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Bullet Points:

-I am officially 30 (and a couple days) but someone said something about a "bone doctor" today and I snickered, so I fully admit age can be a very relative construct in some cases.

-I officially told my job about moving to Colorado.  They were surprisingly supportive and happy for me and appreciative of my work here.  No timeline is set, I told them that I'm flexible and willing to extend my notice quite a bit and that I don't have anything lined up yet in CO, that I still intend on leaving the position in good shape despite being horrendously in the weeds on a lot of projects right now and they were really warm about it all.  I mentioned that I'd love to be remote too and they said there wasn't a precedent for that in my position but they'd look into it, which is more than the flat NO I expected.  All told everything is as much up in the air as it ever was, but I'm feeling a lot better about having it out in the open and I think that aspect makes all possibilities more workable, so I'm happy.

-My birthday was good.  I actually told my job about stuff on my birthday, so that was an interesting day.  Then I went and treated myself to some shopping.  I bought prenatal vitamins and a neurobiology text book, so if your birthday is any summation of where your life is, I don't know what to tell you.  Some people surprised me for dinner, so that was nice of them, since I hadn't bothered making plans with anyone, and then I spent the evening calling/texting/social media-ing people back that'd wished me a happy birthday.  All told I'm quite pleased with myself in this regard as usually having to return a bunch of phone calls and Facebook messages makes me really overwhelmed and anxious and I end up avoiding doing it for like a week and then I get more anxious and finally respond and feel like an asshole for taking so long.  So yeah, I feel like a functioning adult, sort of.

-I'm newly in ketosis (I think? I haven't gotten any ketostix to check yet) and it's going pretty well.  My reasoning was mostly that I wanted a stricter eating parameter because I've had a lot of trouble with consistency and even when I manage to track and keep calories on the level, some days I still end up with a lot of sugar, some days not, and I think it's all just contributing to a lot of headaches, not feeling well, and overall difficulty staying on routine.  I've felt a little better so hopefully this helps.  If nothing else, I hope it keeps me more consistent because I don't want to have to get back into ketosis.  It hasn't been easy during a birthday week but not nearly as hard as I expected.  It's restrictive enough to keep me overthinking about it.

-Challenge stuff to be updated.

 

(5/18 edit)

Challenge Stuff Update!

I dedicate this challenge to Sleep, that elusive seductress.  My methods remain pretty consistent, but I am going to try to approach them with intent towards sleeping better, sleeping more, and being more restful.

 

-Keto- continue to track food and keep carbs low.  The aim is 20-25 net carbs a day.  I actually feel much better on VLC, I think keeping tight reins works better for me.  And I definitely feel very awake and lucid with bulletproof coffee so onwards on this front.

 

-Drink all the water- Aim is 100 oz a day.  Partly because keto demands it, but it definitely feels better and if I chug water right before bed it's good insurance that I'll be out of bed first thing in the morning.

 

-Work hard, play hard, sleep hard- Aim is some activity daily.  Still an inconsistent one for me, and it being 100+ F at night doesn't help, but I envy my dog that sprints her heart out and then conks out for a nap and is off running in her dreams, all within a span of 20 minutes.  Exercise helps me sleep.  I need help sleeping.

 

-The little extras- multivitamin and omega 3s nightly, figure out a better study schedule for German, continue to chip away at projects at work and get to Colorado.

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Mekong, level 11 Cherek Adventurer STR 37|DEX 27|STA 35|CON 32|WIS 35|CHA 27

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On 7/14/2016 at 5:00 PM, Mekong said:

return a bunch of phone calls and Facebook messages makes me really overwhelmed and anxious and I end up avoiding doing it for like a week and then I get more anxious and finally respond and feel like an asshole for taking so long.  So yeah, I feel like a functioning adult, sort of.

 

...Oh that's me in a nutshell.

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Weekend was really great.  I knew it was going to be a social weekend and I was afraid it was going to burn me out and I'd feel like I didn't have any downtime and I'd come crashing into Monday without laundry/groceries done, but I actually managed to be incredibly balanced somehow.

Friday I didn't really plan food at work very well so I ended up going to a grocery store and got a tray of prosciutto and cheese, then some random snacks to keep in the office for the future.  I met a friend for dinner and she chose a southern restaurant known for fried chicken so I wasn't sure what I was getting into, but they had some decent options.  I ended up having an antipasto salad with greens, cured meats and cheeses, and olive tapenade and added smoked chicken to it.  Very decent.  We decided to go to a movie after dinner, and during dinner I'd mentioned a French grocery store I just found out about that was close by.  Friend was very intrigued so we went over there first and enjoyed The Infiltrator with a smuggled bag of pastries for her and foie gras and crème brulee for moi.  I highly recommend this for all your future film viewing experiences.

Saturday breakfast was Andouille sausage, pepper jack, broccoli, and bullet proof coffee.  Managed to do laundry before meeting some friends.  Actually, had to do laundry to meet some friends, and ended up skipping The Secret Life of Pets because I didn't even have clothes in the dryer by the time it started.  No worries though, my friend's little brother came along and gave me a play by play of the entire movie later that day.  Shopped between playing Pokémon Go, dropped little bro off, had long conversation over dinner (octopus sashimi).

Sunday was more bulletproof coffee and string cheese for breakfast, then went to work for a couple hours to put some stuff in order that require more uninterrupted concentration than I get during the week.  Man, it feels so much better to be able to tell myself I just need to do X tasks and then leave.  Stayed for about 3 hours, then did grocery shopping on the way home and went to a friend's house for dinner.  Mostly caught up with them- never really finished a conversation from start to finish because they have a toddler and I'm easily distracted, but we got the basics out.  Grilled Greek chicken, asparagus, zucchini, mushrooms, and onion with feta and lemon juice sprinkled over everything with some dark chocolate afterwards.

Today is more sausage, broccoli, pepper jack, and cold brew coffee with cream.  Hopefully the coffee kicks in while I walk into a meeting now.

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Work has been stressful and I feel like sleep is even more out of whack than normally, but perhaps I'm just now being mindful of how poorly I sleep.  Not enough sleep Monday night, exhausted, stressed out, and way to busy at work yesterday, which lead to me going home and not doing anything but going to bed, but then I couldn't sleep so I got up at 3am and decided to just go to work and knock stuff out, came home this afternoon and immediately went to sleep, then work up at 8pm feeling like I could roll over and sleep until 2am and really ruin my schedule or get up now for a couple hours and get back to some sort of normalcy.  So, here I am, and I'm actually glad I made this choice.  All week I've been sacrificing doing anything else to allow myself to focus on sleep, and I think it's just hurt me.  No food, no exercise, just digging myself a bigger hole.  So I had some chicken for tonight, bringing my day up to something like 1100 kCal, but now at least I have something for tomorrow also.  And I cleaned up in the kitchen and did some tiny tasks I've been meaning to do while the chicken cooked so all in all in a better place than I was a few hours ago.

Random stuff-

Scale appears to be moving again, though I may just be dehydrated.  We'll see.

I bought some frozen omelets "just in case" a few weeks ago and promptly forgot about them, but miraculously saw them this morning so that saved me a bit.

I bought some Quest bars for an emergency stash in my office and they're already gone so boo.

A little bit of carb creep this week, mostly because I haven't cooked and thus haven't had many veggies either.  I'll need to work on that going forward.

I think my multivitamin is messing me up at night so I'm switching to the morning.

I'm boring.

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Old drama settled, I got special permission from my director to pick an end date far in advance and will be able to work remotely from CO until then.  So my end date will be January 2017 and I'll move up probably by the end of August.  My laptop is ordered so I'm waiting for that to get here, and my direct boss is out of the country for another week so I'd wait to talk to her and hash out some details, and then I want to time the move up there so I'm not up against a project deadline trying to set up my space and dealing with any IT issues.  Besides that, my manager asked me how much time I'd need to get ready to leave and I told him I could get my stuff in the car and be on the road that evening.  I think he was surprised because I haven't talked a lot about the incremental packing and moving stuff up there I've already done, but hey.  So, the two big things I'm working on right now are finished up on August 8th and 24th.  Ideally I'd head up next week or so and be settled in CO by the weekend of the 20th.  Otherwise, I probably won't leave until after the 24th.  Either way, I'm thinking a month countdown for AZ is in order.  I'm really, really pleased.  It's really unprecedented that I'm getting to work remotely at all because of the type of data I deal with, and given that my top 2 options were 1) Let me work remotely pretty please and 2) I guess I can give you guys a long notice and stay a few months, I feel like they definitely met me more than halfway.  And frankly, even if they somehow let me work remotely indefinitely, the job is going to have an expiration date.  I'd presumably have the same salary in an area with a high cost of living and I don't see any options for advancement with the arrangement.  So this is boring for everyone but me.  Sorry, I'm excited. Which all brings me to...

New drama #1- a coworker who I like very much found out about the remote thing and is really pissed off.  Rationally she's pissed off at management. Emotionally, she still seems pissed off at me.  It's making me sad.

New drama #2- Warning, this is a rant that no one cares about but me, feel free to skip.  I told the husband about this and all he had to say was to express disappointment that they weren't letting me work indefinitely.  Which I told him pretty much wasn't an option at all given the agreements between some of my bigger clients and my company, and I talked to him for a long time about what I intended to give as my various options to my company to make sure he was on board with them and he said he was, but now it feels like he wasn't listening at all and making me feel like I'm the one that didn't do a good job negotiating this or something.  He's just sucking the joy out of this and every other thing.  He's constantly complaining about the new job and everything else and can't stand listening to it anymore.  Every time he asks how my day is I don't want to tell him because it just feels like he's not actually listening and he's just waiting so I'll reciprocate and ask about his day and then he can whine incessantly about very normal complaints for anyone with a job that I just can't garner sympathy for right now.  I want to- I want to be in a position to think, "Wow, man, you seem miserable and since I know that you're a reasonable person with normal expectations for what a job is like, I trust that this is not a good situation for you and support you in attempts to get out of the situation and find something better."  But he didn't like his last position.  And if he gets the promotion that his boss says he's in a position for in a year or two, making as much as our entire mortgage was, he's not going to like that either.  I don't want to say he doesn't have a work ethic- he's worked consistently at the same job pretty much since we met- but I don't understand what seems like a completely unwillingness to accept that you're going to be working for the next 30-40 years and to make the best of it.

On top of all this, I know he's been pretty much living on ramen and mac and cheese since he went up there, which irritates me 1) on a selfish level that it'll be harder to eat healthy around him or I'll end up being responsible for all the cooking, which, just no, 2) because I thought we had similar goals and apparently we don't, or if we do he just doesn't try at all to do the adult thing even if it's harder and I can't understand that at all right now.

And finally, I already dread the terrible sleep I'm going to get next to a snorer.  I have learned in the last couple months that I get terrible sleep either way so a lot of this is my deal and not his. Still, I don't look forward to the extra hurdle.

 

But all that be damned, I'm looking forward to CO and seeing the husband, who really is an enjoyable human being despite the last thousand words, and my dog who is also an enjoyable human being as far as I'm concerned.

 

My sleep has been bad.  I need to start making opposite goals or goals I don't care about for these challenges because it seems like whatever my focus is, is immediately thrown into chaos and failure while everything else is pretty manageable.

 

Activity has been pretty on point as I try to incubate eggs.  Eating well has been on point.  I actually feel quite relieved to feel like eating well is on auto-pilot at the moment.  I don't have any cravings for things I shouldn't eat, tracking has been decent without it being difficult to stay within macros or calorie ranges.  The scale has moved down.  I don't feel hungry. I don't feel like this is particularly unsustainable.  I just feel good.

 

Sorry if you read this boring dreck.

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Life is okay, it turns out another coworker is in a similar situation as me and has also been granted temporary remote status, so (correlation but causation not substantiated) any bad feels from friend coworker have dissipated.  Had better conversations with the husband and he's being less like Hamlet and more like Prince Hal so bad feels from me have also dissipated.

Activity has been decent due to social stuff and the unending drive to catch them all (and the fact that there's a Pokestop in my office building helps, especially as it requires me walking to the other side of the building down four flights of stairs to be close enough to it).  Food has been decent.  The neighbors brought over a massive piece of wedding cake for my parents in law and I dutifully put it in the freezer for them to enjoy when they're back down, because I'm only kind of devoid of willpower.  Since I may be leaving soon, back to cleaning out the fridge meals.  Lots of bratwurst because they were on a good sale and I bought way too many.

Exhausted, despite not having too weird a sleep schedule this weekend.  Still not getting enough sleep. I've been in a total fog all day, just slowly eating the elephant.  I'm at a crossroads right now- I should stay later to finish up some more stuff but I'm too tired to be really effective but if I go home I'll fall asleep too early and continue to be in this dumb cycle.  I'm really excited for my boss to be back next week so we can talk about when I'll go to CO, but I really need all the time I can get to finish stuff before she's here so I can say, "See? I'm super good at finishing projects, you should have no concerns about me being remote."  Okay, a little bit more and then I leave the rest for future Mekong.  She's so great. She does everything, hypothetically.  She just doesn't always show up.

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"We are what we pretend to be, so we must be careful about what we pretend to be."

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