Gobnait Posted August 25, 2014 Report Share Posted August 25, 2014 I feel like such a failure for all the challenges where I faceplanted, and then I cocooned myself. Not keeping track of the days was really relaxing when hubby was gone, but not so much of a good habit once he came back... he has a schedule even if it is a complicated rythym. I'm back, and I don't really have high expectations about what I can do to improve myself appreciably. I don't think I'll defeat the house issues soon. I have desired hobbies that require physical materials. I don't want to donate those materials just to buy them back when I have the space and time to pursue them. It's been a while since I've woken up before dawn with the need for instant-access to a reference book, but the worry is still there. There is also hubby's hobbies, and how he doesn't pack them away neatly. I guess part of the problem is that there are issues with effective storage-space. I also get overwhelmed when I do have the energy to try dealing with it. I also have severe body-issues. One of the reasons I don't go outside much because I feel I need custom clothes to look acceptable. I'm morbidly obese and solidly believe that losing 80 pounds wouldn't help me be able to find clothing I like. I could find men's pants that didn't make me feel gross at 180 and I was only at that low-weight because my job required walking several miles per day and I wasn't eating because of constant heat-stroke . I was still obese even with such extreme disparity between fuel-needs and what I was using. Quote I have conditions that affect my social awareness. If I am rude, tell me what I could do better. 5'8" & 220 260 pounds | Miles Walked: X 2019: | 1 | 2 | 3 | Pre 2017: | 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | * | 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 | 19 | Link to comment
House Posted August 25, 2014 Report Share Posted August 25, 2014 Welcome back to the forum I know that feeling of feeling like you're getting on the horse, but falling off. Several times that has happened to me, but you have to resolve to stay in a good healthful state of mind. I might also suggest looking for the positive in everything, versus focusing on the negative. Negative feels, at least for myself, have a big impact on my goals and ideals. Hope to see you around soon! Quote BattlelogSpreadsheet: House Notes Link to comment
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