Spooky Gets Schwifty

[spooky]

Catching up and chiming in about raw veggies. I just don't do raw veggies anymore at all because they upset my stomach.

Good work on your goals!

hmm... good to know Emma!

 

And thanks <3

[spooky]

BOOB PRISONS YEEEESS!!! HAHAHA I agree AND I LOLed!! [emoji13]

Wow 50 minute meditation! You are a serious Druid!!!!

Sent from deep within the wilds of Gridania...

<3 <3 <3

 

I love long meditation session now that I've worked up to them!

[spooky]

Daily Inspiration: 

 

70

My teachings are easy to understand
and easy to put into practice.
Yet your intellect will never grasp them,
and if you try to practice them, you'll fail.

My teachings are older than the world.
How can you grasp their meaning?

If you want to know me,
look inside your heart.

 

[Luciana Valerosa Culming]

Are you saying you got a kitten and didn't post pictures? What's wrong with you, man??

That was exactly my thought. ^^

 

edit: Ooooooh, what a black beauty. Looking forward to cite kitten pictures. I'm sure she will adjust in no time to her new home.

[Snarkyfishguts]

50 minutes?????

 

DANG. I am impressed!!!

 

How is your belly feeling today? My belly is urpish. I think there's a virus going around. 

 

I always love your quotes and reminders to relax and just be productive. I felt really anxious when I logged on today and now I feel peaceful.

[Gaming_Jeweler]

She's hiding right now, so it's hard to get pictures but I do have one!

 

 

I love black cats! For 13 years, I always had a black cat.

[RMDC]

More FMCs should punch men in the balls, methinks.

[Terah]

 

I am grateful for maybe doing less than my epic day two days ago, but still feeling it was enough

 

If all your days where epic, they wouldn't be epic anymore

 

And what a cute kitten you have there <4

[Rhyme]

Oooooh black kittens are so exciting!! You don't know which color their eyes will turn, so who knows if she'll grow up to be a witch cat or a Toothless cat~

[Jett]

Great job this week! And congrats on the new kitty! Awww, so cute!

[Rihor]

 

Daily Inspiration: 

 

70

My teachings are easy to understand

and easy to put into practice.

Yet your intellect will never grasp them,

and if you try to practice them, you'll fail.

My teachings are older than the world.

How can you grasp their meaning?

Lao Tzu throwin some shade!

[spooky]

That was exactly my thought. ^^

 

edit: Ooooooh, what a black beauty. Looking forward to cite kitten pictures. I'm sure she will adjust in no time to her new home.

Thanks Luciana <3 

 

50 minutes?????

 

DANG. I am impressed!!!

 

How is your belly feeling today? My belly is urpish. I think there's a virus going around. 

 

I always love your quotes and reminders to relax and just be productive. I felt really anxious when I logged on today and now I feel peaceful.

Thanks Snarky <4 !

 

Belly is feeling so-so, not too terrible but still a little wonky :/. No throwing up though so I'll consider it a success!

 

Glad the quotes help you as much as they help me <4

 

I love black cats! For 13 years, I always had a black cat.

SAME! I have black cat already (Lucky) and we love having him so much! It's so hard to get black cats adopted (sadly) so we were happy to give her a good home <3

 

More FMCs should punch men in the balls, methinks.

Agreed

 

If all your days where epic, they wouldn't be epic anymore

 

And what a cute kitten you have there <4

Very true, Terah! And a great reminder

 

I think she's super cute too

 

Oooooh black kittens are so exciting!! You don't know which color their eyes will turn, so who knows if she'll grow up to be a witch cat or a Toothless cat~

hehehehe, my other black cat reminds me of Toothless SO. MUCH. She's already starting to warm up to us

 

Great job this week! And congrats on the new kitty! Awww, so cute!

Thanks Jenn <3! I think she's just adorable

 

Lao Tzu throwin some shade!

LOL so true!

[spooky]

Yesterday's Gratitude: 

I am grateful for progress with the new kitten

I am grateful for scaling a workout instead of skipping it

I am grateful for trying to focus on the present 

I am grateful for doing less, each day is its own thing

I am grateful for working to maintain a positive outlook

[spooky]

Daily Inspiration: 

 

71

Not-knowing is true knowledge.
Presuming to know is a disease.
First realize that you are sick;
then you can move toward health.

The Master is her own physician.
She has healed herself of all knowing.
Thus she is truly whole.

 

[spooky]

Feeling really stressed and down right now. My first instinct is to hide and not talk to anyone all day but I know that won't help. Some pretty serious financial stuff going on right now, I guess it's been going on for a while but I'm acutely aware of it at the moment and it's overwhelming. I keep trying to get back to school and it's so hard to feel like it's a possibility.

 

Part of this is my parents tax return which I need to submit for any financial aid I would get from the school. I've done what I can for my part of the forms but I have to wait on my dad to finish his part and while I keep reminding him, it seems like he's treading water. I'm going to keep trying because...what else can I really do? I've kept trying this long and I won't give up but that doesn't mean I don't feel ridiculously overwhelmed and kind of hopeless at the moment. It's hard to hold those two things at once. 

 

I feel stuck because all the entry level jobs I want require a bachelors degree, and when I worked a job I didn't want (and really hated) it seriously affected my mental health . I would do free interning/PA work to get started but I share my car with my mom and that really restricts leaving the house. I've been focusing on writing since I can do that at home and it's something I'm definitely in control of.

 

But days like this is when it's so hard to try. I know that means this is when I really need to practice the things I've been working on, but I'm struggling. One second at a time. I'll keep reminding myself. 

[Gaming_Jeweler]

SAME! I have black cat already (Lucky) and we love having him so much! It's so hard to get black cats adopted (sadly) so we were happy to give her a good home <3

 I know. That makes me so sad since black cats are so affectionate. The last black cat I had was going to be sent to the shelter if no one took him. My dad and I saw him and we just had to bring him home.

[Gaming_Jeweler]

Feeling really stressed and down right now. My first instinct is to hide and not talk to anyone all day but I know that won't help. Some pretty serious financial stuff going on right now, I guess it's been going on for a while but I'm acutely aware of it at the moment and it's overwhelming. I keep trying to get back to school and it's so hard to feel like it's a possibility.

 

Part of this is my parents tax return which I need to submit for any financial aid I would get from the school. I've done what I can for my part of the forms but I have to wait on my dad to finish his part and while I keep reminding him, it seems like he's treading water. I'm going to keep trying because...what else can I really do? I've kept trying this long and I won't give up but that doesn't mean I don't feel ridiculously overwhelmed and kind of hopeless at the moment. It's hard to hold those two things at once. 

 

I feel stuck because all the entry level jobs I want require a bachelors degree, and when I worked a job I didn't want (and really hated) it seriously affected my mental health . I would do free interning/PA work to get started but I share my car with my mom and that really restricts leaving the house. I've been focusing on writing since I can do that at home and it's something I'm definitely in control of.

 

But days like this is when it's so hard to try. I know that means this is when I really need to practice the things I've been working on, but I'm struggling. One second at a time. I'll keep reminding myself. 

 

I'm sorry you're going through this. Have you heard of Fiverr? It's a free-lance company where people charge $5 for things like drawings, web design, and the like. You can check it out here if you'd like.

[Terah]

 

 

[Emma]

Adding to the hugs here.

Hugs!

[Rihor]

I am grateful for scaling a workout instead of skipping it

Ooo that's a good one!

[Rihor]

Doubled! 

[Rihor]

Feeling really stressed and down right now. My first instinct is to hide and not talk to anyone all day but I know that won't help. Some pretty serious financial stuff going on right now, I guess it's been going on for a while but...

The future can be pretty scary. So much uncertainty...things we want...things we're not sure we want...things we're not sure we don't want. Maybe when we see progress it's easier to look forward to the future, but feeling like you can't move forward or even don't know how to move forward...it's rough. Like you're being left behind. But left behind in relation to who?

[Luciana Valerosa Culming]

Yesterday's Gratitude:

I am grateful for trying to focus on the present

I hope this strategy helped you a little to reduce to fear of the future. And at the same time you seem to have found something you can do now: writing, working on your abilities, working on these fears, ... That's really GREAT. You're doing what you can at the moment and don't let your fears and feelings controle you. When I vanished from my last six-week-challenge, I was so anxious about the tests, that I couldn't learn nor enjoy life. I was even grumpy on christmas. That's why I tell you now:

You're already doing something to deal with this situation. You can be proud of yourself. Just do what you can. And don't stress yourself too much. The nice things in life give us fuel to give our best every day.

Random idea: Have you been looking for scholarships?

[spooky]

 I know. That makes me so sad since black cats are so affectionate. The last black cat I had was going to be sent to the shelter if no one took him. My dad and I saw him and we just had to bring him home.

IKR? The back cat we have just LOVES to cuddle. Apparently little Smush cat had been there almost every day for 2 months before we asked about her

 

I'm sorry you're going through this. Have you heard of Fiverr? It's a free-lance company where people charge $5 for things like drawings, web design, and the like. You can check it out here if you'd like.

This is a really great suggestion, I hadn't heard of it before! Thanks <3

 

 

 

Thanks so much, Terah <4 This did help a lot <4

 

Adding to the hugs here.

Hugs!

Thanks so much Emma, they were much appreciated <3

 

Ooo that's a good one!

I was proud!

 

The future can be pretty scary. So much uncertainty...things we want...things we're not sure we want...things we're not sure we don't want. Maybe when we see progress it's easier to look forward to the future, but feeling like you can't move forward or even don't know how to move forward...it's rough. Like you're being left behind. But left behind in relation to who?

Yeah, I recognize a lot of my feelings in this post. It's easier and harder to focus on the present at the same time. But it's what works for me. And also the not comparing piece, that's huge. Thanks for chiming in <3

 

I hope this strategy helped you a little to reduce to fear of the future. And at the same time you seem to have found something you can do now: writing, working on your abilities, working on these fears, ... That's really GREAT. You're doing what you can at the moment and don't let your fears and feelings controle you. When I vanished from my last six-week-challenge, I was so anxious about the tests, that I couldn't learn nor enjoy life. I was even grumpy on christmas. That's why I tell you now:

You're already doing something to deal with this situation. You can be proud of yourself. Just do what you can. And don't stress yourself too much. The nice things in life give us fuel to give our best every day.

Random idea: Have you been looking for scholarships?

Thank you so much for reminding me what I AM doing. It can be so easy to lose sight of that when I get overwhelmed, so this was a great reminder. <3 <3 <3 

 

I have been looking for scholarships but haven't found any I qualify for :/. I'm going to keep looking, though. 

 

Thanks again <3

[spooky]

I did talk to my mom and dad about the financial stuff that's been stressing me out and I think it helped. I also have to recognize it's huge progress for me to even feel like I CAN talk to them about what's worrying me.

 

I did some writing, meditation, pilates, grocery shopped, reading, ran an online writing course discussion, and spent more time with the new kitten. She's started coming out from under the bed . So that's quite a lot that I managed to do today even though I was struggling with feeling overwhelmed.

 

And it's also amazing to see that I've come a long way. Months ago, when I first started NF, on a day like today I wouldn't have done anything other than lie in bed. I would have skipped my workout, slept all day, stayed up anxious all night, and felt like shit tomorrow. I don't feel 100% but I do feel better, and that's a start.

 

I also haven't eaten sugar as a method to cope, I meditated, had some tea, and spent time with my cats instead. So that's another win. I have to count those when things are tough because even if it feel like a slog uphill sometimes, I am still moving forward. Slow progress is still progress.  Thank you guys for being here for me when I need it, your support means more than I can really express <3