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I haven't had a chance to really think this past year.  It's all been reflexive responding.  The stress from school took a heavy toll on how I think and feel.  I've experimented and I've realized that the people that I invested time and effort into aren't worth it anymore.  I need to cut out the dead weight of people that are dragging me down.

 

I thought, a year ago, that I was *done* with shedding things in my life.  I burnt 95% of everything I owned in a massive fire that purged a ton of things in my life. 

 

Apparently, I didn't burn enough of it.  I desperately clung on to a few remnants and I've realized that I can't do that anymore.  It's been like a mental cancer.  You can't just get rid of some of it and expect to have everything fixed.  No.  All or nothing.  That's the only way things have ever worked for me.  And I'm pledging this next year to do everything necessary to get to my goals.

 

I want to formally apologize for being a ghost on here for far, far too long.  I let the thoughts and actions of the ungrateful, manipulative, and negative taint my mission.  I'm done with it.  I'm done with associating myself and trying to 'fix' things with people that have proven time and time again to not truly care.

 

When someone asks you, 'Do you want this bad enough?'  what is your response?  When you look at this *thing* that you want, what are you going to give up for it?  Are you going to spend an evening working diligently?  What if you need to spend two nights?  Four nights?  Every night for weeks?  Months?  Years?  What if you need to sacrifice everything else in order to achieve your goal?  Do you want something bad enough to cut out family?  To cut out friends?  To give up time? Money? Blood? Sweat? Tears?  Is it worth being alone to achieve?  Is it worth as much as life itself?

 

The answer for this is:  YES.

 

I've been letting myself wallow and using excuses for why I put *myself* on hold and when I critique the excuses - that's all they are.  Just excuses.  Excuses are the nails that builds the house of failure.  And I refuse to fail anymore.  I've stumbled in this aspect of NF, but I refuse to fail.  My goals are as follows:

 

1) Whole+  - The tried and true and will bring me to my destination

 

2) Workouts (Learning to Walk again) - I still am on the mend with my sprain so this is sort of a 'play it by feeling' situation.  However, a friend of mine came over and wants help and I've sort of taken this person under my wing for now.

 

3) NF (Learning to Talk again) - A huge one - I felt ostracized because I wasn't on here and then that made me not want to go on here even more.  Now I see that there are people using ideas that I wanted to implement and I've got to be honest, it sort of pisses me off.  Had I not gone through a huge change the past year and a half, I know for damn sure that things would be incredibly different around here. So instead of whining about it, I'm going to fucking fix it.  I'm going to do things better.  My goal for this, although hard to track (bad bad not s.m.a.r.t.) but it's based on the % of time I spend on here.  I don't have a '1 hour a day' goal.  I have no idea how the hell that would work.  I also feel 'x hours per week' would be intimidating.  Considering my time here was = 10 minutes per week; I've ALREADY blown this out of the water by responding/reading to every Adventurer thread this evening.

 

4) Mystery Project #1 (Grohl) - I'm going to dedicate 1 hour per week to this.  In a few weeks, I'll see if I totally still suck at it.  If not, then I'll unveil it.  If I get bored enough to not put in the effort, then I'm going to replace this with something else. In other words - this will be something cool for myself but I just don't know when it will be, ya dig?

  

5) Don't Die - Yeah, this is actually a goal because school is coming up, along with an internship and I honestly don't know HOW I'm going to do this.

 

*sidenote* Though I love lotr music, I had a hard time finding a song that matched this :(Fixed!  Thread has now been Grohl-ified.

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You know I saw this in my Tapatalk feed and was like "Yay! Teros post for the ride to work!"

My hopes have been dashed to pieces! *Sobs*

Nah I'm kidding [emoji14] wondering if it will be a LotR theme or if that just went with the image choice...

Hmmmm...

Sent from my LG-K210 using Tapatalk

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14 hours ago, Leigh said:

You know I saw this in my Tapatalk feed and was like "Yay! Teros post for the ride to work!"

My hopes have been dashed to pieces! *Sobs*

Nah I'm kidding emoji14.png wondering if it will be a LotR theme or if that just went with the image choice...

 

Better?

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Your challenges are always inspiring to me because even though I've read your story a few times, just the narrative of burning things and eliminating things really resonates with me.  I've done a lot of people-culling this past year and I am sure that is one of the main reasons my depression has been so much more manageable.  Looking forward to seeing how your challenge goes, and seeing you around here more!

 

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Level: 15 Race: Human Class: Adventurer (Sailor Senshi/Aes Sedai)

STR: 14    DEX: 12    STA: 16   CON: 28   WIS: 26    CHA: 15 

(unspent points: 6? challenges worth)

Weight Loss Progress (SW 12/5/15 272)

Mini-Goal: Get back down to my low 152.2 - SW 6/1/17 170.4 - CW 6/10/17: 166.6

regained the last few months - back on track losing in June

 

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Challenges:

1/16-2/16-3/16-4/16-5/16-6/16-7/16-8/16-9/16-11/16-12/16-1/17-2/17-

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21 hours ago, Teros said:

4) Mystery Project #1 - I'm going to dedicate 1 hour per week to this.  In a few weeks, I'll see if I totally still suck at it.  If not, then I'll unveil it.  If I get bored enough to not put in the effort, then I'm going to replace this with something else. In other words - this will be something cool for myself but I just don't know when it will be, ya dig?

  

5) Don't Die - Yeah, this is actually a goal because school is coming up, along with an internship and I honestly don't know HOW I'm going to do this.

 

Good luck on Mystery Project. I hope whatever it is works well, and we get to see what's up.

 

Don't die is a pretty good goal. I totally know how you feel. I've got school coming up next week with a full course load, and then I'm going to be working two jobs as well. But we're badass rebel adventurers, so we've definitely got this.

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1 hour ago, Teros said:

Better?

 much

 

21 hours ago, Teros said:

5) Don't Die - Yeah, this is actually a goal because school is coming up, along with an internship and I honestly don't know HOW I'm going to do this.

 would you like me to mail you a phoenix down? I've go one kicking around here somewhere... (not kidding, I totally have one ^_^)

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On 8/21/2016 at 10:05 PM, Teros said:

I've experimented and I've realized that the people that I invested time and effort into aren't worth it anymore.

this may be one of the most important Life Lessons I've never really fully learned, lol.  or I learn, then promptly forget.  good on ya for realizing this this.  :applause:

 

On 8/21/2016 at 10:05 PM, Teros said:

However, a friend of mine came over and wants help and I've sort of taken this person under my wing for now.

I also work harder and focus more on something when I'm teaching or instructing.  I hope this friend's presence is a positive one and works you closer towards your goals.

 

On 8/21/2016 at 10:05 PM, Teros said:

I'm going to dedicate 1 hour per week to this.  In a few weeks, I'll see if I totally still suck at it.  If not, then I'll unveil it.  If I get bored enough to not put in the effort, then I'm going to replace this with something else.

ooh, I really like this idea.  I may snag it for a future Challenge.

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just another cracked southern belle,

and a specialist in self-kintsukuroi.

Current Challenge Accountability:  Health & Happiness Are Hard: Wherein the Cracked_Belle Un-Dies

Epic Quest:  Adventures in Badassery  [under construction]

Spoiler

There is never a sudden revelation, a complete and tidy explanation for why it happened, or why it ends, or why or who you are. You want one and I want one, but there isn't one. It comes in bits and pieces, and you stitch them together wherever they fit, and when you are done you hold yourself up, and still there are holes and you are a rag doll, invented, imperfect. And yet you are all that you have, so you must be enough. There is no other way.
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

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Teros! Yay! 

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On 22 Aug 2016 at 5:05 AM, Teros said:

When someone asks you, 'Do you want this bad enough?'  what is your response?  When you look at this *thing* that you want, what are you going to give up for it?  Are you going to spend an evening working diligently?  What if you need to spend two nights?  Four nights?  Every night for weeks?  Months?  Years?  What if you need to sacrifice everything else in order to achieve your goal?  Do you want something bad enough to cut out family?  To cut out friends?  To give up time? Money? Blood? Sweat? Tears?  Is it worth being alone to achieve?  Is it worth as much as life itself?

 

The answer for this is:  YES.

You ask tough questions. I definitely know I need to commit more to what I want, but moving away from friends and family means I now can control just how much time I spend with them. (Don't get me wrong, my friends and family are supportive of me, but if you can't just nip over there needs to be planing involved.)

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Introduction (where I started, May 2016) ~*~ NF Character (dormant)

 

 Progress as a Nomad: Battle log where I do my own challenges

Useful posts on my battle log: Useful Links and Travel Schedule, Future Challenge IdeasGoals for 2017 as a whole, Assorted Goals (not on rotation), Elements W1D1, Last Quarter Goals

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On 8/21/2016 at 10:05 PM, Teros said:

I want to formally apologize for being a ghost on here for far, far too long.  I let the thoughts and actions of the ungrateful, manipulative, and negative taint my mission.  I'm done with it.  I'm done with associating myself and trying to 'fix' things with people that have proven time and time again to not truly care.

 

When someone asks you, 'Do you want this bad enough?'  what is your response?  When you look at this *thing* that you want, what are you going to give up for it?  Are you going to spend an evening working diligently?  What if you need to spend two nights?  Four nights?  Every night for weeks?  Months?  Years?  What if you need to sacrifice everything else in order to achieve your goal?  Do you want something bad enough to cut out family?  To cut out friends?  To give up time? Money? Blood? Sweat? Tears?  Is it worth being alone to achieve?  Is it worth as much as life itself?

 

The answer for this is:  YES.

 

3) NF 

 

4) Mystery Project #1 

  

5) Don't Die 

 

 

1. We are glad your back :)

2. This kind of scares me. I honestly don't know if I could give up my husband and pups for anything but maybe i just haven't found that something yet? Or maybe giving them up is not needed.

3. I am excited to see you around more :)

4. I hope we get to see what this is, it sounds interesting!

5. Please don't

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On 8/22/2016 at 8:17 PM, MichiruSedai said:

 Looking forward to seeing how your challenge goes, and seeing you around here more!

 

Thank you :redface:

 

On 8/22/2016 at 8:37 PM, Jack Danger said:

I totally know how you feel. I've got school coming up next week with a full course load, and then I'm going to be working two jobs as well. But we're badass rebel adventurers, so we've definitely got this.

 

Yeah the internship and school are hitting this week. *trying not to freak out*

 

On 8/22/2016 at 8:55 PM, Leigh said:

 would you like me to mail you a phoenix down? I've go one kicking around here somewhere... (not kidding, I totally have one ^_^)

 

Amazingly, a beautiful friend of mine already sent me one.  @GingaNinja

 

But if you want to send me one as well, I'm not objecting. I love getting stuff from awesome people. :)

 

On 8/23/2016 at 2:21 AM, Tateman said:

Yup, I've been a ghost here for far too long as well. I have a come to NF every day goal too. No set time really. I just need to make en effort to get back on here like I was in the past.

 

We should hold each other more accountable, Man of Tate.

 

On 8/23/2016 at 6:52 AM, cracked_belle said:

this may be one of the most important Life Lessons I've never really fully learned, lol.  or I learn, then promptly forget.  good on ya for realizing this this.  :applause:

 

I also work harder and focus more on something when I'm teaching or instructing.  I hope this friend's presence is a positive one and works you closer towards your goals.

 

ooh, I really like this idea.  I may snag it for a future Challenge.

 

First off, can I say that your profile pic immediately reminded me of Smash Mouth.

 

Then I looked at the picture again and realized that's not what you were doing.  Can't take it back. You're now officially linked together in my brain.  Enjoy being an All-star.   (almost typed and wrote ass-star. Christ, am I that rusty on the forums?)

 

On 8/23/2016 at 1:25 PM, NeverThatBored said:

Teros! Yay! 

Image result for yay gif

 

 

On 8/24/2016 at 3:15 AM, Dagger said:

You ask tough questions. I definitely know I need to commit more to what I want, but moving away from friends and family means I now can control just how much time I spend with them. (Don't get me wrong, my friends and family are supportive of me, but if you can't just nip over there needs to be planing involved.)

 

Exactly.  If the *thing* is primary then everything else needs to cater around it so you are in a situation where that can happen.

 

On 8/24/2016 at 10:36 AM, Kelley Gammell said:

1. We are glad your back :)

2. This kind of scares me. I honestly don't know if I could give up my husband and pups for anything but maybe i just haven't found that something yet? Or maybe giving them up is not needed.

3. I am excited to see you around more :)

4. I hope we get to see what this is, it sounds interesting!

5. Please don't

 

#1 Thank you

#2 Can't answer that but it's worth thinking about, in life in general.

#3 Re: #1

#4 In due time.  I play cards close to my chest if I'm unsure of them so I'll see.

#5  Trying.  The next two weeks are going to be a serious adjustment.

 

On 8/24/2016 at 3:55 PM, Jakkals said:

Stalking.

 

my precious.

 

On 8/24/2016 at 6:49 PM, Countess D'If said:

Marking for ease of findage for future readage

 

Hello, Dear Countess

 

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On 8/28/2016 at 3:24 AM, DarK_RaideR said:

Found ya!

 

Yep. Not traveling the guilds :P

 

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*cracks knuckles*

 

I figured I would wait until the week before I made my first real update.  I want to try and post an update every other day starting after today.

 

Since I only had 3 weeks between summer class ending and fall classes starting; I figured I should do some light reading.  And by 'light', I mean 'holy shit - why?!' reading.

 

I have the urge to talk about the first book that I finished in this time period:  120 Days of Sodom.

 

This book was written by De Sade when he was in prison. I know that he wrote it using scraps of paper that were glued together.  If you know anything about the term:  BDSM, there are a few words that are linked to this.  Bondage-Discipline-Sadism-Mascocism.  The D/S sometimes means 'Domination/Submission'.  It's a collective term to explain different sexual dynamics.  Now the 'Sadism' - that rootword comes from De Sade... the author.

 

A recap of this story.  There are 4 wealthy jackasses who De Sade refers to as 'heroes' throughout the entire book.  The 4 wealthy men are:  The Duke, Bishop, President, and Durcet (a banker).  All of them are described in horror of the type of stuff they like.  I forget which one, but I think it was the President; who had a story that seriously bothered me.  Now, I need to explain that I'm not shocked easily.  My time scouring the internet my entire life; along with Rules #1 and 2 have made me fairly numb to any sort of shock.  But President's story was fucked up.  The book explains that the President had a parent and child arrested and thrown into prison.  Then he had the child (idk age. 20s?) brought up to his bedroom.  The person was said that if they had sex with the President, that her family would be free.  Well, he had no intention of this.  Instead, he had his guards grab the parent and bring them up on a hill and strung up to a rope.  President made sure that the hill was visible from his bedroom window.  Then, he started screwing the woman while the guards hung her parent.  He told the child that it was her mom/dad and when they screamed, the President...

 

 

 

This basically.

 

That's within the first few pages of this story. That's how this guy gets introduced.  The others are just as bad.  The plan is simple:  they captured/bought/stole? about 50 people of varying ages and genders and ran off with them to a secluded castle in the forest to experience '600 pleasures'.  There was also a staff of a few cooks and such.  Christ, where do I even begin with this? 

 

Ok!  They decide to plan out what to do.  There is this haggard prostitute named Duclose (not to be confused with the banker, Durcet, which I did... multiple times.)  This prostitute talks about different clients that she had.  She went from being a little girl and being sold into the trade to being a worker, to becoming the head of a brothel.  Each day, she would tell stories of her adventures to the 4 'Libertines' as they are called (because having no limits sexually meant that they were 'brave heroes' and the way De Sade writes highly of them; I honestly don't think he's being sarcastic).

 

There were rules for the 50-some captives as well. They had bedchambers and there was a ranking system of who was in charge of whom.  I swear, although this was ridiculously long; I NEVER EVER got tired of one of the captives being named 'Bum-Cleaver'.  Every single time.

 

'Bum-Cleaver was to stay in the back and...'

 

*snicker*

 

Bum-Cleaver

 

One of the rules was not to spoil the kids, because yes, there were like pre-teens as part of the captives.  The 4 'heroes' made sure they had a cross-section of kids, middle-age, and elderly all in the mix for this suck-fest.

 

 

The younger ones were to get married to each other and then they were allowed 'access' to the Four.

 

 

Christ, not those 4.  It grosses me out.  This book was kind of like a car crash where you want to go away but at the same time, have a morbid fascination to look anyway.  That for hundreds of pages.

 

At the start of the story, I was fine with reading what weird things people liked.  It started off tame and got more and more bizarre.  Oh great, some dude just loves to grab

Image result for dat ass

 

That's something I can...

 

....

 

....

 

Get behind.

 

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Some guy's fantasy is to have a hooker go in his room, lay in a black clothed-bed, all dressed up, put some goat blood on her mouth so it looks like she dies, then the rich aristocrat comes it, swears, fucks her (and she's not allowed to make any noise or move) and he leaves.  Ok.  Wait, now this guy wants to watch his kid lie on the floor and have a hooker shit on his daughter?  Uh.... right.  Wait a minute, this young guy wants to beat up an old woman and then suck her dirty ass?  K.... 

 

Just that. Over and over.  Each time more confusing/and-or/violent than the last time.  I'm being extremely PG.   >.>

 

I kept reading because I needed to know how the hell this all ended.  At one point, they get into the sadistic part of it.  Now, this isn't 'oh yeah, paddle me baby' levels of spanking, ok? 

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This is like.... they fucking jerk off after cutting off people's fingers.  De Sade did not finish this book.  Once I got to the parts where they were doing torture; I was relieved that shortly after, he ran out of time and had cliffnotes.  The book was getting boring.  He made sexual perversion BORING.  I didn't have to read details of how they would rip out eyeballs and hack off limbs and fuck wounds.  Just the notes alone were disturbing.

 

Ok so I get it - the guy is a freaky fuck and he wanted to make sure he covered all the bases.  And I admit there is some stuff in there that I found intriguing that I had thought of already.  But overall the book was very formulaic and gross.  I freely admit that I have very uhm... 'lax boundaries' let's say.  But parts in this pushed past porn and went into cringe-worthy.  I wasn't entertained as the book went on.  I think because it was so formulaic.  Prostitute tells story of X, the 4 do X, someone gets punished and a limb gets hacked off.  Next day: repeat.  Some of the stories were amusingly stupid.  Like the guy that wants to kill a thief so he has his servant put a valuable gem in the prostitute's pocket.  Then he grabs her, takes out the stone and goes, 'AHA!' and throws her out the window: onto a pile of pillows.  That apparently made this one guy soak his pants.  I mean, if both parties are ok with it; I don't care what people do behind closed doors.  You get as freaky as you want.  If one of you wants to dress up as a cowboy and the other as a cow and get 'milked' then have at it, dude.  But the violence towards the end was poorly written, boring, and overall 'meh'.

 

Here's the thing: I was waiting for a payoff here.  The more the 4 did, the more I wanted them dead.  There were 50 captives for fuck's sake!  This was an era without machine guns or anything.  All they had to do was just stab the 4 dudes and it would have ended!  That RUINED it for me.  I was expecting some sort of revolt.  When they started hacking off fingers and eyeballs; I thought, 'Well... just fucking kill them.  You literally have nothing to lose. They are talking about scheduling MURDERING YOU TOMORROW.' 

 

As a side note:

 

I have a really low tolerance for 'Suspension of disbelief'.  My enjoyment of a story usually hinges on this.  This is why I have never gotten into superhero movies (barring Batman and the netflix Daredevil - holy shit, watch it).  It's also why the most popular fantasy stuff never appealed to me, like Harry Potter.  I know, blasphemy on NERDfitness; but your story needs to have the appropriate context.  Please don't bullshit me with mechanics and then, 3/4 into the movie, 5 books into the series; you just pull a NEW thing out of your ass.  That's lazy.  That means you wrote yourself into a corner and that you lack the ability to think outside the box or to even create foreshadowing.  That means you suck.  THAT MEANS YOU SUCK, WRITER

 

And don't give me fucking TIME TRAVEL EVER, PLEASE.  It gets so convoluted and makes no sense.  Magic - explain it properly and within scientific limits.  Make me believe in your story.  Don't follow along a path and then suddenly shit on your material by bringing something new in.  'Oh, werewolves were here all along!'  'Oh, there's a super mega death spell!'  'Oh, there's a whole lost *blank* that was never mentioned.'  'Turns out there's double the *blank*.'  'Oh this person is special SOMEHOW and that's why they are immune to *blank*.' 

 

Whatever it is. That, to me, shows there is lazy writing.  If I can take a step back and say, 'Well why didn't he just give the krypton spear to Wonder Woman and stab?'  you lost it.  You killed the whole story.  When I look at a character and go, 'Why are they doing this? Two scenes ago, they did the opposite. What's their motivation?'  you have not written a character.  You have written a shitshow plot disguised as a character.

 

This book kills its belief towards the end and I'm personally glad that the book was never finished.  I'm a completionist when it comes to books so I felt I needed to finish it.  I wasn't enjoying it by the end.  At least as it escalated, I had a constant

 

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air about it.  Then I realized every chapter was the same and it waned.  Then the torture happened and the suspension of disbelief was broken.  That was it.  I originally got this book because it was banned and was touted as being super-duper-evil.  Ok, that sounds like my kind of book (which I may explain later...) but really it was average smut then peppered in with some grossness.  Not worth banning. Not worth even raising a ruckus about.  However, I obviously did feel the need to review it.  Now that's off my chest and I can finish the other book that I'm reading.

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On 8/28/2016 at 4:27 PM, Teros said:

Then I looked at the picture again and realized that's not what you were doing.  Can't take it back. You're now officially linked together in my brain.  Enjoy being an All-star.   (almost typed and wrote ass-star. Christ, am I that rusty on the forums?)

 

I am totally okay with being associated with Smash Mouth.  I actually was a fan. :D

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just another cracked southern belle,

and a specialist in self-kintsukuroi.

Current Challenge Accountability:  Health & Happiness Are Hard: Wherein the Cracked_Belle Un-Dies

Epic Quest:  Adventures in Badassery  [under construction]

Spoiler

There is never a sudden revelation, a complete and tidy explanation for why it happened, or why it ends, or why or who you are. You want one and I want one, but there isn't one. It comes in bits and pieces, and you stitch them together wherever they fit, and when you are done you hold yourself up, and still there are holes and you are a rag doll, invented, imperfect. And yet you are all that you have, so you must be enough. There is no other way.
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

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17 hours ago, T2sarahconnor said:

So glad to see you back on.  I can't wait to see this part of your journey.  You have my support now and always.  

back at ya

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12 hours ago, GingaNinja said:

Glad you still like the Phoenix down I sent :)

 

OF COURSE I DO!  It's on my bookcase in clear view.

 

3 hours ago, Countess D'If said:

This is the happiest song in the whole wide world. I am sharing it with you becuase I like you a lot

 

Within 20 seconds, I was laughing hysterically and covering my face.  There's no 'love' comment available, sorry.  I like you a lot too. ;)

 

3 hours ago, cracked_belle said:

 

I am totally okay with being associated with Smash Mouth.  I actually was a fan. :D

 

being associated with Smash Mouth...

Image result for smash mouth gif

 

When I was in ermmmm.... 5th? grade, we had to do a secret santa for my school.  Ashley was my santa and she got me the Smash Mouth cd.  At that time, I didn't know it was a band so when I opened it up, I asked who the hell they were.

 

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So I'm writing right now.  I *should* be on my way to class though.  Why am I not?

 

I had a meeting this week with a possible internship.  They need me there on specific days.  Days which, I was ok with since I scheduled them to be free. I said no problem because they have group meetings that I need to attend.  It's all good!

 

I work today and when I get home, I hop in the shower and make myself some tuna fish because I'm a weirdo and have had a craving for mercury poisoning for some reason.  I log into my schedule because I wasn't sure what time my class was today - 3 or 4pm.

 

Oh, my class isn't today although it's supposed to be.  They put me in a DIFFERENT class/time/day.  Then I check and... the class time I originally had doesn't exist. Oh boy!  I checked the other day and everything was fine but today, the day, an HOUR away from when I'm supposed to be there- apparently they can just change it and fuck everything up?

 

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This ruins my situation with the internship, the days I was going to schedule to work, days I do homework, etc. My entire weekly schedule for the next 3-ish months is now null and void. I need to go to these classes and then see what I can swap/when.  *sigh*  And so starts the school term.  After seeing that, I felt pretty defeated that my plans are shit on royally.

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I should end it on a better note though:  my batman lessons.  Now, I still am dealing with my sprained foot so I can't have class.  However, my instructor who I played pool with a while back; texted me out of the blue.  He asked what was going on and said he hadn't seen me in weeks. Wants to see if I was ok.  I filled him in and explained what happened. Told him that I might be out but I'm not down and that I 100% am going to return once I'm injured.  He asked about how I was doing besides that.  We sort of hyped each other up.  At the end, the convo went like this:

 

Me:  'I might be injured but I'm not giving up.  I WILL do this.'

Him: 'Fuck yeah!  That's the attitude to have.  You ARE doing it and WILL continue to move forward'

 

I mean, maybe this is stupid but I didn't think he would even notice that I wasn't around.  It meant a lot to me that he checked up and we had a pep talk about it.  @Heidi  , does that count as something to be thankful for?

 

 

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37 minutes ago, Teros said:

They put me in a DIFFERENT class/time/day.  Then I check and... the class time I originally had doesn't exist.

Oh man, what a crazy start to the term! You think they would have notified you much earlier of this instead of having you find out the way you did. Hopefully you get a time that works out for you so you don't have to modify everything else in your life. *fingers crossed*

 

I wish you a quick recovery! :) I am always inspired by you to better myself and I am honored to be in your corner fighting with you!

 

Welcome back, Teros!

Lead on to victory!

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Weight Loss. 195lbs -> 135lbs (60lbs target loss)

 

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On 8/21/2016 at 11:05 PM, Teros said:

1) Whole+

 

2) Workouts

 

3) NF

 

4) Mystery Project #1

 

5) Don't Die

 

*sidenote* Though I love lotr music, I had a hard time finding a song that matched this :(

 

1) This is going pretty solid right now. I'm cutting my applejuice with water right now because regular apple juice tastes funny.

 

2) I've gone on some small walks to stretch out my foot.  I've also done another sledgehammer workout which gave me DOMS but I feel a hell of a lot better.

 

3) NF - Seriously shitting over this.

 

4) Mystery - After seeing how horrible I am at it, I totally need to up the amount of time that I work on this.  I want to give it a solid effort before I don't bother.  But seeing as how it keeps crawling into my mind, I have a feeling that once I get the hang of it - I'll be more 'into' it.  Right now I'm not feeling it.

 

5) Internship stuff with school is still a nightmare that is causing serious anxiety.  Right now it's a waiting game.  I have an appointment tomorrow.

 

*sidenote*

After looking at this, I know why the music doesn't fit:  it's because it's not stirring anything in me. I'm changing my 'theme' to include less Aragorn and more Foo.

 

 

Considering it's 'learning to walk again' and 'learning to talk again'  and uhhh..... with my foot I'm quite literally learning to walk again; and posting on NF is learning to talk again - this is WAY more in line with this challenge.  Any/all FF welcome.

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This is my favorite:

 

 

Not for any particular reason just because it's a great song.

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