Great job on the Plank PR!!

[Terinatum]

Thanks! I really surprised myself.

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[Teros]

Great Job. Keep smashing forward.

[Terinatum]

Thanks!

I have already done 2 hikes today. Glare ice forced one of them as I was unable to get the car up the hill that I barely made down a few hours before.

I want to do a little arm work. Ooo, I think they have some dumbbells downstairs. For now, I'm cuddled up with a wonderful golden doodle named Willow.

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[Eirlys]

That's a great weight loss and inch loss over the last year - must feel great!

 

And neat workout, are you sure you're not a cross-fitting Ranger in disguise? ;-)  Yip yip on the PR

[Bekah]

I'm not sure about stellar, but I did make 2 very important decisions for the bettering of me.

 

Notice I didnt ask YOU if you thought it was stellar It was. the end <3 

[Matt_72]

Wow I had a lot to catch up on.

Great work on the PR's!

It looks as though this has been a great challenge to start the new year on so far.

Keep up the great work.

[Terinatum]

That's a great weight loss and inch loss over the last year - must feel great!

And neat workout, are you sure you're not a cross-fitting Ranger in disguise? ;-) Yip yip on the PR

I am a Ranger. :-) And I like cross-fit a lot.

I'm real happy with my planks. They seemed impossible last February.

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[Terinatum]

Xxxx

[Terinatum]

Notice I didnt ask YOU if you thought it was stellar It was. the end

Yes, ma'am.

[Terinatum]

Wow I had a lot to catch up on.

Great work on the PR's!

It looks as though this has been a great challenge to start the new year on so far.

Keep up the great work.

Thanks a bunch! It's been really motivating to be outdoors even in the winter.

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[Ba'sini'on]

RANGERS ROCK!!

[Heidi]

RANGERS ROCK!!

Why, yes. Yes we do.

[I am Eve]

Very long wind here, bypass if you like.

 

This challenge will finish out my first year with NF! I started in Feb of 2013. It's hard to believe I've been actively bettering myself for that long without quitting. Who'd-a thunk it!?!

 

Nonetheless, the last few challenges have been really tough and I want to examine my next course of action. I decided to look back on my year, and further back still...

 

I have found among other things that I love to cook! Cooking is enjoyable and I like how it makes me feel.  With some financial planning and a better sense of time, I will be in the kitchen at least twice a week to make a nice, real meal.

 

The nice, real meal doesn't happen often for me. I grew up with my guard up and my wall of food surrounding me. Until it surrounded me completely and I gained serious weight. There's reasons: the who did what to me, the minimal  protective measures that are available to kids, and then later as an adult (he he he) there's me, hiding from the big scary world that's surely out to get me.

 

I have been hiding in PTSD for decades. On top of that, I had to kick cancer's ass back in 2010. I have come out of the bitter, debilitating  haze of those two monsters very thankful. I see more clearly and more positively about the future; mostly that I can make something happen for me.

 

So in February 2013, I started new/older things. I began to move in a 'workout' way for 5 minutes a day (love to squat) and I quit Dr Pepper. Two very big wins for me. The next challenge I found a love I never knew I had, let alone one I could do. Running! Very short distances and usually not without stopping, but it was a run damn it.

 

I remember my first HIIT workout. I finished and kept begging the Sky to give me air! I then laughed (when the air did finally come) and realized that I would in fact do this again. And again.

 

Summer came and I was running the trails in my new sneaks and managed once to run a half mile without stopping. I am still giddy about that. I had a hamstring issue come up and a foot tendon issue that I'm still working on. Still! I want to run!!!

 

My eating improved a lot last year. I have found myself wanting better food, instead of complaining about the cost and time of preparation.

Present moment -- It's getting hard to type this now. I want to close the laptop and go veg-out with Hayday and Sims Free-play.

Food has always been there for me. And I feel obligated to stay in the old patterns that worked out of devotion? It's not a strong conscious thing, but there are times that I still find myself buying, eating, and hiding the foods that gave me comfort before. I love them. Not the taste really. The feelings I let out as I eat. The defenses seem eased and I breath a bit better afterwards. I called this act crazy for a long time. I wanted it to be crazy so I had a reason to say it's not my fault, I can't do anything about it. I didn't want the responsibility of fixing something(me) that I didn't break.

Present moment -- My eyes are drooping like they are tired but I know it's stress asking me to turn away for this painful place inside. But I need to be here. I need to let those young Parts of myself know that I am keeping us safe and the food that we've been depending on isn't asking for loyalty or addiction from us. I don't think they believe that enough yet so I'll keep working on it.

 

Present moment -- I'm gonna take a break now and come back to this. BRB

 

Present moment -- Soon after breaking I had a conversation with my Parts inside and this is what was said.

 

Me: "Those foods do make us happier, that's true."

Parts: 'Is there another way to eat that will feel as good and will be as safe?'

Me: "I think there is. I know I'm ready to try and find out."

Parts: 'Will you take care of us?'

Me: "Of course. I love you All so very much. You are the true survivors of my past. I could not have made it without you all. Thank you!"

Parts: 'Okay, you can try. But I want to be able to go back to what I know if it gets too hectic.'

Me: "Understood. Thank you kindly for your bravery and love."

Parts: 'You're welcome!'

 

Every day, if I sit still a bit, I can find the thankfulness that I am alive. It wasn't so long ago that cancer or me wanted me dead. Those things are gone, so now what? Well, let's see what we have planned, shall we!?!

 

C/O Terinatum's Happiness in Health

 

My Fitness Quest:

Take care of my body!

My Motivation -Winter isn't coming so much as it's already here. I don't want to run in the snow and ice so running is out for now. I have physical injuries to contend with before I can hit the trails in Spring. And I need to lose more weight to run more safely and further!!! So, I need to care. And act on that caring so I don't forget that I'm allowed to make time for me and be responsible for myself.

Here it goes…

 

Goal #1

Take care of my skin

Action - Careful Skin Care through moisturizing, facials, callus care, Epsom salt baths, and gentle cleanliness

How Much - Everyday

Worth - 4 pts of CHR

Grading - A = 5 days per week/ B = 4 / C = 3 / D = 2

 

Goal #2

Take care of my digestion

Action- Affectionate Cooking

How Much -two meals  per week

Worth - 3 pts of CON

Grading - A = 2 meals/ B = 1 ^2/3 avg. / C = 1 ^1/3 avg. / D = 1

 

Goal #3

Take care of my muscles

Action - Faithful Massage and PT w/dancing

How Much - Everyday

Worth - 3 pts of STA

Grading - A = 5 days per week/ B = 4 / C = 3 / D = 2

 

Life Quest:

Action - Find things that I like or am interested in doing, and do some! Examples -Cleaning the House, Sewing, Writing, Photography, Walking/Hiking, Swimming, Gaming, Playing Cards, Pool, etc…

How Much - Two hours per week (no less than 20 minutes at a time)

Worth - 3 pts of CHR

Grading - A = 2 hours/ B = 1 2/3 avg. / C = 1 1/3 avg. / D = 1

 

Battle On!

     

 

Terinatum, I arrived late for this thread but have now read it all. You have a wonderful warm, humble and thoughtinspiring tone and content in your posts. Thank you for making my evening a bit brighter and warmer.

Insights, they may be very sane and good for you but they can still be incredibly scary and HARD. How well you describe it!

I think many of us identify well with how hard it can be to let go of those comforting, but very destructive behaviors. You are doing so well and at the same time acting wisely.

Congratulations on your challenge design: I will enjoy reading about your reflections and progress in caring.

[Matt_72]

Hi Teri, how did week 1 finish up?

[Terinatum]

Terinatum, I arrived late for this thread but have now read it all. You have a wonderful warm, humble and thoughtinspiring tone and content in your posts. Thank you for making my evening a bit brighter and warmer.

Insights, they may be very sane and good for you but they can still be incredibly scary and HARD. How well you describe it!

I think many of us identify well with how hard it can be to let go of those comforting, but very destructive behaviors. You are doing so well and at the same time acting wisely.

Congratulations on your challenge design: I will enjoy reading about your reflections and progress in caring.

Thank you so much. I love it when people stop by and are able to get something from the posts made here, mine and others.

I think there will be several written transcripts of myself and my parts talking, screaming, laughing, and crying things out.

I have spent too long living on the caring of others, presuming it was out of pity that they even looked my way. It's time to look into the present and the future and DECIDE what I want for me and my health.

Stop by any time! ;-)

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[Eirlys]

I have spent too long living on the caring of others, presuming it was out of pity that they even looked my way. It's time to look into the present and the future and DECIDE what I want for me and my health.

 

*applauds heartily*  Great attitude!!  Love it!