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[Hyperion]

I feel like shit. I manically try to make things better with mixed results. It's not that things are not good but i get dissatisfied. I suffer from unhealthy levels of perfectionism. Today i did squat session and after long pause. It was so hard that i almost lost my self control. I have agression issues. I don't hit my fiance but i have no trouble breaking someone's thigh in a spar or beating up a gang of young men in a bar fight after they comment my totoro shirt. I train my self control but i explode. Besides wrath i often feel empty. I don't have interest in doing stuff. Nearly any stuff... I mostly just set goals, go for them and then set new goals. Sucky rant, but you get what i'm saying.