Bekah's Journey: Time for an Unchallenge

[Bekah]

This time I am just going to do the things I'm doing and try to improve on them. No set goals, no grades, no success or failure.

I am working on:

30 Day Yoga Challenge

Lose 20 Pounds in 10 Weeks PvP

Flylady

BBWW

Being here for my fellow nerds

yeah technically the PvP and Yoga and BBWW are pass/fail, but I'm just not going to focus on that, and usually I drop mad weight when I'm not obsessing over it...so I am hoping to kick ass. Although the BBWW is subject to talking to my doctor, bc I have this weird loosening of my joints that seems to happen when I do the BBWW, but not yoga(?) and when I walk my knees feel like they are going to pop out at any second, and I want to make sure that I don't injure my knees again on a voluntary activity.

I am not going to have much of a challenge thread, but will be utilizing my battle log as a diary chronicle of things. Feel free to drop by: Bekah's Becoming Who She Wants To Be

[Bekah]

I see your like, do you have a challenge thread yet???? I missed you!!! 

[Sunmage]

Glad your back!

 

Great Idea!

[Tateman]

Looks like good things that you are working on.  This challenge I don't want to have a major focus on weight loss either.  I just want it to happen with my working my butt off

[Teirin]

:-)

[LittleTurtle]

I love the idea of an unchallenge. I may have to steal that idea at some point.

[The Swedish Ninja]

Hi!

Looks pretty similar to my challenge, but you have come up with a better word .

Will tag along to watch your progress

[katastrophenkatzchen]

Clever idea to make a challenge consisting of PVPs. I have the feeling they keep me pretty much on track, better than accounability groups and my own challenge thread

Do your best to unchallenge yourself

[Bekah]

Clever idea to make a challenge consisting of PVPs. I have the feeling they keep me pretty much on track, better than accounability groups and my own challenge thread

Do your best to unchallenge yourself

they do that for me too, they seem more FUN than goals and since I am shiny object chaser too, it gives me several different new things to try that I don't normally focus on 100%, and with everyone doing the SAME thing, the accountability is great. 

[Waldgeist]

I see your like, do you have a challenge thread yet???? I missed you!!! 

 

I do now!

[I am Eve]

Bekah, yes, do the unchallenge!

There's a happy feeling here!

[Honeybee]

Ooh an unchallenge! Cool! I'm right there with you in the 30 Day Yoga Challenge.  *high fives*

[LittleTurtle]

Hi Bekah!  How is the "unchallenge" going so far?

[MaD MaLKaV]

A very merry unchallenge to you!

I considered making a version of this with me dead panning "challenge" over all the birthday's, but the fact that it's midnight and my wife and cat are sleeping arm's length away kinda killed that plan. But here's a not so special unchallenge present anyway!

Note: as per same reason I didn't modify this, I also didn't watch it. So hopefully it is what it says it is, and I'm not inadvertently Rick-rolling your or something.

It seems like a nice idea occasionally just having some guiding goals without fussing over the other details. I'll probably need to do that sometime, since I have a tendency to rebel against order even if it's self-imposed. Always hoped I'ld outgrow that by now.

Anyway, good to see you're keeping on with keepin' on improving, Princess!

[Bekah]

That video is exactly what it appears to be. That is probably my second favorite part (very close second) of that entire movie  

 

and thank you  

It's going okay, well until about 5 minutes ago...BUT I think I unlocked something I was entirely avoiding in my yoga practice...and I DONT like it, but it gives me a new direction to take, so that's good, I guess. 

[Ambisagrus]

One of my favorite songs says 'we must enter pain to stop feeling numb' - I find those dark and creaky places are usually where someone hid the money. Get some!

[Bekah]

One of my favorite songs says 'we must enter pain to stop feeling numb' - I find those dark and creaky places are usually where someone hid the money. Get some!

Oh I got it Blocked Sacral Charkra and inability to do Chatarunga and all! lol (more details in my battle log if you are interested)

[green eggs]

Blocked Sacral Chakra sounds painful, but is essentially Greek to me How does that express itself?

[Bekah]

Not exactly physically painful, I mean it can be but it's 90% emotional stuff. Cross posted from my battle log

Something interesting came up tonight in my meditation time. I have been using a mantra for the inhale/exhale (peace;love, respectively) trying to gain peace and send love to the world...but anyways, after that I visualize my chakras and send color energy to them (not sure where I got that from, but it works for me) and tonight while I was doing that, in my minds eye I saw my spinal column and my sacral chakra, with a hand around it with a very tight grip, closing off the upward mobility of my energy.

So, a pretty vivid image of a blocked sacral chakra. What does that mean for me and how does it manifest in my life? Well, my pain in my lower back is related to it, plus just about ebery single other issue I have.

from quintessentialalchemy.com

Sacral Chakra – Svadhisthana

The Sacral Chakra is located approximately 1-2 inches below your naval and its color is orange. The Sacral Chakra is very close in vibration to the Root Chakra, and so it is also concerned with survival issues, but more from an emotional/gut instinct standpoint. The Sacral Chakra is associated with our emotional body and our tribal consciousness. It rules creativity, intuition on a gut level, fertility, relationships with others, and sensuality. Whereas the Root Chakra was more associated with the masculine energy of sexuality and physical gratification, the Sacral Chakra is concerned with the more feminine aspect of sex as a sharing act and union between two people. The Sacral Chakra is also connected to our sense of taste and to food. It is no wonder then that some people deal (or rather not deal) with their emotions with food, as they both correspond to the energy vibration of the Sacral Chakra. Food, and sharing a meal, is also associated with home and spending time with friends and family, all second chakra energy. As the Sacral Chakra is connected with emotions and the emotional body, it is also associated with the element of Water, the Moon, Yesod on the Tree of Life, and the lower Astral Plane. As such, the Sacral Chakra is also connected with endings and beginnings and the illusory nature of this life.

When the Sacral Chakra is clear and the energy is in balance, you are friendly, compassionate, and empathic with a concern for others. You are nurturing of yourself and of others. You have a very strong sense of belonging – you know your role within the tribe and are well respected and liked by others. This sense of connectedness also extends to nature and the plants and animals. Your emotions are balanced and you are self-aware – you allow yourself to feel your emotions and can transform negative emotion into positive. You have a strong gut instinct and heed well that level of intuition. You have a good sense of humor and express yourself creatively.

When the Sacral Chakra is unbalanced by excessive energy, you may be prone to emotional outbursts, be overly ambitious, manipulative (if you loved me…), caught up in illusions, over indulgent, and objectify others as sex objects, or use sex to not deal with your emotions.

A blocked Sacral Chakra with too little energy running through it is often tied to childhood trauma and abuse. You may feel unloved and unworthy, be shy and timid, immobilized by fear, overly sensitive, clingy or in contrast isolated, and burdened by undeserved guilt and shame. You may be repressed emotionally and sexually, inhibited, frigid or impotent. You may not be able to connect emotionally with others or form true intimate relationships. You may stuff your emotions down with food, and so they build up under the surface. You may feel overwhelmed - that you cannot allow yourself to feel your emotions, because your emotional well is full and just one more will cause the well to overflow, the dam to burst, and all hell to break loose.

[Leonine]

Woooow, what an interesting insight! You know, I've never really tried chakra visualization for myself, but that's really something. Physical ailments aside, what's your interpretation of how that might be showing up in your life? Any thoughts?

[green eggs]

That certainly sounds like a lot to deal with all at once. So, how do you unblock the chakra?

[Bekah]

Woooow, what an interesting insight! You know, I've never really tried chakra visualization for myself, but that's really something. Physical ailments aside, what's your interpretation of how that might be showing up in your life? Any thoughts?

Oh it's showing up in pretty much every way listed above. I have serious relationship/sexuality issues (and have since elementary school). I am learning to be more trusting and have empathy for others and all those people skills, mainly bc of NF really, but in my daily life I tend to trust no one, care about very few people and live life with one foot out the door in relationships. I can walk away from anyone and everyone and rarely even feel anything, but being here and forcing myself to care about other people has really changed that for the better, but I struggle with forgiveness of myself and others, have pretty shitty self esteem or love/ compassion for myself or most others (I only know I'm capable of those emotions bc of my kids and one other person) and have had an eating disorder of one form or another all my life (another thing changing lately too) and financial security issues are a huge problem area as well.

How's that? Did you read it all?

[Bekah]

That certainly sounds like a lot to deal with all at once. So, how do you unblock the chakra?

There are meditations, wearing certain gemstones/ crystals, practicing self love/compassion. Certain yoga postures and something that works for me is visualizing that color snergy going into that chakra and seeing it become fully active and visualizing the energy flow through it. So there are many different ways and all don't feel right for everyone I suppose.

[Bekah]

Coolest thing happened today I saw a girl that I was in the shelter with last year, that I actually really liked, and she has two boys (one with some severe speech problems) and I put in to make sure that I get her family to adopt for Xmas :D I'm excited to buy stuff for a family I know personally, that needs help

[Bekah]

Y'all know the meat of this challenge is happening here right?