Not all that have fallen are vanquished

[Callaeidae]

Hi! I'm Sarah, another rebel joining you from New Zealand (seems there are a few of us!), currently enjoying a bit of breathing time between finishing up my last contract as a research technician in an infectious diseases lab & following my interests down the rabbit hole into web development.

 

I've been lurking shyly around NF for a while, now I'm here to level up.

 

I'm pretty short by Half-Elf standards (158cm) , 45kg (~100 pounds) and want to build up strength, confidence, balance and all that good stuff. I had enough to escape that dragon in my profile picture, but who knows what else waits around the corner?

 

I really enjoy nerding out at farmer's markets & cooking the spoils and I find junk food boring anyway, so I'm starting out in a good place nutrition-wise.

 

By far the biggest challenges I face are in my own mind. I've been plagued with anxiety since I was a kid, which additionally paved the way for festering bouts of depression that have unfortunately formed a huge part of my life - my identity, even - up to this point. If worry, regret, self-sabotage and crippling self-doubt were Olympic events, I would be hoarding gold Smaug-style by now. I've allowed it to starve friendships, lay waste to relationships, steal huge chunks of time. I'm sick of it. I expect it will be an ongoing battle, but lately I've seen gaps in its armour that I didn't notice before. This is my one giant life objective, to tame the beast and perhaps even turn it to my advantage.

 

What better way to tackle that than as a real life RPG?

 

Battle plans are forming, but I need to take things one step at a time. For now, I'm beginning my journey by finally leaving the Underpants Gnomes to join the noble Adventurers. My quest has started with week 1 of a Couch to 5K program alternating with Steve's beginner bodyweight circuit. I suspect my path will eventually lead me to a home with the Assassins or Rangers, with much to learn from other guilds too.

[Laureleye]

I think you'll find that a consistent workout program will be a big help.  I'll see you in the next challenge.

[Lfly]

You can do it! Kick anxiety's butt! You've seen some chinks in the armour, so go for the kill shot!

Or at least, wound it a little each time