XXvigdisXX Posted August 2, 2014 Report Share Posted August 2, 2014 Soo ive lurked for a while now, and figured it was finally time for me to introduce myself and my shame...Im 5'3", 19 years old and weigh 250 lbs. (that alone is painful for me to say)Ive been heavy my whole life but for a long while, all my teen years, i stayed a consistent 180. Which looking back now id love to be again. But over the past year and a half, things got out of control; i gained a steady 10 lbs a month and even though i could see myself ballooning up, i just kept at it until im where i am now. My diet is so shameful, i dont like to eat in front of people. I dont currently have a job so when im alone, my day goes the same every single day: i wake up, eat fast food, then settle in and play games till time for bed again. Only breaking to eat more. My breakdown happened upon the day i realized what all i had eaten, and studying myself in the mirror, realized that my body had exploded in deep purple stretch marks from that fast weight gain. I mean theyre everywhere, even my upper back. Im so ashamed of how i look now, i can even wear tshirts that show my arms because of the scars. I know they'll probably fade some (at least in color) as i lose, but they may possibly be there forever...My life over the past couple years has been nothing but games and food, not the kind of life i wanna live. So after countless hours and months of watching videos, reading etc on ways to lose weight and get healthy, and sitting around thinking "i have to stop" or "i should really be working out instead of playing games" i know that i have to start.It really gets me down knowing that i put all this weight on so quickly and easily, only to have to work twice as hard and long to get rid of it again, when if i had started before, when i had a lot less to lose, it wouldve been easier.Just a newcomer seeking a helping hand and some support. Wish me luck! Quote Link to comment
Spider Monk Posted August 4, 2014 Report Share Posted August 4, 2014 You've got my support XXvigdisXX. I'm a lurker coming out into the light myself. I'll be leaving shortly from work but I would like to be one of your supports. And I intend to write you some encouraging stuff. I wish I had read your story sooner. I'll be back tomorrow though. Quote Link to comment
The Spider Posted August 4, 2014 Report Share Posted August 4, 2014 Looks like you're gonna be wrapped in a web. Of course, that's gotta be a good workout, wiggling until you're loose from a giant spider web... Welcome aboard. Quote "Impossible is not a fact, it's an opinion. Impossible is not a declaration, it's a dare. Impossible is potential, impossible is temporary, impossible is NOTHING." -Muhammad Ali "The only thing worse than being blind is having sight but no vision." -Hellen Keller 3 Ferocity (2), 2 Becoming Capable, 1 Becoming a Ranger Link to comment
Skywalker Posted August 5, 2014 Report Share Posted August 5, 2014 You are in the right place to turn around your health now. So this is the best time to get started.You officially have some stalkers now Quote Skywalker Progress woot: Skywalker's success Character Profile: Skywalker Blog: Just Get Moving Whatever you can do or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it! Link to comment
Spider Monk Posted August 5, 2014 Report Share Posted August 5, 2014 Hey XXXvidgisXXX. Good morning. Today is a new day and I wanted to give you a little something into what I've read in your post. Here's the first: "... introduce myself and my shame." Screw the shame! I've been there. One the one hand, I love eating and on the other, I was ashamed to eat in front of people because I felt like they were going to think “See…that’s why he’s so fat!†I was already working to destroy my self image in front of people that 1) I didn’t know, and 2) Probably never cared about what I was eating in the first place! So I asked myself, “If I am really ashamed of my eating, why do I enjoy it so much? And if I enjoy eating so much, why am I ashamed of eating in front of people?†So then I just admitted that I love to eat, so I’m going to keep doing it. BUT…I would alter what I eat. I gradually lowered my portions and made healthier options. This site is filled with information for that. I also learned to cook. There are tons of sites that teach the basics of cooking and you can get really good cookbooks for really cheap. I would like to elaborate more on that in the future. Another thing you said was “But over the past year and a half, things got out of control; I gained a steady 10 lbs a month…†So it took you a year and a half roughly to get to where you are now. That’s a long time. If you start making small changes now, you will become a different person in the next year and a half. I PROMISE YOU!!! Most likely even sooner. It looks like you’ve got some support my friend. Let us know what you think. BTW, I’m totally going to use you and your other voluntary support team members to motivate me to stay on track with my stuff. Quote Link to comment
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