It has been a while....

[Mackleharris]

Hi everyone,

 

It has been probably close to a year since I've posted or even logged in. I started out really well last January with the paleo diet and bodyweight workouts. I think I fell out of those good habits sometime in March or April. I'm typing this more so that I can see my thoughts and be honest with myself but having you guys read this might help. I don't know exactly what stopped me. It probably had something to do with lots of stress and work to do for college.

 

I'm now heavier than I've ever been before. I used to be a great athlete in high school at 210 lbs (I'm a big guy in general, had lots of muscle back then). Now I'm fat and lazy. I can't drag myself to the gym out of pure fear of being judged. We all know some people judge the hell out of fat people in the gym. I am more insecure than ever. I want to feel good again. I want to be strong again. I want to be healthy again. But I'm falling into a pattern of short term success and long term failure. I NEED to do something. I need to fix this. But I don't know how. Even though I have all the knowledge I need to succeed, I just feel lost. I know that regular workouts make me feel good but for some reason I need to feel good to workout. Does this make sense?

[hwrdfrnd]

Some people can be dicks, and I can say screw them go anyways, but I'm not the one who has to be the one to be judged so if it bothers you that much...

Look at bodyweight stuff you can do at home. There are plenty of good programs all over the internet including here at NF.