petefeet Posted May 8, 2015 Report Share Posted May 8, 2015 Bout to drop the feels so if you dont' want to have them, then don't open the spoilerI had a dream last night. I don't usually dream, and when I do they are very depressing and just wear on me for days. I have found that the best way for me to get over them is to talk about it. However this dream was about my wife and a subject that she hates to talk about so I can't talk to her. So I am hoping that getting it out on here will help.In my dream, My wife and I were in the hospital. We were both old and she was in a hospital bed. She was hooked up to machines that were helping her breathe and were keeping her alive. I was holding her hand and leaning over her standing next to the bed. WE had discussed it before and the decision had been made that she didn't want machiens to keep her alive anymore. We were looking into eachothers eyes and we were crying. She looked at me and told me she loved me. I told her I loved her back too. I just stood there holding her hand for a while when a nurse came in and said that it was time. My wife look at me and sadi "I'm scared" I responded "I know, it will be okay. Your parents are waiting for you, and you know that I will be with you soon" I kissed her adn then the nurse flipped the buttons powering down the machines. She whispered my name with her last breath.At that point I woke up and cried like a baby for a while. then layed down and didn't get back to sleep for a long time. Sorry if you read this and are now feeling cruddy. I just had to get it off my chest. Thanks for always listening NF We're always here buddy, everybody needs to vent once in a while. Quote Race: Halfling Class: Rebel Recruit 1st 2nd 3rd 4th 5th 6th 7th 8th 9th 10th 11th 12th 13th 14th 15th Current Challenge Writer's Guild Fictionfirst Used Books (Feel free to like my page!) Link to comment
pwallace Posted May 8, 2015 Author Report Share Posted May 8, 2015 Thanks man. Today has been a rough one. Between the frustration of yesterday's appointment and then that dream last night.Sent from my phone, through the banging of weights, to the chimp translators aboard the tardis powered by the dylithiam crystal flux capacitor. 1 Quote Level 0 Human, Monk 82%82% Lose 75 lbsStartin Fresh"Nothing is ever easy." Zeddicus Zull Zorander"Do or Do Not, There is no try" Yoda"Weak people face life obstacles with an excuse in their hand, strong peple carry a hammer."Estemated 1RMBench: 195lbsSquat: 245lbsDeadlift: 295lbsTotal weight: 735lbsGoal Weight 1000lbs Link to comment
pwallace Posted May 11, 2015 Author Report Share Posted May 11, 2015 Alright so this past week has been. Rough one for me. Between moving when I didn't eat to, not serif the numbers I wanted at the weight in, and then that dream, it's fairly way to at that it was emotionally draining. However, I took Friday, Saturday, and Sunday as whatever days (eating wasn't actually that bad) and I am back on point today. Got a new plan for what to do with out a gym (Still have a membership but I'm so far away it isn't going to be used)I plan on heading to the local highschool running the track, doing wall balls, burpees, bear crawls, and all other kinds of jn stuff. I need to get some good rope, then I will be taking the 100lbs heavy bag with me and I will be doing bag drags and "tire" flips the length of the soccer fieldWell here is off to day 1 of new workout regiment and the start of kissing the last 25Sent from my phone, through the banging of weights, to the chimp translators aboard the tardis powered by the dylithiam crystal flux capacitor. 1 Quote Level 0 Human, Monk 82%82% Lose 75 lbsStartin Fresh"Nothing is ever easy." Zeddicus Zull Zorander"Do or Do Not, There is no try" Yoda"Weak people face life obstacles with an excuse in their hand, strong peple carry a hammer."Estemated 1RMBench: 195lbsSquat: 245lbsDeadlift: 295lbsTotal weight: 735lbsGoal Weight 1000lbs Link to comment
pwallace Posted May 11, 2015 Author Report Share Posted May 11, 2015 This mornings workout consisted of .25 mile walk for warm up.25 mile run25 burpees.25 mile run25 wall balls with 20lbs medicine ball.25 mile runOnly about 20 minutes. Misjudged my time this morning. Tomorrows will be longer and consist of more.Sent from my phone, through the banging of weights, to the chimp translators aboard the tardis powered by the dylithiam crystal flux capacitor. 1 Quote Level 0 Human, Monk 82%82% Lose 75 lbsStartin Fresh"Nothing is ever easy." Zeddicus Zull Zorander"Do or Do Not, There is no try" Yoda"Weak people face life obstacles with an excuse in their hand, strong peple carry a hammer."Estemated 1RMBench: 195lbsSquat: 245lbsDeadlift: 295lbsTotal weight: 735lbsGoal Weight 1000lbs Link to comment
pwallace Posted May 12, 2015 Author Report Share Posted May 12, 2015 Game night at the house. The wife father in law and I are teaching the mother in law and brother in law to play D&DSent from my phone, through the banging of weights, to the chimp translators aboard the tardis powered by the dylithiam crystal flux capacitor. 2 Quote Level 0 Human, Monk 82%82% Lose 75 lbsStartin Fresh"Nothing is ever easy." Zeddicus Zull Zorander"Do or Do Not, There is no try" Yoda"Weak people face life obstacles with an excuse in their hand, strong peple carry a hammer."Estemated 1RMBench: 195lbsSquat: 245lbsDeadlift: 295lbsTotal weight: 735lbsGoal Weight 1000lbs Link to comment
starpuck Posted May 12, 2015 Report Share Posted May 12, 2015 Awesome awesome pic there PW Have I told you lately, I think you're a great guy! Quote Level 82 ~*~ Ranger Deviant Art Gallery || YouTube Channel Current Challenge "It is difficult. All things worth keeping are." Thane Krios - Mass Effect 2 "Maybe it's not as simple as you imagined, Seeker." Varric Tethras Dragon Age 2 "Staying within your limits is no fun, Ryder." Vetra Nyx - ME: Andromeda Spoiler ::PAST CHALLENGES:: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 | 19 | 20 | 21 | 22 23 | 24 | 25 | 26 | 27 | 28 | 29 | 30 | 31 | 32 | 33 | 34 | 35 | 36 | 37 | 38 | 39 | 40 | 41 | 42 43 | 44 | NEIN | 45 | 46 | 47 | 48| 49 | 50 | 51 | 52 | 53 | 54 | 55 | 56 | 57 | 58 | 59 | 60 | 61 62 | 63 | 64 | 65 | 66 | 67 | 68 | 69 | 70 | 71 | 72 | 73 | 74 | 75 | 76 | 77 | 77.5 | 78 | 79 | 80 | 81 82 | 83 | 84 | 85 | 86 | 87 | 88 | 89 | 90 | 91 | 92 | 93 | 94 | 95 | 96 | 97 | 98 | 99 | 100 Link to comment
pwallace Posted May 12, 2015 Author Report Share Posted May 12, 2015 awww Starpuck thinks i'm a great guy Stop it! *no go one please! Quote Level 0 Human, Monk 82%82% Lose 75 lbsStartin Fresh"Nothing is ever easy." Zeddicus Zull Zorander"Do or Do Not, There is no try" Yoda"Weak people face life obstacles with an excuse in their hand, strong peple carry a hammer."Estemated 1RMBench: 195lbsSquat: 245lbsDeadlift: 295lbsTotal weight: 735lbsGoal Weight 1000lbs Link to comment
pwallace Posted May 17, 2015 Author Report Share Posted May 17, 2015 Last day working at the bank: CHECKSupplements finally came in: CHECK1.5 mile hike with dog: CHECKGetting pissed at video games when they don't work the way I want them to: CHECK5.5 mile run with dog: CHECKRelaxing watching school of rock: CHECKOH KTAPE how I love youSent from my phone, through the banging of weights, to the chimp translators aboard the tardis powered by the dylithiam crystal flux capacitor. Quote Level 0 Human, Monk 82%82% Lose 75 lbsStartin Fresh"Nothing is ever easy." Zeddicus Zull Zorander"Do or Do Not, There is no try" Yoda"Weak people face life obstacles with an excuse in their hand, strong peple carry a hammer."Estemated 1RMBench: 195lbsSquat: 245lbsDeadlift: 295lbsTotal weight: 735lbsGoal Weight 1000lbs Link to comment
pwallace Posted May 18, 2015 Author Report Share Posted May 18, 2015 Just got out of pitch perfect 2 with the wife. Defiantly buying it hen it comes out. Gotta say I liked the German group better thoughSent from my phone, through the banging of weights, to the chimp translators aboard the tardis powered by the dylithiam crystal flux capacitor. Quote Level 0 Human, Monk 82%82% Lose 75 lbsStartin Fresh"Nothing is ever easy." Zeddicus Zull Zorander"Do or Do Not, There is no try" Yoda"Weak people face life obstacles with an excuse in their hand, strong peple carry a hammer."Estemated 1RMBench: 195lbsSquat: 245lbsDeadlift: 295lbsTotal weight: 735lbsGoal Weight 1000lbs Link to comment
starpuck Posted May 18, 2015 Report Share Posted May 18, 2015 Nice work with the update there PW. Lots of good stuff! Quote Level 82 ~*~ Ranger Deviant Art Gallery || YouTube Channel Current Challenge "It is difficult. All things worth keeping are." Thane Krios - Mass Effect 2 "Maybe it's not as simple as you imagined, Seeker." Varric Tethras Dragon Age 2 "Staying within your limits is no fun, Ryder." Vetra Nyx - ME: Andromeda Spoiler ::PAST CHALLENGES:: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 | 19 | 20 | 21 | 22 23 | 24 | 25 | 26 | 27 | 28 | 29 | 30 | 31 | 32 | 33 | 34 | 35 | 36 | 37 | 38 | 39 | 40 | 41 | 42 43 | 44 | NEIN | 45 | 46 | 47 | 48| 49 | 50 | 51 | 52 | 53 | 54 | 55 | 56 | 57 | 58 | 59 | 60 | 61 62 | 63 | 64 | 65 | 66 | 67 | 68 | 69 | 70 | 71 | 72 | 73 | 74 | 75 | 76 | 77 | 77.5 | 78 | 79 | 80 | 81 82 | 83 | 84 | 85 | 86 | 87 | 88 | 89 | 90 | 91 | 92 | 93 | 94 | 95 | 96 | 97 | 98 | 99 | 100 Link to comment
pwallace Posted May 19, 2015 Author Report Share Posted May 19, 2015 Oh god I feel like I am going to throw up and like my legs are going to fall off. And I'm IN THE MIDDLE of my workout. Workout so far15 minutes on bike to warm upHit a couple curls real quick just because it has been forever1mile run on treadmill Just finished my first set of sadisms (not the weird beam kind but the cruel and evil way)A sadism is a suicide on the basketball court, but after you go from baseline 1 to baseline2 and back you run from BL1-BL2 to foul line 2 then back to BL2 then to Bl1. Then you do the same but to 3point line 2 ect ect. Does that make sense? Okay time to go do bear crawls and army crawlsSent from my phone, through the banging of weights, to the chimp translators aboard the tardis powered by the dylithiam crystal flux capacitor. 1 Quote Level 0 Human, Monk 82%82% Lose 75 lbsStartin Fresh"Nothing is ever easy." Zeddicus Zull Zorander"Do or Do Not, There is no try" Yoda"Weak people face life obstacles with an excuse in their hand, strong peple carry a hammer."Estemated 1RMBench: 195lbsSquat: 245lbsDeadlift: 295lbsTotal weight: 735lbsGoal Weight 1000lbs Link to comment
pwallace Posted May 19, 2015 Author Report Share Posted May 19, 2015 Did one length of the b-ball court bear crawl, crab crawled back. 20 min on elliptical traveled 1.66 milesSent from my phone, through the banging of weights, to the chimp translators aboard the tardis powered by the dylithiam crystal flux capacitor. Quote Level 0 Human, Monk 82%82% Lose 75 lbsStartin Fresh"Nothing is ever easy." Zeddicus Zull Zorander"Do or Do Not, There is no try" Yoda"Weak people face life obstacles with an excuse in their hand, strong peple carry a hammer."Estemated 1RMBench: 195lbsSquat: 245lbsDeadlift: 295lbsTotal weight: 735lbsGoal Weight 1000lbs Link to comment
pwallace Posted May 20, 2015 Author Report Share Posted May 20, 2015 No run this morning. Legs are a little stiff from yesterday's shenanigans so taking it easy before work.Sent from my phone, through the banging of weights, to the chimp translators aboard the tardis powered by the dylithiam crystal flux capacitor. Quote Level 0 Human, Monk 82%82% Lose 75 lbsStartin Fresh"Nothing is ever easy." Zeddicus Zull Zorander"Do or Do Not, There is no try" Yoda"Weak people face life obstacles with an excuse in their hand, strong peple carry a hammer."Estemated 1RMBench: 195lbsSquat: 245lbsDeadlift: 295lbsTotal weight: 735lbsGoal Weight 1000lbs Link to comment
starpuck Posted May 27, 2015 Report Share Posted May 27, 2015 Hey PW. Where you be man? All's good I hope! Your loyal fans await news of your return. Quote Level 82 ~*~ Ranger Deviant Art Gallery || YouTube Channel Current Challenge "It is difficult. All things worth keeping are." Thane Krios - Mass Effect 2 "Maybe it's not as simple as you imagined, Seeker." Varric Tethras Dragon Age 2 "Staying within your limits is no fun, Ryder." Vetra Nyx - ME: Andromeda Spoiler ::PAST CHALLENGES:: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 | 19 | 20 | 21 | 22 23 | 24 | 25 | 26 | 27 | 28 | 29 | 30 | 31 | 32 | 33 | 34 | 35 | 36 | 37 | 38 | 39 | 40 | 41 | 42 43 | 44 | NEIN | 45 | 46 | 47 | 48| 49 | 50 | 51 | 52 | 53 | 54 | 55 | 56 | 57 | 58 | 59 | 60 | 61 62 | 63 | 64 | 65 | 66 | 67 | 68 | 69 | 70 | 71 | 72 | 73 | 74 | 75 | 76 | 77 | 77.5 | 78 | 79 | 80 | 81 82 | 83 | 84 | 85 | 86 | 87 | 88 | 89 | 90 | 91 | 92 | 93 | 94 | 95 | 96 | 97 | 98 | 99 | 100 Link to comment
pwallace Posted May 31, 2015 Author Report Share Posted May 31, 2015 Sorry life has been nutso! first off my phone screen is caput! meaning the LCD is cracked and you can see it bleeding out. a replacement has been ordered but not arrived yet. secondly, I started a new job. I am currently a Behavioral Specialist at Ironwood. It is doing the same tiype of residential work that I was before but with a better clientele. The place does not bill insurance and is not state funded which means it is rich kids. meaining it is more behavioral mistakes than mental health issues. I like it so far. I work 3 14 hour days and then have 4 days off. Today I took a hike with the dog. Not surew how long it was, but I wanted to break in my new keens that I got for work. Also got SPARTAN UP! from Bullmoose. Have read 2 chapters while doing different exercises, switching every paragraph. If you have never done that give it a try. now to relax and play some Mafia 2 1 Quote Level 0 Human, Monk 82%82% Lose 75 lbsStartin Fresh"Nothing is ever easy." Zeddicus Zull Zorander"Do or Do Not, There is no try" Yoda"Weak people face life obstacles with an excuse in their hand, strong peple carry a hammer."Estemated 1RMBench: 195lbsSquat: 245lbsDeadlift: 295lbsTotal weight: 735lbsGoal Weight 1000lbs Link to comment
starpuck Posted May 31, 2015 Report Share Posted May 31, 2015 Yay! PW! Glad to see ya here man. /big squishy hug Quote Level 82 ~*~ Ranger Deviant Art Gallery || YouTube Channel Current Challenge "It is difficult. All things worth keeping are." Thane Krios - Mass Effect 2 "Maybe it's not as simple as you imagined, Seeker." Varric Tethras Dragon Age 2 "Staying within your limits is no fun, Ryder." Vetra Nyx - ME: Andromeda Spoiler ::PAST CHALLENGES:: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 | 19 | 20 | 21 | 22 23 | 24 | 25 | 26 | 27 | 28 | 29 | 30 | 31 | 32 | 33 | 34 | 35 | 36 | 37 | 38 | 39 | 40 | 41 | 42 43 | 44 | NEIN | 45 | 46 | 47 | 48| 49 | 50 | 51 | 52 | 53 | 54 | 55 | 56 | 57 | 58 | 59 | 60 | 61 62 | 63 | 64 | 65 | 66 | 67 | 68 | 69 | 70 | 71 | 72 | 73 | 74 | 75 | 76 | 77 | 77.5 | 78 | 79 | 80 | 81 82 | 83 | 84 | 85 | 86 | 87 | 88 | 89 | 90 | 91 | 92 | 93 | 94 | 95 | 96 | 97 | 98 | 99 | 100 Link to comment
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