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Main Quest

  • ultimately, I will achieve a body weight of 130lbs and a body fat percentage under 25.

 

Goals

  • Exercise: I vow to adhere to the following workout plan every day, with the rare exception.
    • Mon, Wed, Fri: upper body (bench press, military press, seated row, bicep curl, tricep curl, lat pulldown)
    • Tue, Thu, Sat/Sun: lower body (calf raises, squats, lunges)
  • Diet: I vow to refrain from consuming more than 1700 clean kcal every day, with the rare exception.
  • Alcohol: I vow to refrain from purchasing any alcohol, with the rare exception.
  • Positivity: I vow to post one positive thing every day.

 

My Motivation

  • I vow to adhere to the above requirements, because I'm fucking sick of how I look, and I'm tired of this Depression.
  • healthy eating and regular exercise are good for the body, alcohol is not; and positivity is good for the soul.

 

Notes

  • the "with the rare exception" clause must be validated by Brian -- if he deems it acceptable, then I can invoke it. this ensures I don't let myself "cheat" too much.
  • I must input every day's progress on both my spreadsheet AND my NerdFitness thread. this ensures accountability.

 

Alcohol Notes

  • I'm going to look into going to weekly AA meetings.
  • I am already permitted to purchase alcohol on the following days:
    • Friday, August 1 - Monday, August 9 (MechaCon in New Orleans)
    • Friday, August 8 (for the next day's TMNT party)
    • Saturday, August 16 (long-planned Gurlz Nite Out)
  • if Brian and I go out to dinner

 

Links

 

just another cracked southern belle,

and a specialist in self-kintsukuroi.

Current Challenge Accountability:  Health & Happiness Are Hard: Wherein the Cracked_Belle Un-Dies

Epic Quest:  Adventures in Badassery  [under construction]

Spoiler

There is never a sudden revelation, a complete and tidy explanation for why it happened, or why it ends, or why or who you are. You want one and I want one, but there isn't one. It comes in bits and pieces, and you stitch them together wherever they fit, and when you are done you hold yourself up, and still there are holes and you are a rag doll, invented, imperfect. And yet you are all that you have, so you must be enough. There is no other way.
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

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I'm excited to see how this pans out

Level 10.4 Wood-Elf, Ranger - specializing in demon fighting

"doing the impossible since 2012 :D" - Librarian of Doom

facebook battle log level 50 WOOT   Backstory CNF2014  current (not challenge - doing a battle log this time)

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* This is the day the Lord has made, rejoice in it and be glad. God, The Bible. * Do or do not, there is no try. - Yoda
* There are three options in this life; be good, get good, or give up. -- House * Never take counsel of your fears. Stonewall Jackson. 

* level 50 isn't gonna just POOF happen - alienjenn, NF IRC chatroom

 

* I'm not about to give up - Because I heard you say - There's gonna be brighter days… I won't stop, I'll keep my head up - No, I'm not here to stay ...  - 

 I just might bend but I won't break - As long as I can see your face - When life won't play along - And right keeps going wrong - And I can't seem to find my way - I know where I am found - So I won't let it drag me down - Oh, I'll keep dancing anyway - Mercy Me - Move

 

 

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so yesterday (July 24th), I met with a counselor at a detox clinic.  he gave me some information.

 

Monday morning (Challenge Day 1, as it turns out), I'm going back in for a free assessment to see where I stand.  they'll do blood tests and ask some questions, then determine what would be the next best approaches for me.  the guy at the clinic mentioned that alcoholism is considered an illness, so if I go into the detox program, my job can't fire me.  and depending on my insurance, I may even still get paid for the days I miss.

 

however, I'm not sure I'm to the point where that's necessary.  like I said, I'm being foolish and trying to cut back on drinking, not stop it completely.  though if I can't manage to control it for this Challenge, stopping completely may be the Goal for the next one.

 

there's two different AA groups I'm looking at joining.  "Young Drunks" meets Wednesday nights, so I'd have to reschedule my gaming group to Monday.  and then "We Agnostics of Acadiana" meets 6pm Saturday night, which is just awkward to me.  (note: I'm not personally Agnostic. but I think AA groups put too much trust in God and His interventions. I don't agree with that.)

 

 

TL;DR

I've already made progress on drinking less, and the Challenge hasn't even started yet! :D

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just another cracked southern belle,

and a specialist in self-kintsukuroi.

Current Challenge Accountability:  Health & Happiness Are Hard: Wherein the Cracked_Belle Un-Dies

Epic Quest:  Adventures in Badassery  [under construction]

Spoiler

There is never a sudden revelation, a complete and tidy explanation for why it happened, or why it ends, or why or who you are. You want one and I want one, but there isn't one. It comes in bits and pieces, and you stitch them together wherever they fit, and when you are done you hold yourself up, and still there are holes and you are a rag doll, invented, imperfect. And yet you are all that you have, so you must be enough. There is no other way.
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

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so yesterday (July 24th), I met with a counselor at a detox clinic.  he gave me some information.

 

Monday morning (Challenge Day 1, as it turns out), I'm going back in for a free assessment to see where I stand.  they'll do blood tests and ask some questions, then determine what would be the next best approaches for me.  the guy at the clinic mentioned that alcoholism is considered an illness, so if I go into the detox program, my job can't fire me.  and depending on my insurance, I may even still get paid for the days I miss.

 

however, I'm sure I'm to the point where that's necessary.  like I said, I'm being foolish and trying to cut back on drinking, not stop it completely.  though if I can't manage to control it for this Challenge, stopping completely may be the Goal for the next one.

 

there's two different AA groups I'm looking at joining.  "Young Drunks" meets Wednesday nights, so I'd have to reschedule my gaming group to Monday.  and then "We Agnostics of Acadiana" meets 6pm Saturday night, which is just awkward to me.  (note: I'm not personally Agnostic. but I think AA groups put too much trust in God and His interventions. I don't agree with that.)

 

 

TL;DR

I've already made progress on drinking less, and the Challenge hasn't even started yet! :D

just another cracked southern belle,

and a specialist in self-kintsukuroi.

Current Challenge Accountability:  Health & Happiness Are Hard: Wherein the Cracked_Belle Un-Dies

Epic Quest:  Adventures in Badassery  [under construction]

Spoiler

There is never a sudden revelation, a complete and tidy explanation for why it happened, or why it ends, or why or who you are. You want one and I want one, but there isn't one. It comes in bits and pieces, and you stitch them together wherever they fit, and when you are done you hold yourself up, and still there are holes and you are a rag doll, invented, imperfect. And yet you are all that you have, so you must be enough. There is no other way.
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

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I'm excited to see how this pans out

hopefully I keep to it this time around!

just another cracked southern belle,

and a specialist in self-kintsukuroi.

Current Challenge Accountability:  Health & Happiness Are Hard: Wherein the Cracked_Belle Un-Dies

Epic Quest:  Adventures in Badassery  [under construction]

Spoiler

There is never a sudden revelation, a complete and tidy explanation for why it happened, or why it ends, or why or who you are. You want one and I want one, but there isn't one. It comes in bits and pieces, and you stitch them together wherever they fit, and when you are done you hold yourself up, and still there are holes and you are a rag doll, invented, imperfect. And yet you are all that you have, so you must be enough. There is no other way.
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

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hopefully I keep to it this time around!

Why do you think I stick around. .. one of these days you're going to have an a+++challenge and I'm going to be here to see it[emoji102]

Level 10.4 Wood-Elf, Ranger - specializing in demon fighting

"doing the impossible since 2012 :D" - Librarian of Doom

facebook battle log level 50 WOOT   Backstory CNF2014  current (not challenge - doing a battle log this time)

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* This is the day the Lord has made, rejoice in it and be glad. God, The Bible. * Do or do not, there is no try. - Yoda
* There are three options in this life; be good, get good, or give up. -- House * Never take counsel of your fears. Stonewall Jackson. 

* level 50 isn't gonna just POOF happen - alienjenn, NF IRC chatroom

 

* I'm not about to give up - Because I heard you say - There's gonna be brighter days… I won't stop, I'll keep my head up - No, I'm not here to stay ...  - 

 I just might bend but I won't break - As long as I can see your face - When life won't play along - And right keeps going wrong - And I can't seem to find my way - I know where I am found - So I won't let it drag me down - Oh, I'll keep dancing anyway - Mercy Me - Move

 

 

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It sounds like you're taking the right steps!! 

 

I think your alcohol notes are really great.  If you're drinking int a social fashion, ie particular parties, or out for dinner, I feel like this is "acceptable drinking" and not unhealthy drinking habits. 

 

Great job taking action, talking to a counselor, and checking out meetings.  I'm wondering if the 6pm Saturday group is to try to avoid Saturday night plans that involve drinking? But I agree, it's weird.  I'm also on the same page in that I wouldn't want my AA group to be really religious.  I'm not very open about stuff like that, and it would make me uncomfortable.  PLUS I remember my dad saying things about his faith in God was really damaged when he was struggling with alcoholism.  I think that as much as people can draw strength from God, they can just as easily lose faith during those tough times too.  That being said, my dad did really well when he was in AA.  I think it's definitely about finding the right group of people.

 

I'll be here to see you crush this challenge! 

 

P.s. I love your positivity goal. I think this can really help you stay with it.  I've also noticed that you didn't make writing one of your goals for this challenge.  I think that with everything else you have going on right now, that might be a good thing.  Plus just because it's not a goal this challenge doesn't mean you can't do it anyway.  :) 

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so yesterday (July 24th), I met with a counselor at a detox clinic.  he gave me some information.

 

Monday morning (Challenge Day 1, as it turns out), I'm going back in for a free assessment to see where I stand.  they'll do blood tests and ask some questions, then determine what would be the next best approaches for me.  the guy at the clinic mentioned that alcoholism is considered an illness, so if I go into the detox program, my job can't fire me.  and depending on my insurance, I may even still get paid for the days I miss.

 

however, I'm sure I'm to the point where that's necessary.  like I said, I'm being foolish and trying to cut back on drinking, not stop it completely.  though if I can't manage to control it for this Challenge, stopping completely may be the Goal for the next one.

 

there's two different AA groups I'm looking at joining.  "Young Drunks" meets Wednesday nights, so I'd have to reschedule my gaming group to Monday.  and then "We Agnostics of Acadiana" meets 6pm Saturday night, which is just awkward to me.  (note: I'm not personally Agnostic. but I think AA groups put too much trust in God and His interventions. I don't agree with that.)

 

 

TL;DR

I've already made progress on drinking less, and the Challenge hasn't even started yet! :D

 

Yes! James! Yes!

Racquet wielding rock gnome: Ranger - L6 - STR: 13, DEX: 8, STA: 13.5, CON: 12, WIS: 14, CHA: 11

 

Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice.
And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition…
Stay hungry. Stay foolish.†– Steve Jobs, Stanford University, 2005
 
You miss 100 percent of the shots you don't take. -- Wayne Gretzky
 

6Wks Challenges: #9, #8, #7, #6, #5#4#3, #2.5#2, #1

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Why do you think I stick around. .. one of these days you're going to have an a+++challenge and I'm going to be here to see it[emoji102]

 

that would be great! :D

 

 

It sounds like you're taking the right steps!! 

 

I think your alcohol notes are really great.  If you're drinking int a social fashion, ie particular parties, or out for dinner, I feel like this is "acceptable drinking" and not unhealthy drinking habits. 

 

Great job taking action, talking to a counselor, and checking out meetings.  I'm wondering if the 6pm Saturday group is to try to avoid Saturday night plans that involve drinking? But I agree, it's weird.  I'm also on the same page in that I wouldn't want my AA group to be really religious.  I'm not very open about stuff like that, and it would make me uncomfortable.  PLUS I remember my dad saying things about his faith in God was really damaged when he was struggling with alcoholism.  I think that as much as people can draw strength from God, they can just as easily lose faith during those tough times too.  That being said, my dad did really well when he was in AA.  I think it's definitely about finding the right group of people.

 

I'll be here to see you crush this challenge! 

 

P.s. I love your positivity goal. I think this can really help you stay with it.  I've also noticed that you didn't make writing one of your goals for this challenge.  I think that with everything else you have going on right now, that might be a good thing.  Plus just because it's not a goal this challenge doesn't mean you can't do it anyway.   :)

 

exactly, on everything you said, lol.

 

I have a strange opinion of Faith, very atypical.  so I can't really relate when people are like "God will help you through it" and shit.  :/

 

 

Yes! James! Yes!

 

<3  it was difficult to be honest with the guy.  but he was very realistic and non-judgmental.

just another cracked southern belle,

and a specialist in self-kintsukuroi.

Current Challenge Accountability:  Health & Happiness Are Hard: Wherein the Cracked_Belle Un-Dies

Epic Quest:  Adventures in Badassery  [under construction]

Spoiler

There is never a sudden revelation, a complete and tidy explanation for why it happened, or why it ends, or why or who you are. You want one and I want one, but there isn't one. It comes in bits and pieces, and you stitch them together wherever they fit, and when you are done you hold yourself up, and still there are holes and you are a rag doll, invented, imperfect. And yet you are all that you have, so you must be enough. There is no other way.
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

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I got up at 5:30 this morning and worked out! w00t! :D

 

and then later today is my alcoholism assessment.  ugh.

 

also, I won't be doing so much clean eating this next week, as I'll be working the anime convention.  I picked up semi-healthy snacks for the week -- Luna bars, South Beach bars, diet cranberry juice, no-sugar-added applesauce, pistachioes, etc.  not the best, but at least I'll have something better than chips and soda, which is what the break room will have.  :/  I did, however, pick up some energy drinks.  lord knows I'll need them.

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just another cracked southern belle,

and a specialist in self-kintsukuroi.

Current Challenge Accountability:  Health & Happiness Are Hard: Wherein the Cracked_Belle Un-Dies

Epic Quest:  Adventures in Badassery  [under construction]

Spoiler

There is never a sudden revelation, a complete and tidy explanation for why it happened, or why it ends, or why or who you are. You want one and I want one, but there isn't one. It comes in bits and pieces, and you stitch them together wherever they fit, and when you are done you hold yourself up, and still there are holes and you are a rag doll, invented, imperfect. And yet you are all that you have, so you must be enough. There is no other way.
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

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I'm not commiting to this, but I'd like to try posting my measurements, weight, and body fat percentage every week (Mon/Tue-ish).  so here's for Week One:

 

Week One

Weight: 169.6 lbs

Body Fat:  38.5%

BMI:  27.4

Lean:  104.3 lbs

Fat:  65.3 lbs

Neck:  36.5 cm

Bicep:  33.0 cm

Forearm:  25.5 cm

Chest:  98.5 cm

Waist:  98.0 cm

Hips:  110.0 cm ("Shamu hips", as my dad always called me)

Thigh:  63.0 cm

Calf:  38.5 cm

just another cracked southern belle,

and a specialist in self-kintsukuroi.

Current Challenge Accountability:  Health & Happiness Are Hard: Wherein the Cracked_Belle Un-Dies

Epic Quest:  Adventures in Badassery  [under construction]

Spoiler

There is never a sudden revelation, a complete and tidy explanation for why it happened, or why it ends, or why or who you are. You want one and I want one, but there isn't one. It comes in bits and pieces, and you stitch them together wherever they fit, and when you are done you hold yourself up, and still there are holes and you are a rag doll, invented, imperfect. And yet you are all that you have, so you must be enough. There is no other way.
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

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I got up at 5:30 this morning and worked out! w00t! :D

 

and then later today is my alcoholism assessment.  ugh.

 

also, I won't be doing so much clean eating this next week, as I'll be working the anime convention.  I picked up semi-healthy snacks for the week -- Luna bars, South Beach bars, diet cranberry juice, no-sugar-added applesauce, pistachioes, etc.  not the best, but at least I'll have something better than chips and soda, which is what the break room will have.  :/  I did, however, pick up some energy drinks.  lord knows I'll need them.

 

5:30am - sometimes it's the time I go to bed.

 

I don't think "assessment" itself is the "ugh". "ugh" is what comes after.

Nerdy nit pick aside, I'm glad to see you getting hold on an important issue of your health.

 

I have a few alcoholism sufferers in my family and it's not pretty.

Racquet wielding rock gnome: Ranger - L6 - STR: 13, DEX: 8, STA: 13.5, CON: 12, WIS: 14, CHA: 11

 

Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice.
And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition…
Stay hungry. Stay foolish.†– Steve Jobs, Stanford University, 2005
 
You miss 100 percent of the shots you don't take. -- Wayne Gretzky
 

6Wks Challenges: #9, #8, #7, #6, #5#4#3, #2.5#2, #1

Match records MyFitnesspal Fitbit Runtastic Strava

 

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For on the move, one thing to bring is a water bottle.

Anytime you feel hungry and want to reach out to a snack, start from water then snack.

 

What I've learned is that, when I feel a bit hungry, and if I pay close attention to it, I always notice I'm also thirsty.

When water is with you, you can hydrate easily. I now keep a water bottle on my desk. It works great.

Racquet wielding rock gnome: Ranger - L6 - STR: 13, DEX: 8, STA: 13.5, CON: 12, WIS: 14, CHA: 11

 

Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice.
And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition…
Stay hungry. Stay foolish.†– Steve Jobs, Stanford University, 2005
 
You miss 100 percent of the shots you don't take. -- Wayne Gretzky
 

6Wks Challenges: #9, #8, #7, #6, #5#4#3, #2.5#2, #1

Match records MyFitnesspal Fitbit Runtastic Strava

 

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5:30am - sometimes it's the time I go to bed.

 

I don't think "assessment" itself is the "ugh". "ugh" is what comes after.

Nerdy nit pick aside, I'm glad to see you getting hold on an important issue of your health.

 

I have a few alcoholism sufferers in my family and it's not pretty.

 

why do you go to bed so late?  O_O

 

and yeah, I'm finally facing the truth of it all, I suppose.

 

 

 

For on the move, one thing to bring is a water bottle.

Anytime you feel hungry and want to reach out to a snack, start from water then snack.

 

What I've learned is that, when I feel a bit hungry, and if I pay close attention to it, I always notice I'm also thirsty.

When water is with you, you can hydrate easily. I now keep a water bottle on my desk. It works great.

 

ooh, that's a really good idea.  thanks!

just another cracked southern belle,

and a specialist in self-kintsukuroi.

Current Challenge Accountability:  Health & Happiness Are Hard: Wherein the Cracked_Belle Un-Dies

Epic Quest:  Adventures in Badassery  [under construction]

Spoiler

There is never a sudden revelation, a complete and tidy explanation for why it happened, or why it ends, or why or who you are. You want one and I want one, but there isn't one. It comes in bits and pieces, and you stitch them together wherever they fit, and when you are done you hold yourself up, and still there are holes and you are a rag doll, invented, imperfect. And yet you are all that you have, so you must be enough. There is no other way.
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

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so I had my assessment. it was with the same guy I spoke to last week, which made me feel a little more comfortable.

he asked a bunch of questions about my emotional state, my physical state, my habits, my opinions, my goals, my concerns, my family's medical history, et cetera.

he said that because of the intensity to which I drink (both volume and frequency), detoxing at all will be really difficult. I'll have a lot of side effects as the alcohol gets out of my system. then he added that because of one of the specific medications I take, it may potentially be dangerous. moreover, because of all my Crazies, detoxing on my own may set me off into a panic attack or mania.

he and his team proposed that I do the full program. it's $734 with my insurance, and would last 34 days -- four days detox, thirty days rehab. (there's a chance that insurance may cut their support of the rehab back, in which case I'd pay $140/day I remain there.) that's 34 days I'd be living on-site, not even going to work.

I've been at SLCC for two'n'a'half years. because of this, and because alcoholism is considered an ongoing illness, they can't fire me. in fact, it would probably quality for FMLA -- Family Medical Leave Act of 1993. meaning I might even still get paid.
 


but I'm probably not going to go in. not yet, at least. I'm going to be stubborn and try to do things my way, first. I'm going to go on with the NerdFitness Challenge as planned. if after this Challenge I still don't have it under control, then maybe that's simply what has to happen next.

but for now, it's a last resort, not the current plan.

just another cracked southern belle,

and a specialist in self-kintsukuroi.

Current Challenge Accountability:  Health & Happiness Are Hard: Wherein the Cracked_Belle Un-Dies

Epic Quest:  Adventures in Badassery  [under construction]

Spoiler

There is never a sudden revelation, a complete and tidy explanation for why it happened, or why it ends, or why or who you are. You want one and I want one, but there isn't one. It comes in bits and pieces, and you stitch them together wherever they fit, and when you are done you hold yourself up, and still there are holes and you are a rag doll, invented, imperfect. And yet you are all that you have, so you must be enough. There is no other way.
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

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I got up at 5:30 this morning and worked out! w00t! :D

 

and then later today is my alcoholism assessment.  ugh.

 

also, I won't be doing so much clean eating this next week, as I'll be working the anime convention.  I picked up semi-healthy snacks for the week -- Luna bars, South Beach bars, diet cranberry juice, no-sugar-added applesauce, pistachioes, etc.  not the best, but at least I'll have something better than chips and soda, which is what the break room will have.  :/  I did, however, pick up some energy drinks.  lord knows I'll need them.

Ewww, 5:30am. lol

 

I hope the assessment goes well.  Sometimes I find the time leading up to events is worse than the thing itself.  Like my physio appointment tomorrow - I'm super nervous now, but I"m sure it'll be fine.

 

And all you can do at anime convention is your best - prepare with snacks, drink water, and my other tip would be to keep busy so that you don't have time to eat too much bad food! 

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Ewww, 5:30am. lol

 

I hope the assessment goes well.  Sometimes I find the time leading up to events is worse than the thing itself.  Like my physio appointment tomorrow - I'm super nervous now, but I"m sure it'll be fine.

 

And all you can do at anime convention is your best - prepare with snacks, drink water, and my other tip would be to keep busy so that you don't have time to eat too much bad food!

rooting for you on your physio appt. <3

yeah, I'm gonna keep semi-healthy food on-hand (in cargo pants) to avoid the really bad stuff they'll offer for free or cheap.

just another cracked southern belle,

and a specialist in self-kintsukuroi.

Current Challenge Accountability:  Health & Happiness Are Hard: Wherein the Cracked_Belle Un-Dies

Epic Quest:  Adventures in Badassery  [under construction]

Spoiler

There is never a sudden revelation, a complete and tidy explanation for why it happened, or why it ends, or why or who you are. You want one and I want one, but there isn't one. It comes in bits and pieces, and you stitch them together wherever they fit, and when you are done you hold yourself up, and still there are holes and you are a rag doll, invented, imperfect. And yet you are all that you have, so you must be enough. There is no other way.
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

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Monday, 28 July, 2014

 

Exercise: success!  got up at 5:30 and DDR'd, burning approximately 250 calories.  (you input your stats in the game, and it approximates it for you.)
Today: 1/1
Week: 1/1

Calories: 2003.  more than I'd like, but and not all clean.
Today: 0/1
Week: 0/1

Alcohol: dinner with Brian.  all I had was a double of Jack, and three glasses of wine.  when we got home, I whined a little bit about wanting more.  but I never gave in.
Today: 1/1
Week: 1/1
 

positivity: I walked in heels really well all night!  didn't fall once.  hell, never even tripped!! :D
Today: 1/1
Week: 1/1
 

Bonus Points: I'm gonna bbe self-loving, and give myself a bonus point for actually gettting up and DDR'ing, instead of saying, "eh, I'll start tomorrow".
Today: 1/0
Week: 1/0

Totals: I'm really confident that this is the Challenge wherein I actually get back into gear.  I may write about the specific reasons later.  but for now, that's enough.
Today: 4/4
Week: 4/4

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just another cracked southern belle,

and a specialist in self-kintsukuroi.

Current Challenge Accountability:  Health & Happiness Are Hard: Wherein the Cracked_Belle Un-Dies

Epic Quest:  Adventures in Badassery  [under construction]

Spoiler

There is never a sudden revelation, a complete and tidy explanation for why it happened, or why it ends, or why or who you are. You want one and I want one, but there isn't one. It comes in bits and pieces, and you stitch them together wherever they fit, and when you are done you hold yourself up, and still there are holes and you are a rag doll, invented, imperfect. And yet you are all that you have, so you must be enough. There is no other way.
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

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I want to try to do the Mini Challenges too.  every day that I accomplish that week's Mini Challenge, I'll get a Bonus Point.

 

for Adventurers in Week One, it's doing pushups.  however, they mentioned that an alternative to pushups (if you're injured, like me) is lunges.  so tonight, before I DDR, I'll try to do some lunges.  due to knee injuries, lunges are sometimes not an option.  if that issue arries, I'll just do squats.  ::shrugs::  I'll fucking do something, ya know?

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just another cracked southern belle,

and a specialist in self-kintsukuroi.

Current Challenge Accountability:  Health & Happiness Are Hard: Wherein the Cracked_Belle Un-Dies

Epic Quest:  Adventures in Badassery  [under construction]

Spoiler

There is never a sudden revelation, a complete and tidy explanation for why it happened, or why it ends, or why or who you are. You want one and I want one, but there isn't one. It comes in bits and pieces, and you stitch them together wherever they fit, and when you are done you hold yourself up, and still there are holes and you are a rag doll, invented, imperfect. And yet you are all that you have, so you must be enough. There is no other way.
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

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so I had my assessment. it was with the same guy I spoke to last week, which made me feel a little more comfortable.

...

but for now, it's a last resort, not the current plan.

 

Okay. Clearly, you cannot go cold. It's good news/bad news.

The current goal is not quite compatible with the assessment.

 

To minimize the bad side effect, you need to gradually drink less.

When you are drunk, you lose reasonable judgement.

Under the influence, how you can be rational to drink less by set amount?

 

What's your realistic, doable plan forward?

Racquet wielding rock gnome: Ranger - L6 - STR: 13, DEX: 8, STA: 13.5, CON: 12, WIS: 14, CHA: 11

 

Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice.
And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition…
Stay hungry. Stay foolish.†– Steve Jobs, Stanford University, 2005
 
You miss 100 percent of the shots you don't take. -- Wayne Gretzky
 

6Wks Challenges: #9, #8, #7, #6, #5#4#3, #2.5#2, #1

Match records MyFitnesspal Fitbit Runtastic Strava

 

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Hiya James! Looks like you're off to a good start. I know I don't pop in here very much but please know that I'm always pulling for you, especially in your struggles with alcohol.

thanks, sweetie. <3

Okay. Clearly, you cannot go cold. It's good news/bad news.

The current goal is not quite compatible with the assessment.

 

To minimize the bad side effect, you need to gradually drink less.

When you are drunk, you lose reasonable judgement.

Under the influence, how you can be rational to drink less by set amount?

 

What's your realistic, doable plan forward?

you mean after this Challenge, later in life?

just another cracked southern belle,

and a specialist in self-kintsukuroi.

Current Challenge Accountability:  Health & Happiness Are Hard: Wherein the Cracked_Belle Un-Dies

Epic Quest:  Adventures in Badassery  [under construction]

Spoiler

There is never a sudden revelation, a complete and tidy explanation for why it happened, or why it ends, or why or who you are. You want one and I want one, but there isn't one. It comes in bits and pieces, and you stitch them together wherever they fit, and when you are done you hold yourself up, and still there are holes and you are a rag doll, invented, imperfect. And yet you are all that you have, so you must be enough. There is no other way.
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

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Great job on being positive and getting up to do the DDRing :)  I think I need to start getting up earlier so that I can fit my physio exercises in once in the morning.  

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Tuesday, 29 July, 2014

 

Exercise: Brian and I had date night Monday and stayed up too late.  so I wasn't able to get up early in the morning.  and my anxiety was killing me in the evening.
Today: 0/1
Week: 1/2

Calories: 2849.  we had pizza, and I had booze.  :(
Today: -1/1
Week: 0/2

Alcohol: I was having anxiety attacks all evening.  I had no Will Power.  I needed to zone out.  Brian approved.  but still, it sucked.
Today: -1/1
Week: 0/2
 

Positivity: I may not owe my grad school $6800 immediately, but instead only $400.  I'm'll find out later today.
Today: 1/1
Week: 2/2
 

Bonus Points: N/A
Today: 0/0
Week: 1/0

Totals: it was a bad day.  but it's not the end of the Challenge.  I'm not letting this get me down.
Today: -1/4
Week: 3/8

just another cracked southern belle,

and a specialist in self-kintsukuroi.

Current Challenge Accountability:  Health & Happiness Are Hard: Wherein the Cracked_Belle Un-Dies

Epic Quest:  Adventures in Badassery  [under construction]

Spoiler

There is never a sudden revelation, a complete and tidy explanation for why it happened, or why it ends, or why or who you are. You want one and I want one, but there isn't one. It comes in bits and pieces, and you stitch them together wherever they fit, and when you are done you hold yourself up, and still there are holes and you are a rag doll, invented, imperfect. And yet you are all that you have, so you must be enough. There is no other way.
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

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Great job on being positive and getting up to do the DDRing :)  I think I need to start getting up earlier so that I can fit my physio exercises in once in the morning.  

well, I fucked that up yesterday and this morning.  but it'll be easier once it becomes habit/routine.

 

just another cracked southern belle,

and a specialist in self-kintsukuroi.

Current Challenge Accountability:  Health & Happiness Are Hard: Wherein the Cracked_Belle Un-Dies

Epic Quest:  Adventures in Badassery  [under construction]

Spoiler

There is never a sudden revelation, a complete and tidy explanation for why it happened, or why it ends, or why or who you are. You want one and I want one, but there isn't one. It comes in bits and pieces, and you stitch them together wherever they fit, and when you are done you hold yourself up, and still there are holes and you are a rag doll, invented, imperfect. And yet you are all that you have, so you must be enough. There is no other way.
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

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