tourennatrix Posted March 29, 2016 Report Share Posted March 29, 2016 Background: I’ve been here on NF for almost a year (woah!). I started the Challenges as a method of trying to get myself to stick to a plan. In doing that, I’ve learned a lot- my initial goal of “Not becoming a sore lump of an old person” turned into thoughts of “Hey this is kind of fun” and “Woah, normal people can do neat things like circus arts and gymnastics?” and “Wait, I can learn to do a handstand?!” And eventually led to learning about Capoeira. I’ve been practicing a little over 6 months and I am in love with the sport. I practice in the Angola style with a local group, which at the moment consists primarily of me, one advanced student (Astronaut) and the instructor (Girafa). In the last few months, I have been struggling pretty hard with keeping myself active through waves and short cycles of depression and anxiety. I have been seeing a therapist, “C,” for a little over a year; I talk fairly openly about my experience and am often ready to lend an ear when others are having struggles. I know my experience is very mild compared to others, and I am NOT a doctor, but I am willing to share little nuggets of wisdom I’ve learned on my own journey. Now that that’s out of the way, New Challenge Time! So, as we know, I’ve (still) been struggling with some depression-related stuff lately. My last challenge was all about making sure I did at least something every day, whether it was solo capoeira practice or pull ups or reading a book or practicing some breathing exercises to get grounded and not succumb to a panic attack. This method was great at making sure I felt at least a little accomplished each day. On my rough days, I considered doing this again, but then I felt like it’s “not enough” - it’s very much reactive or just a method of not letting me slide backwards too much on my goals. On my good days, I considered switching back to a laser focus method and starting to hold myself accountable again… but then I cycle through the thoughts of how bad it will feel when I inevitably don’t do as well as I think I should. Depression is a liar and a bitch. So I’ve come up with a baby step up from my previous challenge: The Short List There are two lists: Mental/Emotional and Physical. Each day, I am to complete at least 1 category/item from each list. Each day, each list is pass/fail. Since I know that doing dailies is pretty darn hard to maintain (particularly on the Physical side), I will consider an 80% success rate pretty darn good. Since it’s entirely likely that all that is too easy (please let it be too easy, oh please let it be too easy!), I’m implementing a few bonuses. Stuff that I can feel extra good about accomplishing, but not beat myself up over if I don’t quite make it. I haven’t quite figured out what the bonus points will be for, but I will probably figure that out when we figure out how much our tax refund will be on Tuesday :3 it will probably have something to do with how much I get to spend on shinies now versus plugging away into savings or debts. WILL UPDATE WHEN I FIGURE OUT THIS DETAIL! To be clear: the only part that matters as far as completing the challenge is concerned is doing ONE item from each list each day at an 80% success rate. The Bonus Points are just that: Bonuses. Let's go! 5 Quote Link to comment
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