LittleTurtle Posted February 20, 2015 Report Share Posted February 20, 2015 I had a major epiphany towards the end of the 5th week during my last challenge. LittleTurtle, on 06 Feb 2015 - 10:50 AM, said:OK. Here's what happened last night: I've been really wanting wheat the last couple of days, but instead of eating what I wanted, I ended up eating too much of something else. Of course, I felt horrible afterwards, but then I had an epiphany. I truly need to stop trying to eliminate certain foods from my diet. The problem isn't what I'm eating - it's how I'm eating. It seems like I have a tendency to eat as though it's the last meal I'll ever have.So I really began to contemplate what my issue is and where it could have possibly stemmed from, and then I remembered a story my Mom told me about when I was an infant: Apparently, when she was nursing me at some point during my infancy - her milk ducts ran dry or something. Anyway, I was losing weight like crazy, so she took me to the doctor to see what was wrong. He was brutal and very tactless when he informed her that her milk ducts were dry and she'd basically been starving me...(or something along those lines). I started to wonder if I have some kind of ingrained fear from infancy that there is a possibility that I will run out of food at some point. I've decided that from this day forward - challenge goals or not - I am not eliminating ANY food from my diet. Instead, I absolutely MUST be very mindful about my intake of all foods. I need to try to break my habit of over-eating (especially when I'm craving something that I'm trying to not eat). Hereâ€™s the deal. Iâ€™m still working towards lowering my body fat to 20%. However, in the past, when Iâ€™ve eliminated certain foods, itâ€™s like I take two steps forward and then set myself two steps back. Itâ€™s frustrating. I just want to eat what I want to eat and not stress about whether itâ€™s Paleo or how many grams of sugar it contains or if the food contains wheatâ€¦or, or, or! That constant worry combined with my OCD has me freaking out over every ounce of food I put in my mouth. And then I measure how guilty I should feel by how much I think overdid it. Itâ€™s not a healthy (or fun) way to live. For this challenge, Iâ€™m going to be focusing on â€œMindful Eating Habitsâ€. Iâ€™ve noticed that I eat as though itâ€™s the last meal Iâ€™ll ever have. Mostly, itâ€™s just a contest for my stomach to see how fast I can get food in it. I need to slow down, take my time, enjoy the food that Iâ€™m eating rather than racing to fill the hunger void. Iâ€™ve practiced this exercise a few times already and itâ€™s hard! Like really hard! But Iâ€™m confident that I can master this art by the time the challenge ends. I think a very important part of this is to not let myself become too hungry. As long as Iâ€™m not feeling famished, I think it will help with eating slower. This is my theory, anyway. MAIN QUESTPractice mindful eating while working towards lowering body fat to 20 % Goals1. Practice mindful eating habits starting with one meal every day.2. Exercise 4 times per week every week.3. 20 minutes of yoga or walking on non-workout days.4. One day of absolute rest each week. GRADINGSpreadsheet 7 Quote Spoiler PREVIOUS CHALLENGES 2013: 6/1/13 - 7/24/13 - 9/15/13 - 11/6/13 2014: 1/5/14 - 2/19/14 - 4/9/14 - 6/6/14 - 7/24/14 - 9/11/14 - 11/5/14 2015: 1/2/15 - 2/20/15 - 4/9/15 - 6/2/15 - 9/10/15 - 10/26/15 2016: 1/1/16 - 2/28/16 - 3/28/16 - 6/6/16 - 9/19/16 - 10/26/16 - 11/26/16 2017: 1/1/17 - 9/17/17 2018: 1/1/18 - 2/5/18 - 8/13/18 - 11/26/18 2019: 1/7/19 2020: 9/13/20 Link to comment
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