No more BS for Terinatum, Time for Greater Things

[Terinatum]

Challenge 10 -- June 9 to July 20

 

 When left to my own devices, I often flounder and give up. BUT… Not Anymore!

 

Firstly, I want to say thank you.   Since I found Nerd Fitness - Feb 2013-  I have never felt alone while trying to improve. I mean it, never. My staying power comes from this community: the individuals I chat with and trade support with; to the threads I read and enjoy but rarely speak up on. I will be more active in this community as this place is my key. You are my Key Master!

 

*underpants thrown aside*  Onto Action!

 

Challenge 10 Goals - revised

 

I am going to re-test myself, and the environment around me. Does that actually taste good or am I just assuming so, as I cram another swiss roll down my gullet? Do I like brussel sprouts? Hell no! Wait. Actually, I've assumed not for decades, because my parents made me eat them on vacation when I was a kid and I knew back then that I didn't like them. Now, however, I have no way of knowing if I don't try them.

 

Goal 1:        More Water and Solid Sleep; so my body can perform at its peak.

For 2 points STA -- Drink 177 ozs of water per day, with one glass having  sea salt for electrolytes.

For 1 point CON -- To bed - no lights - before 11pm and up by 8am. The phone doesn't get used in bed, period.

 

Goal 2:        Strong Core Work; so I can do anything I darn well please, including free-running and parkour.

For 4 points STR -- Complete Planks (get to 1 min.), Squat form with up to 45 lbs., and Push Ups (get to 5 regular pushups at one time).

 

Goal 3:        Better Food Intake; so I can enjoy and rely on healthy sustenance, which is what I truly crave, not sugar.

For 5 points STA -- I will no longer consume desserts, candy, or other sugar-based items that cannot be considered a decent meal item. No packaged cookies, baked desserts or treats, no candy, and no maple syrup. The syrup is temporary until the sugar demons are settled enough to allow the occasional  use of syrup - I don't use it much anyway, I just don't want to run to it, because it's not on the Forever List of Crap no longer allowed in my body at those quantities.

 

Level Up Goal:      will be to complete my business plan, apply for medicaid, and make my new curtains.

For 3 points WIS -- I will: complete my business plan; enough financial support for continued therapy and money for food; and to post curtain porn?

 

I will be using every trick in the book to reprogram my brain. I feel strong, confident, and angry enough to make this happen. Amazingly, the anger isn't pointed at me, but at those chemicals and neuro-pathways that need to change their tune and do it MY WAY.

 

All goals, except Goal 3, will be graded according to how many days I complete the goal.

 

Days --

          35/42 = A (100% of points)

          28/42 = B (75%)

          21/42 = C (50%)

          14/42 = D (25%)

          < 14 days -- not going to happen!

Goal 3 is pass or fail

 

My guardian self...

 

[Kailer]

These look really strong, Teri! 245 oz. of water a day, that's nearly 2 gallons .... Do NOT stray far from the ladies room!

[Shukar]

That is a ton of water, but I'm not one to talk since I've been known to drink 3-4L a day easily on many days.

[Terinatum]

Yea, the water intake should prove to be interesting. I certainly won't get every day, but I really want to keep dehydration at bay (hehe).

 

I gonna research the numbers as it does sound like a lot. If I find a better number, I'll sub it in. But for now...

[Terinatum]

Just over one gallon of water and it's already 4:40 pm. Yikes! I'm gonna keep researching!

[Terinatum]

Week Zero Day One - Thursday

 

1.) No workouts  - boo hiss!

I will do mobility this evening, but the exercise has got to come early in the day or else it falls off the map. Gotta keep it in the foreground of my mind.

 

2.) Only drinking water - a gallon so far and another to go? I'm not sure, but I'm still looking into it. I found myself turning corners in the grocery store this afternoon, heading towards the milk aisle! Oh no no. Move along. It wasn't too hard to veer away so that's awesome.

 

*** Update - water intake requirement lowered significantly. See first thread for meandering explanation. I'm chatty tonight.

 

Ounces for today (plus another 16 or so ounces throughout the evening) is 1.25 gals. So close to the required amount of 1.382812 gals. However if I use imperial standards [1.151432 gals.] - I made it!

 

Simply speaking which seems quite impossible for me today. I need to drink 177 ozs. of water per day. Right now (8:24 pm GMT), I have consumed 160 ozs. So those last assumed 16 ozs. I plan on drinking will have to be met with another ounce! hehehe

 

3.) No Shaws' fresh baked chocolate chip cookies or Nancy's No-Bake cookies! Not a huge temptation even right next to the cookies! WOOT for the Day! Again in the store, it was like I was a magnet to these old haunts! So I did my shopping in reverse order. Completely screwed me up but it was kinda fun too. 

 

Life) I took a walk that turned into a speed walk! Thought the sky was going to open up on me and drench me, but nope.

 

In between PVP) The speed walk works for both life goal and kickaround work.

 

** Realization #1) Therapy today was interesting. I had an ah-ha moment. I've been having anxiety attacks whenever I start working on my business plan expense sheet. I'm working with Voc Rehab and they are willing to help with start up costs (up to $1,500). When I was talking about my issues with receiving and asking for things for myself, it became apparent that it was not only that I have a hard time taking care of myself and asking for what I need, but I don't trust that they are on my side or really want to be helping or that it will ever come to pass. Family life when I was a child was one calamity after another. But parental betrayal seemed to follow me everywhere. SO! Now that I've made that connection, I'm taking care of my Parts (IFS therapy) and letting the anxiety wash over me, thak it, and let it keep rollin on by. We'll see how that goes. Stay tuned.

 

Off to the ladies room, no wonders why right?

Cheers

 

[Heidi]

Love the insights.

Big Hugs to all your wounded survivors, and a big thanks to them for protecting you this far. Pleasr be gentle with them; they have good reason to be skittish and fragile.

Much love, fellow survivor.

[18ck]

Two gallons? Lordy lord... 

[Terinatum]

Two gallons? Lordy lord... 

@I know, right.

 

 

Water Calculation update!

 

Actually, I have found the error of my ways or at least realizing I may have missed the fine pixel print.

 

It's actually more like BW divided by 50 - 66% = fluid ounces per day. Then add another liter or so (sorry for the mixed matrix) if you are exercising and being awesome like us Rebels!

 

So, 2 gallons? Pah, no more. Thank Ptah!

 

I will now aim for 1,416 fluid drams per day!?!

Which equals 177 fluid ounces per day - approx. 57% plus a liter.

P.S. How can fluid ounces be different in the US, compared to other places? To you, U.S. Gov't     (okay, not really, just going for the laugh. 'Uncle, don't cry. It's okay. Sam, I am still loyal to you.')

 

I will edit my initial post and count my drams for today.

Cheers.

[AverageFish]

Great goals again!  Nice incremental approach to giving up the sweet things.  Cookies have been my bane for years.  But we can beat them!

[Terinatum]

Great goals again!  Nice incremental approach to giving up the sweet things.  Cookies have been my bane for years.  But we can beat them!

 

Absolutely!

 

Glad you stopped by.

[Syren]

Because in the US, ounces are both a measurement of weight and volume... which is frankly ridiculous, and why I am slowly trying to integrate the metric system into my kitchen... since I already use it all the time in the lab.

 

Now transitioning cups to liters or grams is tricky. *breaks out the food scale, in grams, and seeks the holy graduated cylinder of Antioch/*

[Kailer]

Frankly I'm relieved you've already adjusted that goal. I was a mite worried!

[Heidi]

Frankly I'm relieved you've already adjusted that goal. I was a mite worried!

Agreed! My first thought was that you would hospitalize yourself by throwing your electrolytes out of whack.

[Relic]

Agreed! My first thought was that you would hospitalize yourself by throwing your electrolytes out of whack.

actually I think that hyponatremea is more likely to kill you than send you to the ER...

Thanks for adjusting your number, you had me worried.

[Heidi]

actually I think that hyponatremea is more likely to kill you than send you to the ER...

Thanks for adjusting your number, you had me worried.

Going to look up that cool new word now.

[18ck]

Frankly I'm relieved you've already adjusted that goal. I was a mite worried!

Mm, normally you need a team of firemen* to deliver that kind of water volume.

I don't understand the new number at all but I gather it's smaller so feel a bit happier about the sitch now.

[shortstuff]

I see another person working on Planks as well!

Catching them all from my iPad using tapatalk

[Terinatum]

I see another person working on Planks as well!

Catching them all from my iPad using tapatalk

 

Yuppers. It's really important for me. I weight 245 (less now I think) and running can really put a damper on my posture so planks really help with that. Plus, ya know, it's completely BADASS!

[Kailer]

Yuppers. It's really important for me. I weight 245 (less now I think) and running can really put a damper on my posture so planks really help with that. Plus, ya know, it's completely BADASS!

Plank Punx 4 Lyf!

[Terinatum]

I talked to my peeps inside last night as I binged on a package of keebler double stuffs AND a whole package of crullers donuts. My realization came while walking two very cute mini collie/shelties.

I'm a sugar addict. When my brain has enough sugar in it, it lets the rest of me out of it's hold. So, my true desires surface. I say okay, enough, my body can't handle this. So I vow with emotional confidence to break the sugar cycle.

When the brain's excessive supply of sugar gets too low, the brain locks up my true desires by flooding the mind with its demands while the body goes through another cycle of withdrawal.

I got very angry last night. I wasn't angry with me, but with the chemical make up in my brain! Normally I would consider my brain to be me, all of it. Now I think the addict in my brain is more like a nasty break in my system. Unlike other brain system disabilities, I believe the broken addict can be overcome. We have seen it everywhere. We are doing it here on NF. With that in mind, I let the binge happen, making sure the my peeps were not involved, it is not their desire like I supposed for so long. I also told that addict system that I will fix it, it will not longer be able to get its fix.

My body is aching this morning. I spent 20 minutes laying on the bathroom floor wondering which position I would need to get rid of this demon sickness. I'm physically quite tender in places and determined I'm right. That this refusal to let the addict run my show, is the best plan I can claim. Now I sit on the front stoop with sun rising, the birds singing, and the pups anxious for a romp.

I am content to run my life. All of it.





I love to run, damn it!

[Relic]

you should try some replacement therapy. I did this awhile back and it seemed to help me...

Get a big bag of spinach.

When you are home and when you even think "hm, sugar would be good right now" immediately go to the fridge and grab a few spinach leaves and eat them, chewing more than neseccary (to buy you more time). When you get your next sugar craving (likely as soon as you finish) then repeat the process.

You can either do this as much as possible, or for a set amount of time. (or, as always, dismiss the random advice from the internet)

Sugar cravings are nasty. More than many people realize. You get an immediate positive feedback response (happy tastebuds, sugar rush) which makes it a very self enforcing habit. best of luck

[Heidi]

O used ginger tea to replace coffee after 2 pm. It's still stimulating but not jittery. Bonus: it purifies the system, helping get rid of the old toxins. Put a couple lemon halves and their juice in with chopped fresh ginger and you have a yummy tonic.

[Terinatum]

O used ginger tea to replace coffee after 2 pm. It's still stimulating but not jittery. Bonus: it purifies the system, helping get rid of the old toxins. Put a couple lemon halves and their juice in with chopped fresh ginger and you have a yummy tonic.

Unfortunately, I don't like teas. Well, any hot drink actually. Thanks though. 😄

I love to run, damn it!

[Terinatum]

you should try some replacement therapy. I did this awhile back and it seemed to help me...

Get a big bag of spinach.

When you are home and when you even think "hm, sugar would be good right now" immediately go to the fridge and grab a few spinach leaves and eat them, chewing more than neseccary (to buy you more time). When you get your next sugar craving (likely as soon as you finish) then repeat the process.

You can either do this as much as possible, or for a set amount of time. (or, as always, dismiss the random advice from the internet)

Sugar cravings are nasty. More than many people realize. You get an immediate positive feedback response (happy tastebuds, sugar rush) which makes it a very self enforcing habit. best of luck

Good idea Phylanx, that should help some.

I love to run, damn it!