ixaera keeps on going~

[ixaera]

8 hours ago, shaar said:

This truly is one of the best feelings ever, it's super empowering in the best of ways.  EAT SHIT TOTAL JERK

 

If his name were Gerald it would have been perfect, but it DOES start with a soft G and is two syllables, so close enough to get a HASHBROWNEATSHITGERALD

[ixaera]

1248 (today) /1477(avg)

5/20 - 111.2 lbs

 

arglbargl

Was doing fine but we of course went to a 10:15 pm movie (AVENGERS omg you guys) and I was super hungry because normally I'm getting to sleep by then and don't even know I'm hungry, but surrounded by yummy smelling things, I was hungry. So I had pretzel bites and some wine, which tipped me well over the balance on Saturday

 

Today was mostly fine, even in spite of 2 beers at Mr Ix's gym's fights. Watched amateur boxing matches and people doing their first ones! 

 

I guess this is a practice round for June at this point. 1477 isn't really cut territory, but at least it is firmly in "don't gain weight" territory, which is important since my fat pants are tight now. 

 

Lifts

4/7

Fire Trainer [ ] (not yet)

 

Nothing Saturday or today. The gym fights started before I could get back from lifts so I didn't go  So that's one right down the drain. I'm likely to do an at-home replacement workout tomorrow to do something.

 

Clean things:

More laundry, groceries

6/12

 

Relax:

Not a workday n/a

2/9

 

Yesterday I spent time researching my Halloween costume. See I finally found a cosplay crafter who makes the Kaylee coveralls in the style I want them!!!! And doesn't charge 15,000 million dollars. I can afford it finally, and it's happening, so of course I am rewatching Firefly and Serenity. Character research. It's been like 10 years. After about 5 episodes I did some internetting and music listening, then cleaned, read, and got ready to go out with Mr Ix. We watched some Avengers and holy cow, that is a movie. I'm ready for the Avengers Strike back.

 

Today post fights I played a buncha Battletech (and probably will again soon, or I'll read, dunno).

 

Spoiler

 

 

[ixaera]

1193 (today) /1446(avg)

5/20 - 111.2 lbs

 

Lifts

4/7

Fire Trainer [ ] (not yet)

 

I did not do a replacement workout because I listened to music practically all day instead

 

Clean things:

Dishes and other random stuff

7/12

 

Relax:

Not a workday n/a

2/9

 

Nothing really to speak of today. I do legs tomorrow, i think it's 2nd to last session with trainer. he seemed to take it well when I mentioned that it was my last week, but odds are he didn't comprehend. Bets anyone?

 

 

Spoiler

 

 

[Urgan]

12 hours ago, ixaera said:

Nothing really to speak of today. I do legs tomorrow, i think it's 2nd to last session with trainer. he seemed to take it well when I mentioned that it was my last week, but odds are he didn't comprehend. Bets anyone?

 

 

This many.

 

[CourtnieMarie]

looks like a nice weekend! avengers was a ride, huh?

[ixaera]

12 hours ago, Urgan said:

 

This many.

 

 

Spoilers, I reminded him today and he was surprised, so

Guessing I'll have to remind him again in a week.

 

11 hours ago, CourtnieMarie said:

looks like a nice weekend! avengers was a ride, huh?

 

OMG

[Urgan]

13 hours ago, ixaera said:

Spoilers, I reminded him today and he was surprised, so

Guessing I'll have to remind him again in a week.

 

[ixaera]

10 hours ago, Urgan said:

 

 

Good news! He remembered today was our last session, the hard work is DONE

 

1255 (today) /1403(avg)

5/20 - 111.2 lbs

 

Lifts

6/7

Fire Trainer [ X ] <--- done!

 

Tuesday

5x3 120 lb squats <-- that's right ladies and gents, we got 120 lbs on our back at last

3x120 lbs prowler pushes 

3x10 forgotten weight leg presses (these feel mostly useless to me, are they??)

 

super set of calf raises and RDLs on the hack squat which I noped out of after 2 sets because I felt it hitting my back in a mean way. He did not argue this time.

 

Wednesday

5x3 90 lbs bench press

3x10 38 lb overhead press

3x12 60? lb machine incline press

 

neverending circuit from hell of 3x20 10 lb sledgehammers, tri push downs, cable bicep curls, and rear delt flies

was starting to get nauseated

 

I've added extra cardio to help with the cut, so 30 min each day after work

 

Clean things:

litter today, nothing yesterday. I may ease up on this b/c cardio makes me too unmotivated

8/12

 

Relax:

oh oops...

...hmm...

2/9

 

 

starting to get hard to track what I've posted so I might stop out of pure idek

Spoiler

 

 

[Jord]

10 hours ago, ixaera said:

Good news! He remembered today was our last session, the hard work is DONE

 

1255 (today) /1403(avg)

5/20 - 111.2 lbs

 

Lifts

6/7

Fire Trainer [ X ] <--- done!

 

yassssss! finally! phew! free, free at last!

[shaar]

12 hours ago, ixaera said:

Fire Trainer [ X ] <--- done!

 

YESS DON'T LET THE DOOR HIT YA WHERE THE GOOD LORT SPLIT YA

 

[ixaera]

1785 (today) /1435(avg)

5/20 - 111.2 lbs

5/31 - 110 lbs

 

well, it continues. I oopsed on all the baked goods today

 

Lifts

6/7

Fire Trainer [ X ] 

 

30 min on the elliptical

 

Clean things:

No, headache. Tired. No.

8/12

 

Relax:

HOW DO I EVEN

2/9

 

 

One thing that might be good for me to learn is how to take a compliment because I do not know how. How do you even practice that? Just have someone give you fake compliments til you figure out how to squeeze out a thank you and something classy? That sounds painful actually. I get too embarrassed and just go "mmrph" and hope everyone just forgets I'm there

 

Spoiler

 

 

[ixaera]

June Goals

 

Keep Trying To Adult

 

 

This month begins with an on call week. I'll just be copying May's goals with a tweak for now. The goals for on call week will be very abbreviated, though.

 

Food things:

Keep up the cut, same rules.

 

0/1300 avg

weigh ins June 1/15/30

 

Gym things:

Lifts--do them 4x a week except for on call week. There are 12 total days.

0/12

 

Clean things:

10 mins OR elliptical. Because apparently energy for both is difficult.

0/30

 

Relax:

Take 15 min during work days to STOP put down the mouse and go disconnect for a few (I wind myself up too much)

Keep trying this, even though I suck at it, still.

 

Shark stuff but somehow this month I started over a week early with no signs of stopping. It is absolute misery. I just wanted you to know that.

[Jord]

9 hours ago, ixaera said:

Relax:

HOW DO I EVEN

 

I don't understand this either. Even on vacation I feel like I need to be DOING.

 

9 hours ago, ixaera said:

This month begins with an on call week. I'll just be copying May's goals with a tweak for now. The goals for on call week will be very abbreviated, though.

 

Food things:

Keep up the cut, same rules.

 

0/1300 avg

weigh ins June 1/15/30

 

Gym things:

Lifts--do them 4x a week except for on call week. There are 12 total days.

0/12

 

Clean things:

10 mins OR elliptical. Because apparently energy for both is difficult.

0/30

 

Relax:

Take 15 min during work days to STOP put down the mouse and go disconnect for a few (I wind myself up too much)

Keep trying this, even though I suck at it, still.

 

Still fabulous goals!

 

Maybe when I come back to BL in July I'll have to get on that relaxation train.

[Urgan]

11 hours ago, ixaera said:

Relax:

HOW DO I EVEN

 

1 hour ago, Taddea Zhaan said:

I don't understand this either. Even on vacation I feel like I need to be DOING.

 

My upper body is in a constant state of tension. There is no Relax.

[CourtnieMarie]

it took me a long time of biting my tongue to accept compliments. just being aware of it is a huge first step. that way you can maybe stop before saying something condescending about yourself in response - which is what i used to do. "oh yeah, but..." a thank you and a smile is enough you don't have to be classy  

[shaar]

On 5/31/2018 at 10:31 PM, ixaera said:

Shark stuff but somehow this month I started over a week early with no signs of stopping. It is absolute misery. I just wanted you to know that.

 

Frriiiicccckk DO NOT WANT ;______________;

 

On 5/31/2018 at 10:24 PM, ixaera said:

 

One thing that might be good for me to learn is how to take a compliment because I do not know how. How do you even practice that? Just have someone give you fake compliments til you figure out how to squeeze out a thank you and something classy? That sounds painful actually. I get too embarrassed and just go "mmrph" and hope everyone just forgets I'm there

 

 

I think for me it depends on the type of compliment??  Like if it's something simple I'm generally "Thanks dude!" but if it's overbearing or flowery I just kinda... stand there.... with a plastered on smile.

[ixaera]

UPDATE DRUNK? WHY NOT? (Don't WORRY I'm not on call for like 28 hours it's OK)

 

HAHA HI

 

6/1 & 6/2 coming right atcha

 

(I have just disgusted my cat by dancing at her--you know it's bad when the cat looks away--no mom please stop)

 

Food things:

Keep up the cut, same rules.

 

2100/2083 avg

6/1 111.2 lbs

 

Gym things:

I did these yesterday yes

1/12

 

I did sumo deadlift things

there was a 5x3 as I recall, at 135 lbs

Was gonna do 140 or so but I dropped it a bit out of respect for Wednesday's back nopes

Why did I not belt? Wine Ix does not know, but she does remember that she got the heavy metal gym to play Ladytron

it's just all this charm i guess

 

 

(j/k it was the cool lady watching the front and she INSISTED on knowing what I wanted to listen to, so, as usual, zero charm involved)

 

hold on while I refill my wine

 

ok slightly distracted by ninja turtles and I had to correct Mr Ix how can he not know which turtle likes the pizza MOST and wears the orange mask

~questions relationship choices~

 

anyway

then

then it was tire flips and I went up a tire

my arms look like trash so I'm wondering what do being pale has problems

but I flipped the tire A LOT you see

then I did a circuit with some leg things and rolling out my abs or something

 

Then i ate an omelet but I don't think that's part of this story?

 

Clean things:

Elliptical yesterday, cleaning today yes mmm

2/30

 

Relax:

No LOL

I need a strategy my loves

 

 

Okay and I may be beyond tipsy because I've listened to this song 4 times in a row :3

I COMMAND YOU TO LOVE IT TOO

 

Spoiler

 

 

 

[Urgan]

44 minutes ago, ixaera said:

anyway

then

then it was tire flips and I went up a tire

my arms look like trash so I'm wondering what do being pale has problems

but I flipped the tire A LOT you see

then I did a circuit with some leg things and rolling out my abs or something

 

Then i ate an omelet but I don't think that's part of this story?

 

I demand more storytime with Ix, drunk or sober. 

[shaar]

14 hours ago, Urgan said:

 

I demand more storytime with Ix, drunk or sober. 

Oh my god same

 

Wondering what do being pale has problems YES THIS IS A MOOD

[ixaera]

6/3 

 

Not drunk this time just a sleepy Monday morning person

 

 

There's a thunderstorm outside it is loud

Thankfully I do not need to leave for work for another hour

 

I had some weird nightmares, and I don't know if one of them was the angry/drunk neighbor guest guy that sometimes rants and threatens people or if I dreamed it because it was a much more subdued conversation with some lady and he still sounded angry but less loud. Asking about doing some kinda work, but in a way that was like, threatening not to do it

 

something weird is afoot

or I dreamed that 

 

 

Food things:

 

1446/1870 avg

6/1 111.2 lbs

 

Currently putting on weight, the opposite of the plan, for obvious reasons. Gonna cut the caramel macchiato out after all 

 

Gym things:

2/12

 

Sunday I did this:

5x3 55 lbs strict overhead press no AMRAP

 

5x2 neutral grip pull ups, then one to grow on

 

3x10 60 lbs close grip bench press

 

4x10 65 lb T-bar rows

 

4x8 80 lbs lat pulldowns neutral grip

 

~Fin~

 

And now I have basically a week off. I'm debating between full body dumbbell circuits at the work gym or just doing elliptical every day. The work gym is the only option because I am an unlucky person and will absolutely get pages at the gym with shitty internet.

 

Clean things:

Some mild cleaning. 

3/30

 

Relax:

N/A not a workday

 

And now for something completely different!

 

Spoiler

 

 

[CourtnieMarie]

mondaaaaaaaaaaaze i know elliptical is boring but you're on call this week right? i remember that being terribad so it might be better to conserve brainpower

[Jord]

On 6/2/2018 at 10:36 PM, ixaera said:

Relax:

No LOL

I need a strategy my loves

 

when I was in college I used to put on music and just lay on the floor staring at the ceiling. now when I think about that I think about how many touch points would ache from laying on the hard floor.

 

but still, at what age do we forget how to relax? my best guess is 23.

 

what is the most relaxing activity you can think of?

 

21 hours ago, ixaera said:

Relax:

N/A not a workday

 

pretty sure you can relax ANY DAY.

[ixaera]

23 hours ago, CourtnieMarie said:

mondaaaaaaaaaaaze i know elliptical is boring but you're on call this week right? i remember that being terribad so it might be better to conserve brainpower

 

This is REALLY wise and I'm going to follow this advice. 

 

2 hours ago, Taddea Zhaan said:

 

when I was in college I used to put on music and just lay on the floor staring at the ceiling. now when I think about that I think about how many touch points would ache from laying on the hard floor.

 

but still, at what age do we forget how to relax? my best guess is 23.

 

what is the most relaxing activity you can think of?

 

 

pretty sure you can relax ANY DAY.

 

haha  I definitely get plenty of me time on non work days. the strategy I super need is how to get myself to stop working once I've started, if it's not just literally the end of my normal shift

[Urgan]

37 minutes ago, ixaera said:

haha  I definitely get plenty of me time on non work days. the strategy I super need is how to get myself to stop working once I've started, if it's not just literally the end of my normal shift

 

It might need to involve the use of alerts/timers....

[ixaera]

10 hours ago, Urgan said:

 

It might need to involve the use of alerts/timers....

 

won't work, nature of work is such that when the timer goes off, I will be in the middle of something time sensitive, every time! I need something that will remind me when I'm between things