Had a better day yesterday but had trouble sticking to my meal plan.   I ate my packed lunch (leftover potato chowder, grapes, and some breakfast sausage links) but then also had a slice of Peach's flatbread pizza.  We got in the habit of sharing over the last couple weeks.  It was definitely not needed.  I donated blood right after lunch and enjoyed a lovely chocolate chip cookie afterwards.  Then since I was more full than usual I forewent my usual healthy snacks but just ended up eating candy instead.  I also wasn't feeling the batch cooked dinner leftovers so I unilaterally decided we were eating a frozen pizza for dinner.   350 calories over target.     DDG and I had planned for an evening walk but I was feeling quite low on energy after the blood donation (or maybe that was an excuse?) but we decided to skip it and spent the evening resting on the couch chatting and watching The Walking Dead.

Sometimes I do this, when clothing decisions are too much.

today is the 23rd of October day of the bridge of moons         Solvitur ambulando   ⬤ 30-60 Min exercise   ⬤ 30 Min walking Malleum non temnit     Hindu pushups ⬤   Hindu squats ⬤   Bridge ⬤       Vestis viram facit   ⬤ Jacket & tie   ⬤ A smooth shave Aurora musis amica     Start timer on alarm ⬤   One magical working per hour ⬤   30 min vampire training ⬤   One co-working session ⬤   Reflective practice TBD ⬤       Optimum quies est   ⬤ In bed by midnight   ⬤ 6-8 hours sleep   ⬤ 20 min meditation   ⬤ Interroception meditation   ⬤ One therapy writing session    

Yes, I am very interested in the beeswax bags!   I love the vibe of this challenge. Vacation seems like it was good for you. I'm hoping the gym crowd dies down...Is it an annual membership? Maybe people are like "Oh no! we gotta get our money's worth!" lol  And BOO on discontinuing your witch planner that you loved!! A good planner is such a big thing. Edit: I'm glad you found a planner that works for you!   Additional edit: My mom recommends using a little almond flour in your bread recipes to make the bread softer for longer. As long as no one has a nut allergy

Thanks! I feel a lot better now. I'd like to get to the point where I'm not still building anger after we resolve a thing. Its so unproductive.      OH!  putting things in a place that works for you is such a thing too? I find that comforting not to be alone in that.   I think one of the downsides of being so connected with the internet is that there are millions of more people telling you how to do simple things and sometimes it's so awesome, but after a while it's like "But that doesn't work for me."   There is joy in figuring it out for yourself too, right?      

Yay for knitting your first project!   I prefer to weave in ends as I go, as much as possible. That makes the work quicker at the end. A few ends don't take long in any case.     Yay for a good handstand day!  I hope the trend continues.     Would you feel better about it if you framed it as having the clothes set up in piles of outfits? Some people set up their closets that way, with coordinating pants, shirts and accessories all hung together. That way they can grab a set in the morning without worrying about matching. Are these the navy blue slacks or the black ones? No longer an issue.

OH yay! I'm so happy you and Dave got some quality time!  and YAY for more muscles! WOOT! 3 pounds of fat mass is nothing, you'll take care of it!  

I second this

Alas. Like most mansplainers, self-awareness is not one of its qualities.

Hi Friends!   I don’t have time to reply to everyone, but thank you for joining me along this journey. I am delighted to have you all with me. ❤️    My time off with Dave was truly, astonishingly, amazingly peaceful and wonderful. I don’t think I have felt this connected and loved and relaxed for around a year. We painted a lot of minis, ate good food, watched a bunch of tv (new Legend of Vox Machina episodes were great!), and I was even able to start sleeping in our bed by the end of it. Dave came home with a cold and the congestion combined with his weird shifting sleep schedule made it hard for me to sleep with him so I was in the spare room. I think we are sorted out for that now though and I am glad for it. The small holiday has really thrown into even sharper relief that I was definitely not okay for the few weeks before he got home. I am starting to strategize better self care strategies for when he leave in January as that will be an almost 3 month tasking. I am starting to put food in the freezer a portion or two at a time so that I have fewer impediments to nutrition when he is gone. That seems like a reasonable first step. The second step is scaling back on peanut butter as I got out of hand with eating that recently.   I had my InBody scan done on Monday for the start of the challenge and it was not great. I am up a half pound of muscle, which is nice! My inflammation is high still (makes total sense with all the wheat I am eating and the working out), and I have gained three pounds of fat mass in the last six weeks. This doesn’t surprise me, but it is disappointing. Still, all I can do is start making better choices and trying to build up the supports that will help me not repeat this in a few months. I am impressed that I am not lingering in my woe or beating myself up about it. Definitely a mindset win.    Have to run to get ready for work, but I am glad the forums are back up and we can rock merrily along!   I hope that the leaves are beautiful where you are! Thanks for being here! ❤️