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I believe, after some hard thinking the last few days, that I have discovered one of my biggest hurdles to this whole ... sort of... mission... quest... thing.    I always take the negatives and hold on to them for dear life.   Example?   I don't look forward to what I'll be able to achieve when I start something.   I look back and get angry at myself that I've "let something slip" or I'm "no longer as practiced/skilled at this thing as I used to be".     If every time I embark on a path, I look back to something I consider an 'accomplishment', and get all pissed off and defeated that I'm not still floating at that point... well then I'm not moving toward a new direction, I'm only moving away from an old one.

 

In order to not dwell on the past- in order to pick up the controller, play the game and move toward success.   I can't look back at old save points and lament about what weapon I had at this point last time,  or which options I chose that got me a better party member, or how many rare summons I had collected, or if I solo'd that one thing.     I have to delete them.     That doesn't disqualify the experience I earned getting them the first time around- I learned stuff in those first play throughs!!  But for sanity sake,  I need to press "New Game" and play it as a new game.   

 

That said - I have to treat this like a beginner.   Sure, a beginner with some good foundational knowledge to start off with.   But someone with no existing PRs, no 'past bests'. no epic loot yet.   There is just me.  Starpuck.   Day 1.  Level 1.    A copper sword, and some leather armor and ready to face the world.     

 

Here's the kicker... they've not invented selective memory erasing software.    So it's there in my brain.   I have to figure out a way to not let it push to the front.   Even if that means faking like I've got nothing to remember from the past.    And another rule?     No looking at old pictures, or videos of past workouts and achievements until Dec. 31st.     And what I mean by that is, I can't look at anything from before Jan 5th 2015.    (I can look at the stuff I take/do between now and then, but nothing older.)

 

I'll be doing this challenge a bit different, as I am going to outline goals for each week.   A lot of them will be the same for the whole challenge, but I am treating this as a level one character in a new game.  You're not sure what you quite need yet ... but you know you need to get organized.

 

 

 

ZONE #1 - The Hinterlands  (Week 1)

 

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:Quests:

 

1)  Locate your rations.

 

[Get some healthy food in your ration bag.     Cut out processed sweets this week!   Single squares of dark chocolate for the occasions where you're about to party wipe and need a quick buff until your heal spell comes off cool down.]

 

 

2) Get used to carrying your pack and load.

 

[use the training camp to work on your strength, endurance and mobility.    Your armor, plus your weapons and pack will probably weigh close to 50# so the goal for week 1 is to move 30-50# things around.]

 

3) Guard your mind.   Do not let either the demons of the fade, or the players of The Game, detract from your goals.

 

[Positive thinking!   No dwelling on past crap.   Think excitedly toward exploring these things, as if I'd  never seen or done it before.  Journal your steps starting on day 1, and using only present/future thoughts.]

 

 

 

Side Quests To Follow

1) Get to the Spirit Healer!  (Ear specialist to see if I can get my ears back to hearing normal again.)

2) Get to the field medic.  (Persistent cyst on my forehead is getting bigger.  Need to get it removed, ugh!)

 

 

(I ran out of time, go figure, when I finally found some inspiration on goals... so I will finish this later hopefully.) for sure.

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rock on.... hopefully I get to see you in a couple months

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going back to beginner's mind is always a great move.

 

It's dangerous to go alone! Take some 

 

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I think it's even harder to stop obsessing about the past and clinging to your negativity when you've been through a significant injury.  I'm sure you'll be in a better place mentally when you're fully over that injury hurdle.  

 

You have a great approach for setting some habits and making a fresh start.  :)

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Puuuckyyyy! This is awesome. How come i never remembered to do rhe Zones thingy? I might copy that playing style for the next challenge, since I usually have a problem with routines! I also like the your goals. They say that a new year means a new life. I think they mean exactly this. A new way of seeing things, with fresher eyes. so puck, can I join the server? ;)

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New year, new game? Awesome, and the goals looks great :) Pretty excited to see you progress along the challenge! All the best! (subbed to follow awesomeness)

 

Thanks for tagging along Evermist!    The only downside to my game-y choice, is that I am pretty sure I'll be beating Dragon Age in the next week lol.  That's ok!  It's on to Assassins Creed Rogue after that!   So we might see a game theme shift. :D

 

rock on.... hopefully I get to see you in a couple months

 

Yus yus!   It's on my list this year to try and meet more Nerds.   Especially since I usually get so nervous/worked up worried before hand!  Must get better at that.   Maybe it will work out that we get a little mini meet going on if people can all get together same time/place!

 

going back to beginner's mind is always a great move.

 

It's dangerous to go alone! Take some 

 

 Baby Fresh Eyes! 95% Fresher Than Old Eyes. Less Distortion, Brighter Colors, More Joy!

 

Zomg baby fresh eyes!    This doesn't require blood magic to work does it?    Because blood magic is bad.  Like swooping.  Swooping is bad too.     Thanks for the thumbs up!  I'm starting to look forward to the 'midnight release' of this one.

 

I think it's even harder to stop obsessing about the past and clinging to your negativity when you've been through a significant injury.  I'm sure you'll be in a better place mentally when you're fully over that injury hurdle.  

 

You have a great approach for setting some habits and making a fresh start.   :)

 

Thanks Nym!    I hope there is a 'fully over' eventually.    I'm gonna be so disappointed if this residual pain is my new all the time normal. :/    But!  Positive thoughts!   Losing weight, getting into a good foam roll/stretch/knee strengthening habit is gonna make it all better!    

 

Puuuckyyyy! This is awesome. How come i never remembered to do rhe Zones thingy? I might copy that playing style for the next challenge, since I usually have a problem with routines! I also like the your goals. They say that a new year means a new life. I think they mean exactly this. A new way of seeing things, with fresher eyes. so puck, can I join the server? ;)

 

Yeah I dunno why I never thought of it before now either.  I know my friend Haikoo did a game over / revive thread and that's what inspired me to do a game over new game thread!   Feel free to use it!   That's what we're here for!

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"It is difficult.  All things worth keeping are."  Thane Krios - Mass Effect 2

"Maybe it's not as simple as you imagined, Seeker."  Varric Tethras Dragon Age 2

"Staying within your limits is no fun, Ryder."  Vetra Nyx - ME: Andromeda

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FOLLOWING!!!!  Its funny that you pt up at Rouge casue I believe  am going to be basing my new challenge on Assasics Creed! I like your idea of starting back on lvl 1. May do that and start back at Assasins Creed ONE. Way to ring in 2015 like a badass

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Gurl, I love your challenge structure. IN.

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I like this one! I'm having the same sort of mental troubles with climbing, all I can think of when I look at the walls is how easy the hard ones used to be, and how long it took me to get to the point where the hard ones were easy. I'll be following along, and hopefully some of that mindset changing rubs off on me too!

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Starpuck, this is awesome, I love the theme and the challenge layout.  If you need assistance I will bring my shield and help you through the Hinterlands......I hear there is a Dragon there!

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Zomg baby fresh eyes!    This doesn't require blood magic to work does it?    Because blood magic is bad.  Like swooping.  Swooping is bad too.     Thanks for the thumbs up!  I'm starting to look forward to the 'midnight release' of this one.

 

 

 

Hahaha, noooooooo blood magic, no!! Just re-activating the set you came with on your Earth arrival :)

 

That little genius in you is quite creative in ways of perspective, curiosity and optimism. Still there, part of the standard equipment accessible at any time

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How cool is it that the same God who created mountains and oceans and galaxies looked at you and thought the world needed one of you, too

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Great challenge structure! And ugh, the Hinterlands, if I never have to go there again! Best of luck to you and I'll be following along for sure!

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Thanks all, thanks all!    I am totally leaning on your cheers to try and filter in some honest motivation.     

 

The 'game' has 'glitched on me' and is going to make it harder for me to get to my first save point -- because OMG!    Winter finally showed up (and we thought we might skirt it) starting about 5 hours ago and tomorrow- the day I intended to travel into the warehouse gym for some exercise, our high is only 11.    In fact, our next six days are lined up to have highs of: 11 | 14 | 0 | 19 | 9 | 18.    (Not counting windchills, which on Wednesday's high of zero, are being forecast at -30 to -40 unless something changes.)       Working out in a whse with three large bay doors constantly opening?   Brrrrrrrrrrrr!

 

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Day 1 Preparations

Fill the storage coffers with good, healthy food for our journey to the next camp.   The weather will be awful, we'll need solid meals to endure the cold and the storm.   Take the supplies to the field commander.   Get them set up wherever he wants them; he'll know best.   Make sure our historian is prepared for the trip -she'll need parchments, scroll cases, and ink that won't freeze solid if we're to have her document our travels.

 

  • Grocery shop before work.   Get up early enough to not rush, and get all the good things! <tm>
  • Bring work out gear to work, give the space heater a try in the warehouse.  
  • Get a notebook (you have a zillion, pick one that I like best right now) and journal food and exercise.   Calories not important, just write it down.
     
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Current Challenge

"It is difficult.  All things worth keeping are."  Thane Krios - Mass Effect 2

"Maybe it's not as simple as you imagined, Seeker."  Varric Tethras Dragon Age 2

"Staying within your limits is no fun, Ryder."  Vetra Nyx - ME: Andromeda

Spoiler

 

::PAST CHALLENGES::

1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 | 19 20 | 21 | 22

23 | 24 | 25 | 26 | 27 | 28 | 29 | 30 | 31 | 32 | 33 | 34 | 35 | 36 | 37 | 38 | 39 | 40 | 41 | 42

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Way to not let the weather get you down star. One thing that I have started with my food is an instragram. Instead of writing down everything I eat, I am going to take a picture of everything that goes into my mouth. Kind of just a reminder of if I don't want the internets to see what is going into me, then should I really eat it? might help you out to if writing isn't your thing

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Lose 75 lbs

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"Nothing is ever easy." Zeddicus Zull Zorander


"Do or Do Not, There is no try" Yoda


"Weak people face life obstacles with an excuse in their hand, strong peple carry a hammer."


Estemated 1RM


Bench: 195lbs


Squat: 245lbs


Deadlift: 295lbs


Total weight: 735lbs


Goal Weight 1000lbs


 


 

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1)  Locate your rations.

Hit the grocery store this morning.  If I hadn't been so behind schedule, or bundled up and frozen, I'd have taken a picture of my lovely basket of food!  I was so prouds.

 

- 2 Apples (Sonya, omg they are still selling them yay!)

- 2 Caracara oranges (Like, the ONLY orange I will tolerate other than a blood orange.)

- 1 Bartlett pear

- 2 cucumbers (I eat 1/2 a day with my lunches typically)

- a tub of hummus

- a dozen eggs

- whole wheat mini tortillas

- 4 servings of tuna

 

It's brutal cold this week, so eating cold food is unappealing!    I am going to make tuna melt quesadillas on my George Foreman at work!

 

2) Get used to carrying your pack and load.

Dragged my bum back to the whse to get a workout in.   

 

- Warmed up for 3 minutes jump roping.   Did some shuffle jumps and my knee didn't complain!

- Bench Press : 10 X 45# || 10 X 45# || 10 X 55#

- Glute Bridge : 15  X 12# || 15 X 12# || 15 X 20#

- Inverted Ring Rows : 6 || 6 || 7

- Planks : 3 X 45"

- Spiderman Squats : 3 X 10

- Stretched for 10 minutes, and it felt soooo good to stretch.

 

3) Guard your mind.

Surprisingly, I think I warded off the "used to's" during this session.     What helps too, is that I found this very simple, no frills app called Fitnotes.   It lets you record your workouts (set, weight, reps) and gives you little trophies for PR's hee.    Well it was a new app, day 1, first workout.   So it really helped me focus on this being a whole new game.

 

 

I will update with my food eaten during the day after dinner - since I've no idea what's being served yet.    As a note... omg, I am starving right now.   At 3pm I am gonna eat the heck out of that orange.

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Level 71 ~*~ Ranger

Deviant Art Gallery   ||  YouTube Channel

Current Challenge

"It is difficult.  All things worth keeping are."  Thane Krios - Mass Effect 2

"Maybe it's not as simple as you imagined, Seeker."  Varric Tethras Dragon Age 2

"Staying within your limits is no fun, Ryder."  Vetra Nyx - ME: Andromeda

Spoiler

 

::PAST CHALLENGES::

1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 | 19 20 | 21 | 22

23 | 24 | 25 | 26 | 27 | 28 | 29 | 30 | 31 | 32 | 33 | 34 | 35 | 36 | 37 | 38 | 39 | 40 | 41 | 42

43 | 44 | NEIN | 45 | 46 | 47 | 48| 49 | 50 | 51 | 52 | 53 | 54 | 55 | 56 | 57 | 58 | 59 | 60 | 61

62 | 63 | 64 | 65 | 66 | 67 | 68 | 69 | 70 | 71 | 72 | 73 | 74 | 75 | 76 | 77 | 78 | 79 | 80 | 81

 

 

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"-The preparations are complete General!

-And who did this? How?

-It was Starpuck, sir.

-Tell her she is awesome!

-SIR YES SIR!"

 

 

Way to go pucksy! Best start! Remember, you are great!

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