The Most Loathed

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  1. Bearlee is ...

    Nope. Never. what new podcasts?
  2. [The Most Loathed] learns....slowly

    This is pretty much my internal dialog. Target was good, it was better than the last couple companies but I try to remind myself that I was ready to leave at the time. That said, it was way more Goldilocks than my current gig. At Health Catalyst, management was cool, I like what they were trying to do and how they were trying to do it. It was the lifers that were a nightmare. Getting yelled at by a peer in a meeting is unacceptable. It happened twice. At US Bank, at least where I am in the company, management is as clueless as they come. I asked what we should be preparing for in 1-3 years and I got back "What do you think we should be preparing for in 1-3 years?" As I probed deeper, it didn't appear to be a rhetorical device but a genuine request for input. That's scary. My current peers are totally demoralized so although the look at me as the defacto leader, a lot of my time is spent, frankly, listening to them complain about our real leaders. They get a half a day's work done, at best, most days. One of them has told me that he's going to do as little work as possible to just stay in his role for the next 10 years then retire. That said, I have the mental conversation about once a week of "should I give up on interesting and go managment and try to fix this mess?" The issue I keep running into is that if I have one or two peers our of 10-15 who are trying to do the same, we have horrible leverage. That is the issue, do I throw myself at a pointless cause, just because it's, honestly, easier? I could go the MBA route which costs time and money but gives me a little more leverage as to where I go and what I do. We have two local MBA programs that focus on data and analytics and that is what I truly enjoy. But it means, probably, 2 years with less sleep and 0 free time. Is that a price I want to pay? I don't know. Right now I'm feeling yes. A part of the conversation has to be retirement too. Regardless of where I work. If I just keep doing what I'm doing I can retire a little later than my desired 55, depending on a ton of variables. So, we're talking 15 years. What do I want to spend in terms of time, effort, and money, and does it come back to me in that window. Also, if I stay where I am and go management, maybe I could hit 55 and just bail. Still, it's 15 years of my life, 30,000 hours. I have thought about spinning side gigs into something. Right now, it's not practical. I need to get back into at least putting the time in to work on it though. Yep, I'm still in contact with them. For the most part, no they don't work in my area. I have one friend who has the insight and is aware and is keeping his eyes open. Also, I have a recruiter that who I'm working with. My general take right now is: Sit tight and do a good job. I've more or less sorted things with the Sr. Architect who doesn't like me. We're not friends but she's openly acknowedged that I've advanced our department more than any other individual contributor. I'm recognized both internally and externally as the guy to go to who can tell you what's going on and why and will start things moving I continue to build my network within US Bank, I have the support I would need if I want to jump to manager. I'm also working on building a network to get me moved to the automation and/or enterprise reporting team, either of which would suit me better than what I'm doing. At US Bank, you're not allowed to change jobs until you've been in your role for 1 year. At 1 year I plan to talk to my manager about helping me move to an analytics team or the automation team. Keep working on your options I continue to submit applications as Target and talk to my friends and recruiter I've expanded into a couple other downtown companies Laura and I have talked about whether we should just bite the bullet and get a second car so I can expand into other companies The MBA question is on the table I go to professional organization meetings and talk to friends and peers there Find things outside of work that make you happy I've been writing a lot more because I enjoy the process We've been traveling a lot this year So, that's a long winded answer but you're asking a question I think about often. Part of me says "You can do better, go get it" and part of me says " they pay you a lot to do very little, shut up and take the money and skate by". The problem is that deep down in the core of my person is a core that says that I should never just "skate by". I mean, look at me, I'm nearly 40 and continue to train as often as I can. I retaught myself handwriting. I'm almost always working on a new skill or knowledge. I'm not a "do the minimum" kind of person. The result of that is the strife you see above but I also get a lot of value from this. Just figuring out how to manage it is my challenge right now. so, still long winded In other news, Reddit Gift Exchange had a pen and paper exchange and I signed up. I got a young woman in Florida who does a lot of sketch work with colored pencils. Given that it's a Pen and Paper exhange, the first thing I did is write her a letter. That seemed likes something that someone in a pen and paper exchange would enjoy. I also messaged with her a bit through the built in system to try and dial in on what to get her. She mentioned good paper and gel pens so I started there, I got her a Rhodia notepad and a small selection of colored gel pens. She also mentioned that she is learning calligraphy. So I bought her a Pilot Metropolitan fountain pen with an italic nib, which should, at least theoretically, work for calligraphy practice. In truth, it was a bit of indulging myself in getting a fountain pen for another person. I do, though, hope that she finds it to be a fun toy. I haven't been posting much but I have been working out. KB Coach continues to program my workouts and do a really great job of it. Last night was a "meditation" set. It's a set that is relatively easy but runs for 12 minutes. I also got to do some more front squats. I shifted to a narrower stance and could maintain a legitimate rack. I felt really powerful in this position which is new for me in front squats. I usually feel week and out of position. So, I'm having fun and optimistic. Tonight I'm meeting up with most of the Arkham Horror group but I don't actually know what we're playing. One of the guys is out and given the campaign nature of the game, this usually means that we don't play Arkham. It'll be fun regardless. We're all headed up to Fantasy Flight partially because the new storyline launched last week and we need to buy our copies. I'm also taking Arkham Horror on the trip with me. I'm going to introduce it to one of my travel companions. I had more but my day is taking off so I'll shut up now.
  3. [The Most Loathed] learns....slowly

    The story so far.... Years and years ago I started training. I started like many people start, following a bodybuilding type routine, doing dumb things and just generally succeeding despite myself not because of myself. In the intervening years I have been as light as 140 lbs (20 years ago) and as heavy as 270+ (not quite 10 years ago). I've also had injuries including a separated shoulder (20 years ago), ruptured disc (not quite 10 years ago), torn oblique (2 years ago) and plenty of thrown out backs and other minor maladies. In all that time I've spent thousands of hours in training as well as thousands of hours thinking about, preparing for and programming my training. That training has included (in roughly chronological order): body building, powerlifting, grip strengh, strongman, GPP(early Crossfit-like), kettlebell sport. I've also prepared thousands of meals to deliberately alter my weight a body composition. In my current incarnation I'm 36 years old and I weight 215 lbs. For the last three years my training has focused largely on kettlebell sport with the goal of achieving Master of Sport by the time I'm 40. I have paid for and received coaching in person and online. I've competed twice with mixed results but overall, not bad. This new battle log marks a turning of the page. First, I've ended my time with my online coach so I will be doing my own programming again, something I realized I really enjoy. without doing my own programming training loses its attractiveness to me. Second, I have realized that there are certain gains in kettlebell sport I am willing to sacrifice in favor of wellness goals. In this new battle log I will be documenting that work. I will list what I do, but I'll also try to talk about why I am doing it. I invite anyone to ask questions, poke holes in theories and just generally feed back. It is those things that, hopefully, will prevent this from becoming a dangerous echo chamber. So I'm counting on you. Other things I will likely talk about will include: programming, board games, science fiction and fantasy and my life. ADDENDUM I have been using this log for nearly a year and half at this point in time. things are shifting slightly but I have learned I can edit the title an intro to reflect my changing life and priorities. As I sit here it is March the 2nd 2018, I'm 38 and I'm going back into training for kettlebell sport. This log was started when I last walked away from competition and any coaching. I've signed up for coaching again though and will hopefully train smarter than ever before. If you don't care about history up to this point, join me at your thread already in progress.