[KB Girl] lifts all the things, but mostly kettlebells

[SymphonicDan]

Remember how posting videos on NF desensitized you to it? Well I'm sure the same effect will happen when creating material for a wider audience I know the feeling... you want it to be 100% perfect because you can imagine all of the potential criticisms...

 

Really glad that everything has been moving forward for you - we tend to spend a lot of time here fussing about doing 10 reps of this vs. 8 reps of that, or eating eating different stuff or otherwise making small lifestyle changes - and that's perfectly okay most of the time, but I'm proud that you're really pushing out of your comfort zone with a load of expansive work... into what I'm sure will soon be a new expanded comfort zone.

 

Keep it up and don't worry about whether you're posting here enough - I really like hearing about your adventures and work but obviously that shouldn't be your primary focus right now

[Emerald_Dragonfly]

Thanks guys! You're the bestest. 

I just feel like a total douch, because things are actually going really well, i should be very happy! It's just that the anxiety is eating me alive and i'm hardly sleeping at all. We're much more actively promoting the gym the last couple of months, (and it's really working!!)

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I'm sure it'll all be worth it at some point! Or I stop hating it this much! 

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I just.. I wish I thought I was awesome too :/ :X 

You should feel however you feel.  It's okay.  Anxiety for something new and stressful where you put yourself OUT THERE is totally understandable.  The fact that it's really working is outstanding, but of course brings with it a whole new level of "what the what!!!". 

 

It will absolutely be worth it.  You have SO MUCH to offer the world.  Keep at it - think of your audience as nerds who just haven't found NF, yet. 

 

awe-inspiring, formidable, inspiring, stunning, phenomenal, whiz-bang, amazing.  Yup, you're awesome.  And we believe in you!!!

 

Remember how posting videos on NF desensitized you to it? Well I'm sure the same effect will happen when creating material for a wider audience I know the feeling... you want it to be 100% perfect because you can imagine all of the potential criticisms...

 

Really glad that everything has been moving forward for you - we tend to spend a lot of time here fussing about doing 10 reps of this vs. 8 reps of that, or eating eating different stuff or otherwise making small lifestyle changes - and that's perfectly okay most of the time, but I'm proud that you're really pushing out of your comfort zone with a load of expansive work... into what I'm sure will soon be a new expanded comfort zone.

 

Keep it up and don't worry about whether you're posting here enough - I really like hearing about your adventures and work but obviously that shouldn't be your primary focus right now

I second pretty much everything that SymphonicDan said.  Especially the parts that I bolded. 

[Elastigirl]

So impressed that despite your anxiety, you are reaching out of your comfort zone in order to reach your goals. Sometimes leveling up is just really tough. Go ahead and share your struggles with us, we love you and will always think you are amazing.

[Lilith]

Well I understand that the rest of the world is not as awesome as NF  

 

But people react well to positivity, and you are a positive person and it shines through even in your videos! I think that it's a good call to make an instagram account, you indeed need to be recognized. At the same time I would also have the same thing you do, I wouldn't dare doing it. But look at how strong that makes you! You did it and sure it's scary but you'll desensitize too! And you don't have to post EVERYTHING to instagram, and you also don't have to post every day. You need to do regular updates to get followers, but if that means every other day, or once a week, that doesn't matter per se as long as you follow at least a certain rhythm so the blog doesn't go without content for too long. <3

[Nymeria]

 

Don't know if anyone remembers, but one of my first challenges I vowed to post as much video as possible to sort of desensitise myself to it, y'know? And that worked, I don't bat an eye when I post something on NF.. but ehm... the rest of the world is not NF

The practice has been good, I just made an instagram post and kind of pretended I was posting something here. But yea, my brain is not 100% fooled. 

 

I'm sure it'll all be worth it at some point! Or I stop hating it this much! 

 

I'm right there with you.  I can easily post stuff on NF, but everything I post on youtube is unlisted.  The thought of random people seeing my stuff kind of scares me.  

 

That being said, keep in mind that you're much more critical of yourself than other people are going to be.  And the fact that you're self critical means that you're open to learning and evolving in the way that someone who is arrogant wouldn't be able to do.  Your gym is moving forward and everything is going wonderfully.  It might feel weird to you, because you're not used to putting yourself out there, but it will eventually all feel natural.  

[raptron]

I was thrilled to see you started an IG and were posting videos. I think it'll be great for your visibility both externally and for us NF creepers who follow you.

[Terah]

Good to hear you are doing well and doing awesome things

Don't forget to breath once in a while. Something I learned here in NF is 'introvert pampering night'. It's a night for just you where you do things that make you feel good. Like taking bubble bath, taking a hair or face mask, doing your nails etc. Maybe you could try it some time?

[The Most Loathed]

If only Can you also handle the insecure wallowing whininess? x)

If I couldn't I would have had to jump off a bridge ages ago. What do you think goes on in my head too.

[karinajean]

oh hi, I just wanted to say: come here ALWAYS when you are feeling anxious and blue. because we love you. <3

[SymphonicDan]

You were hard to find after the forums changed... but I've got you  Hope everything's going well!

[Emerald_Dragonfly]

Darn learning curve with forum shift.  Finally found you!

 

Sending you fluffy positive thoughts and hugs.

[obax]

Just stopping in to see how things are going. I hope all is well! How's spring in the Netherlands?

[Nymeria]

Are you okay?  You haven't been around lately, so I just wanted to check in and see how you're doing.  We all miss you!  

[KB Girl]

On 11 March 2016 at 4:12 PM, raptron said:

I was thrilled to see you started an IG and were posting videos. I think it'll be great for your visibility both externally and for us NF creepers who follow you.

IG has been fun! it's less "omgomg" than posting stuff on Facebook. And I enjoy the stalking of other NFers too

On 29 March 2016 at 2:23 AM, obax said:

Just stopping in to see how things are going. I hope all is well! How's spring in the Netherlands?

Jep! All is well, just had a new science project to take care of and life has been busy. Good tho! Weather, not so good, lets not talk about that

On 18 April 2016 at 3:32 PM, Nymeria said:

Are you okay?  You haven't been around lately, so I just wanted to check in and see how you're doing.  We all miss you!  

Yes sorry! I should have left a message! Life got turned a bit upside down at the start of this year, so I've just been.. not very goal-oriented at all And then the whole change to 4 week challenges got a bit much for me. But I miss you guys too and things have calmed down a bit.. sooo.. maybe?

[Sam Ashen]

OMG!  Welcome back!

[raptron]

<3 <3 <3 

[LouCarJo]

2 hours ago, KB Girl said:

IG has been fun! it's less "omgomg" than posting stuff on Facebook. And I enjoy the stalking of other NFers too

Jep! All is well, just had a new science project to take care of and life has been busy. Good tho! Weather, not so good, lets not talk about that

Yes sorry! I should have left a message! Life got turned a bit upside down at the start of this year, so I've just been.. not very goal-oriented at all And then the whole change to 4 week challenges got a bit much for me. But I miss you guys too and things have calmed down a bit.. sooo.. maybe?

Even though I haven't commented here before, I'm glad to see you back also - I checked out KB sport stuff thanks to you, and have been going through your old threads for tips!

[Elastigirl]

Yay, KB Girl is in the house!!!

[Mad Hatter]

Woooo welcome back!  

[karinajean]

yay hello!

[KB Girl]

8 hours ago, Sam Ashen said:

OMG!  Welcome back!

 

7 hours ago, raptron said:

<3 <3 <3 

 

5 hours ago, Elastigirl said:

Yay, KB Girl is in the house!!!

 

3 hours ago, Mad Hatter said:

Woooo welcome back!  

 

6 minutes ago, karinajean said:

yay hello!

Gee thanks guys! I suppose I'll consider myself officially 'back' then I'll just hang out here and catch up a bit with everyone and then join the next challenge. 

6 hours ago, LouCarJo said:

Even though I haven't commented here before, I'm glad to see you back also - I checked out KB sport stuff thanks to you, and have been going through your old threads for tips!

That's incredibly cool to hear Lou! How is it going with the sport stuff? 

[SymphonicDan]

Ah, so good to see you back - I feared we'd seen the last of you

 

Last thing I remember, you were rearranging your career and your home - hope all of that went well  how are things now? What are you working on next (fitness/professional/otherwise)

[KB Girl]

An update then! 

 

My last post was somewhere around march, so I was in full prep for the european championships at that point. Poland was really cool and we(=my team) actually won two medals (one silver and one bronze) both in the masters division. I ended up not participating because I couldn't make my weight class... because in april I found out that I am pregnant! It wasn't entirely planned, we were still talking "maybe, in a year or two" but she is very very welcome. I still participated in our nationals at 4 months pregnant, and managed to snag a bronze medal. Even better, my team got all the available gold medals, clean sweep

 

The gym is doing well, group classes haven't grown a lot but we have a lot more personal training clients. We also do a lot of planning/programming for people all over the Netherlands and for other gyms, which I find a very satisfying thing to do. This morning I finished and launched a kettlebell sport program called "couch to 5 minutes", just a PDF with 12 weeks worth of training plans and instructional videos to go with it. Heavily inspired by GMB programs. It was a huuuuuge project and something I'd been thinking about for years now, so very cool to have that finished. Definitely want to do more of those and maybe eventually translate some of it to english. 

 

So yea, huge project done, so there should be some extra time left for NF That is, if I don't sleep it all away. Baby making is apparently very tiring work. 

 

I still lift kettlebells though, no worries. This is from yesterday:

 

[Sloth the Enduring]

Congratulations! It's nice to see you back.

[SymphonicDan]

Ahah congrats!  You have been really busy then. The "Couch to 5 min" program is a really cool idea, and I can imagine it getting a lot of traction... I just Googled it and found nothing but hopefully you'll get some traction in the coming weeks

 

And baby-building is going to be tiring work... it's equivalent growing a lot of muscle while repairing several broken bones and carrying around a huge jug of water all the time I guess!