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You know that feeling when you take on one thing, and then another, and maybe just one more, and then before you know it there are a million things crashing down on you to the point where you can't tell where one begins and one ends? Now, I like a good rainstorm as much as the next felllloh, but there's only so long I can sit in the downpour and get drenched by all the stuff. Time to simplify. 

 

1. Re-feed. Hit 1500cal for at least 2 weeks, see how that works out. Ignore scale, maybe don't even use it if I can manage. Talk about it when I need to.

2. Train as per. Follow PHUL, don't deviate. Wait until body is leveled out energy-wise before bringing back add ons like intense cardio circuits.

3. Get your life together. Search for a new job. Don't spend all day on IRC. 

 

Items of importance:

 

~ Take some time to heal myself. Yes, be there for my friends, but don't give too much emotional energy to those that don't reciprocate.

~ Be able to walk away from social situations when I need to focus on life stuff.

~ Remember that I'm worth more than my crappy job, that I am qualified and deserve better. Say it repeatedly till I believe it. Be active about making the changes I want and need. 

 

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Happy zero week everyone!!! ZERO WEEK!

 

Going to be taking this week to slow down and get some focus hapenning. This challenge is going to be dealing with some big heavy life stuff that I have to deal with, and the fact that I'm completetly scatter brained these days. Time to focus up and regain some self love while lifting all the heavy stuff. 

 

Zero Week goals are simple:

 

1. Continue to research re-feeding options. Eat accordingly. Be okay talking about it, lean on friends for once. 

2. Stick to my program, no additions except light walking. try to limit each session to 1 hour if possible.

3. Focus on simplicity and priorities while considering goals for the upcoming month.

 

Bonus: Make a mini duffel for the gym

 

This will be a point free, all about de-stressing week :D ZERO WEEK!!! Alright zero week, lets do this. Positive and strong!! Good things are coming. ZERO WEEK!

 

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3 minutes ago, Emerald_Dragonfly said:

Happy Zero Week, RedStone!  If I had a zero week shirt, I would definitely be wearing it! :-)

 

I'll bring stencils and spray dye to pseudo camp lol we can make all the zero week swag we want!!!

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15 hours ago, Emerald_Dragonfly said:

Happy Zero Week, RedStone!  If I had a zero week shirt, I would definitely be wearing it! :-)

 

15 hours ago, ~RedStone~ said:

 

I'll bring stencils and spray dye to pseudo camp lol we can make all the zero week swag we want!!!

 

There is always jumbo sized permanent marker and a $1 thrift store shirt.....

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2 hours ago, Taddea Zhaan said:

 

 

There is always jumbo sized permanent marker and a $1 thrift store shirt.....

 

YAAESSSSSS :D 

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2 hours ago, CourtnieMarie said:

seriously with ya with scattered brain and trying to regain focus. you got this!

 

Yes! Focus for the wi... oh look! A flying squirrel!

 

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Went and did the stuff. Bench day, maxing for reps at 80# and PRd bent rows at 75# for reps. Bunch of accessories after, still going up in weights, not gonna log the details today, but what's important is that I got in and out in 90 minutes total, including pre and post stretching, mobility, and just the one core add on I'm allowed. Since I'm still watching form videos and stuff between sets I think I'm headed in the right direction time-wise.

 

So this is the point in my posts where I normally gloss over the major stuff, both the wins and losses. But I'm trying to reach out here, let myself be helped, and maybe it would be best for me to have an outlet. I also think it's important to be able to talk about stuff like this when we need to... So here it is in a nutshell, the good and bad:

 

1. Didn't want to eat today. Made myself anyway, did an okay job at it, but afraid to track and see my failure. Will probably drink later.

2. Bummed in the gym. Did the stuff and worked hard and concentrated, possibly more than usual. Still sad to be there.

3. Almost cried in the grocery store over oatmeal. Didn't. Bought the kind I like even tho it has extra sugar, because Spike told me to be nice to myself and enjoy breakfast for once.

4. Made a new friend named Spike! Carried him around all day like a damn security blanket. Talked to him, don't imagine stopping anytime soon. (He sits on my lap when I drive and comforts me.)

5. Got a part in that play I auditioned for. (Crap, now I have to actually do it!)

6. End of the day here and I'm feeling pretty decent, energy-wise. I'm not super wiped and wanting a nap like I usually do this time of day, thinking that's a good thing.

 

And of course, here's SPIKE! My service rhino, trying to tell me uncomfortable truths:

 

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Proud of you for sharing.  Proud of you for eating when you didn't want to.  Proud of you for getting the part.  Proud of you for training hard.  Proud of you!

 

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You could be secretly hugged by a rhino all the time with this:

http://dotoly.storenvy.com/products/1489786-3d-rhinoceros-rhino-animal-hug-wrap-ring-in-silver-sizes-5-to-10

 

Keep at it, you are amazing.  

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My friend has a service chihuahua for basically the same reasons that you have a service rhino, except she has to you know feed hers and stuff. But that's an idea. 

 

Also, it's totally okay to cry at the grocery store. And I've totally cried while on the elliptical. Just don't cry while you are on one of those yes-no machines... 

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10 hours ago, Emerald_Dragonfly said:

 

You could be secretly hugged by a rhino all the time with this:

http://dotoly.storenvy.com/products/1489786-3d-rhinoceros-rhino-animal-hug-wrap-ring-in-silver-sizes-5-to-10

 

Keep at it, you are amazing.  

 

9 hours ago, NatetheStrong said:

Listen to Spike. He'll lead you right. You've got this!

 

 

55 minutes ago, Taddea Zhaan said:

My friend has a service chihuahua for basically the same reasons that you have a service rhino, except she has to you know feed hers and stuff. But that's an idea. 

 

Also, it's totally okay to cry at the grocery store. And I've totally cried while on the elliptical. Just don't cry while you are on one of those yes-no machines... 

 

This was all really uplifting and admittedly a little odd to wake up to, in the best way of course! I'm kind of the suffer in silence type but that hasn't exactly gotten me to the best places in life, so hopefully I can be graceful about admitting when I need help and gracious about accepting it... 

 

Having a stuffed service animal isn't exactly new to me, I carried a pufalump named CorkWarden throughout most of high school (ho boy, the school counselor had a mouthful for my parents about that) and I remember getting a froggy beanie baby to snuggle at Dullus airport when I was 17 or so and got stuck at the airport overnight with a migraine. I know, I'm a 36 year old adult woman carrying around a stuffed rhino. Wanna fight about it? ;) lol. Here's CorkWarden circa 1996-ish with a very disgruntled looking RedStone:

 

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Present day RedStone is currently eating the damn oatmeal, and while it's not exactly a trip to the Wizarding World of Harry Potter (eat your heart out Disney), the apple cinnamoness is frankly quite pleasant. Exercising enormous faith and patience in this process is probably what it's gonna take to get through the day to day.

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Looks like I have a small addendum! And I'm all for it.

 

@Flex Luthor challenged me to do 22 push-ups for 22 days to raise awareness for the 22 U.S. Soldiers that, on average, commit suicide each day.

While donating money is not part of the challenge, checkout these charities if you feel inclined to further support our veterans: 22kill.com,stop22.org,qwerty battledawgs.org

 

Day 1 I challenge @Emerald_Dragonfly

 

‪#‎22pushups‬ for ‪#‎22kill‬ push up challenge to raise awareness for the 22 U.S. soldiers that, on average, commit suicide each day.

Here's how it works. Complete 22 push ups each day for 22 days and post your progress. Form doesn't matter. Time doesn't matter. Let's spread awareness to put an end to this tragedy. 1 is too many. 

 

Challenge a new person to do this every day you do it.

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54 minutes ago, ~RedStone~ said:

Looks I have a small addendum! And I'm all for it.

 

@Flex Luthor challenged me to do 22 push-ups for 22 days to raise awareness for the 22 U.S. Soldiers that, on average, commit suicide each day.

While donating money is not part of the challenge, checkout these charities if you feel inclined to further support our veterans: 22kill.com,stop22.org,qwerty battledawgs.org

 

Day 1 I challenge @Emerald_Dragonfly

 

‪#‎22pushups‬ for ‪#‎22kill‬ push up challenge to raise awareness for the 22 U.S. soldiers that, on average, commit suicide each day.

Here's how it works. Complete 22 push ups each day for 22 days and post your progress. Form doesn't matter. Time doesn't matter. Let's spread awareness to put an end to this tragedy. 1 is too many. 

 

Challenge a new person to do this every day you do it.

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I will give 22 floor push ups on palms and toes my very best go, but the last few may need to be inclined on a stair (my amrap was 20 when I was consistently training them as an assassin). 

Either way, I am in. 

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I'm sorry but out of all of this I come away with flared Jean with flowers and Birkenstocks!!! Are you sure you weren't born in my era? Which makes it so much easier to get away with crying almost anywhere for no reason other than a good cry makes everything ok :)

 

Loving this push up Challenge. Awesome you guys!

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15 hours ago, SevenofSeven said:

I'm sorry but out of all of this I come away with flared Jean with flowers and Birkenstocks!!! Are you sure you weren't born in my era? Which makes it so much easier to get away with crying almost anywhere for no reason other than a good cry makes everything ok :)

 

Loving this push up Challenge. Awesome you guys!

 

LMAO you're totally right, 70s salvation army thrifting was a big part of grunge in NYC 90s though I will take full credit for that particular embroidery... :D 

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So there's something kind of magical about writing down your terrible thoughts and putting them out into the world. Yesterday was a bit better than Tuesday, and today I think is going to be even better than yesterday. Still no appetite, but I'm guessing that's going to take some time. Instead I'm trying for a kind of a resignation at meal times rather than a full on panic. I'm considering setting up alerts in my phone for when it's snack times etc, just to keep things regular and consistent, slog through and just get it done.

 

The scale is trending up which is upsetting, and the tape measure is trending up as well, but I need to keep perspective. In March before I started lifting I was at 33.5" at 108#. At my top now I'm 32" at 110#, usually more like 31.25"-31.5" Patience and faith in my body, everyday. Consistency. Say it till you believe it.

 

Okay, business as usual. Yesterday's workout took longer than I'd hoped, lower power, and squats and DLs took almost an hour by themselves. Good strong lifts though, and I haven't been feeling fatigued in my waking life like usual, so that's kind of awesome I think! 

 

Squat

10/45#     5/95#     5/115#     4X5/145#

 

Deadlift

5/115#   5/135#   5/145#     4X5/165#

 

Leg Press

15/137#   3X15/147#

 

Leg Curl

2X10/40#   9/40#   10/40#

 

Smith Calf Raise

4X10/90#

 

Total tho was 2 hours, including 2 social breaks at about 10 minutes a piece. Add in stretching and pushup challenge for something around 2 hours 20 mins. I'm trying to pay more attention to recovery breaks but for the most part I don't wait more than 5 mins between tougher sets. What the junk could possibly be taking me so long? I wish you guys could come hang with me and tell me wha I'm doing wrong :P 

 

Meanwhile, I'm gonna go ahead and challenge @SevenofSeven for my day 2 of the pushup challenge (since you like the challenge, here you go!!) And I'm going to spend rest day working on my mini duffel with Spike (I think he should have a pocket just for him...) and maybe take a gentle walk into to town for errands if the weather holds out. 

 

Here's yesterday's pushup video, (I won't be recording every day), but I'm told I'm not going low enough? Something to work on, probably going to have to break it into shorter sets if I'm going slower for form and deeper... :P

 

 

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11 minutes ago, ~RedStone~ said:

Meanwhile, I'm gonna go ahead and challenge @SevenofSeven for my day 2 of the pushup challenge (since you like the challenge, here you go!!) And I'm going to spend rest day working on my mini duffel with Spike (I think he should have a pocket just for him...) and maybe take a gentle walk into to town for errands if the weather holds out. 

 

Here's yesterday's pushup video, (I won't be recording every day), but I'm told I'm not going low enough? Something to work on, probably going to have to break it into shorter sets if I'm going slower for form and deeper... :P

 

 

LOL, why thank you, will start my push ups tomorrow! :)

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I may just be weird, (I'm probably weird) but lifting weights actually made my stomach shape change. So even though I weigh the same, my shirts are smaller, my bra size is smaller, my other measurements are appropriate - my waist measurement increased slightly. All that bracing and abdominal work made my fat distribution in my stomach shift. 

 

Also, it took me an hour the other day to do just bench press, deadlifts, and curls. So you are not abnormal. I rest the most between deadlifts sets, so any session with those tends to take me forever. 

 

I'm proud if you for reminding yourself to eat and working on an issue that you know is hard for you, rather than trying to avoid it. You are one strong chica. 

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10 hours ago, Taddea Zhaan said:

I may just be weird, (I'm probably weird) but lifting weights actually made my stomach shape change. So even though I weigh the same, my shirts are smaller, my bra size is smaller, my other measurements are appropriate - my waist measurement increased slightly. All that bracing and abdominal work made my fat distribution in my stomach shift. 

 

Also, it took me an hour the other day to do just bench press, deadlifts, and curls. So you are not abnormal. I rest the most between deadlifts sets, so any session with those tends to take me forever. 

 

I'm proud if you for reminding yourself to eat and working on an issue that you know is hard for you, rather than trying to avoid it. You are one strong chica. 

 

Yeah, I really need to give my body an opportunity to adapt. I trust the program I'm doing now, and I know I need to get that maintenance number up if I want to be able to do all the stuff I was doing and am starting to miss... so suck it up cupcake! And it's good hear I'm not the only one that takes so long, I was really trying to pay attention and make sure I wasn't resting too much... but also not jump back in before I was ready.

 

Thank you for that, for all of it. I'm kind of at a loss here, the support and everything for something I haven't talked about out loud for so long... it's kind of overwhelming, I'm usually not at a loss for words. But I do like pictures, so I offer you an uncomfortable win! BLAMO!!!

 

(uncomfortable because sooooo full :abnormal:)

 

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I also worked on my mini duffel and found a DIY for liquid chalk. I'm gonna go ahead and let this be a good day.

 

 

 

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43 minutes ago, ~RedStone~ said:

 

Yeah, I really need to give my body an opportunity to adapt. I trust the program I'm doing now, and I know I need to get that maintenance number up if I want to be able to do all the stuff I was doing and am starting to miss... so suck it up cupcake! And it's good hear I'm not the only one that takes so long, I was really trying to pay attention and make sure I wasn't resting too much... but also not jump back in before I was ready.

 

Thank you for that, for all of it. I'm kind of at a loss here, the support and everything for something I haven't talked about out loud for so long... it's kind of overwhelming, I'm usually not at a loss for words. But I do like pictures, so I offer you an uncomfortable win! BLAMO!!!

 

(uncomfortable because sooooo full :abnormal:)

 

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I also worked on my mini duffel and found a DIY for liquid chalk. I'm gonna go ahead and let this be a good day.

 

 

 

Yay for a good day! Also from earlier I like to have lil toys in my pocket(I had a tiny kiwi bird for a couple ms) so dnt think ur out of line :) also awesome job on those lifts

 

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