trawlerman Posted September 10, 2015 Report Share Posted September 10, 2015 Warning: this is long. Sorry about that. It is my first post after all! :-)A little bit of background:I was chubby as a child and chunky as a teen, but lots of activity kept me from really ballooning out. In high school, I was probably around 185. At times in college, I got up around 220, but I'd usually lose whatever weight I gained by working a summer landscaping job.The last year of college, I slimmed down significantly.In October 2001, at age 22, I was the leanest I had ever been in my life. Down to an average of 160, I was sick for a while and down to an all-time low 145 on my wedding day, 10/6/01.Over the next twelve years, I slowly returned to bad childhood habits without the counterbalance of that childhood activity. The weight kept creeping up. Part of this was struggling with quitting cigarettes over years and gaining weight each time I'd quit again. And part of it was (not) adapting to new work and life situations that did not *require* much movement so I just stopped moving as much while continuing to eat too much junk.In January of 2013, I was the fattest I'd ever been in my life. About 275-280 at 5'7". A lot of body fat. Very little muscle. I was tired all of the time. I was cranky. I was weak. Mostly, I had fallen into a lot of very bad habits over a long period of time and they kept kept getting worse.It was the beginning of a new year. I decided to get serious about losing weight. Just like I had tried and failed to do every other year. For the first time ever, though, I started seriously reading fitness articles instead of pretending that I knew what I was doing (which I obviously didn't!). Everything about the fitness culture was strange to me. I didn't know the names of anything. I couldn't tell the difference between a set and a rep. I couldn't do any of the exercises I saw recommended. It was all rather overwhelming and discouraging.In February 2013, I discovered Nerd Fitness. I can't remember exactly how, but it was the result of a search query like "how does a fat idiot like me do a single pullup?" Sure enough, Steve's article showed up somewhere in those results. The time he took to explain the exercise and lay out a logical progression was so extremely helpful to me that I spent the next few weeks devouring the NF site. On February 19th, I bought one of Steve's fitness guides and started moving more and eating better. That led to a C25K and further running (truly amazing getting from "I can't run longer than 10 seconds without getting winded" to "I can run for 30 minutes without stopping!" to "I can run for 10 miles" and "I can run such-and-such time Mile/5k/10k") to StrongLifts to just being more mindful in general. But I still can't do a pullup. Some day!Anyhow, long story short, I've been working on living a healthier life since that point.BUT.In the Fall of 2014, I was at my lowest weight in a long time, 213. More importantly, physically and emotionally, I felt better than I had in years.Through the winter of 2014/2015, I let things slide and by Spring, I was around 223. But this was partially okay because I had been focusing on strength training through the winter and had been hitting PRs. By Spring, I knew I had to focus on losing weight again, but cutting calories made me miserable and I wasn't feeling the running bug even though I had enjoyed it last summer. Bad decisions over vacations led to gaining weight instead followed by a couple of weeks of rigorous losing only to have another vacation time or big party and on and on. I'm back up to 227-230. And I'm miserable, stuck back in old cycles of depression and disgust that aren't any good for me. I've kept doing some exercises, but haven't done any program consistently and have suffered in progress all around because of my uncertainty about what I really want to be doing.That's why I'm here. More than anything else, I just need to focus on weight loss. I can focus on skills and guilds later. Right now, I'm just focused on the Adventure and probably headed to the Adventurers Guild for the next challenge. Right now, I'm happy to reset to noob and join for my first ever rookie six week challenge.I'm hoping that posting regularly to a thread here will keep me honest and keep me focused. I'm hoping that reading the threads of other first-timers here will be an encouragement to me. I hope to be a positive spur to others and I hope that others will also spur me on.------------------------------------------So, here goes:The Main Quest"And he answered, â€œYou shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind, and your neighbor as yourself.â€" -Luke 10:27That's the present goal and the end goal. That repeated "all your" are sticky words. I figure I'll never be done working on this one.Anyhow, the overall lifetime goal is:Love (of God) with:HeartSoulStrengthMind(and love my neighbor as myself)Specifically right now, I think that I need to focus on the heart and soul, the appetitive will. Further strength of the body or at least maintenance of my current strength ought to also be a result of sticking to a plan of dietary self-control.A poor diet and lack of self-control have been ongoing hindrances to me. I have a disordered and damaging relationship with food and drink. These are good gifts and I abuse them. I have made strides in this area in the past two years, but there is still much work to be done. As much as I hate it, I've realize that I need to be ever vigilant in this area. It is not something that I can coast in.My longish short-term goal is to lose 50 pounds over the course of five of these challenges. After I've focused solely on weight loss for that time period and achieved a healthy weight, I'll consider my options and see what kind of fitness "class" I'd really like to specialize in. I'm not sure of the future challenge dates, but I'm guessing that will take me into next summer.Below are the short term "quests" for the present challenge.------------------------------------------Six Week Goal - Focused Challenge*For this six week challenge, I'd like to lose 10 pounds.*That's a number that I think that I can realistically achieve without going crazy.So, three concrete steps toward that goal.1) Eat better (or at least less). Count Calories. This is what worked for me in the beginning. I know it works. I just got lax and thought that I could do without it. Well, I can't. It's a helpful crutch. I do hope to someday be so inclined to the best choices that I no longer need to do this. Right now, I know I need it.*The goal for these six weeks is to end each day at no more than a modified 1500 caloric intake* (meaning that I can eat 2000 calories or so on certain days without feeling guilty IF FitBit activity mods the number.)A caloric deficit is the main thing, I know, that will make the weight loss happen.2) Move more. Use my FitBit One. This is another crutch that I had dropped too soon. I will wear the danged thing clipped to my waist all day long. And I will not put it through the wash again.*The goal for these six weeks is a minimum of 10,000 steps a day and 20 floors a day.*Lately, I've hit this on many workout days but not on "off" days. I need to start just walking more and hit this goal every day. I still plan on working out, squats, deadlift, oh press, bench, (and I usually walk laps in between sets at the gym) and probably at least some running/hiking (which will also obviously contribute to steps). The steps guideline is the bare minimum that I should be aiming for even when I'm not doing something more intense. It's there to keep me mindful of moving more throughout the day at work especially when I'm usually doing a lot of sitting. Moving more will mean burning more calories will mean losing the weight.3) Spend appropriately. During and after the work day, I can waste a lot of money on food choices that are not good for me. A $2 coffee here. Abad $8 drive-thru choice there. $5 at the gas station on junk items that I really don't need. It all adds up, subtracting from my bank balance and adding to the waistline.*The goal for these six weeks is to spend $0 on myself.*Exceptions are the three Gs: gasoline, groceries and giving. Besides those necessities, I hope to cut out all wasteful spending on myself. Spending less will mean eating less will mean losing the weight.------------------------------------------Side Quests - MindI love to read both for pleasure and for growth in knowledge and wisdom.It's not too hard to keep up with the pleasure reading. I'll be doing that.That pleasure reading is often also mind-stretching, but I have more focused goals in mind. I'd like to begin to learn Latin and I'd like to have a firm handle on Luke-Acts.So...1) Language - LatinI'm going to start Visual Latin and take it slow. There's no hurry here. Just like this fitness thing, this language goal is going to be a lifelong struggle.*The goal for these six weeks is to finish and master the content of the first six weeks of the Visual Latin program.*http://www.compassclassroom.com/latin.html2) Bible - Luke-ActsI made my own print edition of Luke-Acts formatted for easy reading: http://www.amazon.com/gp/aw/d/0615745067/*The goal of these six weeks is to read through Luke-Acts twice a week, twelve times total.*I'd like to have a good handle on the general outlines of the books. I'll probably also read secondary material that I have on the two books. Most important, though, is just the repeated exposure to the text itself.3) No Morning InternetI don't usually have a problem getting up early. Most days, I wake up around 5-5:30. It usually takes me an hour of puttering around to drink my coffee and fully wake up. What I usually do with this time is fritter it away on the internet, checking email or Boardgamegeek.com or Facebook or Feedly feeds or whatever. Rarely is this internet time spent in a productive way that will make me a better person. Mostly, it is wasted time.*The goal of these six weeks is to cut out this morning internet usage and use this morning pre-workout pre-work time to engage in the previous two items.*------------------------------------------Motivation - FamilyI am married to a beautiful woman. She's smoking hot. I am the father of seven amazing children with an eighth on the way; the oldest is 13 while the youngest is living the good life in the womb. I'd like to stick around quite a while longer and enjoy these children and some day maybe their children. My wife is a positive and stable influence. The children are all active, slim, and not obsessed with weight. I get home cooked meals all of the time. My weight issues are my own, rooted in unhealthy childhood patterns that have persisted and resurfaced in my adult life. Anyhow, I'd like to be the good role model in this area that I should already be. I'd like to be active with my children. And I'd like to be doing this for a long time to come.------------------------------------------*IMPORTANT NOTE*I will be pretending that September 18th and 19th exist in a different space and time than this six week challenge. They are sanctioned "cheat days." I will be spending the weekend in a cabin at Letchworth State Park with childhood friends. There will be hiking, but I'm pretty sure that no matter how much hiking we do, it will not fully counterbalance the amount of feasting that will be happening. Besides these two days, the plan is sticking to the challenge every day! For six weeks!------------------------------------------I've got to re-read all of the "real life rpg" stuff here, but I'm pretty sure that I've got this right and right now I am...Trawlerman, the Level 0 Halfling Adventurer.STR 0DEX 0STA 0CON 0WIS 0CHA 0Gotta love those newbie stats! I haven't figured out grading for any of the above, but it should be pretty obvious if I'm staying the course or going off course. I'll keep a tally and post here daily and reckon with stats after three weeks when it's leveling up time.Anyhow, if you got through all of that, well, thanks. I've blogged in the past but always about things outside of myself, movies, books, other stuff. I'm not nearly as comfortable with straight autobiography like this. Which is probably why I've avoided posting to these boards for years now even though I've used some of the sub forums as resources and been comfortable reading posts. Just not writing any myself!Again, just glad to be here and starting fresh.I'll start journaling here starting Monday when the challenge officially begins.AD VICTORIAM!Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk 4 Quote RunKeeper - https://runkeeper.com/user/trawlerman/profile Link to comment
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