stillskies

DAYS 8-12 Goal One - Get your ass moving. Twinkle, twinkle, little star, muscle up and lift the bar: 1/3 - Lifted tonight. Squats (5x5 @ 85lbs) and deadlifts (3x5 @ 105lbs). I fucked off the beginning of the week so I'll be doing all three in a row. Again. One day, I'll learn. Walk (or run) it off, buttercup: 1/2 - Snugs and I went on a run today! I have... a lot of feelings about this even though I know I shouldn't compare current me to me that ran my first half marathon because lol. But whatever. We did 1.36 miles (which was more than I'd intended, but once I hit the halfway point, I was like okay I can go a bit longer). It took a little over 19 minutes, which is... not terrible, but not great. I don't know. I did the thing at least. You should be a pretzel: 1/3 - Did a more strength/core based yoga session today and stretched after my run this morning. But since the stretching session didn't meet the minimum time length, I cannot count it. Hence a yoga class. Goal Two - What is in your mouth? Keep it under 1800: 4/7 - As stated earlier, I sucked on Sunday because travel and mountains, but I've done well the rest of the week! You are a cucumber with anxiety: 3/7 - Sunday and today were nopes. But I've gotten it the rest of the week! Soda is poison and you need to stop: 4/7 - Sunday I was over by 10 (as stated in last weeks recap), and Monday and Tuesday were RIGHT ON 400, but I've got most of the week at goal. This is great! Goal Three - Me time. Stitch, stitch, baby: 0/7 - Nope. Haven't started. At this rate, this goal is just here to mock me. Take a night off, mommy: 0/1 - SUPPOSEDLY I will get some time on Saturday. Which I desperately, desperately need. I have book club, so for sure as of 5:20ish pm I'll be baby free, but it would be nice to have the afternoon, too.

Yup! It's all uphill from here or something like that. LMAO Yup. I'm a freaking raven, really. SHINY RUN LIFT BAR DAYS 5-7 Goal One - Get your ass moving. Twinkle, twinkle, little star, muscle up and lift the bar: 3/3 - Nailed it. I got in my last lifting session on Thursday, which was bench (5x5 @ 80lbs). I didn't do a second olympic lift, but I did do some stability stuff with the dumbbells and some hanging practice. (My grip is terrible. I'll never survive aerial again if I can't get my grip back. Sob.) Walk (or run) it off, buttercup: 2/2 - Nailed it! Walked around Breckenridge Saturday afternoon, then went tubing, which involved a bit of trekking and pulling the tube through snow. You should be a pretzel: 1/3 - Yeah... nope. I failed this one. WHOOPS. BETTER LUCK THIS WEEK. Goal Two - What is in your mouth? Keep it under 1800: 2/7 - I was good on Thursday, but Friday/Saturday/Sunday was Mountain Vacation and I just. Stuffed myself with food. And I feel vaguely ill because of it, but oh well. You are a cucumber with anxiety: 3/7 - I did it Thursday and Friday!! But not Saturday and Sunday because lol. Soda is poison and you need to stop: 4/7 - Thursday and Saturday were good, Friday and Sunday were each over by 10. You win some, you lose some. Goal Three - Me time. Stitch, stitch, baby: 0/7 - Some day, this knit will start~ Take a night off, mommy: 0/1 - I didn't think that was gonna happen, but I did get about 2.5, maybe 3 on Saturday between walking around Breck and tubing. Not the greatest of weeks, but also not the worst. IT'S ALL UPHILL FROM HERE~

Week 1, Days 1-4 I didn't get my challenge posted until yesterday, but whatever, I do what I want. Goal One - Get your ass moving. Twinkle, twinkle, little star, muscle up and lift the bar: 2/3 - Lifted last night, about to go lift tonight. Last night was bench (5x5 @ 75lbs) and seated OHP (5x5 @ 47lbs). Tonight is squats (5x5 @ 70lbs) and deadlifts (1x5 @ 95lbs, 3x5 @ 115lbs). (Weight edited in once I finish.) Walk (or run) it off, buttercup: 1/2 - Went for a short walk around the block with the wife and child yesterday. It wasn't as long as I'd have like because holy balls it was cold out. You should be a pretzel: 1/3 - Tentative, since I'm supposed to do this after I lift tonight. Will update if I don't. Goal Two - What is in your mouth? Keep it under 1800: 1/7 - I kept it under 1800 today, and I missed it by 8 calories (!!) yesterday. Sunday and Monday.... lol. You are a cucumber with anxiety: 1/7 - I did remember to do this today! But... that's it. Sigh. Soda is poison and you need to stop: 2/7 - Sunday and today were under 400 calories, and Monday and Tuesday were each 50 calories over. Alas. Goal Three - Me time. Stitch, stitch, baby: 0/7 - Ouch. I really do need to start this... Take a night off, mommy: 0/1 - I don't think this is happening this week, but that's okay. We'll be in the mountains this weekend, so I'll have some baby-free time what with there being four of us. Not too terrible a start. I'm still mad about yesterday's calorie count, but c'est la vie. I really wanted that melted chocolate with my strawberries.

Ty y'all ♥ Yup. I have a hard time with C25K for some reason - it either feels like too quick a ramp or not quick enough. I've got a loose idea of what I'm planning on doing, which has worked in the past for me. I tend to start out with walking/running intervals, kind of like C25K does, but I end up doing distance-based rather than time-based. I'm way too finicky about my mileage to be like "ten minutes in better turn around, that'll be like 1.5 miles" nahhhh I gotta do the 2. XD Thanks for the encouragement!! And def stick around. ♥

Why are you like this?

I despise you.

Guess who's back? Back again? Stillskies is back. Tell some friends. (Please don't.) Anyway, I have been dragged from my grave to come back for the ten year anniversary challenge! Which means I... have to remember... how to do the things that I spent two years way back when learning how to do, because time is a bitch and so is depression. Such is life. And speaking of life, there have been some big changes!! Mostly, you'll notice I'm here, with the rangers, and not back with the monks where I used to hang. This is because I sadly had to say goodbye to BJJ in 2015 because whatever I did to my back just couldn't take it anymore. Which was a real bummer, since I had gotten my fourth stripe on my white belt and was close to my blue. C'est la vie. I do still (on occasion) run and lift, and I had a hot minute of doing crossfit, so when I was pondering my (late) return, the rangers seemed like a good fit. So hi! Please be gentle. Other changes of note: I quit my job in December to be a stay at home mom to our now 11 month old daughter. So time is kind of wibbly wobbly and the only reason I know days is because I have a part-time night job at a bookstore, so I have to know when to show up. I was doing aerial pretty consistently (hoop is life) but I took some time off after my last performance in July and have been dragging my feet getting back into it. Maybe after this challenge I'll see about going back or something. I'm still not very interesting. Sorry. ONTO THE CHALLENGE! GOAL ONE: GET YOUR ASS MOVING I've been doing a bullet journal on and off for the last few years, and this year, I decided to simply pick three things in four areas of my life to focus on. Some of them I'm doing okay on! Some of them, like getting my ass moving, needs a bit of help, so here we go: Twinkle, twinkle, little star, muscle up and lift the bar: What it says on the tin! I want to lift 3x a week. I was doing okay in January, although I slipped to two days by the end of the month, and I didn't touch the bar at all last week. So, let's see if being back here (and having to report in) will guilt my butt into going downstairs to the rack in my flipping basement and lift the bar. Walk (or run) it off, buttercup: I miss running. I hate running. You see the conundrum. I want to run (or walk) outside 2x a week. This can (and probably should) be with the baby, as my in-laws are lovely and got me a running stroller for my birthday, and Snugs enjoys seeing the outside world. This has a lot more mental push back than the laziness that sometimes overcomes me in the previous goal: back in 2014, I started running, and in 2015, I was doing long distances without stopping with a decent pace. Then I got depressed and stopped. Every time I've tried to get back into running, I keep comparing myself now to how I was in 2015. My mile time is too high, I should be running faster, longer, etc. After a few runs, I completely shut down and refuse to go back out. Hence the walking caveat here. Anything that gets my body moving and working towards that goal of being able to run like I used to is helpful. It's just... hard to remember that. You should be a pretzel: This should be an easy one, and yet. I hate stretching. My lower back, which I injured back in 2015/2016, loves being stretched. Additionally, aerial looks so much nicer when you have some flexibility. Hence, yoga/at least 20 minutes stretching session 3x a week. @starsapart and I were doing pretty good, picking a yoga video during Snugs' first nap and getting through it, but I really, really, really hate yoga and stretching, but it's good for me, so I have to suck it up. GOAL TWO: WHAT IS IN YOUR MOUTH?? Counting calories is the only way I've found that works for my body to lose weight. So I've been logging all of my food again (started at the beginning of the year), and I feel like I've re-established that habit pretty well. I'm taking care to pay attention to when I'm freaking out over the number on the app (I have a very long history of disordered eating: counting calories sometimes triggers it, so I know once I start the whole "oh, yesterday was 1600, let's see if I can do 1400 today/1200/800/etc)" to stop the counting). What I've been shit at is keeping my calories in a reasonable range, and drinking more water, less soda. So: Keep it under 1800: At my current weight, 1800 is still a cut. Better if I stay in the 1600s, but that's a more drastic cut for me right now, when my daily average is 2200. Start slow, build momentum, go from there. What really kills me is that it's only been recently that this has started. I was doing good at the beginning of the year, with one or two days a week where I went over, and now it's... a daily thing. So, I want to keep my daily calorie count at under 1800. You are a cucumber with anxiety: And (aside from anxiety), what are cucumbers made of? Water! I'm not setting a particular "you must drink x ozs of water a day" goal because I truly, vehemently hate water. Instead, I just want to start out with making sure I'm getting some water when I'm not working. For this goal, it's simple: drink a glass of water in the morning before eating anything else. That's it. Preferably, it should be the pint glasses and not the smaller glasses, but literally, I just need to built the habit, so. Baby steps. Soda is poison and you need to stop: Ah, the days when I was soda free. The problem with those days was I still wanted soda. I like soda. But I really don't need to be drinking as much as I currently do. My year long goal is I can have soda no more than two times a week. That's... not working for me at this moment in my life, so for the purposes of this challenge, no more than 400 soda calories a day. This means two and a half small cans, two large cans, one and a half bottles... However it works out, but no more than 400 of my calories can go to soda. GOAL THREE: ME TIME This is a nice, easy one. I'm really fucking bad at taking time for myself, so I need to force myself to do it. Fortunately, I do have hobbies outside of playing with the baby, so let's dig in: Stitch, stitch, baby: My bff is having a baby!! And I like to knit!!! So I've been meaning to start on the baby blanket I want to make for her! To make sure I get this done (and, in accordance with my bujo goals), I just want to take an hour a day to knit. That's it. Just an hour. Baby is due in April, so the main goal is to be done by end of March, but her baby shower is on 3/14, so that's the stretch goal. But, an hour a day is something I can find. Take a night off, mommy: Being a stay at home mom means you really don't get a night off. And as the only time I leave the house, sans baby, is to go to work, I don't really have baby-free time to do something fun. Even exercise is done during her naps or after she's in bed, and there's always the risk that she'll wake up, truncating whatever I'm doing. Basically, I need consecutive hours of not being responsible for Snugs. All I want is four consecutive hours a week. Can be an afternoon, or an evening. Doesn't really matter. This one, however, is contingent on @starsapart's schedule. If I'm not at work, she's at rehearsal, and she's also often at rehearsal over the weekend. So this one might not be an every week thing, but it is something I need to work on doing. That's it. That's the whole challenge. Let's see how this goes~

All The Rest of The Days Work has been busy. I'm trying to stand up a new team by the first week of April, and we're ridiculously behind. So, a lot of my time has been spent on that. Outside of that, I've mostly been binge watching Gilmore Girls and having fun RPing. And playing with the cats. Lots of playing with the cats. Challenge-wise, this last week was a bust. Didn't do anything challenge-related, so this week was a fail. Rolling with the punches, but I definitely think I know which princess I'm doing next month. So, yay. Moving on.

Cats in bags are always cute. Work has been crazy, but I've been... around. More or less. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Wrapping it up.

Thank you~! And I will, eventually. CAAAAAT. And no worries! Thank! ♥

Looks like it's the season for promotions. Thank you! Oh man, I'm so far from blue. SO FAR. Need moar training...

I love chucks. I stopped wearing them because they weren't work appropriate, then I got rid of my gray low tops and my lavender high tops and then I had none. So now I have classic black and white chucks and all is good. I still dress like a college student and I have no regrets. Comfy clothes are comfy. Trying to be! We'll see how it goes for me...

Not an update, but: GUESS WHO FINALLY GOT HER FOURTH STRIPE? THIS GIRL. :D The professor made a joke that I'm a forever white belt since I should technically be a blue belt at this point (been training for over a year, but with frequent breaks whoops~), BUT NOW THE BLUE BELT IS IN MY SIGHT AND I AM TERRIFIED. That is all.

Days 011 & 012 & 013 & 014 I'm liking this bullet approach, especially since I'm not even going to try to do daily updates. I just... don't find I have much to say these days. Probably me being too much in my head, but. Thursday First day back after all sorts of meetings. Catch up day! Woo. Fortunately not a lot to catch up on thanks to me doing it during the meetings, but. Went to the gym with E at work and beat her up while I did core. Went to the gym with stars and did volume squats and bench. Nothing too excited. Friday I was going to go to the gym, but whoops. Too tired. So tired. Lots of work. Also, lots more coding. >.> I always end up coding a bunch when I'm in a game. BUT IT'S ALSO PRETTY???? Saturday Skipped bjj because ugh exhaustion. Spent the morning watching Gilmore Girls and basically putzing around. Once stars got home, we went shopping for a new pillow (for her) and shoes! Got a pair of chucks for general and lifting wear. Spent the evening kind of vegging out. Sunday It was pancake party day! Spent a good chunk of the day at my in-laws eating food and generally chatting. Went home and vegged out, then hit bed early because ugh daylight savings. Didn't go to the gym because pancake day. Onto the challenge summary thing! Rock That Crop Top, Jas (aka core - 3 sessions a week) - 3/3. Got in a few quick sessions, but I did it. Climb That Wall (aka chin ups - 3 times a week) - 3/3! Two in one day, even! Did some Sunday morning, as well. I Can't Keep Eating Like an Asshole, Part the Third (aka food - stick to the plaaaaan) - FAILED! Not even going to pretend on this one. As the week progressed, so did my assholish eating. Making Kitty Famous (aka instagram - one new cat picture a day) - 6/7! Missed Monday.

This one is a murder mystery - everyone gets to tell their own story and interact with the overall plot as plot things are posted. I'm having fun so far, so. SO PRETTY. Also ridic # of lines, but SO PRETTY. They are a part of training, and for the most part, I honestly don't mind them. Usually, as they come more often, they start to shift towards technique rather than strength, but there are a few that just... refuse to use technique. And I'm like, noooooo. Hanging in as best as I can at any rate! I tried doing some after the big game I was in crashed, but none have kept my interest so far. This one seems to be. As for changes and interactions... Interactions are decent, but I'm still learning to write with some of these people, and I don't know how they handle line changes yet. We'll see. BUT YES. THE ROCK. Best bi gym owner ever. SO PRETTY. It was so cute!!! I was surprised by how good it was because Disney's track record is kind of hit and miss, but. Just keep swimming.