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So umm.....hi.

 

Let me explain....no, is too much. Let me sum up:

 

I'm just coming out of the worst year of my life, complete with mental breakdown and taking a medical leave of absence from work, almost getting divorced, and all that good stuff. I've taken a LONG break from NF, for lots of reasons, but I miss my nerds TERRIBLY and I've decided it's time to come back. Plus, I'm trying something different this time.

 

I've spent most of my adult life feeling like a failure, a fuckup, a worthless piece of sludge. I suffer from depression and ADHD, and so things that are simple for others are nearly impossible for me. While I don't necessarily compare myself to other people, I have in my mind this Ideal Person, and the kind of things this person does. I have wasted so much time comparing myself to this Person, falling short, and beating myself up for it. I've decided that it ends, NOW. I've decided to be the best Mir I can be, and that means embracing all the awesome things that make me Mir, while acknowledging my weaknesses but not hating myself for them.

 

I'm not sure exactly how things work around here these days, and also I only decided yesterday to make a challenge, so here are my thoughts thus far:

 

Main Quest: Love Thyself

 

How am I going to accomplish this? I, errr....don't really know. What I've come up with so far is to ask myself two questions:

 

Does this make my life easier? / What will make my life easier?

 

Does this make me happier? / What will make me happier?

 

The non easy/happy things are going out the window. I'm going to look at my life differently. I'm going to look at my SELF differently. I am simply not wired to be the Super Organizer that for some reason I've felt I should be. Instead, I'm wired to be fun, crazy, wild, creative, zany, loud, outgoing, etc etc etc.  It's time to embrace me. It's time to be authentically Mir.

 

Other things I'd like to accomplish, but I haven't decided the order/priority in which they fall (and certainly some of them are more than 4 week goals):

  • start doing PT again
  • go back to gym
  • make good food choices/cook yummy food at home
  • take care of myself while at work (this includes things like actually taking a lunch, bringing food to eat instead of drinking coffee and eating candy all day, getting up from my desk once in a while, etc)
  • get Etsy shop off the ground
  • start doing home improvement stuff again (painting, ugh)

Level ? Half-Dwarf/Half-Amazon Warrior

STR:21.25 STA:15 DEX: 10.95 CON: 14 WIS:15.5 CHA:17

SWOLE BUCKS: 1

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Authentically Mir. That's awesome.

 

Didn't know you before your hiatus, but i'll be here for support if you'll have me! I think one of the first steps of loving yourself is taking care of yourself, so I think your goals are going in the right direction :)

Main Quest: becoming a decent kettlebell lifter and a great coach

Current challenge: KB Girl gets her bujo back

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Oh man. Depression and the Me vs. Ideal Person.... hitting a little close to home for me there. I could use some lessons in this as well.

 

One thing I've found helpful (if it isn't, feel free to ignore me), is when I start thinking about shoulds, I know I need time for me.  "I should be working on my thesis, but I can't get out of bed" just makes me feel worse.  Setting smaller, attainable goals, like, "Okay, I'm not going to get out of bed, but I am going to make an outline of the next steps for my thesis in this notebook, so when I feel better I can start on it", or "I'm going to take today off, because I need it and I'm not perfect, but this will help me do even better tomorrow".

 

Shoulds are how a struggle for me. If you can't tell.

 

Looks like an awesome challenge, I'll be rooting for you!

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Authentically Mir. That's awesome.

 

Didn't know you before your hiatus, but i'll be here for support if you'll have me! I think one of the first steps of loving yourself is taking care of yourself, so I think your goals are going in the right direction :)

Thanks! I'll be looking for tips and tricks of some sort as I feel my way forward, I'm sure.

 

Hiiiii!

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Hiiiiiii!! Are you ever coming home for a visit? How is the new place and stuff? I occasionally get an update from BB but not too often...

 

Hiiiiiiiiii Mir

 

 

*giggles uncontrollably*

Yes. I'm pretty good at THAT kind of loving, as we all know. /leer

 

Oh man. Depression and the Me vs. Ideal Person.... hitting a little close to home for me there. I could use some lessons in this as well.

 

One thing I've found helpful (if it isn't, feel free to ignore me), is when I start thinking about shoulds, I know I need time for me.  "I should be working on my thesis, but I can't get out of bed" just makes me feel worse.  Setting smaller, attainable goals, like, "Okay, I'm not going to get out of bed, but I am going to make an outline of the next steps for my thesis in this notebook, so when I feel better I can start on it", or "I'm going to take today off, because I need it and I'm not perfect, but this will help me do even better tomorrow".

 

Shoulds are how a struggle for me. If you can't tell.

 

Looks like an awesome challenge, I'll be rooting for you!

Definitely. I have a system that I call Do One Thing. It's proved helpful. Later I plan to update with some pictures and stuff of what I've been up to for oh, the past year or so....

 

And yes. The shoulds are EVIL.

 

*hugs* Glad to have you back, Mir!

 

The 6 to 4 week challenge transition is the major change--things still work pretty much the same around here :)

 

Hugs! Glad to be back!

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Welcome back Mir! Wait does this mean I can text the Mir silly things...cause I still have the Mir line I think!

Uhhhh...no one ever said you had to stop!

 

MIRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR <3

 

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I see you have retained your status of GIF Queen.

Level ? Half-Dwarf/Half-Amazon Warrior

STR:21.25 STA:15 DEX: 10.95 CON: 14 WIS:15.5 CHA:17

SWOLE BUCKS: 1

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You came back at the right time, things are changing starting this challenge. First change=4 week challenges.

 

edit: Just realized that our class symbol changed...

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Challenges: 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 31 32 34 35 36 39 41 42 45 46 47 48 49 Current Challenge
"No citizen has a right to be an amateur in the matter of physical training. What a disgrace it is for a man to grow old without ever seeing the beauty and strength of which his body is capable. " ~ Socrates
"Friends don't let friends squat high." ~ Chad Wesley Smith
"It's a dangerous business, Brodo, squatting to the floor. You step into the rack, and if you don't keep your form, there's no knowing where you might be swept off to." ~ Gainsdalf

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Hokay, let's see if I can link to my album from here or if all knowledge of the forums has leaked from my ears.

 

Disclaimers:

 

1. no captions yet

2. wtf for some reason half my pictures are upside down even after I rotated them

 

Level ? Half-Dwarf/Half-Amazon Warrior

STR:21.25 STA:15 DEX: 10.95 CON: 14 WIS:15.5 CHA:17

SWOLE BUCKS: 1

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8

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Hokay, let's see if I can link to my album from here or if all knowledge of the forums has leaked from my ears.

 

Disclaimers:

 

1. no captions yet

2. wtf for some reason half my pictures are upside down even after I rotated them

 

 

Are you from Australia or New Zealand?  

 

 

 

 

 

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STR - 50 | DEX - 19 | STA - 19 | CON - 14 | WIS - 28 | CHA - 24

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Hey!

 

One thought to start you off.  When we met you and Mr Mir, we (Mrs Wildross and I) were struck by how our personalities matched up (me to him and her to you.  Mrs Wildross has often described me as the rock that tethers her down so she can fly around like a kite or a balloon, but not get lost.

 

Which could be interpreted as I'm a deadweight...but I understand what she means.

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Encouragement for older members: Chronologically Blessed Group;

Encouragement for newbie lifters: When we were weaker

 

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Etsy shop?

Yes!

 

I started knitting in December 2014 (as a way to stop myself from biting my nails/fingers - it's a horrible habit and I do it until I bleed, and I'm sure that one of these days I'm going to get an infection and lose a finger) and I've taken to it like a fish to water - which is very strange. I normally have trouble with detail work, but something about knitting (creating things, being able to use my imagination) calls to me. I've done a TON of knitting in the last year, and I've started to be comfortable enough with my work that I've been giving projects away, making things for specific people, etc. When I was off work, I was trying to think of a way to supplement my income...and that's what came to mind. I'm back at work now, but I'm still keenly interested in knitting things for nerds. I have a list of a dozen or so projects that people have requested, and I'm working on my first one right now - a blanket with the chemical structure of melatonin because that's HILARIOUS.

 

Oh, look who's back! Happy New Year! :)

 

And to you as well! Hugs!

Are you from Australia or New Zealand?  

 

 

 

 

 

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OMIGOD THAT'S IT!!!

 

....not.

 

MIR!!!  So happy you're back <3

 

HUGS! Omg girl, update me. How's the knee?

Sub'd for the self love.

 

Thanks! It's going to be quite a journey.

MIR!!!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

 BODY TWINSIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE (not at the moment though, haha)

 

Hey there Mir :) I'm trying to make my comeback too.

Great to see you!

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BOOK omg BOOK!!!! I was thinking about you not long ago! HIHIHIHIHIHIHIHIHI

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Level ? Half-Dwarf/Half-Amazon Warrior

STR:21.25 STA:15 DEX: 10.95 CON: 14 WIS:15.5 CHA:17

SWOLE BUCKS: 1

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8

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Mirrrrrrrrr!

Rawr.

 

RARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

 

Speaking of rar, we need to start thinking about NV2016......

Hey!

 

One thought to start you off.  When we met you and Mr Mir, we (Mrs Wildross and I) were struck by how our personalities matched up (me to him and her to you.  Mrs Wildross has often described me as the rock that tethers her down so she can fly around like a kite or a balloon, but not get lost.

 

Which could be interpreted as I'm a deadweight...but I understand what she means.

That's hilarious...we actually made that exact same analogy when some family friends came by the other day. And it's so true!

 

One of the challenges is going to be for me to be ME, but still...have some expectations of myself. I'm terrible at being organized, but that doesn't mean that I can't maintain SOME kind of baseline - I don't want Mr Mir to feel as though he has to do everything - cleaning, paying bills, getting my prescriptions, etc. 

Level ? Half-Dwarf/Half-Amazon Warrior

STR:21.25 STA:15 DEX: 10.95 CON: 14 WIS:15.5 CHA:17

SWOLE BUCKS: 1

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8

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