Owlet vs Demogorgon or How I Learned to Love the Upside Down

[Owlet]

18 hours ago, zenLara said:

I really hate this type of comments. How does people expect something like that to be helpful in any way? It totally lacks insight of what being a human being is. We all know there is people in this world having shitty lives, sometimes even far beyond our imaginations, but that is not reason for us to accept our own situations. One thing is being grateful for having so many things totally covered and another thing saying we should be happy just because of that.

Exactly! My favourite is when people call suicide selfish and wonder who someone could do that to their family. No concept of the kind of hell someone must be in where they think death is the only option and in fact everyone else will be better off without them. Ugh. I don't know if Dad has always had this lack of empathy or if I just never noticed it before. Not a fan, either way. When I visited recently that was something that really stood out - he was very quick to judge and made no attempt to put himself in other people's shoes. Ah well, I know he doesn't mean ill. 

 

18 hours ago, zenLara said:

Have you tried valerian?

I haven't, I assume it works by calming you down somehow? What form do you take it in? Might have to give it a go. Yeah the old snoring/anxiety combo is a shocker. It wasn't just a bit of snoring either, it was all night. I thought about sleeping in the lounge but it's quite noisy in there from the street and not enough curtains so it gets light really early. 

 

Today was a bit hard, just so tired. Headachey and lightheaded again, going to have to watch that I don't get sick. I did book flights down to see mum for a couple of days though, so that's something to look forward to (because I will do nothing but sleep, read and eat lol) Debating whether or not to go to life drawing tonight. 

[Owlet]

Week 2 wrap up

 

 

Fitness:

• Walking: 1/3 one lunchtime walk, cancelled others in favour of getting some social interaction. Also cancelled saturday walk because very tired. 
• Neck Rehab: Done
• 2 hours standing per work day: about 2.5/5
• Limited bodyweight exercises: does squats while working on massaging out trigger points against wall count? lol

 

Diet:

• Paleo-ish: Done
• Balanced meals (nutrients etc) Sure why not

 

Life Stuff:

• Bedtime: in bed by 10:30, lights out by 11:30. Some nights great, others terrible. Everything from 10pm to 6am ugh.
• Meditation: (continue with 100 day challenge) Done
• Art: life drawing each monday, or at least 2 hours of art at home nope. It was cancelled last week and I had no desire to do any art during the week. 
• Hang out with friends:  Done

 

Many ups and downs last week. Started out well, pretty positive, but 2 nights with very little sleep messed me around. Considering changing a couple of goals, maybe adding in a socialising one since that seems to stop me from getting so down. Distraction and laughs and a different perspective. Already have two evenings booked up this week so shouldn't be hard. 

[Lara]

1 hour ago, Owlet said:

Exactly! My favourite is when people call suicide selfish and wonder who someone could do that to their family. No concept of the kind of hell someone must be in where they think death is the only option and in fact everyone else will be better off without them. Ugh. I don't know if Dad has always had this lack of empathy or if I just never noticed it before. Not a fan, either way. When I visited recently that was something that really stood out - he was very quick to judge and made no attempt to put himself in other people's shoes. Ah well, I know he doesn't mean ill. 

 

I guess you have to be somehow near a situation to really empathize. Maybe your father didn't have many challenging experiences from that side of life.

About suicide it's a delicate subject, but I totally understand it not as a selfish act, but a desperate act when someone doesn't see any other way to get out of the pain. I never attempted myself suicide, nor know any near me that did, but there were moments years back when I was severely depressed and I had thoughts about it and it was tough in lots of senses. The thing that stroke me the most was "how has a nice young woman full of appreciation for life like me arrived to the point of wanting to die?". I learnt that my thoughts were only the way my brain had to tell me pain could stop, but I also learnt that if I knew better ways to cope with pain, my brain would stop that. And it did. So, I didn't even arrive to the point of thinking of it "for real", nor planning, or even choosing a way or all those things that are surely in the way to suicide, and yet I was suffering a lot. I can't imagine how much more pain a suicidal person is bearing that they finally choose to die.

 

2 hours ago, Owlet said:

It wasn't just a bit of snoring either, it was all night.

 

Been there

I use valerian in tincture form, but any type could work. There are pills, infusions... If you wanna give it a try, I'd say choose whatever you prefer. My anxiety book said it is totally safe to use it 3-4 times a week for life.

 

1 hour ago, Owlet said:

maybe adding in a socialising one since that seems to stop me from getting so down

That would be nice

[fleaball]

On 9/4/2016 at 6:21 AM, Owlet said:

Haha no, it's definitely constructive. So does your current therapist help you deal with shit and keep evolving? She sounds cool from what I've read in posts. How do you even find a good therapist though? It's hard enough finding a good physio!

She is pretty cool. And yeah, we're actually working through stuff. It's going slowly because I'm not doing as much as I could be, but it's going. Like, she's been digging into my childhood and my relationship with my parents to try to find reasons for some issues and then work to fix them from there. (For example, some of my self-esteem/self-confidence issues might stem from the fact that I was expected to do well at a lot of things, but rarely got praise/encouragement/reinforcement when I did well because it was expected anyway? We haven't gotten to the fixing part yet, but she's uncovering things lol) Honestly I got ridiculously lucky finding her. I had picked one of her colleagues initially, but the office emailed me back and was like "she's not taking new patients, would you like to make an appointment with this one instead?" And it just magically worked out. 

 

I just googled "how to find a therapist in New Zealand" because it's better than doing the things I'm procrastinating on, and I got this page which looks sort of useful. Especially these two things:

• Most GPs are part of Primary Health Organisations (PHOs) that run Government funded mental health programmes − often you can access free counselling sessions through these.
• If you are in paid employment you may be able to access free confidential counselling through your company’s employee assistance programme – talk to your employer.

The way it worked for me is that I searched on my insurance company's website and specified things like anxiety/GAD, queer issues, and possibly major life changes (because moving and grad school) and from there just googled the people on the list and checked out their websites/profiles. Oh, and that I wanted to do CBT. So I crossed people off depending on what their backgrounds were, what their approaches are, etc. (Also if their fucking website was in Comic Fucking Sans because why?!) I recommend sitting down with a notebook and a large cup of tea some weekend and just spending a few hours poking around. Asking friends like you mentioned is also a good idea.

 

On 9/4/2016 at 6:21 AM, Owlet said:

Probably, although I don't feel overly comfortable talking to the woman I have in mind either. But that's mostly just my brain making up excuses.

 

Yeah I'm sure my GP could help out somehow. It's just that thing of telling people, I find it really hard. You know, being vulnerable n shit. But I know from experience that bottling it up and trying to 'fix' myself is disastrous. So yeah, I guess I'll think on it a bit, maybe ask around some friends since half of them have been/are going through the same shit. 

Totally feel you on the first part. 

 

Ah, I assumed your GP knew already. Can you contact them via email or some kind of online messaging system? Then it just takes 20 seconds of courage to shoot off something simple like "Hi I had depression issues in the past and I think it's recurring can you recommend a therapist?" Or make an appointment to discuss it but send the email ahead of time so they know what to expect and they can start the conversation once you get to the office? Just remember that whoever you wind up talking to, you don't owe them any explanation beyond the bare minimum. Especially at work. It's a medical issue and none of their business. <3

 

On 9/4/2016 at 6:21 AM, Owlet said:

Lol yup, stop being helpful dammit (pls don't stop) Yeah, maybe at some point. I won't rule it out I guess. 'Cause it makes sense, it's just scary as hell.

haha yeah, understood. In any case when/if you see someone, I'd take a few solo sessions anyway just to start getting yourself sorted. At some point your therapist will probably ask you about family/friends/whoever your support system might be, and if you discuss the bf issues they can help you figure out how to broach the subject anyway.

 

On 9/4/2016 at 6:21 AM, Owlet said:

I just hate that so many people think a great way to be supportive is tell you there are people who are worse off than you.

Your dad and my roommate could be friends. Except I hope that never happens because ugh. But honestly like, by that logic there is one single person in the world who has any right to be unhappy because they are the person who life sucks the most. And that's pure bullshit. Dismissing your suffering by pointing out that other people are suffering doesn't help you or those other people. I agree with everything Lara said. And also you don't need to be giving yourself shit for being unhappy at your job. We have more needs than just getting a paycheck, and if you're bored or not challenged or unhappy with what you're doing, that's totally valid. It doesn't mean you're not grateful to have the opportunity regardless.

[Owlet]

[fleaball]

Kitties! I'll take 7.

[Owlet]

On 9/5/2016 at 8:11 PM, zenLara said:

 

I guess you have to be somehow near a situation to really empathize. Maybe your father didn't have many challenging experiences from that side of life.

Yeah, I have to keep telling myself this. I find it really easy to empathise with people so it hurts when others don't empathise with me. Plus, last time I mentioned work to Dad he told me it's best to find what you're good at and passionate about and do that; that it's a waste of time to try and be good at something that doesn't come naturally. So I was a little thrown by his change in stance. But whatever, I'm not so bothered by it now. 

 

On 9/5/2016 at 8:11 PM, zenLara said:

About suicide it's a delicate subject, but I totally understand it not as a selfish act, but a desperate act when someone doesn't see any other way to get out of the pain. I never attempted myself suicide, nor know any near me that did, but there were moments years back when I was severely depressed and I had thoughts about it and it was tough in lots of senses. The thing that stroke me the most was "how has a nice young woman full of appreciation for life like me arrived to the point of wanting to die?". I learnt that my thoughts were only the way my brain had to tell me pain could stop, but I also learnt that if I knew better ways to cope with pain, my brain would stop that. And it did

I'm so sorry you got to that point  and really glad you found ways to combat it  It is curious how one can end up so unhappy, I have pondered the same thing. And likewise, can't begin to comprehend how much more painful it must get. Here's to coping strategies! 

 

On 9/5/2016 at 8:11 PM, zenLara said:

I use valerian in tincture form, but any type could work. There are pills, infusions... If you wanna give it a try, I'd say choose whatever you prefer. My anxiety book said it is totally safe to use it 3-4 times a week for life.

Sweet, thank you! I'll look into it. Although I will need to find better ways of managing stress too I think or it will all be for nothing. 

 

 

[Owlet]

13 hours ago, fleaball said:

Honestly I got ridiculously lucky finding her. I had picked one of her colleagues initially, but the office emailed me back and was like "she's not taking new patients, would you like to make an appointment with this one instead?" And it just magically worked out. 

Haha wow yeah that is lucky. I would like to give your parents a good telling off though. I was lucky, my parents were good with praise (not too much, not too little) and expectations were big but all self imposed lol (if only I knew that no one would ever care how well I did at school!) On the other hand, I'm terrified of conflict and in fact most people to a degree, maybe just a genetic predisposal, or because my childhood was very easy and conflict-free (my brother and I didn't even fight lol). 

 

13 hours ago, fleaball said:

I just googled "how to find a therapist in New Zealand" because it's better than doing the things I'm procrastinating on, and I got this page which looks sort of useful. Especially these two things:

• Most GPs are part of Primary Health Organisations (PHOs) that run Government funded mental health programmes − often you can access free counselling sessions through these.
• If you are in paid employment you may be able to access free confidential counselling through your company’s employee assistance programme – talk to your employer.

OMG you're amazing. When I asked my boyfriend he was just like 'I dunno, shrug'. Apparently my google fuu needs more work, thanks for the link that is good to know. 

 

13 hours ago, fleaball said:

The way it worked for me is that I searched on my insurance company's website and specified things like anxiety/GAD, queer issues, and possibly major life changes (because moving and grad school) and from there just googled the people on the list and checked out their websites/profiles. Oh, and that I wanted to do CBT. So I crossed people off depending on what their backgrounds were, what their approaches are, etc. (Also if their fucking website was in Comic Fucking Sans because why?!) I recommend sitting down with a notebook and a large cup of tea some weekend and just spending a few hours poking around. Asking friends like you mentioned is also a good idea.

Haha ew comic sans. When will they learn. Cool, that sounds like a manageable way to find someone. Any excuse for tea... So does your insurance cover therapist bills? That's cool. While I was looking around that site I got sidetracked by insurance and whether it will cover mental illness bills, and then I just went down the rabbit hole of insurance argh. I don't have any kind of health/life/income protection insurance and I'm realising it would be a really good idea to get some. So now I'm trying to work out what I should get, with who(whom?) and will it cover depression/anxiety? And if I can even get cover for that. I'm hoping yes, because I've never actually talked to a doctor about it, so as far as I know there's no medical history there. But then I read stories about people's policies being cancelled because they failed to mention an episode and even though it didn't relate to the claim the insurance company wouldn't cover. Gah, I hate researching insurance, reminds me of taxes. 

 

13 hours ago, fleaball said:

Ah, I assumed your GP knew already. Can you contact them via email or some kind of online messaging system? Then it just takes 20 seconds of courage to shoot off something simple like "Hi I had depression issues in the past and I think it's recurring can you recommend a therapist?"

This was sounding like a really good idea until I started looking into insurance heh. But thanks for the good ideas! 

 

13 hours ago, fleaball said:

But honestly like, by that logic there is one single person in the world who has any right to be unhappy because they are the person who life sucks the most.

Yes! That is such a good way of putting it! 

 

13 hours ago, fleaball said:

Dismissing your suffering by pointing out that other people are suffering doesn't help you or those other people.

Yeah it just makes me think, well great, there's a whole lot of unhappy people in the world, thanks for reminding me. *scowl

 

13 hours ago, fleaball said:

And also you don't need to be giving yourself shit for being unhappy at your job. We have more needs than just getting a paycheck, and if you're bored or not challenged or unhappy with what you're doing, that's totally valid. It doesn't mean you're not grateful to have the opportunity regardless.

Thanks for the reminder  I guess I just felt like I was being really pathetic and like I should just get a grip. But I wouldn't expect that of anyone else so I guesss I should try not to beat myself up so much (I happen to be very good at beating myself up over things) 

 

 

[Owlet]

Thanks for the advice and kind words guys, really nice to read  

 

Today was better, I think a couple of nights sleep did me a lot of good. Managed my 2 hours of standing (just) and went for a nice walk at lunchtime. Meditation done, and I did end up going to life drawing last night (didn't particularly enjoy it, but at least I tried) Rest of the week is looking very social - work drinks tomorrow and then catching up with a friend, going to the movies with another friend of thursday, and going to a farewell party on saturday. Phew. And we are finally getting a new washing machine delivered tomorrow. 

 

So yeah, I got sucked into the world of health insurance today. Think I will keep researching that and try to lock something down asap. Of course if I get really down I will go see my doc, but until then I'm going to do my best to get enough sleep and talk to friends and rant here (lucky you guys ) 

[fleaball]

5 hours ago, Owlet said:

Haha wow yeah that is lucky. I would like to give your parents a good telling off though. I was lucky, my parents were good with praise (not too much, not too little) and expectations were big but all self imposed lol (if only I knew that no one would ever care how well I did at school!) On the other hand, I'm terrified of conflict and in fact most people to a degree, maybe just a genetic predisposal, or because my childhood was very easy and conflict-free (my brother and I didn't even fight lol). 

To be fair it probably sounds worse than it was. But yeah, I'm learning that I can blame a lot more on them than I thought haha. The conflict and people thing you can totally work on with someone. (And then we can compare notes lol) My mother says my brother and I didn't fight a lot but I promise I wanted to shove him out a window a lot.

 

5 hours ago, Owlet said:

OMG you're amazing. When I asked my boyfriend he was just like 'I dunno, shrug'. Apparently my google fuu needs more work, thanks for the link that is good to know. 

This was me the first time I decided I needed to see someone. It didn't occur to me to ask my doctor or to even google how to do it. I just kinda sat there wondering how everyone in therapy knew the secret. Until I asked my mother how my brother got started, and I know I've told the story of how that went before.

 

5 hours ago, Owlet said:

Haha ew comic sans. When will they learn. Cool, that sounds like a manageable way to find someone. Any excuse for tea... So does your insurance cover therapist bills? That's cool. While I was looking around that site I got sidetracked by insurance and whether it will cover mental illness bills, and then I just went down the rabbit hole of insurance argh. I don't have any kind of health/life/income protection insurance and I'm realising it would be a really good idea to get some. So now I'm trying to work out what I should get, with who(whom?) and will it cover depression/anxiety? And if I can even get cover for that. I'm hoping yes, because I've never actually talked to a doctor about it, so as far as I know there's no medical history there. But then I read stories about people's policies being cancelled because they failed to mention an episode and even though it didn't relate to the claim the insurance company wouldn't cover. Gah, I hate researching insurance, reminds me of taxes. 

Oof, this is where is gets tricky because I have no idea how insurance works in other countries and the US is shit. How much of it is covered and for how long depends on your company and plan, but typically yeah, mental/behavioral health is covered. You mentioned taking meds for depression before, didn't you? So that should be in your file somewhere? But I agree, researching insurance is terrible. I feel like that should be something your employer could help you out with? 

 

5 hours ago, Owlet said:

Thanks for the reminder  I guess I just felt like I was being really pathetic and like I should just get a grip. But I wouldn't expect that of anyone else so I guesss I should try not to beat myself up so much (I happen to be very good at beating myself up over things) 

You and me both. One day we'll figure out how to be nice to ourselves. 

[Owlet]

11 hours ago, fleaball said:

Oof, this is where is gets tricky because I have no idea how insurance works in other countries and the US is shit. How much of it is covered and for how long depends on your company and plan, but typically yeah, mental/behavioral health is covered. You mentioned taking meds for depression before, didn't you? So that should be in your file somewhere? But I agree, researching insurance is terrible. I feel like that should be something your employer could help you out with? 

Nah no meds. I nearly did but then I started feeling better so didn't bother. Ugh don't want to research it's so confusing and boring... Even finding a broker to explain all this stuff to me seems difficult. But I guess any cover is better than no cover so I'll try get something sorted soon. I've requested my medical history from doc so maybe that'll help me decide. Shrug.

 

11 hours ago, fleaball said:

You and me both. One day we'll figure out how to be nice to ourselves. 

Haha yup, looking forward to it  

 

We have a new washing machine! And I've already done a load! Fresh clothes wheeeeeeee. Not much else to report today except that I couldn't sleep again last night. I was soo close, I was just drifting off and then I dunno, next thing I knew I was wide awake again, worrying about insurance and god knows what. I feel ok today but I can't keep doing this. And I'm really enjoying reading before bed but the damn book is too exciting lol, it's not putting me to sleep. 

[fleaball]

Yay washing machine! I'm sorry you're having trouble sleeping and that all this bullshit is part of what's keeping you up.  I wish I could magically make the answers appear in your brain. But in lieu of that, I send happy thoughts. 

 

And bunnies. 

 

[Owlet]

haha I wonder how the photographer managed to get that photo. 

Thanks  

[Owlet]

Ugh insurance gross yuck someone make it go awayyy. At least it's distracting me I guess? But seriously, I don't know where to start. Even finding an insurance broker seems complicated and full of pitfalls. Grr. Chocolate though, that is great. I can really get behind chocolate. 

 

Catch up with friend postponed til friday because we both double booked, so I stayed longer at the work drinks than I would've otherwise. Hung out with the resident Poms and talked about tea. Wow I sound boring. But seriously, one of them has an alarm clock that wakes you up by making a cup of tea. 

[Lara]

30 minutes ago, Owlet said:

one of them has an alarm clock that wakes you up by making a cup of tea. 

??

 

Ok, I googled it. It exists O.O

[Owlet]

Something like this :'D

 

[Draegon (Liam P Boyle)]

Just get me the triple espresso model.  Finally, go around to watching Stranger Things, just finished episode 3.

[Lara]

8 hours ago, Owlet said:

Something like this :'D

 

What a night table do you need to make that fit!

[Owlet]

OMG I have finally almost finished the task I've been working on for weeks yusss. I still need to double check a few things and I may have to take it through the next stage but that will be more interesting at least. Phew. 

 

I also got a call from my doctor in reply to the email I sent asking if I can get my medical records for insurance purposes. (And the fact that I even answered a call from an unknown number is impressive for me. Sometimes I don't even pick up for friends, that's how much I hate phones ) She was quite reassuring though, basically said 'yeah sure, we'll get your files ready for you to pick up next week but there's nothing much on there anyway. Maybe just a couple of things you'll need to mention to insurance.' She also said generally they don't look much further back than 5 years - not that there's anything serious from back then anyway, but it made me think insurance companies are not quite so intense as I'd thought. I guess reading horror stories from news articles about that one guy whose claim was denied because ___ is bound to make me paranoid. So feeling a bit better about the whole insurance thing. I've also written down a bajillion (wait what, spell check seems to think that's an actual word??) questions to hurl at whoever I can find to talk insurance with. 

Now it's just a case of sitting down and working out who to approach. That can be saturday's project, with much tea and blankets. 

 

Got some magic sleepy pills today from the chemist - basically antihistamines so you can buy them without a prescription. And more migraine medication 'cause I used up the last of mine on casual but persistent headaches. My bedside table is basically a medicine cabinet these days :/ Talked to mum about the sleep thing and she said maybe it's in my genes because she's always had trouble sleeping. She said if she wakes up in the night she either tries to think 'right, I woke up, that's ok. Now I'm going back to sleep.' or if that doesn't work she gets up and does something productive rather than lying there fretting and getting annoyed. Hmm. I'd just like to sleep please. Might take a sleepy pill tonight because my brain is still a bit frantic. (Definitely feeling better than I was - I think insurance is providing enough distraction for now - but still not back to normal chill brain) Plus it's storming hard out there. 120km gusts, rain, hail and snow wheeee. Gutted I didn't see any snow today. 

 

Goals, let's see... art done, bedtimes meh, meditation on track, 2 hours standing check, walk no because weather, exercises on track, paleo-ish hmm yeah mostly although craving sweet treats a lot. Cool.

[Owlet]

Woke up with a headache, which always seems so unfair - I did nothing to deserve this dammit! TGIF

[Cataleya]

I skimmed a lot of this because I'm getting tired, but I hope the therapy helps. I am currently seeing one and it does seem to make things better, despite how heavy my anxiety/depression is.

[Owlet]

13 minutes ago, Cataleya said:

I skimmed a lot of this because I'm getting tired, but I hope the therapy helps. I am currently seeing one and it does seem to make things better, despite how heavy my anxiety/depression is.

Ha well to be fair, there's a lot of fluff in this thread ('cause I love fluff, especially funny fluff ) Haven't actually arranged a therapist yet because I got sidetracked trying to sort out health insurance. And weirdly it seems to be helping. Sometimes I wonder if I even have issues in my life or if I just have a need to be upset about something constantly. But also I have a lot of trouble trusting my 'inner voice' or whatever you want to call it, so this is exactly the kind of excuse I will come up with to tell myself I'm making a big deal out of nothing. I think I will go see someone at some stage, if anything because I keep having little episodes of feeling crap. Kind of like a recurring injury. So I figure if something keeps coming back, even if it doesn't last, there is probably some issue deep down causing it. 

 

Actually organising insurance is proving somewhat overwhelming. I was meant to do a bunch of researching today but I slept in, cleaned the bathroom (ugh but yay) went to the supermarket, put some lamb on to cook for tonight's dinner, and now my boyfriend is on his way over so that's kind of the weekend gone. Oops. Um, to be continued...

 

In other news, my jaw is really sore. Somewhere along the line I picked up the nasty habit of tensing it without realising it, so I have to keep telling myself to relax it. @zenLara you know what I'm talking about :'D Been massaging it but it's still so sore and stiff, not really sure what to do. 

[Lara]

Reading you talking about sleep problems, I remembered something I read some time ago. It was an article about the "second sleep". It seems that through literature references and other things (don't remember which) it has been established that before the industrial revolution our sleep pattern was different, and that we used to sleep for a few hours, wake up for around 2- 3 hours and then take a second sleep period. It would explain why lots of people keep on waking up in the middle of the night and having trouble to get back to sleep (I think this also explains the crazy praying schedule in medieval monasteries, a thing always puzzled me. Yeah, I know, a weird thing to think about). I guess this pattern could be tied to nomad life and the need to sleep during shorter periods for survival reasons.

It seems that some studies point that when we're exposed to longer periods of darkness (around 14 h) with no access to artificial lights, people, after an adjusting period, get back to that two sleeps pattern. Those people began to get up and activate themselves, or at least stay awake reading or chatting with the others.

Short after reading this article I heard my boyfriend's aunt talking about one of her sisters having trouble to sleep, and having finally adopted a two sleeps pattern, sleeping from 11pm to 2 am, getting up and being active for around 3 hours, and going back to sleep for another 3 hours or so. So maybe what's weird is that we actually get back to sleep?

 

17 hours ago, Owlet said:

my jaw is really sore. Somewhere along the line I picked up the nasty habit of tensing it without realising it

It's not you. Most people do. It's just they don't realize.

[Owlet]

22 hours ago, zenLara said:

before the industrial revolution our sleep pattern was different, and that we used to sleep for a few hours, wake up for around 2- 3 hours and then take a second sleep period. It would explain why lots of people keep on waking up in the middle of the night and having trouble to get back to sleep

Yeah interesting. That would certainly explain my mum's sleeping habits lol. My problem though is getting to sleep in the first place. Sometimes I wake up during the night but don't usually have trouble getting back to sleep (and waking up on a weekday? Forget it) I just suck at getting my brain to shut up so I can relax and sleep. That said, last night I stayed up late playing Journey (ahhh so pretty) So I only have myself to blame for being tired today. 

 

 

[Owlet]

Week 3 roundup:

 

Fitness:

• Walking: 1/3 I don't think this goal is actually realistic considering 3 of my lunchtimes are already taken up with physio exercises
• Neck Rehab: Done
• 2 hours standing per work day: Done
• Limited bodyweight exercises: not really, not enough time once I've done all my physio exercises

 

Diet:

• Paleo-ish: Done
• Balanced meals (nutrients etc) Done

 

Life Stuff:

• Bedtime: in bed by 10:30, lights out by 11:30. So-so. Better than last week
• Meditation: (continue with 100 day challenge) Done
• Art: life drawing each monday, or at least 2 hours of art at home Done
• Hang out with friends:  Done

Pretty good week, can't really remember much of it right now to be honest. Sleepies... Lots of socialising and looking at insurance options.