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Sunmage quits messing around - Resiliency

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Hey,

 

I spend a lot of time dealing with my topics and learning about myself. I am a totally different person in many ways, but somehow my feelings have not changed.

There are some core topics to adress. But I don't go in deep. I am afraid of failure, of facing tough stuff and the loss of control.

So I do fair enough, but not what needs to be done.

 

This directly leads to my current insight: Who is in charge of my life?

It turned out: I am avoiding that person being me.

So it's me failing, always and everything depends on it. Other people take responsibility only for their actions(not ME), one failure doesn't mean always a failure(not always) and not everything depends on one single problem (not everything).

You can read more here: http://www.artofmanliness.com/2010/02/03/boosting-your-resiliency-part-2-avoiding-learned-helplessness-and-changing-your-explanatory-style/

 

So how will I learn to become my own captain instead a victim of circumstances?

 

  1. Do something about my topics
  2. Kill priority paralysis
    In order to get to dating successes, I need to gain 20 labs of muscle, and thousand other stuff before.
    In order to get a new job I need to......
    In the end I do nothing or fight myself to pieces at 1000 front lines
  3. Don't wait for the right mood or circumstances.

That means: Attack! Deal with the consequences. Learn. Attack again.

 

Week 1: Dive deeply into work. Get my lurking around projects on track.

Do 2 BW Workouts

Take time to take a look how I steered my life.

 

To days steering:

I had to treat a colleague  in my ambulance. The BP was way to high. Badly too high. Since I didn't want that to be(I guess),  I didn't trust my own measurement. As I said that, people gave me shit about that, what triggered my insecurities badly. I am 100% sure the measurement was ok. And I could have known that these people would do that.

This is still dragging me down. What do they think of me now?

It doesn't matter at all, but my feelings are different.

 

To days steering to success: I disabled my okcupid profile. Time to deal with myself instead of finding the one that makes everything fine.

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Today I Said yes to myself in form of a boundary and paid a very high Price.

 

I lost my Training Group and to a former friend. And I lost a very good friend. But I have to accept that he stopped being my friend a long time ago. I let him get far to close to me and was completely open. Lets say he knew how to hurt me pretty bad and used it on purpose.

I denied this for several weeks because I did not want to pay that price.

 

Lets say I feel pretty crappy and lost my monthly highlight. Teaching others always put me back on track.

But I know I did the right thing.

Why must doing the right thing be so hard?

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And like nearly every challenge I am sick.

This time it was pretty bad with very high fewer and stomach issues. Right now I feel better, but not done yet.

 

On Tuesday I have an appointment with a specialist. It is about time to figure this out and I have a good hint. It's called KPU if you heard from that and is an exact description of my problems. We'll see what the test says.

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And like nearly every challenge I am sick.

This time it was pretty bad with very high fewer and stomach issues. Right now I feel better, but not done yet.

 

On Tuesday I have an appointment with a specialist. It is about time to figure this out and I have a good hint. It's called KPU if you heard from that and is an exact description of my problems. We'll see what the test says.

Good luck

Sent from the dragon's lair

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Thanks.

 

I'm feeling better.

But the ice hands have returned. They accompanied me my whole life, but left me in February when I worked with the warrior stuff.

 

Plan:

 

Get some power back

Do well for myself

Clean flat

Figure out a challenge for the second half.

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Thanks.

 

I'm feeling better.

But the ice hands have returned. They accompanied me my whole life, but left me in February when I worked with the warrior stuff.

 

Plan:

 

Get some power back

Do well for myself

Clean flat

Figure out a challenge for the second half.

I've always had people remark about how cold my hands were. I've never actually given much thought to it.

Sent from the dragon's lair

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I don't worry about other people. Mine were often so cold that it bothered me.

And I don't  like the cold from the inside feeling...

 

My crackpot has arrived. Where do I start?

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Midchallenge summary.

 

Nothing went as planned yet.

When I was sick and had time to process everything I noticed how much the stress and anxiety that were caused by having an job interview put me off the wagon.

I have a lot to do. And I have to walk in smaller steps. I feel like not having the time, because the next interview will be soon and there are job deadlines piling up. But I do.

I grant myself all the time I need. Let's see how long it takes me to feel that way =)

 

So here is my plan for the coming 2 weeks.

My body needs some love. I want to feel better and more healthy. For both it is time to release some tension and clean up a little.

I will use fascial release and TRE, Trauma releasing excercises by David Berceli. I might blend meditation in when it feels right.

 

Week 3:

There will be no Junk food bought. I will cook everything I eat at home myself.

I may go to the canteen at work, but I will make a reasonable choice. That means the option with the least gluten in it.

I will perform at least 2 BW workouts.

 

Daily:

  • TRE circuit at least once a day
  • "undo the damage of sitting" excercises in the evening
  • Watch my health energy for 5 minutes

 

Week 4:

There will be no Junk food bought. I will cook everything I eat at home myself.

I may go to the canteen at work, but I will make a reasonable choice. That means the option with the least gluten in it.

I will perform at least 2 BW workouts. This will be adapted.

 

Daily:

  • TRE circuit at least once a day
  • "undo the damage of sitting" excercises in the evening
  • Watch my health energy for 5 minutes
  • Whatever I decide on Sunday.
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On 10/6/2016 at 1:55 PM, Sunmage said:

Mine were often so cold that it bothered me.

And I don't  like the cold from the inside feeling...

I'm cold all the time!  And my hands get so cold that I can barely move them.  I hate that feeling.  I'm the person who will still have a blanket on in the middle of summer when it is 100 degrees F outside!  

 

Try to stay warm, my friend.

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Thanks. Looks like you know what I'm talking about.

 

Week 3 report:

I was not as successful as hoped, still very tired, but achieved some things:

 

No Junk food and no gluten during the week. I did the TRE circle 5 of 7 days.
The other two tasks were done twice. No workouts. To tired. The TRE stuff is quite demanding, so it is not too bad.

 

But I also got new photographs for my job applications, a new suit and a job interview in 8 days.

 

So in addition to nailing the planned stuff my main task will be not to freak out days in advance like last time.

 

Week 4 attack plan:

 

There will be no Junk food bought. I will cook everything I eat at home myself.

I may go to the canteen at work, but I will make a reasonable choice. That means the option with the least gluten in it.

I will perform at least 2 BW workouts.

 

Daily:

  • TRE circuit at least once a day
  • "undo the damage of sitting" excercises 4 times
  • Watch my health energy for 5 minutes daily

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This is a long week.

I came home after regular bedtime 2 times this weeks and did a lot at work.

 

No real anxiety with the job interview.

 

Not much success with the goals though...

I grew to like my TRE circuit and it seems to help.

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Week 4 report:

 

I did get some healthy fast food once.

I didn't do workouts.

I did do the TRE circuit 5 times and feel good about it. There is a growing resistance about starting it that means it works well for me and changes things.

Actually I did notice personal improvements. For example I just told my boss that it made things pretty hard that I didn't get on the job training in the beginning.

One person at work I avoided was behaving pretty different. In a positive way. But he also wanted something from me, so lets see where this goes.

 

I had no trouble sleeping. The last time I had a job interview I felt anxiety a lot of the time, especially at night.

But I am still procrastinating on the preparation... 4 hours until bedtime and I am sooo tired.

 

Regarding being tired: I had 3 very long days in a row and it was fine.
Although I still feel drained, I have gained some stamina.

 

What have I learned:

  • TRE / Myofascial release works fine for me
    • I might have to reintroduce mindfulness or meditation soon
  • My Energy levels are increasing
  • Cutting morning coffee was good
  • I am growing personally
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