Heyo

[XXvigdisXX]

Soo ive lurked for a while now, and figured it was finally time for me to introduce myself and my shame...

Im 5'3", 19 years old and weigh 250 lbs. (that alone is painful for me to say)

Ive been heavy my whole life but for a long while, all my teen years, i stayed a consistent 180. Which looking back now id love to be again. But over the past year and a half, things got out of control; i gained a steady 10 lbs a month and even though i could see myself ballooning up, i just kept at it until im where i am now.

My diet is so shameful, i dont like to eat in front of people. I dont currently have a job so when im alone, my day goes the same every single day: i wake up, eat fast food, then settle in and play games till time for bed again. Only breaking to eat more.

My breakdown happened upon the day i realized what all i had eaten, and studying myself in the mirror, realized that my body had exploded in deep purple stretch marks from that fast weight gain. I mean theyre everywhere, even my upper back. Im so ashamed of how i look now, i can even wear tshirts that show my arms because of the scars. I know they'll probably fade some (at least in color) as i lose, but they may possibly be there forever...

My life over the past couple years has been nothing but games and food, not the kind of life i wanna live. So after countless hours and months of watching videos, reading etc on ways to lose weight and get healthy, and sitting around thinking "i have to stop" or "i should really be working out instead of playing games" i know that i have to start.

It really gets me down knowing that i put all this weight on so quickly and easily, only to have to work twice as hard and long to get rid of it again, when if i had started before, when i had a lot less to lose, it wouldve been easier.

Just a newcomer seeking a helping hand and some support. Wish me luck!

[starsapart]

Best of luck!

 

I think you'll find a lot of people with stories not unlike yours here (have you read the most recent blog entry about Anthony?).  Realizing you have to change is sometimes hard... and making the change is harder, but once you start gathering momentum, you'll become hard to stop!

 

What are your plans right now regarding diet and exercise?  Small, incremental changes win the day.  It's just the right time to make a plan and jump into the 6 week challenge.