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~*~ The Cracked Belle ~*~
A Respawned Raconteur-Adventurer

 

Challenge Intro

for many years, I was "jtggodqos" on the forums.  I struggled with many things -- one of which was trying to still be an angsty teen-like whiner while I had long-since graduated college.

 

for the last two years or so, I've been MIA.  I left.  I didn't stop working on fitness; I just stopped being here on the forums.  then about one year ago, I relocated -- and my world changed.  I moved about 1,200 miles away from everything I knew, and I fell apart.

 

but it's time to rebuild, to respawn.  and I'm coming back as a Raconteur-Adventurer, it seems -- or a glorified Bard, lol.  a full and fun narrative is posted over at Adventures in Badassery (my NF Epic Quest).

 

Challenge Goals

  • Diet:  keep around my caloric amount (1600) and type (low-carb) goals.
    • caloric amount can average out between a few days (1700 day one, 1500 day two, etc).
  • Fitness:  at least 20 minutes of non-commuting activity every day (even just walking on the evil dreadmill).
    • typically in the morning on the dreadmill, depending on pain and energy.
  • Learning:  spend 10 minutes working on Spanish every day.
    • typically via Duolingo on the commute to work.
  • Creating:  spend at least 30 minutes working on my NaNoWriMo four days a week.
    • typically on the commute home three (Tue, thu, Fri?) days a week, then one day during the weekend.
  • Sharing:  write two scheduled/topic-based posts a week.
    • typically on the commute home two (Mon & Wed) days a week.

 

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just another cracked southern belle,

and a specialist in self-kintsukuroi.

Current Challenge Accountability:  Health & Happiness Are Hard: Wherein the Cracked_Belle Un-Dies

Epic Quest:  Adventures in Badassery  [under construction]

Spoiler

There is never a sudden revelation, a complete and tidy explanation for why it happened, or why it ends, or why or who you are. You want one and I want one, but there isn't one. It comes in bits and pieces, and you stitch them together wherever they fit, and when you are done you hold yourself up, and still there are holes and you are a rag doll, invented, imperfect. And yet you are all that you have, so you must be enough. There is no other way.
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

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On 9/22/2016 at 9:28 AM, Kelley Gammell said:

Following again! Also i live in Rochester, MN i dunno if I ever answered that question before

 

oh cool!  that's only 1.5 to 2 hours away, right?  we should arrange a MeetUp or something down the line.

 

 

On 9/26/2016 at 1:21 AM, WritingWeaver said:

Following you on your adventure!

 

sorry I fell behind on keeping up with yours.  ugh, I used to be such a better Accountabilibuddy....

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just another cracked southern belle,

and a specialist in self-kintsukuroi.

Current Challenge Accountability:  Health & Happiness Are Hard: Wherein the Cracked_Belle Un-Dies

Epic Quest:  Adventures in Badassery  [under construction]

Spoiler

There is never a sudden revelation, a complete and tidy explanation for why it happened, or why it ends, or why or who you are. You want one and I want one, but there isn't one. It comes in bits and pieces, and you stitch them together wherever they fit, and when you are done you hold yourself up, and still there are holes and you are a rag doll, invented, imperfect. And yet you are all that you have, so you must be enough. There is no other way.
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

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so this week has been difficult.  Brian (my guy) was out of town for most of the week.  and I have been so exhausted.  I get home and go strait to bed.  but simultaneously, I'm in a hypomanic phase (I haz teh bipolar bug).  UGH.  so my mind has been everywhere, and I can't really seem to keep my shit together.  so I'm just going to do a general recap, rather than a day-by-day, for this first week.

 

Week One

Diet:  partial successful.  :/  I ate okay, limiting my drinks and calories and trying to choose healthier choices.  but I know I went over my limit most days and really could have done better.

Fitness:  unsuccessful.  bahahaha, not a single minute. :(

Learning:  success!  I have been doing 10 too 20 minutes of Duolingo every morning on bus while going to work.  yay!

Creating:  unsuccessful.  I just haven't started yet.  but I need to.  :/

Sharing:  partial success.  I haven't been adhering to a schedule, but I have been writing.  so that's good.

 

I suspect this upcoming week will be easier.  I also will hopefully have a more regular work schedule as far as arriving at X-time and leaving around Y-time, which is something that has not yet been true.

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just another cracked southern belle,

and a specialist in self-kintsukuroi.

Current Challenge Accountability:  Health & Happiness Are Hard: Wherein the Cracked_Belle Un-Dies

Epic Quest:  Adventures in Badassery  [under construction]

Spoiler

There is never a sudden revelation, a complete and tidy explanation for why it happened, or why it ends, or why or who you are. You want one and I want one, but there isn't one. It comes in bits and pieces, and you stitch them together wherever they fit, and when you are done you hold yourself up, and still there are holes and you are a rag doll, invented, imperfect. And yet you are all that you have, so you must be enough. There is no other way.
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

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On 9/30/2016 at 9:01 PM, Kelley Gammell said:

Yes i would be so up for that!

 

Sorry this week has been sucky but it's the weekend now so yay!

 

:D  I'll have to research somewhere in-between that's worth visiting, lol.  what are some of your physical hobbies?  (for example, I could look for a rock wall to climb, an adventure run when it warms up, a river to go down during summer, etc.)

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just another cracked southern belle,

and a specialist in self-kintsukuroi.

Current Challenge Accountability:  Health & Happiness Are Hard: Wherein the Cracked_Belle Un-Dies

Epic Quest:  Adventures in Badassery  [under construction]

Spoiler

There is never a sudden revelation, a complete and tidy explanation for why it happened, or why it ends, or why or who you are. You want one and I want one, but there isn't one. It comes in bits and pieces, and you stitch them together wherever they fit, and when you are done you hold yourself up, and still there are holes and you are a rag doll, invented, imperfect. And yet you are all that you have, so you must be enough. There is no other way.
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

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Saturday, October 01, 2016

Diet:  unsuccessful.  didn't track anything, and I know I ate more than I should've.

Fitness:  unsuccessful.  didn't do anything physical other than clean the apartment.

Learning:  unsuccessful.  didn't make time to do Duolingo. :(

Creating:  unsuccessful.  didn't make time to work on NaNo.

Sharing:  unsuccessful.  didn't read or post anything.

Note:  I was successful in many things that didn't relate to my Challenge, however.  so I need to keep that in mind, when looking back at this assessment.

 

Sunday, October 02, 2016

Diet:  partial success.  I didn't record everything, but I kept an eye on what I ate and was at least conscious about my decisions.

Fitness:  partial success.  I had to go clothes shopping (UGH) and kept getting lost in the stores.  so I did a lot of walking for this.  not quite a workout, but something

Learning:  unsuccessful.  didn't make time to do Duolingo. :(

Creating:  unsuccessful.  didn't make time to work on NaNo.

Sharing:  partial success.  read some blogs, though didin't comment.

 

Other Things of Note

-  my license is valid again, and I drove on Saturday for the first time in almost two years.  then I drove some more Sunday too.  #MovingPastBadMemories

-  I worked out this morning (Monday), yay! :D

-  my direct supervisor is out of town this week.  that's unfortunate, because I have questions about the end-of-the-month wrap-up bullshit.  also, I feel like I'm just twiddling my thumbs, sometimes.

-  my Depression has been really bad, but I still have hypomanic symptoms.  I freakin' hate this mixed state crap.

just another cracked southern belle,

and a specialist in self-kintsukuroi.

Current Challenge Accountability:  Health & Happiness Are Hard: Wherein the Cracked_Belle Un-Dies

Epic Quest:  Adventures in Badassery  [under construction]

Spoiler

There is never a sudden revelation, a complete and tidy explanation for why it happened, or why it ends, or why or who you are. You want one and I want one, but there isn't one. It comes in bits and pieces, and you stitch them together wherever they fit, and when you are done you hold yourself up, and still there are holes and you are a rag doll, invented, imperfect. And yet you are all that you have, so you must be enough. There is no other way.
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

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3 hours ago, cracked_belle said:

 

:D  I'll have to research somewhere in-between that's worth visiting, lol.  what are some of your physical hobbies?  (for example, I could look for a rock wall to climb, an adventure run when it warms up, a river to go down during summer, etc.)

Heck yeah! I don't really run but what is an adventure run? I like

climbing or hiking or im up for trying anything really :)

 

Good job on the driving! :)

My Character ~~ My Log ~~ Formerly Kelley Gammell

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20 hours ago, Kelley Gammell said:

Heck yeah! I don't really run but what is an adventure run? I like

climbing or hiking or im up for trying anything really :)

 

Good job on the driving! :)

 

adventure runs are just 5ks combined with obstacle courses, honestly.  you have to climb over and through things, mud is often involved, and lots of crazy use of your surroundings.  I love them.  this is a list of the zombie themed ones (they really do chase you!), and here's more details about them in general.  there was a foam one afew years back in Louisiana; that was neat.

 

and thank you!  it was surprisingly enjoyable, too.

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just another cracked southern belle,

and a specialist in self-kintsukuroi.

Current Challenge Accountability:  Health & Happiness Are Hard: Wherein the Cracked_Belle Un-Dies

Epic Quest:  Adventures in Badassery  [under construction]

Spoiler

There is never a sudden revelation, a complete and tidy explanation for why it happened, or why it ends, or why or who you are. You want one and I want one, but there isn't one. It comes in bits and pieces, and you stitch them together wherever they fit, and when you are done you hold yourself up, and still there are holes and you are a rag doll, invented, imperfect. And yet you are all that you have, so you must be enough. There is no other way.
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

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Monday, October 03, 2016

Diet:  success.  I went a little over, but not terribly much.  and I didn't eat poorly; just more than I should have.

Fitness:  success.  I got a 1-mile walk in.  not much, but I'm still in a really bad depressive/hypomanic mixed-state funk, and I'm also on my period.

Learning:  successful.  didn't do it on the way to work, but did it on the bus ride home.

Creating:  unsuccessful.  didn't make time to work on NaNo.

Sharing:  unsuccessful.  didn't post, comment, or even read.

 

I'm not doing well with the Creating or the Sharing.  I need to get better.  I need to create a list of topic ideas for my blog, and I need to have a brainstorming session for my NaNo story.  I'm just so tired when I get home from work....

just another cracked southern belle,

and a specialist in self-kintsukuroi.

Current Challenge Accountability:  Health & Happiness Are Hard: Wherein the Cracked_Belle Un-Dies

Epic Quest:  Adventures in Badassery  [under construction]

Spoiler

There is never a sudden revelation, a complete and tidy explanation for why it happened, or why it ends, or why or who you are. You want one and I want one, but there isn't one. It comes in bits and pieces, and you stitch them together wherever they fit, and when you are done you hold yourself up, and still there are holes and you are a rag doll, invented, imperfect. And yet you are all that you have, so you must be enough. There is no other way.
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

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Tuesday, 04 October, 2016

Diet:  unsuccessful.  Brian took me out to dinner, and I had sooo many carbs!  was tasty though.  we hadn't gone out in a while.

Fitness:  unsuccessful.  wasn't feeling well in the morning.  then after work was dinner, a movie, and immediately to sleep.

Learning:  semi-successful.  tried to do some on the way to work, but my tablet kept going haywire.  Brian was my ride for home, so no bus then.

Creating:  unsuccessful.  didn't make time to work on NaNo.  Brian and I may work on our comic "Boyfriend & Kitty" this weekend.  that will hopefully be encouragement to get creative.

Sharing:  unsuccessful.  didn't post, comment, or even read -- two days in a row of nadda.  :/

just another cracked southern belle,

and a specialist in self-kintsukuroi.

Current Challenge Accountability:  Health & Happiness Are Hard: Wherein the Cracked_Belle Un-Dies

Epic Quest:  Adventures in Badassery  [under construction]

Spoiler

There is never a sudden revelation, a complete and tidy explanation for why it happened, or why it ends, or why or who you are. You want one and I want one, but there isn't one. It comes in bits and pieces, and you stitch them together wherever they fit, and when you are done you hold yourself up, and still there are holes and you are a rag doll, invented, imperfect. And yet you are all that you have, so you must be enough. There is no other way.
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

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Wednesday, 05 October, 2016

Diet:  partially successful.  okay quality, not good quantity.

Fitness:  successful.  not long, but it was a walk/job all the same.

Learning:  successful.  about 20 minutes of Duolingo was done.

Creating:  unsuccessful.  didn't make time to work on NaNo.

Sharing:  unsuccessful.  didn't post, comment, or even read.  I napped on the bus ride home instead.

just another cracked southern belle,

and a specialist in self-kintsukuroi.

Current Challenge Accountability:  Health & Happiness Are Hard: Wherein the Cracked_Belle Un-Dies

Epic Quest:  Adventures in Badassery  [under construction]

Spoiler

There is never a sudden revelation, a complete and tidy explanation for why it happened, or why it ends, or why or who you are. You want one and I want one, but there isn't one. It comes in bits and pieces, and you stitch them together wherever they fit, and when you are done you hold yourself up, and still there are holes and you are a rag doll, invented, imperfect. And yet you are all that you have, so you must be enough. There is no other way.
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

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Thursday, 06 October, 2016

Diet:  unsuccessful.  could not stop eating.  was just so hungry all day.

Fitness:  successful.  over twenty minutes; ran from two different hordes.

Learning:  successful.  did lots of Duolingo while at work.

Creating:  unsuccessful.  D:

Sharing:  unsuccessful.  NOPE.  been sleeping on the to and from bus rides.  so tired lately.

just another cracked southern belle,

and a specialist in self-kintsukuroi.

Current Challenge Accountability:  Health & Happiness Are Hard: Wherein the Cracked_Belle Un-Dies

Epic Quest:  Adventures in Badassery  [under construction]

Spoiler

There is never a sudden revelation, a complete and tidy explanation for why it happened, or why it ends, or why or who you are. You want one and I want one, but there isn't one. It comes in bits and pieces, and you stitch them together wherever they fit, and when you are done you hold yourself up, and still there are holes and you are a rag doll, invented, imperfect. And yet you are all that you have, so you must be enough. There is no other way.
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

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My son and i did one of those obstacle runs (BeastMode in Seattle).  It was fun and definitely very muddy (note to Nerds:  I'm not a runner but I was still able to do it so don't let that get in your way!).  Do you do any of your creative work "unplugged?"  I'm wondering if maybe a paper journal might be an alternative if your tablet isn't working.  Even for the spanish study - you could have a set of flash cards on you to look through whilst on the bus.  Plus for the "harried-wired brain" (I have ADHD) there is something about handwriting/doodling/drawing to pull you into the moment, more mindful.  I'm no expert on bi-polar BUT handwriting/journaling with paper/pen has been really helpful to me to slow things down when my mind is racing, which is a symptom both conditions share. 

 

Hang in there!  Two weeks left to play, it's plenty of time to jump back in and make some progress.

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I see you are a fellow NaNoWriMo participant.  I've been having some trouble with the story I plan to write.  I usually have way more of a plan than this.  But I do try to at least jot down notes as I figure bits out, or decided to scrap them completely and try something else.  Maybe instead of a solid 30 minute time frame for plotting, you can just ponder at points throughout your day.  it adds up. ^_^

 

Also, I really want to try one of those 'adventure' runs.  It was on my to-do for this year but I had back issues when the Dirty Girl Mud Run came around so had to bow out.  I'd love to do a zombie one, though I can't decide if I want to be the runner or the zombie.  

 

Two weeks left of challenge, three weeks till November.   Eek!  Good luck!

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“Great things are not done by impulse, but by a series of small things brought together.”   Vincent Van Gogh

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On 10/8/2016 at 5:08 PM, mom2sjm said:

My son and i did one of those obstacle runs (BeastMode in Seattle).  It was fun and definitely very muddy (note to Nerds:  I'm not a runner but I was still able to do it so don't let that get in your way!).  Do you do any of your creative work "unplugged?"  I'm wondering if maybe a paper journal might be an alternative if your tablet isn't working.  Even for the spanish study - you could have a set of flash cards on you to look through whilst on the bus.  Plus for the "harried-wired brain" (I have ADHD) there is something about handwriting/doodling/drawing to pull you into the moment, more mindful.  I'm no expert on bi-polar BUT handwriting/journaling with paper/pen has been really helpful to me to slow things down when my mind is racing, which is a symptom both conditions share. 

 

Hang in there!  Two weeks left to play, it's plenty of time to jump back in and make some progress.

 

that's a good idea reall, "unplugging" to do my creative work.  I do tend to learn better when writing, I know for a fact.  so maybe it will help with creating too.  thanks!

 

 

On 10/8/2016 at 7:39 PM, Blaze said:

I see you are a fellow NaNoWriMo participant.  I've been having some trouble with the story I plan to write.  I usually have way more of a plan than this.  But I do try to at least jot down notes as I figure bits out, or decided to scrap them completely and try something else.  Maybe instead of a solid 30 minute time frame for plotting, you can just ponder at points throughout your day.  it adds up. ^_^

 

Also, I really want to try one of those 'adventure' runs.  It was on my to-do for this year but I had back issues when the Dirty Girl Mud Run came around so had to bow out.  I'd love to do a zombie one, though I can't decide if I want to be the runner or the zombie.  

 

Two weeks left of challenge, three weeks till November.   Eek!  Good luck!

 

I used to do NaNo every year; even won once.  but I recently have just stopped creating, so I don't know what I'd call myself at this point.  for how many years have you done it?

 

I've never volunteered for one of the adventure ones -- I always want to be in the thicket of it.  but the ones we did, the Zombies all said they enjoyed themselves too.

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just another cracked southern belle,

and a specialist in self-kintsukuroi.

Current Challenge Accountability:  Health & Happiness Are Hard: Wherein the Cracked_Belle Un-Dies

Epic Quest:  Adventures in Badassery  [under construction]

Spoiler

There is never a sudden revelation, a complete and tidy explanation for why it happened, or why it ends, or why or who you are. You want one and I want one, but there isn't one. It comes in bits and pieces, and you stitch them together wherever they fit, and when you are done you hold yourself up, and still there are holes and you are a rag doll, invented, imperfect. And yet you are all that you have, so you must be enough. There is no other way.
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

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Week Two (10/06-16/2016)

Diet:  partially successful.  I was over my limit most days.  but I did good about serving control and general food types.

Fitness:  unsuccessful.  only worked out three times during those days.  I'm buying a new PS1 cord so I can start playing DDR again; it's to arrive Monday.

Learning:  partially successful.  I'm driving now (yay!), so no time on the bus.  what that means, is not doing Duoling.  at least, not until I decided I would start doing at work during slow periods and/or my lunch.  so I'm back at it again.

Creating:  unsuccessful.  for this upcoming week, I'm going to try @mom2sjm's suggestion of writing "unplugged".  that should help.

Sharing:  unsuccessful.  haven't written once nor really read anything.

I'm too tired or depressed to care about or do anything.  I'm going to bed at 9pm some days, because I just don't have anything better to do.  :/

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just another cracked southern belle,

and a specialist in self-kintsukuroi.

Current Challenge Accountability:  Health & Happiness Are Hard: Wherein the Cracked_Belle Un-Dies

Epic Quest:  Adventures in Badassery  [under construction]

Spoiler

There is never a sudden revelation, a complete and tidy explanation for why it happened, or why it ends, or why or who you are. You want one and I want one, but there isn't one. It comes in bits and pieces, and you stitch them together wherever they fit, and when you are done you hold yourself up, and still there are holes and you are a rag doll, invented, imperfect. And yet you are all that you have, so you must be enough. There is no other way.
― Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

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On 10/4/2016 at 2:03 PM, cracked_belle said:

 

adventure runs are just 5ks combined with obstacle courses, honestly.  you have to climb over and through things, mud is often involved, and lots of crazy use of your surroundings.  I love them.  this is a list of the zombie themed ones (they really do chase you!), and here's more details about them in general.  there was a foam one afew years back in Louisiana; that was neat.

 

and thank you!  it was surprisingly enjoyable, too.

That sounds awesome! Yes I would love to do one!

 

Hope you find something to get that creativity going again

My Character ~~ My Log ~~ Formerly Kelley Gammell

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