Inktober #2 Discover   I sailed cross oceans, left sister and brother. Experienced the world in all of its color from Pole to Pole, and when at last, was home again - Realized it was myself I had discovered.

I love all the questions drabbles raise - what is the drawing? Why is she rushing before her mother shows up? Why is she burying her drawing? What is happening?!?!?   A seasoned traveler, heading out on his next trip, compactly making the journey with just a backpack to avoid the luggage lines. Does not appear either excited or trepidatious. Is he that even-keeled about his destination, or just the process of getting there?   I think in some ways drabbles are easier because you just have to ask the questions, not answer them. But it's always nice when one grabs you and grows into something bigger.   I love the way the silver pops off the page, almost like it's glowing.

That sounds really awesome.       

Really good to see you Bean

I love you Harriet. Sending solidarity, support, cuddles and lots of love xx

Sorry that was a caregivers lament,  and that daily battle has me beaten down, however I am starting to talk to someone next week.         

TUESDAY: A Busy Bee Day Oof, I over-booked myself and I might have made a questionable choice by doing that. Yesterday I was so overstimulated by the time that I got home for real I couldn't do much of anything. Had to skip one of my classes at the Y so that I could really just focus on getting my head and senses back together. But, I filled the day with wonderful things so I'm happy that I did it.    GOAL # 1: HYDRATE OR DIE-DRATE WEEK 2: 64 ounces of water a day. 16 of those ounces have to be raw water. I gotta give my poor kidneys a dang break and quit drinking what is the equivalent of sugar-free KoolAid.  We... did not succeed on Tuesday. After giving the Big Boy Bottle a second try, it was great for classes, but not so great for reminding me how much water I drank, so we will be swapping back to the 16oz bottle. Still insulated and nice, but it's a lot easier to remember how much I've had. 4 bottles a day isn't hard to remember.   GOAL # 2: ALONE TIME AT THE GYM WEEK 2:  Go to the YMCA 2x this week to exercise without a class. Thirty minutes minimum, but brownie points if I do more.  Another day that I didn't do it alone... because, once again, I went with a friend to go do water aerobics! I don't normally do the Tuesday morning class, and I grabbed the heavy weights, which was a total mistake. We did arm exercises and I was NOT PREPARED FOR HOW HARD THAT WAS. She killed me. I was absolutely destroyed. Also, I found out my friend Carol (who I went to class with) is also autistic! Which we think is why we get along so well!   GOAL # 3: HOOKAH IS FOR FUNSIES, NOT ANXIETY WEEK 2: Rethink the routine: Really try and figure out why the Hell I'm smoking at the times I'm smoking. Am I tired? Am I bored? Am I hungry? Write down those feelings and look at them later. There might be a pattern. The pattern is definitely set. It's a combination of being bored, being on a transition time, and wanting to shove food in my face. I did not smoke past midnight (which was good, continue building on that!) and since I have SNAP funds I'm going to buy some gum today and some stuff to make little protein pack snacks to make sure I don't reach for the tobacco when instead my body is craving nutrients.    AND NOW... Inktober! Yesterday was the first day of Inktober and I present to you, my contribution to Inktober Day 1: Backpack. I took a photo of the picture I drew and then uploaded it to Instagram... and then took a screenshot of it and uploaded it here. I feel so old. LOL!   TOTAL WINS: 2/3

I 100% agree with this. We don't know people's struggles or dietary needs.    For me, I struggle with binge eating and eating too much sugar, to the detriment of my health, so I've enlisted the help of my room mate to help keep me accountable. They're kind of like my sponsor, LOL! But I'm working on eating with no judgment towards myself and remembering that food has no moral value. 

So, I decided that for the little stuff I would be putting it all on my grey sketchpad and 2 per page. Unfortunately, that means you guys are getting pictures of my sketchbook instead of scans - which is NBD.  The picture is actually much smaller than this but I have no sense of scale, LOL!   DAY 01: Backpack Ink, white gel pen, silver gel pen Grey sketch paper

Dad went home today. Hopefully I can get over this illness, recover, and make a new plan. Might take a few days off for non-improvement, though. Need to reflect on what it means to get better now I'm coming to the end of my belief in healthy lifestyle changes.