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They had been gathering for weeks now, making their homes at various corners and crevices of the cities. Individuals of all races dressed in bright reds and purples. Honestly, it was a bit garish at first sight. Large banners hung around their necks declaring the end of days, death to the world, and visions of green fire. It didn’t phase the adventurer. She had heard these declarations before, taken up arms, and defeated the looming threat. The victories weren’t always celebratory. Many had been solemn, but relieving. If there was something lurking, she had little doubt that it could be handled.

 

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”You are weak. The darkness will consume you. You are nothing.”

 

She knew that smell; the smell of bitter sulfur. The corruption of fel. It was not the words that jostled her awake, but that smell. All was still in the alcove she called home in the Inn. A few snores, a goblin chattering about money, and the aroma of dying embers were all that surrounded her. Were they getting to her? Had she read too many of those ridiculous pamphlets?

 

“Go back to sleep.” A timid command to herself, as though she was pushing herself to do so. Everything would be fine. Everything was fine.

 

Until it wasn’t.

 

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News of the tragedy and loss at the Broken Shores spread quickly. One would say faster than a warlock’s affliction. She felt for them. All of them. Had they witnessed what she had seen and done, she wasn’t sure if they would meet her own level of composure. On the outside, all was calm. On the inside, she was...a mess. A jumbled mess of mixed emotions; sadness, anger, rage, guilt, fear, confusion. The questions just kept coming from within, asking if she did enough, could she have done more, why didn’t they stay, and could they truly win this war that was now upon them?

 

She was pulled from her muddled and darkening mind at the sound of a scream. The scream ripped through her filled with a level of terror she had never heard in her lifetime. Another followed, this time in a different direction. Then another, and another. The faint smell of sulfur filled her nose and the too familiar sticky warmth of green fire nearly burned her skin. There was no time to react and no time to get the innocent to safety. Not before she brandished her weapon and, without a second thought, rushed into the fray.

 

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The healers and priests hadn’t slept for days. Parts of the city had been blocked by groups of worried soldiers. It was clear what had been causing the sudden outbreaks of insanity and demons. They were trying to turn everyone against each other. In the midst of the chaos, people killed their friends and allies without a second thought. It was only after the madness ended anyone realized what had happened. It had put the city on edge, which was a danger unto itself.

 

“This is the fifth time this week, old man. I’m going to start charging extra,” she said in a joking tone as she dropped the still sparking lizard tails next to the fisherman. He, like many of the older orcs, gave a gruff laugh as she did. Handing her a bag that smelled all too ripe of fish guts and sea water, she bade him farewell with wave of her hand.

 

”Give in to the darkness. Drink in the power. Let the energy consume you…”

 

She turned quickly, looking to either side of her as well, confused and alarmed. Someone had been talking - no, whispering - to her. They had been right there, hadn’t they? Had she been under the water too long earlier? Too many tiny shocks during her gathering?

 

”Consume you…”

 

Her eyesight grew blurred, and the air around her was thick and stale. The people of the city, faces she knew, seemed...different. Dark, twisted, and paranoid. Her head felt heavy, as though her mind was filled with countless weights. The weight worsened with each step she took, and soon everything seemed to swallow itself. A dark void colored the sky with green fire streaking throughout. Later she would not be able to recall the details of how and why it happened, but perhaps it was for the best.

 

She had no control over each swing of a strange weapon in her hands, no pull on the dangerous magics seeping from her. All she knew was that the relief that came over her when she fell to the ground unconscious was welcomed. She never wished to feel that way again.

 

When the adventurer came to and heard of her actions, it stung. The pain was worse than any she had felt in the past. This could not continue. She could not allow them to tear her world - her very being - apart.

 

This time her battle would not only be to bring salvation to all, but to redeem herself as well.

 

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The Legion forces threaten not only the world, but those who live within it. With both body and mind susceptible to their attacks, it is imperative to remain in good health. Perhaps you have relied too heavily on them in the past, but potions and spells are not always the answer.

 

Balanced meals, movement and activity, along with being well-rested. Though they are simple and foundational steps, everyone seasoned adventurer needs a reminder.

 

SANITY METER: 70/100

 

Quest 1: Eat a nutritional breakfast, lunch, and dinner.

 

Rylaks Claws and Miner’s Coffee aren’t going to cut it! Be sure to add an element of protein to give you a needed boost of energy to your meals. Find ways to “hide” vegetables if the siblings are in house for dinner. Make the effort to add more salads to meals. Look for easy-to-prep options for all meals! Also, take the time to make yourself said meals. You have it, so use it wisely. Make the Bronze Dragonflight proud!

 

TANK ALERT: Skipping meals is a big no-no! If you know you won’t be able to make it to an Inn in time, break a snack along for the ride or give yourself enough time to eat a bigger meal at another time. Too many meals skipped, costs you some of your sanity. (-5 sanity per skipped meal)

 

Quest 2: Move around.

 

You have a choice. You can choose to sit, or you can choose to move. Sitting doesn’t always accomplish anything. Moving accomplishes more. Do something to keep everything circulating, stretched, and ready for anything. Make it count. Heading from one room to another? Don’t just walk! Jog, dance, lunge, or skip. Check the mail! You never know when an auction will sell for a good bit of gold.

 

DPS ALERT: Going from the computer to the couch is NOT moving around. You’re just going from sitting to sitting. Sorry, but your DPS is not going to help fight the good fight! If you haven’t done ANY activity that counts, your sanity is going to dwindle. (-10 sanity for a lack of meaningful movement on any day)

 

Quest 3: Form a concrete sleep schedule & Be Good To Yourself!

 

You know that, once it’s dark outside, no one wants to roam Azshara, Tanaan, or any of those wooded areas. Especially Tirisfal. You won’t miss anything, so when you’re tired, go to sleep. Stop making yourself stay up for whatever reason. Most likely that reason will still be there in the morning. Besides, the early bird catches the worm, and I hear that’s what a few of the undead citizens like in their morning meals. Be sure to keep personal hygiene in check! You feel good when you do! Why neglect yourself of that feeling.

 

HEALER ALERT: Small, 20-minute power naps are okay! Maybe you’re just feeling groggy for whatever reason. These days and times happen. Falling into hour or more long naps? Not okay! You’re not paying attention to your body’s signals for when you’re tired and you need sleep! Keeping yourself clean also plays a huge part in this! Not only is sleep good for you, but also feeling fresh and clean wakes you up and helps you take on the world! (-5 sanity any time a nap lasts longer than 20 minutes if taken or personal hygiene lacks)

 

Bonus Quest: Get others involved!


Your life is not like group and raid finder. You have a solid party that you can gather together to help you through this. Announce when you’re going for a walk. Suggest better meal ideas. Ask for prep help. Work together and you will be victorious! (+5 sanity for any time you get a family member involved in your journey)

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Saw the Sanity Meter and had some serious Yogg Saron flashbacks~

 

I LOVE THIS SETUP AND YOUR STORY!!  You can keep yourself sane and make small awesome decisions for the good! <333333333

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i am not waiting for a hero.  i saved myself long ago.

Level 50 Bardic Time-Mage; of the Furious Heart

STR.55  DEX.43 STA.48 CON.51 WIS.53 CHA.65

"Well...in the end, it boils down to two simple choices. Either you do or you don't.

You'd think with all the problems in this world, there'd be more answers. It's not fair...
...But that's the way things are. The choice is yours."

» visit me @ my BATTLE LOG~

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10 minutes ago, shaarawy said:

Saw the Sanity Meter and had some serious Yogg Saron flashbacks~

 

I LOVE THIS SETUP AND YOUR STORY!!  You can keep yourself sane and make small awesome decisions for the good! <333333333

 

Ugh. Yogg. He still drives me crazy (literally!) to this day.

 

THANK YOU!!!! <3 <3 I had been thinking about it, and I thought it would be fun to do things via a story including things I love! I think it will give it even more of an interactive feel, too. :D

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awesome theme!

Level: 15 Race: Human Class: Adventurer (Sailor Senshi/Aes Sedai)

STR: 14    DEX: 12    STA: 16   CON: 28   WIS: 26    CHA: 15 

(unspent points: 6? challenges worth)

Weight Loss Progress (SW 12/5/15 272)

Mini-Goal: Get back down to my low 152.2 - SW 6/1/17 170.4 - CW 6/10/17: 166.6

regained the last few months - back on track losing in June

 

My Battle Log|My NF Character Sheet

 

Challenges:

1/16-2/16-3/16-4/16-5/16-6/16-7/16-8/16-9/16-11/16-12/16-1/17-2/17-

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I know right??   *squee!*    I've been a slacker and haven't played the last couple weeks, so I should probably change that.

Level: 15 Race: Human Class: Adventurer (Sailor Senshi/Aes Sedai)

STR: 14    DEX: 12    STA: 16   CON: 28   WIS: 26    CHA: 15 

(unspent points: 6? challenges worth)

Weight Loss Progress (SW 12/5/15 272)

Mini-Goal: Get back down to my low 152.2 - SW 6/1/17 170.4 - CW 6/10/17: 166.6

regained the last few months - back on track losing in June

 

My Battle Log|My NF Character Sheet

 

Challenges:

1/16-2/16-3/16-4/16-5/16-6/16-7/16-8/16-9/16-11/16-12/16-1/17-2/17-

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The young adventurer slumped down against the hay-filled pillow. If one could call it a pillow. "Don't complain," she scolded herself. Even the cool, rock wall was an odd comfort. The inns that littered most of the Barrens weren't ideal for a rest, but one could not be particularly picky during times of war. For the moment, the violent onslaught of the Legion had subsided. The merchants and inhabitants of the town were celebrating, but she knew it wouldn't last. It was only a matter of time before the next invasion came. They were coming faster as the days went by leaving, what felt like, the entire world needing assistance. The constant traveling through portals was beginning to take it's toll. It wasn't a pleasant jump to begin with; that pulling feeling deep in your stomach and the sudden lurch when you arrived at your destination. She preferred zeppelin and mount travel, but not even they were proving effective in getting champions to their needed locations.

 

She allowed herself to stretch out and settle finally. The homemade blanket had seen better days, but would keep her warm none the less. Turning her head a bit to one side, she could see glimpses of the stars and the rising moon through the stretched leather roof. The light would, on occasion, catch the glass, coral, and turquoise beads that gave her little privacy from the rest of the inn.

 

"You did well, champion." The voice was gruff and belonged to a seasoned veteran. An orc who had seen his fair share of battle and then some. The adventurer lifted her head and gave a nod. "Remain vigilant. This is only the beginning." Another nod, the silent gesture of understanding, and the conversation was over. This was only the beginning. It was going to be a long road, but there were many who were traveling it with her.

 

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DAY ONE - 8/21/2016; Sunday

 

As always, the first day was a success. New challenge, new mindset, and new motivation to reach those goals. I am patting myself on the shoulder, but not too much. Transitioning into a more healthy lifestyle is not an overnight victory. I have to make sure that I stick with it. I have to pick myself up and keep going if I find myself losing too much health. Potions on cool down? Healing spells locked? Reach out to others! Regardless of physical distance, you are always within reach!

 

Quest One: No Sanity Lost!

Food choices were pretty good! Breakfast included Protein-enriched Oatmeal in Maple and Cinnamon flavor. I had two packets, and it was satisfying and filling. I'm not too keen on the aftertaste, though! There is definitely a protein powder substance mixed in there. Fortunately we don't have too many packets of this.

 

Lunch was tuna on toast! My tuna salad includes mayo and green olives. Sometimes I'll toss some hot pepper rings on it after I put it on the bread but not today. I was very impressed with myself with this. While I'm working to make better food choices, I am also working on being conscious about how much I'm eating. Rather than eating what is made with 1 can myself, I made sure to use the suggested amount. I ate slow, really took my time with concentrating on my eating, and was able to make sure my step-dad had some lunch, too! Nothing went to waste either, which is always good!

 

I had a medium iced coffee from Tim Horton's this afternoon. It's going to be getting cooler soon, so I am getting my iced coffees in while the getting is good! I also had this while grocery shopping. More on that with quest two!

 

Dinner included baked chicken, potato wedges, baby carrots, cucumbers, and some ranch for all the dipping. Not too much, and when it was gone, I didn't get more. Sometimes I like a little dipping with my veggies (and we had no hummus ;_;) and it complimented the wedges and chicken.

 

Quest Two: No Sanity Lost!

Movement included doing laundry (stair climbing to take laundry down, switch loads, and bring laundry upstairs!) and walking around the store for groceries. I had my iced coffee during this time, and it was delicious!

 

Quest Three: No Sanity Lost!

I had a good night's sleep last night! I did take a 20 minute nap, and I felt really great afterward. I'll be heading to unwind and relax after I finish writing this. When I wake up in the morning, I'm going to assess how I'm feeling. I don't want to get too much sleep because I always feel gross shortly after I get up. I know my sleep is going to get a bit screwy next week with the Legion expansion release, but I'm going to try and not be too crazy!

 

Bonus Quest: No Loss/Gain

My family is definitely becoming more open to discussing healthy options for snacks and meals. This makes me realize that I have a tangible form of support right in front of me. I knew they would support me no matter what, but knowing that they are willing and wanting to change their lifestyle for both me and them really makes it all easier!

 

As a side note, but in regards to support, I am so very proud of myself for writing a bit in story form in this challenge. I am, at times, extremely self-conscious about my writing, but I enjoy it! I like to write, and I am learning that I shouldn't be afraid to express myself in numerous creative outlets.

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6 hours ago, Leigh said:

Tim Horton's you say? Do I detect another Canadian? :)

Also you are super lucky to have your family open to better snacks, I wasn't lucky that way at all with the group I live with.

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Yes! Well, Canadian by Mom marrying a Canadian. Pseudo-Canadian? EITHER WAY! I love me some Timmy's. <3

 

I've been in that sort of situation before as well. It's really difficult when there are people who just don't get it, or understand, what you're trying to do. We are here for you, though! \o/

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I love hummus too!!!!!!! <333333  This weekend we had black bean hummus with sweet potato chips.... holy amazing flavor!! Nomnomnom.

 

I wonder if once Legion has been out for a bit, if they'll do a free 7 day trial thing for us wayward WoW players that haven't bought the x-pac yet?.... Or something...? XD  I'd love to check it out but I just can't do two games at once!

i am not waiting for a hero.  i saved myself long ago.

Level 50 Bardic Time-Mage; of the Furious Heart

STR.55  DEX.43 STA.48 CON.51 WIS.53 CHA.65

"Well...in the end, it boils down to two simple choices. Either you do or you don't.

You'd think with all the problems in this world, there'd be more answers. It's not fair...
...But that's the way things are. The choice is yours."

» visit me @ my BATTLE LOG~

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5 minutes ago, shaarawy said:

I love hummus too!!!!!!! <333333  This weekend we had black bean hummus with sweet potato chips.... holy amazing flavor!! Nomnomnom.

 

I wonder if once Legion has been out for a bit, if they'll do a free 7 day trial thing for us wayward WoW players that haven't bought the x-pac yet?.... Or something...? XD  I'd love to check it out but I just can't do two games at once!

 

*_______* BLACK BEAN HUMMUS SOUNDS DELICIOUS. And with sweet potato chips? SIGN ME UP! People don't understand my absolute love and adoration for all things black bean and sweet potato.

 

MAYBE??? I know what you mean, though. Poor Galia is like HEY! HEY LADY! I GOT SCIONS TO FIND! And I'm like ;___; I will return soon! I need to fend off the Legion and stuff! And we won't talk about my Stardew Valley farm that is probably so overgrown and infested that people probably think it's now haunted with the ghost of farmers past. It REALLY doesn't help that with the pre-xpac event going on, you can level characters to the max level (usually starting from level 1) within a few hours. I'm like no quests? no dungeons with asshats? THE GAMING GODS ARE BEING KIND.

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*_______* BLACK BEAN HUMMUS SOUNDS DELICIOUS. And with sweet potato chips? SIGN ME UP! People don't understand my absolute love and adoration for all things black bean and sweet potato.

 

MAYBE??? I know what you mean, though. Poor Galia is like HEY! HEY LADY! I GOT SCIONS TO FIND! And I'm like ;___; I will return soon! I need to fend off the Legion and stuff! And we won't talk about my Stardew Valley farm that is probably so overgrown and infested that people probably think it's now haunted with the ghost of farmers past. It REALLY doesn't help that with the pre-xpac event going on, you can level characters to the max level (usually starting from level 1) within a few hours. I'm like no quests? no dungeons with asshats? THE GAMING GODS ARE BEING KIND.

 

Auugghh it's so amazing!  The one we have is made by a local Asheville place, but I've seen it out there by other companies too!  Such a good flavor combo <333

 

HAHAHA FARMER GHOSTS XDDDD

 

I have recently become gently obsessed with botany and got like 10 levels yesterday..... I am wearing the fanciest chick-yellow gathering outfit, it's equal parts terrible and amazing!

i am not waiting for a hero.  i saved myself long ago.

Level 50 Bardic Time-Mage; of the Furious Heart

STR.55  DEX.43 STA.48 CON.51 WIS.53 CHA.65

"Well...in the end, it boils down to two simple choices. Either you do or you don't.

You'd think with all the problems in this world, there'd be more answers. It's not fair...
...But that's the way things are. The choice is yours."

» visit me @ my BATTLE LOG~

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Took me a good few minutes to figure out what you guys were talking about. But my sister plays that game and it clicked when you mentioned botany.

As for the free trial stuff for WoW, you can play the game and make any basic class for free up to level 20. It wont let you check out the current content at all though so it wouldn't be all that useful.

But when in doubt, there will be a tonne of gameplay videos on youtube shortly ^_^

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"I should have this finished by morning." The sword was left in good hands, this she knew. That was not where her worry lie. These invasions were growing in number. The demons and corrupted fel beings were becoming more aggressive. "Evolving," she mumbled under her breath. Even remembering simple words was beginning to put a strain on her mind.

 

The city was as it always: noisy, bustling, and filled with the scent of fire and fight. There was a noticeable difference, though. People looked over their shoulders, discarded pamphlets prophesying the end of days flitted to and fro in the dirt, and the door to the Warchief's council remained closed. Though she had been inside, had been a witness to the fate of those around her, it was still unsettling. Never had she seen it sealed in such a manner. It was for the best, though. There was still much to do, but time was never on their side.

 

Settling at one of the cleaner tables near the small bar, she asked for a bit of juice and a few apples. Nothing too heavy before she would turn in for the night. She was holding on to her training routine even as it grew more demanding. Waiting for the barmaid to return, she emptied the last bit of spring water from her leather flagon. It was amazing there was still some left after the day she had endured, but none of it would go to waste.

 

"Long day?" She looked up as the juice and apples were placed in front of her, giving the barmaid a nod. "A bit. Supplies are spread thin. Almost felt guilty when they offered me something to eat, but I could tell it would help them. Give them a sense that they were helping. They don't think they are if they can't raise a blade, cast a spell, or nock an arrow. Little do they know standing their ground and keeping their faith in us is a great help. The motivation it inspires? Feels like we can accomplish anything even if we're holding on to our last breath." Reaching into her satchel to pull out the necessary coin, someone cleared their throat from across the room. A Tauren, one who was well-known within the city, held up his large palm. "The hero's table is on me." There was a round of cheering and a bit of applause. Inside, the adventurer could hear herself cheering and applauding. "Well done today. Keep your head up and your spirit strong. You can find victory when you least expect it."

 

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DAY TWO - 8/22/2016; Monday

 

I am going to jump right into the quest parts mostly because I'm really sleepy, and I'm hoping that I can quickly wrangle that feeling and fall asleep without any terrible nightmares tonight. Yeesh!

 

Quest One: No Sanity Lost!

I had a rough night of sleeping (which I'll get to later!) so I woke up a bit late for a big breakfast. That's okay, though! I had some cottage cheese with a little apple butter mixed in. I LOVE cottage cheese, and it's a really filling and great breakfast food for me. Protein, calcium, and probably some other healthy things. The apple butter we use is great as well. Low in all the bad things! It was delicious and filling, and definitely did the trick! I also had my necessary cup of coffee.

 

Lunch was a Michelina's meal. I know that frozen meals aren't usually on the healthy list of foods, but I enjoy them. They're quick and easy, and sometimes that's what I need! This was one of their "healthy selections" or something. Spinach and Ricotta pasta. I cut up a small pepperoni stick to add to it as well as some feta. It was REALLY good and hit the spot!

 

My snack was Smartfood White Cheddar popcorn. I LOVE this stuff SO much, and three cups (the suggested serving size) is more than enough! I'm definitely trying to maintain the "dish out a serving and put away" when it comes to snack things rather than having the whole bag with me. I know that definitely helps with not overeating!

 

Dinner was TACO SALAD! One of my favorite dinners. We had a lot of lettuce in ours, which makes it extra filling. Since it's nice and crisp, we either forgo chips all together, or use less. I use less!

 

There were moments during the day when I was hungry, but it was usually at regular meal times. I also kept my water with me, which keeps me filled.

 

Quest Two: No Sanity Lost!

I didn't do as much stair climbing, but I've been working hard to try and get the kitchen up to par. We've been doing a lot of cupboard cleaning and reorganizing, so everything is a bit chaotic. It's okay, though! I'm taking a few minutes every so often throughout the day to get some things done. I would do it all in one go, but right now I'm having some lower back problems. I'm certain that some may be due to weight, but there may be something else involved as well. It hasn't been the same for a number of years now since I was doing some jumping on a trampoline. I still think I messed up some alignment or something, but who knows! I do know that when I take some muscle and joint medicine, it helps a lot.

 

Quest Three: No Sanity Lost!

I had a HORRIBLE night of sleep last night. Regardless of that, though, I did finally drag myself out of bed by 10 and even though I felt drowsy at a few points today, I didn't nap. I could have, but I wanted to make sure I didn't stay up all night tonight. Here's to hoping that I didn't eat whatever I ate last night to make me have crazy dreams!

 

Bonus Quest: No Sanity Gain Needed!

 

I pulled a card from my Dive In Deck (a small deck of cards with feel good quotes, writing inspirations, etc!) and the quote reads:

 

"We are 100% responsible for the CREATION of our lives."

 

Truer words have never been spoken!

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I miss cottage cheese SO MUCH!!  I can't eat it all of the time because of Finicky Stomach, but once in a while as a treat.... large curd cottage cheese.... *dreams about it*  Your food of the day sounds delish!!

 

Giiiirl if you ever want tips/tricks/stretches/etc to help deal with and strengthen a cranky low back, just say the word.  Mine has always been weak and I injured it deadlifting last year, and it's been a slow road to recovery but I finally feel like I've ferreted out enough information and tactics to help it feel better on a daily basis!!  Our posterior muscle chain gets donked up so easily, thanks to everything from junky posture to sitting all day to weight distribution.  (Also a lot of times it's not just back, but hip flexors too!!)

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i am not waiting for a hero.  i saved myself long ago.

Level 50 Bardic Time-Mage; of the Furious Heart

STR.55  DEX.43 STA.48 CON.51 WIS.53 CHA.65

"Well...in the end, it boils down to two simple choices. Either you do or you don't.

You'd think with all the problems in this world, there'd be more answers. It's not fair...
...But that's the way things are. The choice is yours."

» visit me @ my BATTLE LOG~

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11 minutes ago, Teros said:

 

cottage cheese + popchips.

 

I want to find whoever created sour cream & onion popchips, and give them the nobel peace prize~

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i am not waiting for a hero.  i saved myself long ago.

Level 50 Bardic Time-Mage; of the Furious Heart

STR.55  DEX.43 STA.48 CON.51 WIS.53 CHA.65

"Well...in the end, it boils down to two simple choices. Either you do or you don't.

You'd think with all the problems in this world, there'd be more answers. It's not fair...
...But that's the way things are. The choice is yours."

» visit me @ my BATTLE LOG~

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Her head was spinning. Was it from that blow she had taken earlier in the day? Possibly. Perhaps it had just made everything worse.

 

She had slept late. Far too late than she had anticipated. It was strange to imagine that a lumpy cot could be so comforting. Truthfully, it had been difficult to pull herself away from it. There was a sense of safety tucked away on that cot. There weren't hundreds of people looking to her for answers and safety. She was in her own little world without worry hanging heavy on her shoulders.

 

Even coaxing herself along as she put one foot in front of the other was a chore. That feeling of dread - of failure - was sitting uncomfortable in her chest. Familiar faces even seemed to be looking at her differently. The fear of the world being against her, hating her, being disappointed in everything she was doing, was enough to make her seek sanctuary. That was always a challenge to find in the hustle and bustle, though. There was a spot, out of the view of everyone, and with enough quiet to allow her to think.

 

With her head resting against the trunk of a large tree, she squinted away from the blinks of sun that filtered through the tree's foliage. Finally closing her eyes, she sought her center. She sought anything that would ground her and allow her to assess herself and everything around her.

 

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DAY THREE - 8/23/2016; Tuesday & DAY FOUR - 8/24/2016; Wednesday

 

Unfortunately the tone of everything reflects my day today rather than yesterday. This morning, it took everything I could muster to drag myself out of bed. I had terrible nightmares that everyone I knew was just completely disappointed in me, hated me, and it just pulled me down. The way your brain works against you can be devastatingly dangerous. I did get up, though. I got the kitchen cleaned and even made my little brother another delicious lunch. At least I did things even if my heart wasn't in any of it, right?

 

Tuesday

 

Quest One: No Sanity Lost!

This is where recording food would be beneficial. You THINK you're going to remember things you've eaten, but you won't! I do know that my choices were consciously made and when I felt a small snack attack lurking, I went for carrots!

 

Quest Two: No Sanity Lost!

My lower back was being particularly annoying, but I made sure to get things done in the kitchen and what not. Even if I do a little movement, it's better than none. I'm listening to my body, and when it gets to the point where I can barely stand up straight, I sit and rest. I do some gentle stretches, and if it's too bad, I do take something. Too much inflammation is never good.

 

Quest Three: No Sanity Lost!

I took a 20 minute nap, but was feeling pretty good! I do love taking those 20 minute cat naps, though. I feel really refreshed when I'm starting to feel even remotely groggy. Before I make the jump to a quick nap, I make sure I'm drinking water, move around to get things circulating more, or anything else I can think of before curling up with my 20 minute timer.

 

Bonus Quest: N/A!

 

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Wednesday

 

Let me start off by saying, I have been having one of those days. Having nightmares (morning mares?) of your family and friends just being done with you, and you feeling like it's all too real? Yeah. I did not want to get out of bed. I had such a fear, and it took everything I had to not just burst into tears. I knew, deep down, it was just a ridiculous dream, but damn. Naturally because I wanted to just sleep, I was groggy all day. I'll go into more detail today, but I will say that I am not going to get too down on myself. These days happen, and when they do, I have to let it run its course. Tomorrow is a new day!

 

Quest One: No Sanity Lost!

For the day I was having, I was pretty proud of myself! I splurged on some donuts after dinner, but I didn't miss a meal! Not only that, but I made lunch for the little bro again. He is in love with my tomato, onion, and cheese quesadillas. That, of course, brightened my day.

 

Quest Two: No Sanity Lost!

I got work done in the kitchen, made dinner, and did some more straightening around the house. It helped my mind remain focused on not thinking about those terrible morning mares, and it helped me move around. My back was, once again, not feeling great, but stress and anxiety never help.

 

Quest Three: No Sanity Lost!

UGH. I didn't take a nap today, and I did get out of bed. Those are small victories for me today!

 

Bonus Quest: I'm slowly coaxing the family into taking a walk in the evenings. I think enticing them with hatching eggs in Pokemon Go will help with this.

 

I think, regardless of how I was feeling today, I did alright. Tomorrow is a new day, and that is how I'm going to continue to think going forward and if I have anymore days like this!

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8 hours ago, Kelliestrasza said:

Having nightmares (morning mares?) of your family and friends just being done with you, and you feeling like it's all too real? Yeah. I did not want to get out of bed. I had such a fear, and it took everything I had to not just burst into tears. I knew, deep down, it was just a ridiculous dream, but damn.
 

 

I dealt with this exact same thing earlier this year.  Wow.  It was INTENSE.  Like possibly the most intense anxiety/depression I'd ever felt.  Brains, man.

 

I am glad you're posting so consistently here!!!! <3 <3 <3 Support systems through the hard times are SO invaluable.

 

/ananth plods over

/casts rejuv

/casts rejuv

/casts rejuv

/casts lifebloom

/casts that thing i forget with the mushrooms

/dance

 

:D

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