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Hokay, so.

 

No but seriously.

 

I have a lot going on in my personal life right now, and it's not really good. It's not end-of-the-world stuff, but I'm having enough trouble with my everyday activities that the added stress is not helpful.

 

Mr. Mir and I returned from Jamaica on Thursday, we had a great time, and I am not ready to be back at work (even though I am at work). I didn't really do any of the stuff I had written down in my planner, partly due to laziness and partly due to aforementioned life stuff. I have only been scheduling activities (like housecleaning) a week or two out, and so I haven't written anything for this week yet. I would do it now, but I don't have a pencil. I know that is a lame excuse, but as soon as I write something in my planner in pen, I have to cross it out.

 

I haven't made the decision to find another therapist yet, although I think I need to. My current guy is on vacation right now, and so I won't see him for another month. This seems almost like an ideal time to make the jump.

 

I went to the dr for my back when we returned and  he diagnosed me with a muscle strain. I was super paranoid that it was a bulging disc or something, but he told me I would have shooting pains down my leg, which I don't. He was concerned that I haven't gotten better (it's been two weeks) so he referred me to a PT. I'm planning to call and schedule something with them this morning so I can get started.

 

As for goals, I actually do have a few in mind. I am somewhat limited at the moment with the fitness stuff since I don't know how much I should be doing, if anything, but hopefully I will know more soon.

 

Goal 1: Lose the non-baby belly. I need to get serious about this because frankly, it's ridiculous. I don't know if it's fat or what, but I'm tired of bitching about it and not buckling down and really making an effort. Since my blood tests and ultrasound were normal, that indicates (sort of) that it's just fat, right? So I'd best hop to it. Even though it doesn't look like a typical fat belly. It looks like an old man fat belly, very taut and not saggy.

 

Anyway. I'm starting at 1700 kcal/day and will adjust based on exercise and results (or lack thereof).

 

Goal 2: Drink moar water. I suck at drinking enough water. I have no doubt that I'm quite dehydrated. And hopefully the water drinking will help with the weight loss.

 

I have a 16 oz (I think) water bottle at my desk. I want 4 of those a day. So 64 oz. Same on weekends, although I leave my water bottle here so I'll have to figure something else out. Like, maybe a glass! What a novel thought.

 

Goal 3: Complete this list of tasks.

Make (and commit to) a large personal decision and follow through.

Make dr appt to talk about belly (since we never finished that discussion) and ADD and meds

Make PT appointment  - COMPLETED! 2/24/14

Find new therapist

Get my bedroom cleaned up (again)

Get on psychiatrist waiting list

 

Goal 4: Do the things I say I am going to do in my planner. I was really good at this for the first few weeks of last challenge, and it really helped me keep things together. I've been thinking about establishing some kind of routine because I've found it helps me. But then if one thing goes awry, the whole deck of cards collapses.

 

Pics:

02.23.14 side

02.23.14 front

02.23.14 back

 

Level ? Half-Dwarf/Half-Amazon Warrior

STR:21.25 STA:15 DEX: 10.95 CON: 14 WIS:15.5 CHA:17

SWOLE BUCKS: 1

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Morrigainz

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Yay Mir!  How was ->insert tropical location that I can't remember here<-?

 

Jamaica! It was fabulous. Most of the time we just relaxed, but our first full day we climbed Dunn's River Falls and did a bit of snorkeling. The falls were amazing; the snorkeling was kind of meh but that's because I was spoiled by snorkeling in Hawaii :)

hey girl.

hey.

Level ? Half-Dwarf/Half-Amazon Warrior

STR:21.25 STA:15 DEX: 10.95 CON: 14 WIS:15.5 CHA:17

SWOLE BUCKS: 1

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...because I was spoiled by snorkeling in Hawaii :)

I can relate to this. I love love love diving, but my dive history looks like this: Cancun, Cancun, Hawaii, Grand Cayman, Hawaii (this is over the course of like 15 years, I'm not a baller jet-setter or anything). When the local clubs are all "hey, you should totes join us - we're going to a quarry in Ohio!" it's like....yeeeeaaahhh, no thanks.

Oh, holy shit. There's goals now! Good luck Mir - I struggle with routines and collapsing houses of cards too. But I'm mostly hopeful you can get your therapist and personal business sorted out - take care of yourself, the rest will be there for you.

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I can relate to this. I love love love diving, but my dive history looks like this: Cancun, Cancun, Hawaii, Grand Cayman, Hawaii (this is over the course of like 15 years, I'm not a baller jet-setter or anything). When the local clubs are all "hey, you should totes join us - we're going to a quarry in Ohio!" it's like....yeeeeaaahhh, no thanks.

Oh, holy shit. There's goals now! Good luck Mir - I struggle with routines and collapsing houses of cards too. But I'm mostly hopeful you can get your therapist and personal business sorted out - take care of yourself, the rest will be there for you.

I'm hoping so! Despite the struggles of PS (personal shit) and really needing a new therapist (and dreading therapist shopping - it's worse than house shopping), I'm going into this feeling like I'm on an even keel. Not like super duper motivated (which usually precipitates a huge crash) but also not down-in-the-dumps worthless feeling. I'll take it.

 

Mir!  Hang in there, lady.  We've got your back.

 

Thanks Melaynah! I always appreciate your comments and support :) I'll have to go looking for your challenge - are you doing one?

Hey Mir, I got your back bro.

 

Hey bro, thanks. *fistbump*

Sup, boo?

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiii :) Give Fleecia a hug for Hugpants!

Level ? Half-Dwarf/Half-Amazon Warrior

STR:21.25 STA:15 DEX: 10.95 CON: 14 WIS:15.5 CHA:17

SWOLE BUCKS: 1

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Morrigainz

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I'll post some pictures if I ever get my lazy ass around to it.

 

so today:

I think I got my water in. I'm not sure if I had 3 bottles or 4. I will chug some before bed just in case ;)

 

foods:

1323 cals

112g CHO/58g P/47g fat

 

not sure how accurate this is, but it is a rough guesstimate. I honestly wasn't that hungry today. It could have to do with personal stuff, I dunno. Or maybe I really am 400 cals off in my counting.

 

list stuff:

made the PT appointment! It is weds.

 

other stuff: I didn't have anything written in my planner for today. So I didn't do much. I did take the basket of dirty clothes that was sitting in the living room into the closet, deposit the clothes in the hamper, and put the basket away. So, progress at least. I'll try to do better tomorrow. If I can find a pencil I will actually write something down :P

Level ? Half-Dwarf/Half-Amazon Warrior

STR:21.25 STA:15 DEX: 10.95 CON: 14 WIS:15.5 CHA:17

SWOLE BUCKS: 1

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Yay, Mir!

 

I was just mentioning to Cheeche that I hadn't seen you in chat/ the book of faces in a bit.  But you were apparently in a tropical paradise, so now I'm kinda jealous instead of slightly concerned.

 

Goals look good!  If I can make a suggestion on the water, maybe buy a single liter nalgene bottle?  It's 32 ounces, but less fills mean you might be more likely to drink more (since you won't look at an empty bottle at your desk and just shrug it away).  At least that's been my experience.  But subbed!  To stalk you like woah.

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Morrigainz

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I think a photo of your butt from the back would really help us, help you.

 

Hahaha!! i'll see what I can do. JUST FOR YOU, MOC.

Yay, Mir!

 

I was just mentioning to Cheeche that I hadn't seen you in chat/ the book of faces in a bit.  But you were apparently in a tropical paradise, so now I'm kinda jealous instead of slightly concerned.

 

Goals look good!  If I can make a suggestion on the water, maybe buy a single liter nalgene bottle?  It's 32 ounces, but less fills mean you might be more likely to drink more (since you won't look at an empty bottle at your desk and just shrug it away).  At least that's been my experience.  But subbed!  To stalk you like woah.

Ha! Yeah. Actually I got a bit frustrated with chat. I don't know if you read my rant in the last challenge, but I noticed some bullying going on and I thought I would take a chat break so I could simmer down a bit. And yeah. Tropical paradise. It was awesome. I may share a pic or two if I get my shit together.

 

Nalgene bottle is a great idea! I actually used to have one and I have no idea what happened to it. If I remember to look the next time I'm at the store, I'll get one. For now, it's actually kind of nice to have a smaller bottle because it forces me to get up and walk a little, which is good for my back I think.

 

Yup!  I'm doing this challenge with the Druids--need some major zen time!

I hear that! I was about ready to explode at the end of the last challenge. One of these days I imagine I'll end up with the Druids :)

 

 

Yesterday:

 

I *think* I got all my water in. I know this sounds silly, but after getting up several times to get water, I seem to lose count. I may have gotten it done at work, but if not I definitely chugged some water when I got home.

 

Speaking of home, I didn't do anything last night. We actually went home a bit early because Mr Mir is sick. Like, crawling into bed, shaking uncontrollably, needing lots of blankets piled on him sick. He was burning up this morning but I wasn't sure if it was due to a fever or just the fact that he was under so many blankets. I actually don't think I've ever seen him so sick. So, I spent a little time taking care of him but then the rest of the night I was lazy. I didn't have anything written down in my planner for yesterday... >.>

 

As soon as I'm done writing this post I'll put something in there for today so I don't have any excuses tonight.

 

I have been thinking about calling the psych office to change drs but I haven't done it. This may be silly, but I kind of feel like I am betraying the guy I have been seeing. I'm sure he doesn't care. But I can't help the feeling.

 

Foods yesterday...since Mr Mir was sick, we ended up not making the chicken chilequiles that we were going to. Sadface. But then I also didn't eat dinner. I haven't been that hungry. But also I had 2 pieces of cake (an employee's farewell party). I would have only had one, but someone brought me white cake first, and I wanted chocolate. But I couldn't let the white cake go to waste, RIGHT???

 

1459 cals

174 CHO/47 PRO/60 fat is my estimation.

 

I'm trying to keep things kind of low on days that I eat non-homemade food, because I just assume that I'm under-counting. So who knows. I could have actually hit my goal the last 2 days.

 

Anyway, that's all I have for now.

 

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Level ? Half-Dwarf/Half-Amazon Warrior

STR:21.25 STA:15 DEX: 10.95 CON: 14 WIS:15.5 CHA:17

SWOLE BUCKS: 1

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