Didnt think I would wind up here already...

[Arkarian]

So here we are back at the beginning... I have to say, I really thought my first time here would go something along the lines of, "oops I didn’t mean to eat that and after I started I couldn’t stop." In reality... I knew exactly what I was doing and chose to fail. I’ve been thinking on it and i really don’t know why I did it? I was doing so well too. Perhaps I should roll this back and explain the situation.

 

This was my first week of the Paleo diet. I had spent the previous week getting some recipes together and figuring out a game plan so the transition could hopefully be as smooth as possible. And it was for the most part. Sure there were cravings, but so long as I stuck to my meal plan and planned ahead it wasn’t too bad. There was only one day that I was running late and skipped breakfast which through my whole day off, but I survived and pressed on.  Work was the hardest part but I had some almonds and dried apricots (w/ no added sugar) to snack on if I was ever tempted to hit the vending machines or order out as I was apt to do in the past. The only other hurdle I had was my family. Now you have to understand both me and my family in order to get my hesitation, but needless to say I dreaded telling them. I knew it was going to elicit all kinds of negative responses and I didn’t want to have to deal with it. Instead I chose to not tell them and let my diet fall apart for the day. I can’t even say I did my best considering I had cookies and sweet tea and I just let everything spiral out of control.

 

So this is me owning up and admitting I chose to fail. I chose to fail, I chose to fail. God, I can be an idiot. Next week I promise I wont be here again, I won’t!

[TMedina]

Be patient with yourself.  And most of all, be forgiving of yourself.  

 

Beating yourself up over the past only produces stress which in turn drives up your cravings and hampers your body's ability to function properly, let alone shed weight.

 

Take a deep breath.  Every step forward, big or small, is a step in the right direction.

[Arkarian]

Thank you. Yes I am allowing myself time to wallow now, but don't for a second done think im not getting right back up and back at it. I was just extremly dissapointed at myself. I have always had problems with keeping myself accountable.. "If no one knows i failed, did i even fail?" It was important to me to write this down and hopefully will help keep me on track in the future.

[Bernard Marx]

If you're anything like me, you'll play this game in a two steps forward one step back manner. It's alright though. It sounds like you've got a good mindset and you're not stopping, and that's half the battle. Ok, you messed up. In the long term, it would behoove you to examine the hows and whys so you can address the underlying issues be they psychological, family, environment, or something else. In the immediate, the way I look at it is if you ate clean six out of seven days, and you went back to old habits for one day, it's still 600% better than eating poorly all seven days. Keep at it friend, and it will get easier.