Adrianne

Hello! So....uhm....*wrings hands* HI! I was active a few years back on and off. Since last I've been active I've moved once, had a baby, gone through sick leave for a burn out, left my job, had bariatric surgery and started a new job. Things have really changed in the last year and well...I'm back again. So the surgery was because I couldn't stand it anymore. I was sick and tiered of ALWAYS fighting, always feeling like a faliure and even if this sure as hell isn't an easy way out, for ME....it works. I've gotten a reset of my body, can't eat sweets and don't even want them anymore (besides during my period ofc.....). I eat better then I have in years and I feel amazing. But. The whole situation about working out is a mess right now. I can't seem to get started no matter what I do. So because of this I've decided to go back to basics - doing the nerd fitness beginner at home workout. Do those twice a week to get into it and then the plan is to progress as time goes by. I really want to get back into crossfit but hey, as long as Covid has her claws in the worls I'll just have to work out at home by myself.

And I'm now in week 14. Damn times goes fast! Feeling better and better with each passing day, I still need alot of sleep but I tend to wake up once every hour or so. Don't know why, it just happens. I've started walking more also, getting in at least 45 minutes a day now during the work week, the weekend is a little harder. I need to work more on that I guess. Regarding swimming I'm doing so-so. I've gone now maybe three times now. I feels good when I go but I'm just so damned tiered all the time! It's hard having a full time job and then trying to get some working out in during the 4 hours I have awake after work. I also need to cook dinner and hang out with the husband a bit. But baby steps I guess. Last Wednesday I went and got my first ultrasound. Holy crap it was scary to see that little thing move around! But also so exciting. I think this will turn out just fine. The midwife at the hospital said Everything looked perfect and that the little thing was doing just great. It was also a good sign that she was moving around as much as she was. No, we don't know if it is a she yet but it just....feels right. No matter the sex, I will love this baby without question. My weight is standing still right now. And that is good. I'm hoping that in the process of making this little life she is taking what she needs from me and that my depots of stored energy will go to feeding her. I'll try to update as much as I can. Talk soon. <3

Ok, so it's been a minute since I posted. Again. This thing with being consistent isn't really my...thing. Or so it would seem. But anyways! Hi gais! I'm FINALLY doing better! Not as sick in the mornings anymore and I get to eat more now without feeling like I want to projectile vomit into someones face instantly. So that is a yay. On the scale things are pretty much at a stand still. Wich is good I guess! No gaining weight here so far, yay for that. Since I'm feeling better and better by each passing day I have decided to try to get back to working out again. I miss it. I think I need it so that I can sleep like a somewhat normal person again. So I'm on that right now. Ordered a foam roller and some resistance bands that will be coming around any day now. That way I can get some work done at home when I don't want to go outside because well...winter is coming and it's freezing! That was my plan. And then do body weight stuff at home during the winter, simple enough. I've also packed a bag to go swimming today, just to move around some but not over work. I'm still not sure how much movement I can take without my body rejecting it's food so I'm taking it chill. And regarding food, I have some good news! I can't stand sugar anymore. Like at all! I had ice cream two weeks ago and I got 2 spoons in and then I had to run to the bathroom and it came straight back up. So no more of that junk. Fatty foods are also starting to loose interest to me, like fries and fried food. Urgh, I just...can't no more. I do however crave broccoli and orange juice. Uhm. Ohkey. Well I guess I'll just have to roll with it. ALso cottage cheese with berries is da shit right now. I think I'm getting a jock-baby.....*sighs and does an eye-roll* What's up besides that? Not much. Started a new job for a while, as a project manager. So that is exciting! I've also applied for a new job all together that is closer to home, right now I spend around 2-3 hours a day commuting and this other job would mean maximum 1 hour all in all. And that would be amazing. Lastly - I've ordered a new weekend bag/gym bag. Isn't she cute?!

No no, it's ok to ask! As it was I just went in to take a load of blood tests and such. I'm all good. Got a Little high blood preassure but I always get that when they take it in the hospital. I have that lovelly White coat syndrome...yay. But besides that I'm healthy. Yeah, I know that being obese is making this much more difficult, or at least can make it more difficult. My midwife has forbidden me from dieting but she wants me to eat healthy and move as much as I can. We have also gone over what I can and can't eat and most of the stuff I can have. The funny thing is that I have more or less completely lost interest in sweets. I crave salty black liquorice like crazy but that I'm not really allowed to eat too much of. The plan is to walk for an hour a day and then start swimming again on tuseday and thursday just to get something else in. Besides that I need to take care of my sleep and make sure I get enough. Thank you! Yeah, that is one thing I'm struggeling with to be honest. I feel like a faliure for getting pregnant at this weight and I'm worried I will kill the baby....I don't think I've ever said it out loud before but yeah. That is what I'm worried about. I've been feeling so damn sick in the mornings that I've been having a hard time eating all together but finally I might be able to start getting going again with a decent food-scheduel. Wrote down the whole weeks intake last night so now I feel more in control again.

I'm back! Or at least I hope so. The wedding in September was a smach, everything turned out amazing and I had the time of my life! So ok, the wedding came and went and a few weeks later I started feeling like shit honestly. Was always tiered, couldn't sleep properly and got more and more sensitive around certrain smells and stuff. And then came the puking. So yeah....turns out we didn't even spend a week as proper man and wife until shit got super real. XD I'm preggers! YAY! ... ... I think.... To be totally honest it scares the living crap out of me. How the hell am I supposed to take care of a baby when I can hardly take care of myself?! Ohwell, time will tell I guess. But to the POINT! I'm still obese. And I know that being obese is a whole other lvl of shitstorm to add to the normal crap of being preggers. So now that I have stopped puking my gutts out every morning I was planning on getting my shit together and getting my groove back on. I have an appointment with the midwife tomorrow and then we'll take all the measurements. Not fun. But it is what it is. But now I need to figure out what kind of stuff I can do when it comes to eating and moving around with a baby on board without messing everything up. I'm happy for all ideas and input!

Monday again! Holy crap the weeks just run past us right now, it's almost a little scary. Recap of last week: I did good regarding food. Had some 70% dark chocolate three times and some homemade banana icecream (banana, milk and vanilla extract) thursday and friday. But I've been struggling with getting my food in. Haven't been feeling hungry at all, I hope that passes. Made sure I got a few vitamins in during the morning though, made a smoothie with greek yoghurt, raspberries, banana, spinach, orange juice and a little bit of honey. It tastes amazing and gives me a boost when I don't feel like eating. Working out I also did last week, like two times. First I spent 5 hours ripping up roots from the flower beds in front of the house and then tuseday I did a PR at the gym. Ended up being sore in my shoulders and back all week, so after that it was mostly just walking and easier things. Since the hubby to be needed to go in for surgery on thursday I ended up taking care of him and not wanting to be away from home more then I needed to. And that's fine too sometimes. I did however plant my new rhododendron bushes on friday, I just hope they will survive now. Yeah, fun sidenot - 8th of May and we had a small snowstorm this morning. YAY! not....*rolls eyes* The weekend I spent together with my supportgroup (read: brides maids) planning the table layout for the wedding. We did that for a few hours and then we ended up talking about politics, the legal system in Sweden, childcare and so on and so forth for about six hours. Yeah, time just flew by and it was amazing. I needed it. Bad. Regarding the challenge I'm doing together with @Sometimes_gypsy I had my second weigh in this morning. Talk about me being nervous. And not having to be. I've lost 2,4 kg/5.2 lbs! In a week! I'm stunned. I guess I've found a good way to do things, my body seems to like it at least. Always a good thing! So that means I've lost 4,3 kg / 9.4 lbs in two weeks! Wtf is going on?! Starting weight: 143,8 kg / 317 lbs Current weight: 134,7 kg / 296.9 lbs Goal weight: 110 kg / 242 lbs Lost in total: 9,1 kg / 20 lbs

Not too agressive at all! I love it! Let's go bite som stuff!

Urgh, my head hurts. Too little sleep due to cats having some kind of race all night. In the bedroom. Under the bed. I'm glad they are having fun and playing with each other but OMG! Let me sleep! I'll be buying earplugs omw home this afternoon because I really need to get a decent nights rest. Things are, besides that, looking good. I'm in constant pain due to working my body hard (it's not a bad pain, just some light post workout pains) either at the gym or in the garden. The house we've bought has this amazing garden but the previous owners got too old so they didn't have the energy to take care of it as they should. And I totally get that. But it ends up working my ass instead, which I kinda love tbh. As an example: At the front of the house we had this old flower bed with some random bushes with thorns on them. Roses I thought and decided to work on them and see if I could get them to perk up again. It turned out that most of them were already dead and the other ones were so far gone with growing out of control that they had taken over what was left of the flower bed. And after a few tries of cutting it down, getting stung by the thorns, getting the branches stuck in my clothes and so on I gave up. Or more like it, I did a rage-quit. I cut them all down, to the ground, and then I dug them up. Roots and all. Well....most of the roots. When I was about a meter down I stopped. So that is what I did monday, it was a national holiday here. 5 hours I spent, shovel in hand and cutter, and dug up all those roots and tried to make the front lawn look better. I'm sore, I can tell you that much. On friday my new plats will arrive, 3 rhododendron bushes that will look amazing there. I would love to have hydrangea but I don't think they can handle the cold climate unfortunatly. I'll have to look into it I guess. So the garden needs a lot of love and I loooove giving it to it. I've planned on getting redcurrant and blackcurrant, a bush of each, and then a plum tree and a cherry tree. I love fruits. I'm also looking into getting a elder berry bush to put in the far corner of the garden. They smell lovely and the drink you can make from it is delicious! I'm also thinking about renovating the greenhouse so that I can do some fun stuff in there next spring. This spring and summer will all be about getting the garden back in shape, or at least into the shape I want it to. When it comes to working out I'm doing three times a week constantly now. I'm very very proud of myself. We upped the weight yesterday regarding my kettlebell workout, used to do 12 kg but we tried to do some squats and tricep moves yesterday with 16 kg. It was heavy as fuck but it worked. I'm proud of myself. I had thought about going to the gym this afternoon but after yesterdays session and this weekends garden-haul I don't think so. I'll take a little rest day today and go for a long walk instead when I get home. The weather is perfect for that anyways. And speaking of perfect! Me and @Sometimes_gypsy started a challenge! Over the following 60 days we will both do our best to drop 10 kg. It will be hard work but not impossible. I had my first weigh in yesterday and in the first week I was down 1,9 kg. Starting weight 139 kg (I had gained some again, let's not talk about that...). So that is awesome! I'll try to post more often also here. But it feel really good, we have this accountabilibudy system that means we text each other every night with a recap of the day. The goal is to have someone that you know will listen and personally I feel that if I have someone I need to tell about how my day went I want to do much better. So there is that. Life is good. Like really good.

WELCOME! I'm glad you've decidec to join us, we are a happy bunch of wierdos. Kick ass, chew bubblegum and be awesome bruh! Oh, and thank you for the adorable comment on the proposal, it went wuite well I belive. Oh yes, I know this. I'm still on the fence about getting them but I think I will with the next paycheck. The hubby to be doesn't think I'll use them if I get them so I'm not sure. I mean...he does know me quite well. I might put that money into a clip-card at the local gym instead, that way I can go there on sundays and get some stuff done. My problem is that I'm kinda lazy around the house and I like the action of moving myself to another location. Changing of mindsets and all that jazz. I'll have to look into the cost at the gym but maybe it is a good idea. I also need to get a card for the pool, friday mornings they open up at 6.30 and I could, theoretically, squeeze in an hour down there before work. The problem is I love my sleep way to much sometimes.... Hmm....I'll have to think about this.

BÄM! Done! Let's do this!

Fetacovered salmon! So yummy! Take 1/2 cup of fullfat greek yoghurt, 200 g of feta cheese, mush these together in a bowl, add some black pepper and a little salt, spread out on top of salmon filets and into the oven they go for about 20-30 min 390 Fahrenheit and enjoy with brown rice and steamed veggies! YUM! I'll be making it tonight. And it also freezes really nice Good luck!

So I didn't have a date with my trainer on tuseday, I had mixed up the days. And yesterday I was home with migraines and didn't do shit. I still feel like not doing shit but I need to work. Thankfully I can work from home so that is awesome. Cooked real food yesterday for the first time this week, the rest of the time I've been living out of frozen lunchboxes that I made earlier. Wich was amazing, not having to compromise good food for not giving a fuck. Yay that. So saturday tomorrow. We are heading into the city to have brunch with a friend and I'm going to take a look at some weights to bring home. I want a kettlebell and some dumbells to have around the house, that way I can still do workouts on weekends and during holidays even if I'm not going to the gym. I think it is going to me smashing.

We are so damned conditioned to thinking that eating less will make us lose more it's scary. I'm the exact same way. It takes some serious willpower to NOT starve myself when I see a hippo in the mirror. The interesting thing is that we tend to cut out calories when trying to wake our body up, why do we never add more? I mean...it's just as big of a wakeup call for us as cutting. A friend of mine was always super strict with her intake, was almost never over 1000 kcal per day and working out....HARD! But she never lost weight. Almost instantly when she started eating more she lost weight. Magic I tell you! But it is also important to note that she didn't just go and shove a candybar in her face extra per day but she had normal good food. And it was a challenge. But it worked. So hang in there Gypsy! I'm rooting for you. ^^

Adrianne sighs and sits down at the end of the corridor and stretches out her legs. Man those torches was high up! But now they are all lit and she can almost see her hand when she holds it up in front of her face. Progress, right? She decides to catch her breath a bit and wait for anyone else that might be coming down another corridor. LE DONE! 250 calf raises finished, these were fun!

I honestly think this is your problem. 1200 kcal a day? When you are working out again?! I think you are putting your body in starvation mode. Didn't your trainer at the gym tell you to eat at least 1700 kcal per day? Don't starve yourself. I get that you want to eat low carb but you can't cut out all the nutrition that your body needs. And we bigger ladies and lads need more energy to keep us going. And even more so when we work out hard and push yourselves. Try to stick to the number your coach gave you for a while, a few weeks at least, and then see what happens.