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About Heidi

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  • Birthday 04/09/1969


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    Heidi: Endings

    Especially in Quakerism, this is true. The governing document for Yearly Meetings is the published Faith and Practice, and apparently this issue is exactly what keeps the latest draft (2012, I think?) from being accepted. This unwillingness to see beyond the history of our roots seems petulant to me. It's like people who say the United States is a Christian nation simply because of John Winthrop et al. No doctrine, no Creed. Ergo . . . We are marked by seeking continuous revelation. The Faith community suffers from a lack of diversity (as many do, especially in the United States). The funny part is that early Quakers were persecuted because if their refusal to state creeds or to acknowledge one tradition over another (we also irritated the status quo by refusing to participate in conventions of social hierarchy, such as tipping a hat to one's better, since Quakers hold that everyone is equal, even children). Will do! I'm happily surprised there is any interest. Very cool! Keep asking! Out if curiosity, who is the other one?
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    Heidi: Endings

    FYI my beef is with having any doctrine beyond honoring the light within as divine. This is the core of Quakerism, as I see it, and what attracts me so profoundly. To lose the non-doctrinal, acredenous foundation is to simply be a quiet clique, and while silence is great, it is not a Faith.
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    Heidi: Endings

    The question for me is one of the current state of the organization.: Does it claim to be Christian? If so, it's not for me. Frankly, I think it's an obvious no: since there is no doctrine, there is no required belief in Jesus as the Messiah. While I'm happy to honor the Christian history, of the tradition and my own personally, I'm incensed at the notion that certain 'values' are themselves Christian (such as the Testimonies of Quakers). It seems the height of colonization. And yes, this is an ongoing and heated debate at the leadership level. I might end up having to go to a few Yearly Meetings to discern what the current leadership is thinking. To be at odds on such a basic tenet is leaving me adrift in the sense of Community. And yes, the local leadership was wrong. It's not up to me to explain, but since they keep asking me to come back, a Meeting is in order to understand what the situation is. White people can be so dense. The only answer is to live them and speak the truth to power.
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    Heidi: Endings

    Also, completely random, because the Universe isn't quite done with my Spiritual Self yet: I'm having a small crisis of faith. I was looking into seminary for Quakers -- a weird concept, I grant you, but hear me out. I had always been under the impression that Quakers are their own distinct faith tradition, and not a sect of (Protestant) Christianity. It turns out I'm wrong? But maybe they are wrong, and I actually think this is the case? I'm hesitant to write more detail. Ask me anything.
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    Wow, how is it Thursday already? I took the contract and it turned out to be a huge mess -- lots of packing (as expected), but tons of moving the boxes too, which was not. On Tuesday I came home so tired I thought I would cry -- I ran a bath but fell asleep before I got in it. Crashed by 630 and then wine up at 1 to take the dog out, and promptly fell back to sleep until 630 in the morning. Yesterday I nearly didn't go back. I'm glad I did, because the integrity hit would have haunted me, but the team lead is possibly actually insane -- the pace she sets is punishing. John and I are working together, and having company on this forced march is the only thing that keeps me sane ish. When he said he was finishing out the week, I knew I couldn't abandon him. Each day has been easier emotionally, and I think my core workout is good for the coming month or more. I've decided to take some of the proceeds from the week and enroll in Tinker Mountain Writer's workshop. I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up, but I know that it does NOT involve moving boxes. The situation with the Roanoke Friends Meeting is coming to a head, and there's a big Zoom Conference coming up on Tuesday evening. I expect it to be emotional for me, as I'll have to inhabit the isolation that the leadership enacted, but it's worth it to clarify that the reason I'm not coming back or participating with that Meeting is because they actively refused to protect my details from a known abuser. This is not a preference on my part; it is an exclusion on theirs. Hopefully this will put an end to it emotionally. I hope you all are well, dear Nerds. Yesterday I made ground beef and quinoa on auto pilot and Im glad I have dinner. I am almost out of bread and should make another batch, but I'm skeptical about my ability to stay awake. ❣️
  6. "All the poetry and the trunk you kept your life in I only know they'll never make you stay." It's in the rotation, too.
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    Heidi: Endings

    Breakfast of Champions
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    Heidi: Endings

    Last night a friend and I went to another friends house and the four of us celebrated my graduation (from a safe distance, of course) outside in the garden, the first day without rain in a week. Dinner was excellent, and it was nice to have a real conversation. There was cake and a fire, too, though it took some real work with the dampness. There were stories. Conversation being what it is, a random comment led to a bit of temp work -- I start helping pack dorm rooms at Duke next week for a bit. The Universe loves me and wants me to be happy. ❣️
  9. O yes. I wore this album out when it was released. There may have been dancing at midnight in a favorite cemetery; I can neither confirm nor deny. 😎 This still makes it into the rotation on a regular basis:
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    Heidi: Endings

    The "sponge" is a first step (not all bread makers do it, but I find it enhances the Tang of Sourdough and lets the wild yeast really get a foothold) where the starter is mixed with most of the flour and all of the water and then left to rest for a few hours.
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    Since I used to grind my flour, and before that bought it in 25 or 50 pound quantities, I never really understood how quickly I can go through a five pound bag. The flour I found yesterday is half gone. I can get some more, but I'm definitely seeing a need to go on a road trip for the mill and wheat berries. Getting ready to visit with Vivian this morning while the sponge percolates.
  12. I started out as a Ranger, for I was indeed doing ALL THE THINGS. Now I'm a Druid where I'm practicing the NotDoing. Not sure which dude that makes me. 🙂