heidi From the Mud Springs the Lotus

[Heidi]

Oct. 24-30
 

. . . Do you have the patience to wait Till your mud settles and the water is clear? Can you remain unmoving Till the right action arises by itself?   The Master doesn’t seek fulfillment Not seeking, not expecting, She is present, and can welcome all things.   Stephen Mitchell’s Notes: “Mud” stands for concepts, judgments, desires, expectations -- everything that obscures and narrows reality. The Master’s life is pure and placid: Predictable like the seasons Obvious as the moon. When our mind/heart becomes transparent, the light of the Tao shines through.   Great acts are made up of small deeds.		M	T	W	R	F	S	U
	Meeting					X	X	X
	Call Katie	X				X
	3 Calls
	3 Numbers						1
	3 Prayers				X	X	X	X
	3 Acts of Service						1	2
	3 Gratitudes	X	X	X	X	X	X	X
	3 Positives	X	X	X
	Go To Work	X	X	X	X	X
	Walk 5k steps						X
	Sauna Meditation	X		X	X		X	X
	Journal	X		X		X	X	X
	Bedtime	X	X		X	X	X
	Water 2L
	Katina -- housekeeping
	Weekly Elements
	Acupuncture		X
	Katrina				X
	Once A Challenge
	Yoga Therapy
	Editing Test

 

[Heidi]

 

October 31 - November 6 2016 Inspired by @Hyrulian Yogi's challenge setup.		M	T	W	R	F	S	U
Alchemy	Editing Test
Alchemy	Voices.com demo
Care of Magical Creatures	Therapy				X
Care of Magical Creatures	Acupuncture
Charms	Sauna Meditation	X	X	X	X
Charms	Walk		X				X	X
Charms	Water 2L					X	X	X
Charms	Laundry Service
Charms	Cleaning Service
Defense Against the Dark Arts	Meeting	X	X				X	X
Defense Against the Dark Arts	Call Katie
Defense Against the Dark Arts	3 Calls
Defense Against the Dark Arts	3 Numbers		X				X
Defense Against the Dark Arts	3 Prayers	X	X
Defense Against the Dark Arts	3 Acts of Service	1	2				X	X
Defense Against the Dark Arts	3 Gratitudes	X	X	X	X	X	X	X
Defense Against the Dark Arts	3 Positives	X	X	X	X	X	X	X
Defense Against the Dark Arts	Bedtime	X	X		X	X	X	X
Divination	Journal	X
Muggle Studies	Go to Work	X	X	X	X	X
Transfiguration	Yoga in the Park
Transfiguration	Yoga Therapy

[Heidi]

Nov. 7-13

 

October 31 - November 6 2016		M	T	W	R	F	S	U
Alchemy	Editing Test
Alchemy	Voices.com demo
Care of Magical Creatures	Therapy				X
Care of Magical Creatures	Acupuncture		X
Charms	Sauna Meditation	X	X	X	X
Charms	Walk	X	X	X
Charms	Water 2L
Charms	Laundry Service
Charms	Cleaning Service
Defense Against the Dark Arts	Meeting				X
Defense Against the Dark Arts	Call Katie			X
Defense Against the Dark Arts	3 Calls
Defense Against the Dark Arts	3 Numbers
Defense Against the Dark Arts	3 Prayers	X	X	X	X	X
Defense Against the Dark Arts	3 Acts of Service				X	X
Defense Against the Dark Arts	3 Gratitudes	X	X	X	X	X
Defense Against the Dark Arts	3 Positives	X	X	X	X	X
Defense Against the Dark Arts	Bedtime	X	X	X	X	X	X
Divination	Journal	X	X	X	X	X
Muggle Studies	Go to Work	X	X	X	X	X
Transfiguration	Yoga in the Park
Transfiguration	Yoga Therapy

[Heidi]

Nov. 14-20

 

 

. . . Do you have the patience to wait Till your mud settles and the water is clear? Can you remain unmoving Till the right action arises by itself?   The Master doesn’t see fulfillment Not seeking, not expecting, She is present, and can welcome all things.   Stephen Mitchell’s Notes: “Mud” stands for concepts, judgements, desires, expectations -- everything that obscures an narrows reality. The Master’s life is pure and placid: Predictable like the seasons Obvious as the moon. When our mind/heart becomes transparent, the light of the tao shines through.   Great acts are made up of small deeds.		M	T	W	R	F	S	U
	Go to Work	X
	Meeting
	Sauna Meditation
	Daily Elements
	Call Katie
	3 Calls
	3 Numbers
	3 Prayers
	3 Acts of Service
	3 Gratitudes
	3 Positives	X
	Walk
	Journal	X
	Bedtime
	Water 2L
	Weekly Elements
	Laundry
	Katrina
	Once A Challenge
	Yoga Therapy
	Editing Test

 

 

[Heidi]

Nov. 21-27

 

 

. . . Do you have the patience to wait Till your mud settles and the water is clear? Can you remain unmoving Till the right action arises by itself?   The Master doesn’t see fulfillment Not seeking, not expecting, She is present, and can welcome all things.   Stephen Mitchell’s Notes: “Mud” stands for concepts, judgements, desires, expectations -- everything that obscures an narrows reality. The Master’s life is pure and placid: Predictable like the seasons Obvious as the moon. When our mind/heart becomes transparent, the light of the tao shines through.   Great acts are made up of small deeds.		M	T	W	R	F	S	U
	Go to Work
	Meeting
	Sauna Meditation
	Daily Elements
	Call Katie
	3 Calls
	3 Numbers
	3 Prayers
	3 Acts of Service
	3 Gratitudes
	3 Positives
	Walk
	Journal
	Bedtime
	Water 2L
	Weekly Elements
	Laundry
	Katrina
	Once A Challenge
	Yoga Therapy
	Editing Test

 

 

[Heidi]

Ok, sports fans, we are off for another round of 

Find The Center & Live the Tao.

 

So far, this week has been solidly rocky, filled with off-center moments that afford me ample opportunities to find my way back through breathing, through relinquishing, through detachment and clarity and love.

 

And it's only Monday!

 

Aside from all the roller-coaster drama that is the ongoing shenanigans with my ex, there are some bizarre single occurrences jus tin the last few days: I lost a favorite bracelet; I left my workout wear in the sauna and forgot to take it with me -- it was gone, of course; my favorite pen (of nearly 30 years) broke today while in a meeting.

 

Back to center through the breath.

[Draegon (Liam P Boyle)]

Ouch.  May you be blessed with more peace and fortune (the good kind) than you have been.

[LittleTurtle]

Hey you!!!  I couldn't find you last time, but it's good to see you now!  I'm intrigued and love the chart.  I must create something like...I might steal this idea.

[Hyrulian Yogi]

I love those charts so much. I will definitely follow your challenge. 

 

I am sending you lots of positive vibes for a lovely rest of the week!

[Bekah]

Hiiii  Those charts are fantastic and I love them! I'm sorry things have been rough lately! It's funny but sometimes losing something like a favorite pen feels huge 

[Heidi]

18 hours ago, Draegon (Liam P Boyle) said:

Ouch.  May you be blessed with more peace and fortune (the good kind) than you have been.

Thank you, Draegon. There is much to learn this week, it would seem, and peace will come for those willing to work at the lesson.

 

18 hours ago, LittleTurtle said:

Hey you!!!  I couldn't find you last time, but it's good to see you now!  I'm intrigued and love the chart.  I must create something like...I might steal this idea.

LT!! So good to see you again. Last challenge was half gone before i knew it, so I didn't sweat the details. I'm here now, and loving the charts as much as ever. Please steal them!! Between the two of us, we will end up with a whole notebook of Charting the Way to Enlightenment.  Seriously, you know I love the idea of being useful, so take this and play with it -- I'll come by and see what you made.

 

45 minutes ago, Hyrulian Yogi said:

I love those charts so much. I will definitely follow your challenge. 

 

I am sending you lots of positive vibes for a lovely rest of the week!

Thank you for the positive energy and good wishes. Welcome aboard!

[Heidi]

So the work week continues.

I don't really understand working with people in general -- they seem to be weird to me and I think I don't understand office environment rules -- there are the written rules, and then there's what everyone actually does, and no one but me seems to find this strange. 

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Anyway.

 

There's a lot of ramping up and training going on this week, which is taking longer than it probably needs to, but is a good pace overall. I'm just still stymied at times at the pace of the office. And then when I filled out the 401k, it gave me a minimum projection, starting in 2036. This left me feeling defeated.

 

In the meantime, I have found a white noise track, a brown noise track, a pink noise track and a falling rain track (my favorite) through amazon music. I own them all and have made a random playlist of them to help me get through the day (Country Music is apparently a very serious trigger for me and after the third day, I was done taking chances), and I have an essay I'm working on about how it's time for America to grow up.

 

I need to take the bulb out of my overhead light -- it's causing me headaches.

 

I am meeting with my new attorney this evening for a couple hours. This will be draining in the extreme, and I expect to be ready for a long hot bath and an early bedtime.

 

It's probably a good thing that I don't drink any more.

[Bekah]

Wow that is an intense situation. I get it though. I got fired from a job bc I never understood the "what everyone actually does" part of work. Some of the things you said remind me of a book I read once called Highly Sensitive Person. 

 

Some days an early bedtime are just what the doctor would recommend  

[Heidi]

46 minutes ago, Bekah said:

Hiiii  Those charts are fantastic and I love them! I'm sorry things have been rough lately! It's funny but sometimes losing something like a favorite pen feels huge 

Just don't even. I have been to two different jewelry stores trying to find someone to repair it, without luck. Yes, it's that important.

27 minutes ago, Bekah said:

Wow that is an intense situation. I get it though. I got fired from a job bc I never understood the "what everyone actually does" part of work. Some of the things you said remind me of a book I read once called Highly Sensitive Person. 

 

Some days an early bedtime are just what the doctor would recommend  

Thanks for the book recommendation! It sounds right up my alley.

I know that the more I read the Tao Te Ching (I like Ursula K LeGuin's translation), the more it means to me.

[Draegon (Liam P Boyle)]

1 hour ago, Heidi said:

they seem to be weird to me and I think I don't understand office environment rules -- there are the written rules, and then there's what everyone actually does, and no one but me seems to find this strange.

I know, right?  I've been at this office for going on five years and the politics aspect still escapes me.

[Heidi]

Best discovery of the month:

My bluetooth headphones keep the signal to my workstation all the way to the kitchen and back.

#AdeleForTheWin

[Heidi]

Had a great meeting with the attorney -- two hours long -- and then went to the hot tub with fifteen minutes of sauna after it.

Bedtime will be delayed while we eat a very late dinner.

[Heidi]

Had therapy yesterday, and it didn't come any too soon. She said that transition time is over and that now I absolutely must put the gym and a meeting on my daily routine, that my life and my mental health depend upon it. I'm going to update the chart to reflect the priority of it all -- I was noticing that the sheer volume of items being tracked was intimidating me. This is not new; I have a way of letting my lists grow to an unmanageable size.

 

This morning was filled with a moment sent just to me to make me smile:

We pulled into the gas station and as we walked in, there was a man getting settled on a beautiful blue motorcycle, its engine purring, him trying to get the coffee cup settled between his legs *just so.*  I stopped in front of him and looked again, and then couldn't help it -- I just laughed in delight. His face in the helmet went from puzzled to sheepish and he smiled: "That's not going to work." He said.

 

I went in and got some decaf and enjoyed the drive back to town over the parkway.

 

[Hyrulian Yogi]

I hope that this advice will help you! Your story truly made me smile. 

[Heidi]

5 minutes ago, Hyrulian Yogi said:

I hope that this advice will help you! Your story truly made me smile. 

Glad I could share.

[Heidi]

Picture Day results are in. I always feel as though I look totally goofy.

[Heidi]

This weekend my partner and I cleared through some major items, emotionally and spiritually, and while it was uncomfortable, I think it has opened the way for a much better relationship, with the world, with ourselves and with each other.

 

We started going to meetings and the gym again -- the sauna makes a world of difference. I dropped off a box of goodies for the boys at my mom's, and Graeme wouldn't talk to me, but my mother started to berate me, so i left, not in a huff, just going to the next thing with Vivian. This is a difficult path for me, but filled with important lessons for me to learn. 

 

We went to a new-to-us meeting on Saturday, and then a meeting we hadn't been to in forever or frequently on Sunday. Both were beyond needed, and I'm looking forward to the meeting tonight after a full day of court-related preparation activities.

 

Also, there was knitting and time at several parks, time in the gym, time making cookies and baking this weekend. It was lovely.

[Heidi]

Happy Halloween from me and Jessica Jones.

[Draegon (Liam P Boyle)]

Blessed Samhain

Sent from the dragon's lair

[LittleTurtle]

You don't look goofy - you look beautiful!