Nikki222 Respawning FTW

[Nikki222]

Here is my respawn story:

 

I start everything with good intentions, I have an idea, it's not unrealistic but it's never easy. I make a plan and then I fall off. and then the shame and guilt sets in and I want to hide under a rock to avoid dealing with the people I so proudly told my goals and now I have to tell them I fell off the wagon.

 

Now this time I made a huge goal and told people, and now I am super embarrassed, (if you have been following my challenges then you'll know this already) I want to join the Royal Canadian Mountain Police. Whoot! but I need to get in shape, because well it's difficult to be a cop and be overweight...

 

So here's what happened:

 

My husband has been working nights, and my roommate is super sabotaging, so besides the wonderful people here, I am doing this alone.

 

I really don't want to eat by myself anymore, it gets lonely. I am really really lonely. So I start to emotional eat because I miss my husband and my friends are not very supportive.

 

I just have been finding any excuse to crawl under the blankets and watch Gillmore Girls.

 

I also has injured myself 2 weeks ago and did minimal workouts as I could not do anything more than that, but then when it came time to get back into it, I just didn't do it.

 

 

So.. repawning in 3..2...1

 

I need to get my rear in gear because I hate my job and all the drama bullshit that comes with it. I want to be that lady that goes to the opera and attends fancy wine tastings ( I love that crap) but I also want to be the lady who kicks bad guy butt and arrests them!

 

I noticed my weight loss in a physical way earlier this week and it was jaw dropping (I may have gained it all back this week, or at least some of it) I knew I had lost the lbs, but I couldn't SEE the difference, until this past Monday. I couldn't believe how good I felt and I let that feeling go. I need to get back on the train and stop eating out and go back to the gym, I always felt amazing. My problems are emotional, not physical. So I need to deal with the emotions, instead of bottling it up and then binge eating a tub of ice cream while I cry.

 

I started my respawn by finally sharing my dream with my family and was overjoyed that they took it quite well, and have been thus far, very encouraging.

I also have made plans to meet up with friends (no negative friends and no fitness brought into it so that they can't say boo), I think this will help alleviate how lonely I feel.

I also need to start being active again when I do see hubby twice a week so that it doesn't start the trend of not doing anything all week too, back to the dog park and I will just have to bundle up against the cold.

[Grecoair]

I can relate. I couldn't even accomplish what I thought was a very easy goal, so I redefined it and now I'm trying it again. So far, so good.

Keep at it! There's no need to worry for falling off the wagon, getting back on no matter what happens will show results.

[Kareesh]

You need to live closer. Then we could kick each other's butts in gear when needed. Also to keep each other company. Due to the holiday season, my husband has been working a ton. Today marks his 8th day in a row of working, and it doesn't look like he'll have a day off until Friday. Sure I have a kiddo to keep me company, but she also drives me crazy. lol.

 

Anywho, you have an awesome attitude towards the whole thing, so I can totally see you respawning and just pwning everything in sight.