Morrigainz Posted January 4, 2016 Report Share Posted January 4, 2016 So umm.....hi. Let me explain....no, is too much. Let me sum up: I'm just coming out of the worst year of my life, complete with mental breakdown and taking a medical leave of absence from work, almost getting divorced, and all that good stuff. I've taken a LONG break from NF, for lots of reasons, but I miss my nerds TERRIBLY and I've decided it's time to come back. Plus, I'm trying something different this time. I've spent most of my adult life feeling like a failure, a fuckup, a worthless piece of sludge. I suffer from depression and ADHD, and so things that are simple for others are nearly impossible for me. While I don't necessarily compare myself to other people, I have in my mind this Ideal Person, and the kind of things this person does. I have wasted so much time comparing myself to this Person, falling short, and beating myself up for it. I've decided that it ends, NOW. I've decided to be the best Mir I can be, and that means embracing all the awesome things that make me Mir, while acknowledging my weaknesses but not hating myself for them. I'm not sure exactly how things work around here these days, and also I only decided yesterday to make a challenge, so here are my thoughts thus far: Main Quest: Love Thyself How am I going to accomplish this? I, errr....don't really know. What I've come up with so far is to ask myself two questions: Does this make my life easier? / What will make my life easier? Does this make me happier? / What will make me happier? The non easy/happy things are going out the window. I'm going to look at my life differently. I'm going to look at my SELF differently. I am simply not wired to be the Super Organizer that for some reason I've felt I should be. Instead, I'm wired to be fun, crazy, wild, creative, zany, loud, outgoing, etc etc etc. It's time to embrace me. It's time to be authentically Mir. Other things I'd like to accomplish, but I haven't decided the order/priority in which they fall (and certainly some of them are more than 4 week goals):start doing PT againgo back to gymmake good food choices/cook yummy food at hometake care of myself while at work (this includes things like actually taking a lunch, bringing food to eat instead of drinking coffee and eating candy all day, getting up from my desk once in a while, etc)get Etsy shop off the groundstart doing home improvement stuff again (painting, ugh) Quote Level ? Half-Dwarf/Half-Amazon Warrior STR:21.25 STA:15 DEX: 10.95 CON: 14 WIS:15.5 CHA:17 SWOLE BUCKS: 1 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 Link to comment
KB Girl Posted January 4, 2016 Report Share Posted January 4, 2016 Authentically Mir. That's awesome. Didn't know you before your hiatus, but i'll be here for support if you'll have me! I think one of the first steps of loving yourself is taking care of yourself, so I think your goals are going in the right direction Quote KB Quest: becoming a decent kettlebell lifter and an excellent coach 2023 goals tracker; 591/5000km & reading to my kids 48/365 days (updated march-22) my instagram - my gym's instagram Link to comment
msuroo Posted January 4, 2016 Report Share Posted January 4, 2016 Hiiiii!Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk Quote Challenge thread Link to comment
Flex Luthor Posted January 4, 2016 Report Share Posted January 4, 2016 Hiiiiiiiiii Mir Main Quest: Love Thyself *giggles uncontrollably* 1 Quote "I like you just the way you are" - Mr. Rogers In Br0din's name we gain. Link to comment
elvenengineer Posted January 4, 2016 Report Share Posted January 4, 2016 Oh man. Depression and the Me vs. Ideal Person.... hitting a little close to home for me there. I could use some lessons in this as well. One thing I've found helpful (if it isn't, feel free to ignore me), is when I start thinking about shoulds, I know I need time for me. "I should be working on my thesis, but I can't get out of bed" just makes me feel worse. Setting smaller, attainable goals, like, "Okay, I'm not going to get out of bed, but I am going to make an outline of the next steps for my thesis in this notebook, so when I feel better I can start on it", or "I'm going to take today off, because I need it and I'm not perfect, but this will help me do even better tomorrow". Shoulds are how a struggle for me. If you can't tell. Looks like an awesome challenge, I'll be rooting for you! 1 Quote Goal: Deadlift a (Female) Wookie (100 kg): 65.8% Link to comment
Alanna Posted January 4, 2016 Report Share Posted January 4, 2016 *hugs* Glad to have you back, Mir! The 6 to 4 week challenge transition is the major change--things still work pretty much the same around here Quote -:- THE LIONESS -:- Challenge 2.1, 2.2, 2.3, 2.4, 2.5, 2.6, 2.7, 2.8, 2.9, 2.10, 2.11 Link to comment
Br0din Posted January 4, 2016 Report Share Posted January 4, 2016 Quote May Br0din bless you with mighty gains, and may your shaker bottle always be full. Wheymen ...and, if you die... Walk it off - Captain America Level 13: 1/4 Giant Warrior STR - 50 | DEX - 19 | STA - 19 | CON - 14 | WIS - 28 | CHA - 24 My food logging is here*: MFP: tyrsnbdr Link to comment
MegaCarp Posted January 4, 2016 Report Share Posted January 4, 2016 Welcome back Mir! Wait does this mean I can text the Mir silly things...cause I still have the Mir line I think! Quote Link to comment
Hermione Gainser Posted January 4, 2016 Report Share Posted January 4, 2016 MIRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR <3 1 Quote "I'm just going to remember to not eat like an asshole most of the time" - MoC three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: one must squat.- Brobert Frost Half-Elf Warrior | Current Challenge New Battle Log | Old Battle Log Special thanks to AkLulu for drawing my awesome avatar! Link to comment
Morrigainz Posted January 4, 2016 Author Report Share Posted January 4, 2016 Authentically Mir. That's awesome. Didn't know you before your hiatus, but i'll be here for support if you'll have me! I think one of the first steps of loving yourself is taking care of yourself, so I think your goals are going in the right direction Thanks! I'll be looking for tips and tricks of some sort as I feel my way forward, I'm sure. Hiiiii!Sent from my iPhone using TapatalkHiiiiiii!! Are you ever coming home for a visit? How is the new place and stuff? I occasionally get an update from BB but not too often... Hiiiiiiiiii Mir *giggles uncontrollably*Yes. I'm pretty good at THAT kind of loving, as we all know. /leer Oh man. Depression and the Me vs. Ideal Person.... hitting a little close to home for me there. I could use some lessons in this as well. One thing I've found helpful (if it isn't, feel free to ignore me), is when I start thinking about shoulds, I know I need time for me. "I should be working on my thesis, but I can't get out of bed" just makes me feel worse. Setting smaller, attainable goals, like, "Okay, I'm not going to get out of bed, but I am going to make an outline of the next steps for my thesis in this notebook, so when I feel better I can start on it", or "I'm going to take today off, because I need it and I'm not perfect, but this will help me do even better tomorrow". Shoulds are how a struggle for me. If you can't tell. Looks like an awesome challenge, I'll be rooting for you!Definitely. I have a system that I call Do One Thing. It's proved helpful. Later I plan to update with some pictures and stuff of what I've been up to for oh, the past year or so.... And yes. The shoulds are EVIL. *hugs* Glad to have you back, Mir! The 6 to 4 week challenge transition is the major change--things still work pretty much the same around here Hugs! Glad to be back! Welcome back Mir! Wait does this mean I can text the Mir silly things...cause I still have the Mir line I think!Uhhhh...no one ever said you had to stop! MIRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR <3 ERMAHGERDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD I see you have retained your status of GIF Queen. Quote Level ? Half-Dwarf/Half-Amazon Warrior STR:21.25 STA:15 DEX: 10.95 CON: 14 WIS:15.5 CHA:17 SWOLE BUCKS: 1 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 Link to comment
Gainsdalf the Whey Posted January 4, 2016 Report Share Posted January 4, 2016 You came back at the right time, things are changing starting this challenge. First change=4 week challenges. edit: Just realized that our class symbol changed... Quote Massrandir, Barkûn, Swolórin, The Whey Pilgrim 500 / 330 / 625 Challenges: 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 31 32 34 35 36 39 41 42 45 46 47 48 49 Current Challenge "No citizen has a right to be an amateur in the matter of physical training. What a disgrace it is for a man to grow old without ever seeing the beauty and strength of which his body is capable. " ~ Socrates "Friends don't let friends squat high." ~ Chad Wesley Smith "It's a dangerous business, Brodo, squatting to the floor. You step into the rack, and if you don't keep your form, there's no knowing where you might be swept off to." ~ Gainsdalf Link to comment
Morrigainz Posted January 4, 2016 Author Report Share Posted January 4, 2016 I saw that too! Which is quite interesting... I had something in mind. I don't want to say anything yet in case it doesn't come to fruition. TBD...Sent from my SCH-I435 using Tapatalk Quote Level ? Half-Dwarf/Half-Amazon Warrior STR:21.25 STA:15 DEX: 10.95 CON: 14 WIS:15.5 CHA:17 SWOLE BUCKS: 1 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 Link to comment
Morrigainz Posted January 5, 2016 Author Report Share Posted January 5, 2016 Hokay, let's see if I can link to my album from here or if all knowledge of the forums has leaked from my ears. Disclaimers: 1. no captions yet2. wtf for some reason half my pictures are upside down even after I rotated them Quote Level ? Half-Dwarf/Half-Amazon Warrior STR:21.25 STA:15 DEX: 10.95 CON: 14 WIS:15.5 CHA:17 SWOLE BUCKS: 1 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 Link to comment
Stronkey Kong Posted January 5, 2016 Report Share Posted January 5, 2016 Etsy shop? Quote ===================================================================================================== --Stronkey Kong-- Link to comment
AugustaAdaByron Posted January 5, 2016 Report Share Posted January 5, 2016 Oh, look who's back! Happy New Year! Quote Level "I have no clue" Warrior Current challenge Battle log Link to comment
Br0din Posted January 5, 2016 Report Share Posted January 5, 2016 Hokay, let's see if I can link to my album from here or if all knowledge of the forums has leaked from my ears. Disclaimers: 1. no captions yet2. wtf for some reason half my pictures are upside down even after I rotated them Are you from Australia or New Zealand? 1 Quote May Br0din bless you with mighty gains, and may your shaker bottle always be full. Wheymen ...and, if you die... Walk it off - Captain America Level 13: 1/4 Giant Warrior STR - 50 | DEX - 19 | STA - 19 | CON - 14 | WIS - 28 | CHA - 24 My food logging is here*: MFP: tyrsnbdr Link to comment
MasterOfCows Posted January 5, 2016 Report Share Posted January 5, 2016 MIR!!! So happy you're back <3 Quote 1st Challenge 2nd Challenge 3rd Challenge 4th Challenge - if you can call it that 5th Challenge 6th Challenge 7th Challenge Battle Log Link to comment
chairohkey Posted January 5, 2016 Report Share Posted January 5, 2016 Sub'd for the self love. Quote Link to comment
Heather D. Posted January 5, 2016 Report Share Posted January 5, 2016 MIR!!!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 Quote Twitter | FB | Instagram Link to comment
Book Posted January 5, 2016 Report Share Posted January 5, 2016 Hey there Mir I'm trying to make my comeback too.Great to see you! Sent from my SM-G900P using Tapatalk Quote Character and Epic Quest! Current Challenge Battle Log Link to comment
Book Posted January 5, 2016 Report Share Posted January 5, 2016 Oh, and great Princess Bride reference. Sent from my SM-G900P using Tapatalk 1 Quote Character and Epic Quest! Current Challenge Battle Log Link to comment
Strawberry Squatcake Posted January 5, 2016 Report Share Posted January 5, 2016 Mirrrrrrrrr! Rawr. Quote Shape-Shifting Ginger Current Battle Log 2" washers for smaller weight increases Link to comment
wildross Posted January 5, 2016 Report Share Posted January 5, 2016 Hey! One thought to start you off. When we met you and Mr Mir, we (Mrs Wildross and I) were struck by how our personalities matched up (me to him and her to you. Mrs Wildross has often described me as the rock that tethers her down so she can fly around like a kite or a balloon, but not get lost. Which could be interpreted as I'm a deadweight...but I understand what she means. 1 Quote Warriors don't count reps and sets. They count tons. My psychologist weighs 45 pounds, has an iron soul and sits on the end of a bar Tally Sheet for 2019 Encouragement for older members: Chronologically Blessed Group; Encouragement for newbie lifters: When we were weaker Link to comment
Morrigainz Posted January 6, 2016 Author Report Share Posted January 6, 2016 Etsy shop?Yes! I started knitting in December 2014 (as a way to stop myself from biting my nails/fingers - it's a horrible habit and I do it until I bleed, and I'm sure that one of these days I'm going to get an infection and lose a finger) and I've taken to it like a fish to water - which is very strange. I normally have trouble with detail work, but something about knitting (creating things, being able to use my imagination) calls to me. I've done a TON of knitting in the last year, and I've started to be comfortable enough with my work that I've been giving projects away, making things for specific people, etc. When I was off work, I was trying to think of a way to supplement my income...and that's what came to mind. I'm back at work now, but I'm still keenly interested in knitting things for nerds. I have a list of a dozen or so projects that people have requested, and I'm working on my first one right now - a blanket with the chemical structure of melatonin because that's HILARIOUS. Oh, look who's back! Happy New Year! And to you as well! Hugs!Are you from Australia or New Zealand? OMIGOD THAT'S IT!!! ....not. MIR!!! So happy you're back <3 HUGS! Omg girl, update me. How's the knee?Sub'd for the self love. Thanks! It's going to be quite a journey.MIR!!!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 BODY TWINSIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE (not at the moment though, haha) Hey there Mir I'm trying to make my comeback too.Great to see you!Sent from my SM-G900P using TapatalkBOOK omg BOOK!!!! I was thinking about you not long ago! HIHIHIHIHIHIHIHIHI 1 Quote Level ? Half-Dwarf/Half-Amazon Warrior STR:21.25 STA:15 DEX: 10.95 CON: 14 WIS:15.5 CHA:17 SWOLE BUCKS: 1 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 Link to comment
Morrigainz Posted January 6, 2016 Author Report Share Posted January 6, 2016 Mirrrrrrrrr!Rawr. RARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. Speaking of rar, we need to start thinking about NV2016......Hey! One thought to start you off. When we met you and Mr Mir, we (Mrs Wildross and I) were struck by how our personalities matched up (me to him and her to you. Mrs Wildross has often described me as the rock that tethers her down so she can fly around like a kite or a balloon, but not get lost. Which could be interpreted as I'm a deadweight...but I understand what she means.That's hilarious...we actually made that exact same analogy when some family friends came by the other day. And it's so true! One of the challenges is going to be for me to be ME, but still...have some expectations of myself. I'm terrible at being organized, but that doesn't mean that I can't maintain SOME kind of baseline - I don't want Mr Mir to feel as though he has to do everything - cleaning, paying bills, getting my prescriptions, etc. Quote Level ? Half-Dwarf/Half-Amazon Warrior STR:21.25 STA:15 DEX: 10.95 CON: 14 WIS:15.5 CHA:17 SWOLE BUCKS: 1 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 Link to comment
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