Monk puts on her Gi, equips a staff and steps on the trail. Let the journey begin.

[Teirin]

KIND bars are perfect for that sort of day.  Drink some water, get to sleep, and hope tomorrow is a better day. 

[Blaidd]

doesn't like a crap day to me.  Well maybe just a little crap.  I understand the food/appetite thing and wanting to stay under 50g carbs, but a once in a while over is not gonna be the end of the world.  It's only once in a while.

 

Also glad the gym thing worked out. There's always a way to work around something.  Take the day off on Saturday or go for a short walk. take the weekends to relax the knees.

[Toshimi]

If you get a chance pick up geneen roth s book. Women food and God. It helped me so much with my relationship with food. (Not a super religious book ist'd you're worried about that)

http://www.amazon.com/gp/aw/d/1416543082/ref=redir_mdp_mobile?pc_redir=T1

[monk]

So yesterday, I was sitting on the floor wrapping presents, you know like one does around this time of year, and I went to get up. I'm not supposed to be extending my leg yet as that's when it hurts the most....not only did I extend it, I over extended it. The yowl that came out of me was Cats on Broadway worthy. So now, I can't even touch the knee without feeling pain.

Wtg Monk, wtg.

In other news, I was at 259.8 the other day. Now I'm at 258.0. Trending in the correct direction. I worked out Monday morning, hurt my knee yesterday, and have decided that upper body workout as normal and pilates or yoga stretches for the lower will be the order of the day today. Thursday I'm not sure yet, Friday same.

Now this is interesting. I have been attempting to do the meditation, it hasn't been every day like I wanted but it's been often enough. But this last time something hit me in the back of the head so hard I think I dinged a WIS. My literal thought was:

What if I acted like I was skinny already?

Then the world looked different. I walked through the house with a bounce in my step, I imagined walking into a store and just looking at things, not glowering at the people that I know are staring at me, smiling at passersby, being *gasp* flirtatious with my own boyfriend and knowing he returned the sentiment due to a true attraction to me...that made me really go into deep thought.

For several hours, I considered really trying it. I decided more thought and research was due before I could reproduce such a thing irl.

But the thought was fascinating at least.

[Blaidd]

you know that experimenting is part of research   Try first flirting with your boyfriend (and seriously I'm sure he's with you because of the attraction, time you stopped thinking otherwise ;P).

[monk]

So guess what I did.

Yesterday I pulled a muscle in my back. I was doing a beginner set of tricep dips and the rug (that BLASTED RUG!!!) Came out from under me, I slide down and my arms go up and my back hits the edge of the sofa. The pain was immediate and excruciating. So right now my knee is messed up, my back is killing me, and I don't know how I'm going to work out tomorrow.

It's like the God's hate me. I swear they do. My regular jeans are getting tight and that's probably due to water retention but damn if I'm not happy about it. Its leading to a lot of emotional eating and we've run out of KIND bars and I can't afford those other bars right now. Gladly I found a recipe for sugarless pumpkin cookies using almond meal and pumpkin. This has helped tremendously as they are fantastic and hit all the right buttons without being terrible. Granted they have maple syrup in them but I'll take that over sugar sugar as a step in the right direction.

A labored step but a step nonetheless. Also I have decided that I'm going to eat a salad every day for lunch. Every single day. For a month. Why? I like salads and apparently I need the greens.

Also I learned that I'm an idiot as I forgot that starbucks coffees generally have milk in them. And here I am not knowing why I was gaining weight like a bear pre hibernation. So I gave those up and I felt better in a week. Now I just get the regular coffee or americano and add my own coconut milk. Much better.

[monk]

So guess what I did.

Yesterday I pulled a muscle in my back. I was doing a beginner set of tricep dips and the rug (that BLASTED RUG!!!) Came out from under me, I slide down and my arms go up and my back hits the edge of the sofa. The pain was immediate and excruciating. So right now my knee is messed up, my back is killing me, and I don't know how I'm going to work out tomorrow.

It's like the God's hate me. I swear they do. My regular jeans are getting tight and that's probably due to water retention but damn if I'm not happy about it. Its leading to a lot of emotional eating and we've run out of KIND bars and I can't afford those other bars right now. Gladly I found a recipe for sugarless pumpkin cookies using almond meal and pumpkin. This has helped tremendously as they are fantastic and hit all the right buttons without being terrible. Granted they have maple syrup in them but I'll take that over sugar sugar as a step in the right direction.

A labored step but a step nonetheless. Also I have decided that I'm going to eat a salad every day for lunch. Every single day. For a month. Why? I like salads and apparently I need the greens.

Also I learned that I'm an idiot as I forgot that starbucks coffees generally have milk in them. And here I am not knowing why I was gaining weight like a bear pre hibernation. So I gave those up and I felt better in a week. Now I just get the regular coffee or americano and add my own coconut milk. Much better.

[Blaidd]

I can tell you one thing, it's nice to see that you're swapping out better choices without feeling awful abt the little things! Keep it up.

Sent from my iPad using Tapatalk and the atoms/words don't always align

[Teirin]

Good grief, that was a tough ending.  I hope your back and knee are feeling better now. 

 

How are the salad plans going?  Any particularly interesting combinations?

[monk]

Back and knee are doing better thank you. While I feel guilty about it, rest is what I needed. So I just took a week off from working out. I'm going to start up again on Monday and just be careful with it.

Salad is going great, I like throwing all kids of stuff in my salad: eggs, bacon, turkey, sprouts...and I hardly tire of it at all. I use it also as an excuse to get some fat in and mix balsamic vinaigrette with olive oil. Tasty.

I got a juicer for Christmas now I get to have some juice with it or make fruit ice cubes to go with it!

[Teirin]

Rest is what you needed so no guilt.  You'll get more workouts in after healing than you would if you pushed though and made it worse.  Tradeoffs :-)

 

Those do sound like yummy salads! Ever mix herbs into your vinegar and oil mix?

[monk]

I have not but I've recently fallen in love with nutmeg in my coffee so I think I might try throwing herbs in other places. Any suggestions? I can think of garlic at the moment but that goes with almost everything lol.

[Teirin]

Garlic is indeed glorious.  Rosemary is one of my favorites, and basil.  Try a bunch!  Chives are nice.  There are ways to make infused oils and vinegars too.  I keep meaning to try that. 

[monk]

You know what I wish? I wish I could just go to Barnes and Noble, walk into the Fitness section, find the book that says "Fitness for Dummies: How to Get from Flab to Buff in a Year for Women" and have it go day by day, or week by week, that I can put in my weight, injuries, average budget and allergies, and it helps me calculate how I should eat, what I should do for a workout, what I should eat, and how it's affecting my body, and what I should be expecting going forward. That's all I want and it doesn't work that way. Not without paying thousands for personal trainers and chefs and buying cookbooks to attempt to make things when I truly hate cooking and fail.

Why can't it be simple? Why can't my brain work correctly and I just do what I need to. I'm too embarrased to workout most days, I want to ride my bike around as I live at the beach so there's a ton of places to ride my bike...but I'm scared to due to my size. I still want to do Wing Chun but I'm scared to go because I'm fat.

I don't want a lot, I just want to feel like I'm a strong woman. I want to be able to go to the beach and actually wear a bathing suit. Wear shorts and maybe a dress now and again.

I want to feel like I have permission to take a run along the beach. I want to workout as I enjoy the feeling I get afterward. I want to know what to do and when, and how to do it properly.

But it seems like it's a loss cause.

I want to do a 2015 resolution but I don't think I should. I'm far too messed up mentally and physically to think it's going to be fixed in a year. But for this challenge I guess if I can lose 10 lbs by the end of it I'm happy.

So same as before, just 10 lbs instead of 25.

Workout 4 days a week: Monday upper body, Tues or Thurs cycle, Wed legs, Fri Upper and legs. Saturday and Sunday are both up to chance. I just want to get that down and maybe next time I'll go from there.

[Teirin]

You are awesome for working on change.  Full stop.  Change is difficult and you're doing it.  You stuck with your first challenge, which is the hardest.

 

You might like to talk to Kyellan about joining a club?  He was worried about joining a class too and it worked out really well for him. 

 

Is working out at home an option on bad days? 

 

Want to set up a new thread in the Monk's area?  If you want to stay here, that's cool but we generally start a new thread each challenge.  Bit of a fresh start each time.