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[Heidi]

Welcome back to the Heidi Show.

 

I'm settling into a new semester, writing my master's thesis and focusing on a life lived in balance on its own terms.

 

Thesis: Work on it and turn something in every week.

House: Clean it, organize it, and have less stuff overall.

Exercise: Something, somehow. Part One: Do some research. Part two: Choose a schedule. Part Three: Do the schedule, as scheduled.

Center: Meetings five times a week

Love: every day

 

 

 

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Successes

Challenges

Lessons Learned

[Heidi]

Not much time to write this morning, but wanted to share a pic of Vivian in her new class:

[DarK_RaideR]

Good to see you back dear

[spooky]

Good to see you back dear

THIS. 

 

Vivian is adorable!!!

 

Following along <3

[The Swedish Ninja]

Will also be joining

[Leimanu]

What're you doing your masters thesis on?????????

[Sandylion]

Heya Heidi! Sounds like a good 6 weeks!

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[T2sarahconnor]

Glad to hear from you. Can't wait to see more on your journey. Viv is getting so big!

[Teros]

I miss you.

[Heidi]

What're you doing your masters thesis on?????????

Hey there, fellow Gypsy!

 

I'm doing a Utilitarian investigation on how we can shape public policy to effectively influence personal behavior in ways that could end AIDs in a generation even without a vaccine. 

[Heidi]

Good to see you back dear

Good to be back!!

 

THIS. 

 

Vivian is adorable!!!

 

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Hey there, so good to have you along for another round! Looking forward to sharing some positivity and joy with you.

 

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NINJA!

Heya Heidi! Sounds like a good 6 weeks!

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SL, good to see you again! 

 

Glad to hear from you. Can't wait to see more on your journey. Viv is getting so big!

I know -- she really is huge and wonderful. Can you believe that I'm doing more minimalism -- again?!?!?! As well as everything else, of course. Looking forward to sharing tips, tricks, and trip-ups.

 

I miss you.

I'm here, friend. Been inspired by your last round, you know, even though I didn't post much.

[Heidi]

So far this week has been pretty good. The heart was getting out of hand again, and my partner was great about the whole thing -- I am learning to accept help and it's difficult and beautiful (and i thought *asking* for help was the hard part!)

 

I'm working on my inner house in a huge way, meaning how I think about and construct my reality, how I interact with others and with myself. This is some monumental stuff, and sometimes it seems as though I'm not doing anything because all the work is internal, and so I have nothing to actually point to and say "See? THIS is what I did." It's difficult, and I'm pretty certain that this challenge will end up with lots of feelings-oriented posts, and fewer tables, maps, graphs and charts.

 

CLASS: So far class hasn't come together in the way that the one over the summer did, and I feel a little adrift and disappointed. I enjoy class discussion greatly, so given that it's Wednesday, I was really looking forward to reading what I assumed would be everyone's initial posts -- we have four homework elements to deliver no later than Friday night / early Saturday morning, so I figured that other students would have posted at least one by now -- but the boards are empty except for my posts. I have a paper in the works in response to a great book that we are reading for class (Mad In America, by Robert Whitaker 2002, in case you're interested in joining along).

 

HOUSE: The upstairs got a thorough cleaning, and the kitchen counters and sinks got scrubbed this morning before court. and COURT pissed me off, left me hurt and feeling fragile, abandoned and neglected. This isn't a new situation with the boys' father, but having to play this little kabuki theatre out over and over again is ridiculous and no small amount insulting (seriously, yes, he still doesn't think he should bear any responsibility for the children and thinks someone else should give a damn about their survival, success and care, and that the only thing that matters is that he doesn't want to have to pay anything). In today's episode, he admitted that he rage-quit his job. And then he expects this to have a bearing on his obligation, and rage-cried when the judge said that the current obligation would stand. To be clear: This is the current obligation for one of his sons, not both, that is based on a having a $9/hr part time call-center job working from home (read "his mother's other house that he pays nothing for"), and not the $80k/year he would make if he chose to be a programmer again, a job he keeps giving up every time a judge tells him that yes, indeed, a portion of his income should go to his children.

 

THESIS: I have an official appointment with my advisor on Saturday afternoon to go over the bibliography and structure of the thesis itself. How did I miss that it only has to be 45 pages long? Somehow I had gotten it in my head that it had to be 2-3 times that in length. I'm really excited about meeting and formalizing. The paper has a title: Everbody's Doing It: The Case to Make AIDs History, and this time next year it will be bound and cataloged at the Library of Congress (holy cow -- that's scary), a copy on permanent display in the University library.

 

EXERCISE: Haven’t signed up for anything or even really done anything in the way of research. I did a little investigation on yoga and meditation classes offered around, but haven’t chosen anything or made a commitment.

 

CENTER: I missed the meeting yesterday due to a serious need for rest (see the note about my heart, above). I missed today’s due to court, but there is one this evening and I think Vivian and I will go. I’m pretty certain I need one, even if she doesn’t (see the note about Court, above).

LOVE: I realized a couple challenges ago that I don’t have a tribe, and that I deeply need one. I have been building one, slowly, but with real meaningful results. Every day.

[Heidi]

Also, there is this minimalism game-challenge thing going on. Yesterday, I threw out a dozen or so pencils that aren't worth sharpening that had taken up residence in my desk drawer, and today I emptied the refrigerator door of all its contents, cleaned the shelf bins, and purged everything that was out of date or that we didn't really need to have around. There was enough space revealed that I could move all the dairy to the door, including yogurt, and still have room left. Then I took out the trash.

[T2sarahconnor]

Nice days. Keep it up. You know I completely understand the court frustration. Can't believe they didn't uphold the "income potential" with ex and support. We are moving to the mediation phase with lawyers next month to try to get custody. Ever since we filed the papers earlier this summer of course she has been mother of the year.

Good luck with the thesis. Big subject to tackle.

[maegs]

Hey, good to see you!

 

Court sounds pretty terrible, but it seems like everything else is going well. Hopefully all the good will outweigh the bad. 

 

I'm doing a Utilitarian investigation on how we can shape public policy to effectively influence personal behavior in ways that could end AIDs in a generation even without a vaccine. 

Wow, that is.. big. I have so many questions! What sort of behaviours would you be looking to promote? 

[Heidi]

Hey, good to see you!

Court sounds pretty terrible, but it seems like everything else is going well. Hopefully all the good will outweigh the bad.

Wow, that is.. big. I have so many questions! What sort of behaviours would you be looking to promote?

Mostly, it turns out that the behavior that is most effective is regular condom use and testing, both of which are easy to promote.

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[Heidi]

T2SC, thanks for the love and encouragement. You continue to be a source of strength for me.

The worst part of court was the boring predictability of it all.

Did I mention yet that Graeme decided this summer to go live with my mom?

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[T2sarahconnor]

Yeah I think it was your last full challenge when that happened. How did that go? Is he back?