Minna counts her spoons

[Minna]

Two challenges ago, I set the bar too high and felt bad about failing. Last challenge, I simply quit because depression had the upper hand and I could handle exactly one percent of the life I was living. 

 

So.

 

Recognizing that depression can severely limit my capacity to do what needs doing, I’m going to approach this challenge carefully and with respect for what I can do at the moment.

 

OK, that’s crap. I don’t respect myself and I know it. But as Carrie Fisher said, “do it anyway.” Maybe the confidence will follow.

 

I’m coming back and trying again because the alternative is to stay the way I am. That is: depressed, plagued with terrible migraines, unable to do the things I want to do, feeling awful about myself and with a closet full of clothes that don’t fit. I could stay that way, sure, but maybe I can start making little changes that can only mean my life gets better a little bit at a time. I am so tired of living at the bottom of the ocean.

 

My much-more-modest goals for this challenge:

 

• Recognize at least one negative thought every day and workshop it until I can come up with another way of looking at it. I don’t have to believe it yet; I just have to go through the motions for now.
• Plan three healthy family meals a week. We don’t eat junk, but we could eat better.
• Walk at least ten minutes a day: to work from the parking lot, up and down my road, whatever. Bonus points for my favorite five-mile walk on Sundays.
• Do three bodyweight workouts a week from darebee.com.
• Be OK if I don’t do all of it perfectly.

 

This may not be the most exciting challenge posted this month, but when you're in my position and find that from time to time not being alive actually has some appeal, it seems more than exciting enough to me.

 

I’m changing my avatar from Rey to General Leia for this challenge because although Rey still has work to do, Carrie Fisher was a badass about her own mental health and still found a way to run a rebellion.

 

[Miw_Sher]

<3

I love that you used Carrie Fisher as an inspiration for this challenge. If you don't mind, I will be flying under her flag too.

[starpuck]

Girl,  I posted that same image in the final wrap up of the last challenge!!    One of my big hurdles in life is that I stress over everything.  Every. Thing.  Stress turns to fear.  Fear turns to inaction.   So yeah.  That Carrie Fisher quote.  Mmm.  Right in the feels.

 

Totally following along a fellow rebel!

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

You got this Minna. You have set yourself up for success.

[Miw_Sher]

How are you doing Minna?

[Tanktimus the Encourager]

Did your spoons get stolen?