Maggie-Miau

No cavities despite not seeing a dentist in 8 years ☺️

At dentist and SCARED 😅

Cat chellers is Diabetic as it turns out. I have to give him insulin injections.

Broski has been eating my food again. I'm going to have to start keeping anything that requires refrigeration at work I guess, I'm already keeping most snack foods in my desk. Jesus cats. It just annoys me because it feels like he thinks I'm stupid and won't notice there's only a tablespoon of whatever left in the container. He'll snoop in my room for food too if it isn't in the kitchen so. I'm thinking my goals are to get out of debt, obtain a third vehicle, and move out on my own. Not sure how it can be afforded but I'll figure it out when the time comes. I've been really worrying lately about mom dying. She's doing exactly Nothing for her diabetes at this point and refuses to go back to the gym/walking/change her diet at all and I'm increasingly panicky about what happens if things go badly wrong. I've told her as much but she doesn't care.

They think it's his thyroid, waiting on test results. Caused uproar in the family. One of my goals is going to have to be living on my own but i don't have the faintest idea how to make that happen.

At the vet with cat Chellers

We have these score cards at work and this is mine for today. I'm still feeling restless. I think the in person prospecting would be Better. My main goal is still to chip away at the debt I have piled up....there's a ways to go on it yet. I also have to sort my nutrition and exercise. I think that would help my energy levels a lot and probably have me sleeping better too

Heyoo! I am still weirdly tired and my performance at work has been Mediocre. I'm struggling to focus and manage my time and make the number of phonecalls I'm supposed to each day. I've only sold four policies this month but one thing I've noticed is that the calls I'm making rarely result in an actual conversation taking place. The majority of policies I've written have been for existing customers, not new business. Most of the calls I make each day are going to assorted voice-mail. I've been talking to way fewer actual humans lately. Which means way fewer opportunities to quote or pivot or ask for referrals. So I've been thinking about the field prospecting I used to do with Aflac and have been thinking of ways to tailor it to State Farm and our work process. I've had some ideas and am in the process of working it out with my boss. It'd probably start as a once a month thing. Otherwise I am feeling blrrrrrrg enough lately to know I definitely need to incorporate the gym/exercise back into my routine and not just do this Reluctantly wake up, go to work, go home and go to bed that I've been doing. I'm pretty much eating one meal a day and snacking intermittently and most of it isn't particularly nutritious food so. The Hungryroot box finally arrived and was still in decent shape despite the delay so I'm going to see about cleaning the kitchen and meal prepping.

The nails actually turned out nice, although next time I would just do them myself. The haircut was my first bad haircut. Not terrible but not what I wanted for sure. At work, we have these Win Your Day score cards where different things earn us points each day, 60 points for 60 calls, or for four policies on the board, some other things. I'm thinking of stealing the concept for personal life too.

I think I'm going through a weird delayed teenage phase because lately I've been feeling like I'm just like....idk weird and gross and ugly and ew. Which is stupid because I am a certified grownass adult with bigger things to worry about but it's been actually stressing me out a bit. I actually got my freaking nails done today for the first time in my life (did not like it, they look nice but it isn't worth people touching my hands and the smell in the shop and the noise and the ew) I also joined the church today and almost threw up/fainted from nerves good lord 🥲 I flubbed it so bad. I was supposed to stay standing up there with the pastor afterward but I panicked and went back to my seat and he was thankfully chill about it

Hi im Mags hello Right now my main thing is trying to hang on to my job, which I really enjoy but can be Difficult. I'm having the brainworms lately and wound up leaving early one day last week. I'm so tired lately. Finally got on the company insurance though so I have! Appointments scheduled on the 28th to see my psych doctor and counselor for the first time in months and hopefully get my medical adjusted. Also was brave and booked an appointment with a Dentist. I impulse ordered a hungry root box but I'm not going to keep the subscription. Too expensive. Instead I'm going to borrow the format from most of the hungryroot meals I've seen and try some proper meal prep. My sleep is not great lately, pretty much always Tired. So still trying to sort myself out and build some good routines. We've changed the transportation situation. Broski is using the blue car pretty much exclusively and mom and I are sharing her car, so I don't have to fetch broski from Lear every day. I haven't really had to fool with him too much.

Called out sick today because I woke up with such sinus pressure I could barely hear, boss was cool with it Instead of resting i wound up cleaning for the past seven to eight hours and holy cats I have worked certifiable miracles in that stupid kitchen. There's work still to do but boy golly we might get our deposit back yet. It was Nasty in there and I've just about got it civilized 😭

Had my first episode of Crying at Work on Friday. It was just me, Coworker Brittani (we love her, she is my favorite at this job) and coworker David, the production manager. Most of the customers were crusty, got yelled at multiple times, and by halfway through the day I was too drained to want anything to do with sales tasks. Had a little breakdown but the coworkers said it was okay. I did make two sales, which was good, and learned some things. I really need to work on my understanding of our billing systems and the homeowners insurance side. I feel like my grasp of the auto insurance is pretty good now and I can explain it to customers and break it down for them. The homeowners is another animal because there are so many extra parts to it. We also technically have over a hundred products that we offer so my product knowledge definitely needs improvement. I have four appointments in the upcoming week to meet one-on-one with customers and discuss their coverage. One is a possible sale. Annnnnnnd I also just realized that one of the things a customer yelled at me about, saying no one had explained to her, was one of the very things I had just gone over with her when she was actually at my desk a few days prior. Heck.

Broski's having another spiral. He and momsauce went to pick up his groceries and apparently he went off as soon as they got in the car. He volunteers for all this overtime then freaks out about it, then does it again. He's back to talking about wanting to die, saying he has no friends, doesn't think he could actually live on his own, how he has no 'real' skills and needs an education, saying we never do anything as a family etc....so momsauce calls me wanting me to look into classes he could take or stuff we could do but like. i've reached this awful point of no empathy in this situation. Part of why we never do anything 'as a family' is because every time we do, he gets angry about how inconvenient it is and he finds a way to make it either my fault or mom's that he's unhappy. I'm not trying to find him little events to go to or classes to take because it's just going to be one more thing he can throw at me if he doesn't like it. I don't understand why it's always my responsibility to figure things out for him. I genuinely think his real problem is that he doesn't want his loan to be paid off and doesn't really want his own car or to live by himself because then he wouldn't be splitting bills anymore. The number of times he's told me to "just get over it" about my own mental health stuff.....

Does anyone know if, when renting a house, the landlord can kick you out at any time or if once you sign the lease you're safe for the term of the lease as long as you don't violate any rules? I've noticed some house rent is cheaper than the apartments available here but I'm nervous about private landlords and don't know if I'm just being ridiculous

Sorry about that earlier. Been a rough week. We had some Crustomers at work and i encountered my first real Difficulties. The coworkers all say I'm doing so well but i feel like i've made a bunch of mistakes lately and i need to just, slow down, chill out, and take my time with things. I lost two big sales, although one intends to come back in June. A past speeding ticket bumped up her price and i didn't catch it until i'd finalized her purchase, so now we have to wait for the policies to issue so i can cancel them out and issue her refund. She was chill about it but i felt bad. Then a guy who would've got four autos and a homeowner's policy had to back out because adding his teenage daughter to the quote made the price too high and our homeowner's price came back high as well, but i'm almost certain that it could have been better. I'm not entirely confident with homeowner's quotes yet, but I was the only one in the office at the time and had nobody to Consult on the quote. I'm going to have at least one of my coworkers look it over with me and possibly reach back out to him, but i also found some additional trainings on the homeowner's quote system and intend to review those as well. Then we had a guy who had been under the impression that his mortgage holder was supposed to pay his homeowner's insurance, it turned out not to be the case, so a couple weeks ago the Boss came and walked me through taking a partial payment so we could set up the homeowner's on a different billing system so it could stay in effect....except it apparently didn't work and the policy Lapsed so we had to call him back in and take another, higher payment, because the original payment he made was not able to apply to the account and is just floating in our system (it will be refunded to him, he knows but is Upset) and then also his auto policies are about to lapse because he keeps saying his wife is supposed to go in the app and pay them, except then she proceeds to not actually pay them and it's getting to where I really don't want to call them about it even though it's not my fault. we also had a case of someone needing to reinstate just one lapsed auto, i put the payment in wrong, that's another fixable one. And then there's another reinstatement where it took the payment but the request to reinstate didn't go through so i have to resubmit that on Monday. All very fixable and the office manager has assured me that it's Fine, i just don't like this stage where i know enough to work mostly independently, but not enough to not have to harass my coworkers with Oh God How Do I Do XYZ Send Help I am learning a lot though and Coworker Brittani actually just taught me some more stuff about our commission system so i have a better idea of what to aim for in terms of the sales side of the job.

I am sick of my brother oh my god I am trying to figure out how to get away from him. Momsauce is upset with me for admitting to being in Panic Attack territory again. I told her I might need to see about getting back on an anxiety med and she burst into tears and is acting like I told her I'm quitting my job

Hello, i went to church again, didn't go to the boardgame thing because i am outlandishly tired, came home and had a headache nap. I liked the church though, everyone was super nice again, and the pastor seems cool. He looks like a confusing mixture of John Mulaney and Tom Cruise. Here's the sermon, if anyone is interested: did a thing at work onnnn....maybe Thursday? Called a lady to verify her address and wound up selling three life policies (one is pending signature as they can't do it electronically since the insured is a minor) so the production manager and Boss are really happy with me. I saw a note from a couple years ago where a past employee had talked to this lady about life insurance, so after handling the address (which needed to be corrected on some of her policies, it was a number off) and i just asked if that was still something she was interested in. We had a conversation about what type of insurance would be best for her, her mom, and her 17-year-old son, and after i explained the difference between some of our options and how the pricing works she was happy to sign up 🥺Brain keeps saying it doesn't count because she was already interested so it's not like i had to work for the sale but i mean. I asked. If i hadn't asked, who knows if she would have brought it up on her own. But i did ask so now these people have something in place that's going to build value and will cover them if one of them dies.

Henlo! I started off the new year in an unexpected downswing which has persisted, my nerves have been SHOT but I still went to work and did the things and Found out today that not only did i do the most phonecalls yesterday, but I also wrote the most Life premium for December, making me "queen of the office" for the month And I wrote like four policies and got a bundle lined up for Monday so I'm!!!!!!! Everything in me is screaming that it somehow doesn't count or that I didn't do it right and that customers are going to call and complain about me 😅 also that the boss/coworkers are 'just being nice' and are secretly like "ew Maggie sucks can't wait for her to get gone" I am aware this is the Anxiety talking so i am mostly just going "yeh okay" and continuing to do my work, but the feeling is Persistent. Was all in a fog for most of today but still managed to write policies....I was actually the first one on the board for the month 🥺 It's like technically speaking I am performing just fine but my instincts are "You're faking it and actually suck at this" 🤣

Made some food! I had a bag of frozen "Mediterranean-Style Quinoa" with chickpeas, spinach, and peppers in it, and also had a bag of frozen mixed vegetables also labeled 'Mediterranean-Style". ..it was zucchini, eggplant, and more peppers. So i put the vegetables in the air fryer and microwaved the quinoa, mixed them together and it was a very nice lunch. ETA: Also, i have been watching Doctor Who. Went back to Ten's run after seeing the specials. In love with Ncuti Gatwa as Fifteen, love his energy. Have just about convinced myself that Jenny from The Doctor's Daughter is actually Ruby Sunday's mum (i doubt it fr but it occurred to me as a possibility and i'mmmmm 👀

Connections and Metazooa are so fun! I'm curious about the game night- they said they tend to play chill, easy games and that one time it was Apples to Apples 🤣

That's them! My coworker told me about them a couple weeks ago and i finally decided to stop by and check them out. One of the first people i met was actually having a discussion about gender identity. Bunch of age groups there, too.

Hello all happy 2024! I am still ehhhhhhhh sinusy and headachy, not as rough as the other day! The main goal today is to get ready to go back to work tomorrow (YEEHAW, it'll be a busy first week back but i am Ready!) and try to wrangle my Thinks. Various Tasks that need doing: Get my water jug washed out and ready to go (and also Drink The Water) Take my meds/vitamins Make/Drink a Smoothie (i had cooked food instead) Inventory the kitchen so i know what i'm working with in terms of foodstuffs Shower. Finish up Laundry Tasks Go for a Walk later on Idk probably crochet a row or two I went to church yesterday! The one my coworker had recommended, First Christian. They were very welcoming, i will be visiting again. On the first Sunday of the month they have a little boardgame night and they've invited me to attend. Also did today's Metazooa and Connections puzzle :3

It was a nice vegetable soup with carrots and greens and all sorts!