Accountability is the Name of the Game (Zene's battlelog)

[zenelly]

And man, I might now be good at it, but I'm going to try. This might not end up being much more than me posting things that I've done right this day/week/whatever, BUT HEY that's better than nothing. ( ï½°`дｰ´)ｷﾘｯ

 

So anyway, today I was having a rough day at work, and instead of eating my feelings (which is a problem I'm trying to combat), I allowed myself to go out to get food, but only if I got a salad. Quite possibly not the best decision, but the better of two, and I'll count it as a win on my willpower.

 

(Especially since I know I can circumvent my own willpower. I'm not the best or most determined person, but I'm going to fix that one step at a time. Every win is crucial, and I'm proud enough to document this one.)

 

Later today, I'm hoping to drag my girlfriend and roommates into a walk, since the weather is nice, and we'll try to figure something out for dinner that's pretty healthy. It can be tough feeding five people, but we'll make it work. Thank you all for your support. 

[zenelly]

Alright so I forgot to get this up yesterday so I'm getting up today, and I'll do another one tonight too.

 

Yesterday was a long, rough day, and I didn't end up doing so well afterwards. I can at least say that I stuck mostly to my guns in regards to what I'm supposed to be eating, and I'm not going to let myself feel too bad about nabbing one burger. I'm going to try and go grocery shopping tonight and make up a plate of something to bring into work tomorrow, but work has just been long and frustrating and it's awful knowing that this isn't what I want to be doing, despite my wasting four years getting a degree in it.

 

But what I'm hoping to do takes time, and I need a job in the meantime, because writing is something I can do while I have another job. I just have to remind myself of that. Besides, just because my writing isn't half-bad doesn't mean that it'll be an immediate success. So this (and the lottery HAH) are my backups.

 

so tl;dr on that, I didn't exercise yesterday like I told myself I would but I did write and get some of that done instead after feeling sorry for myself for a while. I ate better than I could, but not as good as I would like, but I didn't go two meals in a row that were bad.

 

Goals for the rest of today are: take a walk tonight, eat leftovers to clear up room in fridge, get groceries to make salads for lunch, and get more writing done.

[zenelly]

Kicked my ass into working out today!

 

I sat down after work and tried to focus on writing or other things but I kept getting distracted by every little thing, so I took the energy and did a simply body weight circuit! It was nice. I was only able to complete two sets, but that just means I have a benchmark goal to work towards. I feel more like myself now than I have for pretty much this whole week. I know the good mood can only last so long, and I can't count on it to be my only motivator, but It'll help me out for a few days here! I'm thinking that I'll either do a simple walk or some intervals tomorrow, depending on how raring to go I feel. 

 

Also conquered my snacking urges. Today was a day of small victories. Now, to write!

[zenelly]

Oooph given how my legs are feeling today, I think just a walk is in order, just to stretch them out some. But the weather outside isn't very nice, so it might be a round of beginner's yoga? I'd rather do that than get caught in one of the rainstorms that're brewing around here. I'm also tossing something into the crockpot for food tonight, so I have to decide what I want from that. There's a lot I have to get done today, but it's mostly just easy things, so me kicking back just a little bit should be fine.

 

(I mean my hand hurts a lot from all the typing I did yesterday. I can take a bit of a break.)

 

I might post again later after I figure out what food to make, or after yoga. we'll see!

[zenelly]

Did a full circuit of the bodyweight workout last night! All three sets instead of the two that I managed before. My legs don't feel nearly as beat up as they did before, so I'm not hobbling around work today. I think the goal for tomorrow is to get a bit deeper with the squats and the lunges. Debating between a walk and yoga tonight. I have some sewing to get done, so it might just be easier for me to do twenty minutes of yoga. 

 

But last night was also productive in terms of writing, and that's really good too. 

 

Ahh, I'm also working on my diet too! And I'm not as tired in the mornings when I just have a banana and a hardboiled egg or something like that. It's interesting for me to work my way into healthier eating habits. I just have to figure out what to make tonight, since I'm not able to go grocery shopping until Friday ^^; But we have a lot of stuff in the pantry and fridge, so we should be fine. Just fretting a bit.